I do not own anything Twilight...gosh, don't I wish!!

BPOV

I looked at the back of Edward's head as we ran through the woods in the opposite direction of the incident earlier that day. Edwards movements were so graceful and I idly wondered if I looked the same now. I didn't realize where Edward was taking me until we were already there. We came in from a completely different direction than I was used to, so I gasped as we broke the tree line into our meadow. It had been years since I'd set foot on this sacred place. Sacred due to the memories it had of mine and Edward's early love for each other.

Edward slowed and stopped in the middle of the field. As it was September, there were no wild flowers in bloom, but the grass was lush and unbelievably green. I stayed in the shadow's and waited. I could only imagine that this was the result of Jacob and the horrible things he showed Edward when we were together.

"Bella, you slept with him?" he said bluntly. I could hear that he was working very hard to keep his voice steady and smooth.

"You said yourself Edward, you hoped I would be happy. I tried. It didn't work, there was only you."

As truthful as this was, I knew for some reason it wasn't appeasing him, and I could feel the dull anger building up. I had a feeling this wasn't going to end well.

"No, there wasn't only me. There was Jacob. After I left, I was a shadow of a man. I couldn't think, I couldn't function without wanting to break down every moment. But you ran off to Jacob, and gave yourself to him."

"Edward, that isn't fair, and you know it. After all, you left me, without a single word, you cannot possibly blame me for anything that happened after you walked out of my life!" The fury was starting to build now. "And if you don't think I suffered while you were gone, don't forget how you found me. THAT was because you left."

I could see that hit a mark, and Edward winced. But I could also see his resolve that something was askew.

"Yeah, perhaps because you couldn't make it work with the dog. I had left and then the dog left, so you felt you had no other options. I can't believe you gave yourself to him."

With my anger, my shield burst out of me, and encompassed us both. Though they weren't as intense as they had been when I was human, in my mind I tried to relive every moment that Edward was gone. If he doubted my pain, I would have to show him just what his leaving did to me.

EPOV

I knew my anger and feeling of betrayal was completely irrational. I had left her after all, but no matter what, I always envisioned us being the other's "first" and my heart was broken now because that would never be. Like I said, completely irrational.

Without warning, her shield must have surrounded me, as I was mentally assaulted with pictures of life after I had left. Going to my house to find it empty, being found there at 4 in the morning in the pouring rain, the gut wrenching pain at realizing we were truly gone, crying every day and every night for months straight, night terrors that never seemed to end, how it felt to be around Jake in the first months after I'd gone, how she had used danger to force a hallucination of me, the night she gave herself to Jacob and the amount of tears she cried after because it wasn't me, the 4 month stay in the state mental hospital, coming home and finding Charlie wanted her out of the house, moving out and into the dingy apartment where I had found her, Jacob finally turning his back on her, the bitter things he'd said, the multiple times she went to the Cullen house and slept on the porch crying herself to sleep, her dark celebration of the day I left each year, all of it leading up to her attempted suicide. Through out the whole experience, I felt her pain, and I recognized it oh so well. I also saw the absolute emptiness within her, I felt the gaping hole in her chest, I experienced the relief she felt when she thought she would be e dead soon. The desperate longing, the hatred of herself for not being enough, the loathing of her very essence..I couldn't stand it!

I fell to my knees. She stayed perfectly still, her eyes closed, continuing to flood me with these awful memories.

"Stop," I gasped, "Please, Bella, please stop." The chanting went on in my head, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die. It took all the energy I could must to run over to her and shake her. "BELLA, STOP!"

And it was gone. She opened her scarlet eyes, they were deep and mournful. I stared into them for a long time. She stared right back. After several minutes she said simply, "Do you see?"

"Yes. I am so sorry." I whispered to her. "I knew you were sad, Alice couldn't hide the visions of your depression, but I didn't know how bad it had gotten for you."

"But wasn't it the same for you?" She asked, her voice shaky and uncertain.

"Oh yes, my love, it was. It was." I murmured into her hair. She smelled so good, so sweet. She smelled like honeysuckle and freesia.

"Than you cannot hold my attempt to make the pain go away against me Edward. It's not fair." she sobbed, and my heart broke again for her pain.

"You are right, I cannot apologize enough for my behavior. I am truly ashamed of myself, more than I already was."

"Why do you keep saying that, that you are regretful, that you are sorry, you are ashamed. Do you wish you had not turned me? Do you wish that I had died, is that what you are regretting. I heard, clear as anyone, how you told Sam you would have done ANYTHING else to save me, but this was the only option. Do you really love me Edward, or was my first suspicion of guilt more accurate that even you realize." she cried out. "Tell me the truth Edward, I can handle it."

"I do not regret that you are here with me Bella. It gives me more joy than you may possibly ever know. I am ashamed that I wasn't able to save your human life. I will never forgive myself for taking that life away from you. Never ever."

"Edward, we have been through this before. You GAVE me life by making me like you. Trust me, what I had before wasn't a life. It was a sad echo of a life." She took my hands and put them on the curve of her hip. "This Edward, this is real. I am here, and so are you. We can be like this always, we will never die. It was what I always DREAMED about, and you have given me this dream Edward."

"Yes," I said softly. "Forever." I pulled her close to my body. "I am sorry I misbehaved about Jacob. I understand now, completely what you were trying to do. I hold no ill will about that anymore."

"Good, because the entire time, all I could think about was how much, how I would give anything, my soul, my blood, my life, for it to be you and not him. God how I wanted it to be you. I cried so much after he left, so mad that I wasn't strong enough to resist him, that I was weak enough to believe that it may have made me happy. But Jake is a poor woman's Edward. He could never even stand in your shadow."

She looked up at me then, her eyes hooded and a slow smile breaking across her face. I couldn't resist myself from crashing my lips to hers. She smelt so amazing and her lips against mine felt like home. She was right. This was perfect, this is where we belonged, forever.

I ran my tongue along her succulent bottom lip and she opened her mouth to mine, her tongue greeting mine like a lover. We had never kissed like this when she was human, I was so afraid of nicking the inside of her mouth with my razor sharp teeth, then there would have been no stopping the venom from getting into her system. I loved kissing her like this.

I moved my had to the base of her neck, entwining my fingers into the chestnut locks of her luscious hair. I tried to pull her closer to me, and she eagerly complied. She whimpered when I pulled from her lips but kept them on her body, moving them down her neck, nipping her playfully as I went. I reached her shoulder and gave her a bit of a stronger bite. I heard her growl, deep within her chest. It was an amazing sound, I'd never heard anything like it before. It sounded like lust.

A new scent hit me then. It was Bella, but MUCH stronger. I suddenly realized it was her arousal to the marathon of kissing we'd been doing. I pulled back and looked into her eyes.

"Do you want to stop Bella? I don't ever want to do something you don't want to do. You just tell me what your limits are and..."

"Edward," she laughed, "Shut up and kiss me!"

BPOV

Edwards hands felt so wonderful, one around my waist, the other in my hair, securing me to him. But I wanted more. I maneuvered on of Edwards hands around to the front of my body, and slowly slid it up to my breast. He pulled back, looking me deep in the eyes.

"I want to pick up, where we left off before the wolves rudely interrupted us Edward. I want to know you, my future husband. I want to know ALL of you." I said, in the most seductive voice I could muster.

His eyes grew larger in surprise, but then he attacked my lips with more fervor than before.

What a change this was from the old Bella. I don't think I would have ever attempted this with Edward before, but we were on even playing fields now. In fact, I giggled mentally, I could technically hold him down and have my way with him. HA! What a change that would be! But I was suddenly distracted as I felt Edward sliding the straps to my sundress off my shoulders.

I let the dress slither down my body to the ground, and stepped out of it, into Edwards waiting embrace. I could feel his hands exploring every inch of my body that was exposed. Since I was in a midnight blue lace bra and thong, there was a lot of skin for him to explore. But I wanted so much more!

I slowly started unbuttoning Edwards shirt, taking great effort not to rip it from his body. But the burning desire got the best of me, and the last few buttons went flying.

Edward chuckled against the skin of my neck. "Eager, are we?"

"You have no idea!" I said softly.

"Hmmmm." he hummed against my skin, stirring something deep within my center. "Oh, but I do Bella. I have waited, a very long time for you, my darling future wife."

At vampire speed, his pants were on the ground and I realized that Edward, didn't wear underwear. My breath caught in my throat, at the sight of Edward. He was a gracious plenty and I suddenly realized I'd never seen any man completely naked before.

I reached my hand out and tentatively wrapped my fingers around him. Edward shuttered at my touch, his eyes rolling back into his head. He was beautiful, and his manhood was no exception. He pulled me to him quite suddenly, and I could feel him hard, and ready against my stomach. My core, simply ached for him. His lips were anxious, desperate on my own now. His hands removing the last bit of cloth that separated us from being completely one with each other.

As my I stepped out of my panties, Edward stood back and admired me. I waited to feel the warm blush from his appraising gaze, but it never came. He swooped me up into his arms and slowly laid me down in the soft grass. His eyes were burning with desire, and my body felt the same. How long had I dreamed about this moment.

Edward hovered above my body, teasing me by keeping our bodies from touching. He would lower his head, and nip my skin, everywhere but where I REALLY wanted him to be. I moaned in frustration. I could feel him smile against my shoulder right before he bit me again. This time I moaned from pleasure.

I reached up and ran my fingers down his washboard stomach. Each muscle was perfectly sculpted. I moved my hands to his back and tried to pull his body to mine, but he resisted. I knew I was stronger, and I could force him down if I really wanted to, but decided to let him have his way with me.

"Edward, stop teasing me." I whined.

"I am just worshipping you, as the goddess you are, Bella."

Suddenly I felt his mouth on my right breast. His mouth was circling around my nipple without actually touching it. I could almost feel the wetness between my thighs start to drip at this torturous teasing. Just when I was felt like I was bouncing up and down with anticipation, I felt his velvet lips take my hard nipple into his mouth. I arched my back, giving him better access to me.

His hand started to message my other breast, rolling my pebbled nipple between his thumb and his forefinger. His touch, his tongue were sending electric currents of pleasure right to my wet center. As I arched my back up, Edward slipped one of his arms behind my back, pulling me closer to him. I started moaning, almost uncontrollably as he relentlessly worked on my nipples, effectively driving me crazy.

His mouth started to move then, sliding down my body, both his hands sliding down my body as well. He was licking and kissing my tummy, then my hips, then my thighs, my knees, my calves, my ankles, then he moved back up again, until his mouth was kissing my inner thighs. Edward inhaled, deeply.

"You smell, amazing Bella. My mouth is watering, just imaging your taste, I just can't resist it any longer."

I cried out as I felt his wide, flat tongue licking my wet folds. "Oh God Bella!" Edward cried, and he went in again.

His tongue was wet, dripping with venom and felt like satin against my most sensitive of areas. Edward had lifted up my bottom getting a handful of ass cheek in each hand, and dived into me with his tongue. I could feel his speed increasing, his tongue rhythmically moving up and down against my sensitive bundle of nerves.

"Oh, God Edward, please, please don't stop!" I mumbled almost incoherently. I twisted my hands into his hair, pulling his head, and his delicious tongue closer and deeper into me.

Out of nowhere he slipped a finger into me. I cried out! I hadn't even felt his hand leave my ass. His long finger pumped in and out of me, while his tongue worked his magic on my clit. I could feel the coil of pleasure building up, getting ready to snap. Edward added a second finger and started to suck on my clit. The result was instantaneous!

"Edward!" I screamed as waves of pleasure crashed over my body! I could feel him climbing back up my body as he made his way up to my mouth and the waves continued to crash. I noticed he hadn't quite removed his hand from my center, but still played lightly with my clit as he kissed his way to me.

I felt the weight of his body on me, and as his lips crashed down onto mine, I felt his fingers leave and he was poised at my entrance. He pulled his head away from me and stared down into my eyes. I was overwhelmed with the love of the god hovering above me.

"I dreamed of this, Bella." Edward slid into me then, painfully, in a good way, slowly.

I cried out. "Oh god Edward!" As he filled me all the way.

Once he had pushed himself all the way into my wet and aching center he whispered into my ear "This is how it is supposed to be Bella." He pulled out and pushed himself all the way in again "we are one." Again he dragged himself out and pushed into me, harder this time, "No one can separate us, you are mine." His speed was picking up now." You are mine, and I am yours."

I wrapped my legs around his body, and he picked me up, until we were in a sitting position, with Edward on his knees. He never broke his rhythm. It suddenly occurred to me to throw my shield around us both. As soon as I did, we both shuddered as the intensity of the moment, the feelings and the pleasure increased tenfold. I heard him, his thoughts intoxicated my mind. We could hear each other, and in this most intimate moment, we could FEEL what the other was feeling as well.

I couldn't speak. Edward, Edward, God, don't stop! Yes, please, faster! I could feel that coil building and building again. Edward was moving much faster now. My legs were still wrapped around his body, his hands on my hips, picking me up and slamming me down onto him over and over again. He dipped his head and took a nipple into his mouth.

I lost it then, screaming incoherently as the orgasm ripped through my body. Even as I was coming down off the waves of pleasure, I craved more of him. I slid my hands to his shoulders and pushed, he complied, laying down on his back. I could feel how close he was, but how hard he was fighting to resist. I could feel that, Bella, I felt your pleasure, this is..so intense.

I hovered my honeyed center over him. He looked at me, desperately, longingly. I plunged down onto him and he threw his head back. OH god, he thought, This is so much more than I imagined, I can't hold off much longer....Started slowly, sliding up and down him, I could tell how good it felt to him. I placed my hands on his chest, running my fingers over his perfection. He obliged by doing the same. He cupped my breasts, running his thumbs over my already hard nipples. I could feel the electricity going right to my core again.

I started moving faster then, grinding myself into him. I could feel the coil building for a third time, Edward could feel it too, and it was sending him over the edge, quickly. He sat up, putting both his hands on my ass, pushing me harder onto him, increasing the speed. He took a nipple into his mouth, and sucked and licked like it was dripping with honey.

"Edward, OH EDWARD!" I screamed.

I heard him scream out my name, as we came together. Both of us, feeling our orgasm's and each other's as well. Despite our lack of needing to breathe, we were both panting, kissing, licking, and loving each other. It took several minutes for us to both calm down, to breathe at a normal rate, to calm our minds.

"And to think," Edward mused, "Today is only the first day, of forever."

I know you all have been waiting for this! My longest chapter to date! haha. Don't worry, it's a happy ending to the chapter, but it's not the end of the story, not yet. You don't think Jake will stand for this, do you?

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