I'M SICK OF DISCLAIMERS!1!!

Heh, I actually yelled that out while I wrote it.

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Lavi walked along the trodden path towards the primary school to retrieve his bike from the bushes there. He felt kind of weird. Yesterday, after talking to the distressed Allen on the phone, he'd hopped on his bike and ridden across to town and searching the area around all the payphones he knew of. The school, fortunately, had been the second choice, and Lavi shuddered to think what would have happened had he arrived any later.

He located the bushes, dragged his bike out, climbed onto the seat and began riding back to town, towards Allen's house. The hospital had admitted Allen into the psychiatric ward, and Lavi had offered to pick up some things for him. He'd left the boy talking to his sobbing mother on the phone, with him trying to calm her down. Lavi didn't want to leave Allen; he was too scared of what could happen while he was gone. But the nurses were keeping him under surveillance so there was no reason he couldn't go out for about an hour.

He came to Allen's house, took out the key the younger boy had given him, unlocked the door and headed towards his room. He was still shaken up from yesterday, and as he passed through the doors, he remembered the first time he'd come here.

He'd been about nine, and Allen had been eight. It was before Allen's parents had started going overseas for research, so his mum and dad had greeted him at the door, with Allen running up behind them, a big smile on his face. To think Allen would have never smiled again...

Lavi shook his head, trying to clear the thoughts. He came to Allen's room, and found his school bag at the door. He took it, went to the wardrobe and started piling clothes into the bag. He paused as he came to a shirt with an anime logo on it. It was a shirt Allen had bought when they'd gone to an anime convention. They'd had such a great time there.

After finishing packing two or three changes of clothes, Lavi shouldered the bag and left, locking the house behind him.

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'I got your stuff.' Lavi sat down, putting the bag under the bed as he did. Allen smiled. He was sitting cross-legged on the bed, reading a book. There was an empty food tray on the table.

'You had breakfast?'

'Yup,' Allen nodded shyly, 'Stuff was terrible...'

There was an awkward silence. Lavi sighed. He had no idea how to talk to Allen now that... THAT had happened.

'I- I talked to the police while you were gone...' Allen scratched his shoulder nervously, 'Gave them a description and stuff.'

'Good,' Lavi nodded. Another silence.

'Lavi...' Allen sighed heavily, 'You don't have to act all nervous around me. I'm not made of glass. If you want to say something to me, you can. I won't get upset.'

'I dunno...' Lavi stared at his hands in his lap, 'I'm just freaked out... I mean, you had to go through all that by yourself. You could have told me.'

'I know I could have...' Allen nodded sadly, 'But I wasn't really... I thought if I told you, you wouldn't like me anymore.'

'What?!'

'I know it sounds silly, but... Come on, you said it yourself! You're freaked out and you aren't really sure how to act around me. I didn't want to trouble you, I thought I could handle it, but obviously I can't... I was afraid you'd hate me and I was afraid you'd be disgusted by me.

'Well I don't,' Lavi smiled, 'and I'm not. So don't worry...'

'Kay...'

'Um,' Lavi looked at him sheepishly, 'you, um... You don't want to die right now do you?'

'... No,' Allen shook his head after a bit of thought, 'I just kind of feel... Well, the doctors and psychiatrists say I have depression so I guess that's what I feel... But I feel a bit better now.'

'Hm... Allen?'

'Yes?'

'Is it alright if I give you a hug?'

Allen smiled and nodded. Lavi got onto the bed and pulled him into a tight but gentle embrace. Allen tensed slightly at his touch, but eventually relaxed a bit. Hugging Lavi, he felt safe and warm, and never wanted to let go. But, there was one thing that bothered him as Lavi pulled away and went back to his seat.

'Lavi, last night I told you I was in love with you.'

'I know.' Lavi suddenly went stiff.

'But you haven't said anything. Are you ok with that?'

'Yes,' Lavi sighed.

Allen raised his eyebrow. Lavi was acting off.

'So... Is that a rejection?'

'I said I'm ok with it.'

'That's not what I'm asking!'

'Look,' Lavi fisted his hands in his lap, not looking up, 'please don't say you're in love with me.'

'So then you're not ok with it?' Allen blinked, confused.

'I am, but if you keep talking about it i might get hopeful!'

'Hopeful about what?'

'THAT YOU'RE IN LOVE WITH ME!'

'Wha-what? But I just said I was, and why would you be hopeful?'

'Because I've loved you for ages,' Lavi said flatly, 'But I you only think you're in love with me because I helped you at the school.'

'What? No! Lavi, I might be really confused and depressed right now but that doesn't mean I'm confusing my emotions! I'm not an emotional wreck!'

'I never said that! I'm only saying you're confusing your feelings, and that once you're a bit better you'll lose those feelings for me!'

'That's not true! I-'

Allen wanted to go on, but before he could, the door opened and a nurse came in, grabbed the back of Lavi's shirt and proceeded to drag him out, scolding him for upsetting the patient.

Allen sighed as the door shut again, and the nurse came back in to check he was alright. He assured her he was, and then laid down on the bed as she left. Allen had only ever fought with Lavi once or twice, but the experience always left him upset.

Sighing heavily, he rolled onto his side. He felt kind of comforted; however, that Lavi had just admitted he loved him. But after that, and all that Allen had done over the last few days, He could see why Lavi didn't believe his feelings. But he was sure he loved Lavi, he'd been sure for years, and that hadn't changed in the least.

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'Hello?'

'Yu, it's Lavi.'

'Oh great, what now?'

'Well, things with Allen haven't been going so well.'

'Yeah what happened?'

'Um, he tried to kill himself.'

'... You're kidding me!'

'I'm not.'

'Shit!'

'I know.'

'Well why'd he do that?' Kanda urged Lavi to go on.

'Um, well a certain thing happened and that made him depressed. And then he told me that he loved me and I thought he was just confused and then he yelled at him and told him that I loved him but didn't want his fake love and then he got really upset and yelled at me and now I have no idea what to do and I think he hates me so please help!'

'...What?'

'Never mind...'

Lavi finished talking to Kanda and put down the phone. He sighed. He had no Idea what to do. He couldn't go back to the hospital, since visiting hours were over, and he couldn't call Allen, since phones weren't allowed. He felt hopeless.

But then, the phone rang, and he picked it up.

'Hello? Bookman res-'

'Lavi!'

Lavi blinked.

'Allen? Why are you on a phone?'

'Your mobile fell out of your pocket and I'm using it. Listen... Please believe me when I say I love you.'

'Oh Allen...' Lavi sighed, running his fingers through his hair stressfully, 'Please...'

'Shut up please. I've loved you since we were kids, but I had to keep it a secret because I thought if you found out you wouldn't want to be my friend! So just... Beleive me.'

Lavi was speechless. He stood, holding the phone, his mouth open slightly.

'Lavi?'

'Y-Yeah, I'm here... Um... Are you sure?'

'Yes.'

'Ok... Well, I guess I'll see you tomorrow during visiting hours.'

'Is that an acceptance?"

'Obviously.'

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Ok, that's the official end of the story, but I'm gonna do an epilogue and maybe an omake in a week or two after I get back.

Ok, um... Basically, my younger sister is in hospital in the city,and since my mum needs to stay with her I have to live at my dads place in Sydney, but mum and i are going home to the country today for a little while and we don't have a phone connection out there so no internet. I'll be back in a week or two though so till then everything is on hiatus! See you guys later!

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