Oh man I am so depressed, I screwed up my maths exam. Dead for sure

Disclaimer: Gakuen Alice isn't mine. And so is the song, the lyrics are from First Love, by Utada Hikaru [. Go listen to it, its fantastic.

Chapter 7

Eternally…

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Mikan clung desperately onto Natsume's back, fear and joy rushed over her face like a passing wind. He was speeding like a racing car even with Mikan on his back. The dark night was illuminated by the moon like a leading beacon. She enjoyed the wind on her face, it felt so refreshing. She hadn't had a good night's sleep after their emotions surfaced. She didn't know how long she's left, how long she would be able to see his face light up in amusement whenever she does anything silly.

"Would someone please charge this maniac for speeding, please?" Mikan muttered to herself as she tightened the grasp around his neck.

"Hey you're suffocating the maniac here," Natsume cringed as his paced slowed down.

"Oh," Mikan loosened her hold and laid her head on his shoulder, humming a sweet melody. She gazed up in the night sky twisting her head just a little to get Natsume's hair out of her face. The little stars twinkled around the full moon, blinking and shimmering.

When you leave this world, you will join your loved ones in the sky, where they have already became stars, watching over you.

"I want to be there," Mikan sighed, pointing at the empty patch of sky where no stars gathered, away from the moon.

"Why there?" Natsume laughed quietly as he gazed up too, at the night sky.

"It's so dark there, I want to light it up with my faint shimmering when I become a star, even if I am only a tiny one. You'll be able to spot me easily too. I stand out above the rest." She grinned.

"Stand away you mean?" Natsume teased.

She smiled, sighed and let her fatigue take over her. She wasn't asleep though, silently humming the melody over and over again. Her tinkling voice filled the air even though it was nothing more than a mere whisper. Natsume leaned against her hair, taking in her scent as he picked up speed again. The hill came in sight as he tapped her leg.

"We're almost there, sleepyhead." Natsume called.

"I'm not asleep Natsume, just tired." Her eyes remained shut, her dark rings contrasting with her pale skin. He had noticed, but said nothing.

It was autumn now, not long till winter maybe a month or two. Sakura trees nucleated on the hill, the light pink swaying gracefully in the wind as they fell lightly to the ground. Natsume set her down at their usual spot and lay beside her. Mikan's palms were gently pressing on the grass, eyelashes pretty and long, lips pale pink, looking so delicate but still beautiful.

The breeze picked up, the wind picking up speed. The trees rustled, the wind tugging ever so lightly at the pink and white. Mikan lids lifted bit by bit, listening to the wind, blowing, playing with her hair. It was still under her cap before dark, before she met Natsume; she had to keep up her act for everyone else. Her hair flew slightly in the wind, tickling Natsume's face. He reached for her hair and twirled it around his finger, gazing up at the stars and moon.

"Mikan, look," Natsume whispered, not wanting to spoil the mood with sudden burst of talk.

Mikan shifted her attention away from his face and to the surroundings, eyes widening with awe. The wind had the sakura petals with it, thousands and thousands of them falling down to earth.

She stood up shakily, smiled pleasantly as Natsume rose beside her. She tried to dance in the descending petals, only to be restricted by her ankle, as she sank down. Natsume caught her before she touched the ground and lifted her up. Mikan's head lay on his arm as he twirled her about in the wondrous beauty. Slowing to a dance, Mikan's lips parted to disclose the melodious voice she hid within her, accompanying by the alice she had stolen, the most amazing voice ever filled the air.

Saigou no kisu wa
tabako no flavor ga shita
nigakute setsunai kaori
Ashita no imagoro ni wa
Anata wa doko ni iru n darou
Dare wo omotteru n darou
You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka dareka to mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love song
Atarashi uta utaeru made
Tachidomaru jikan ga
Ugokidasou to shiteru
Wasuretakunai koto bakari
Ashita no imagoro ni wa
Watashi wa kitto naiteru
Anata wo omotteru n darou
You will always be inside my heart
Itsumo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made
You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka dareka to mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Mada kanashii love song
Now & forever...

Mikan's feet were on Natsume's as he led the slow dance. They stopped when the song ended as Mikan hugged him tightly, refusing to let go for a long moment.

Mikan stepped away from Natsume and thought deeply, apologising in her head.

"Thanks, this was the favourite night I had in more then a decade." Mikan smiled, though her eyes still held pain.

He held her hand and laid a small kiss on it, and bowed slightly.

"I've… got something to tell you Natsume." Mikan hesitated.

"I… don't really, like you, Natsume. It was all a lie from the start," Mikan said calmly, observing the changes in his expression. It was cold, shocked, he was speechless.

"Then… all the things th-" He finally managed to find his tongue.

"It was all a lie. Didn't you realise that you are the only alice in the town except for my parents and me? And what's within you is what I always wanted. The strength of the fire! My parents can hate me all they want, but they cannot deny the power that I have, which will boost the Sakura empire, help it rise up the ladder to become the most powerful Alice family."

Mikan's parents did want her to help no matter how much they detested her, they could get rid of her anytime later when the the couple was in control. Fire was the element, accompanying air, water and ice to reign the world that humans never knew of. The dark secrets behind many strong Alice families were not to be seen or mentioned. The Hyuugas had long retired from the fight when Kino Hyuuga was shamed and humiliated when he lost his piece of land to the Misame family. Kino Hyuuga was Natsume's great-grandfather, 3 generations before him. Many had wanted to retrieve their foothold from the fight, trying hard to escape, however some like the Sakuras just wouldn't give up the temptation for power, wealth and everything. Mikan had to deal from young the troubles, problems from the endless fight. She wanted to escape just like many did, but her parents were there exerting pressure every single day. She was too young to retaliate then.

"How's that? Natsume- You're such a joke." Mikan snickered, unwilling, but not showing.

"You- Get out of my sight! Get away from me!" Natsume growled, voice dangerously low, and hurt.

Mikan flinched at his words, trying to fend herself from the unpleasant memories that bugged her so much.

She gave a smug smirk, her delicate features seemed too cunning, evil, to be beautiful in his eyes anymore.

He clenched his fist and hot red flames flew towards Mikan. Mikan hopped into the air and levitated herself, speeding back to town. She could hear his anger building in him. He was mad at himself, for being so stupid, to fall for one that never really did like him. He shouted in anger and agony, his heart tearing itself apart.

She never did like me, she'd never.

Mikan disappeared in an instant, her hair flying in all directions. Moisture touched her eyes, one tin drop escaping her eyes landing on the bottom of the hill.

I'm so sorry

You're the first one I had ever fallen for, and you'll be the last

This is the best for you, hate me. Hate me please.

I'm so sorry, sorry. This will forever be etched in my mind, even if I leave. I will be a star, a shining one, with all the memories you left me with. The love that I had experienced all this days, I really… This will be the end

And she was gone.

Ok that's all, I think this isn't very good. Just that listening to the music and reading the last part makes me want to cry. Weird, but nvm D: