The next few weeks were busy, I had to go to my cheer leading practices still and I had to practice the song for the reunion. The closer it got to the day we had to go back, the stupider the idea started to seem especially since Brittany was bringing someone to the reunion, but every time I looked at my two roommates they would tell me it was the right thing for me to do after all these years. This way I could end up with at least some type of closure if we were never getting back together. And I guess I did sort of miss how close everyone was. I never admitted it but Glee club ended up being my favourite part of the day.
The song was at least turning out good, Dakota and Aubrey didn't want to be too involve in the song because it was my Glee club reunion, they were just there for support and mostly back up singing. It felt nice to be performing again. It had been awhile since I had even thought about it. Now that I had started to sing again, I didn't really want to give it up again, I guess I'm hoping me and Dakota can just hang out and jam more I guess. But I had a plan in case Brittany did bring someone to the reunion so I had Dakota teach me a little bit of guitar every night for around 2 hours. I'd practice when I'd get the chance and actually started to trust me with her guitar, which was basically a miracle.
Quinn called a few times a week now, and made sure I still was planning the Glee club reunion, and every time I'd tell her I would be. It sort of felt like she was scared I was going to go away again for 3 more years. She talked to each of my roommates as well. I was glad we were all getting close or at least along. I was hoping maybe we'd all end up living together, or at least closer together in the near future if everything went okay at the reunion, and the recital. I started to feel happy the closer the day was but the closer it got, the more my nerves built up. I wasn't even sure if I was going to be able to do it anymore the way everything was seeming, I didn't really think I'd have a chance to be with Brittany again. Let alone who knows how the other Glee kids are going to react.
Everyday I'd wake up and Dakota would leave me a nice little note under my door telling me how many more days, when we were practicing in the music room and things like that. They were cute, she'd always draw little pictures on them. It became a habit, if there wasn't a note, then I'd run and jump on her bed and wake her ass up. We were those type of friends, it seemed like we'd make a great couple but we both saw each other as more of siblings. It was good to have her around she definitely cheered me up when I needed it and it was good to finally have another lesbian as a friend though.
The closer it got to the time to go, the more we realized we hadn't planned much. Dakota went and picked up a few shifts at a bar that she bar tends at so that we could have some extra cash. Aubrey took up tutoring some extra students a night so she could bring in more so we could make it with what we have. They both knew I had the money still that I was given during senior year. I was open with them first year and they agreed that it was up to me to what I used it for. I was glad they felt that way but I also felt kind of bad about them working extra to pay for things. Maybe I'd give them a gift or something.
After spending countless evenings alone while the two room mates worked, it was the day before we were set to leave for Lima and I had gone on Facebook on Dakotas account and looked at everyone from Glee club. I noticed they all had added Dakota and Aubrey and I was kind of thankful for that, but I guess it really was the only way for them to know I was alive. And it kind of was nice to be able to see all of their profiles. I went through everyone and they all had posted something about being back in Lima or on the way there. The one profile I didn't even go on yet was Britts'. I was scared but excited to. I was startled when Dakota had come up behind me and gave me a hug.
"You got this." That was all she said before grabbing her iPod and going out for a jog, of course she always seems to know exactly when I need support. I looked around the apartment and realized I was the only one in here. Aubrey must have gone out for a jog too. I finally gave in and clicked on the little 'Brittany S. Pierce' link. As soon as I saw her profile picture I started tearing up. It was her sitting on the floor of what I could assume was her apartment with Quinn. But she was wearing one of my hats, and my shirt. I don't think anyone would have noticed but me, not really anyone else knew those were my things, we shared basically everything. I knew she still had some of my things because I had never really went to get anything back, just like I had her stuff. Apparently neither of us could bring ourselves to throw them out. Maybe I really did still have a shot.
I cried silently to myself leaving the profile open and just staring at all of it and all her photos. I never understood how people could say that they felt incomplete without someone in their lives. Now that I see the photos of the girl I used to be able to hold and call mine, I understand the meaning. I'm so incomplete nothing here at this school makes sense. Why did I even fucking come? Brittany knew how important education was, why didn't she realize I would have done this instead of go off to New York? She must have put so much effort into getting me the scholarship.
I hadn't realized how long I had actually sat here crying until Dakota had come back and saw me. She walked over shaking her head and looked at the screen. "I don't understand why you're crying.. At least make them happy tears." She tilts her head and looks between me and the screen then finally points to one thing on the screen. " Cheer up. look at this maybe this will mean no date? Unless she's not official with him, her, it." She stopped and looked confused and with that Dakota walked away, leaving me with her Macbook and going off to shower.
"Single." I muttered to myself and started to shed a bunch of happy tears. Maybe this trip was going to be worth it after all. I closed the computer and put it away and wiped away my tears in time for Dakota to come out of the shower and Aubrey to come into the apartment with groceries.
"I don't understand why you bought those, were about to leave for a week, and I don't want to have to come back and clean the fridge out because you bought too much damn food" Dakota says taking a few bags from Aubrey and starting to put them away.
"I bought some things we can take on the trip. I don't know about you, but I'm not exactly going to eat at every burger joint on the way." Aubrey says joining Dakota but leaving somethings out on the counter and taking out a few of the things she had put in. I laughed at the sight until Dakota gave up completely and just leaned against the counter.
"How would you guys feel about leaving tonight? I'll take first shift driving through the night." I say keeping some things in bags and going through to she what she has. I attempted to avoid their gaze, hoping they wouldn't realize I'm actually eager to get going.
Dakota shrugs and nods. "I already started to put some bags down in the car earlier. I have nothing left here to do so we can basically leave whenever. I just have to bring my guitar down and my last bag."
"I finished with these groceries. I'm ready to leave too, so it's all up to you San." I nod and grab my phone. They head off to their rooms and grab the last of their items and made sure that they didn't forget anything. We all met back out in the living room with the last of our things.
"I'm good, almost forgot my phone charger, my mother would have killed me." Dakota said shifting her book bag on her back and setting her guitar down.
"I'm glad you didn't. I don't want to come back to angry voice mails." Aubrey joked. "Ready for this big adventure? I think this is the furthest we've all traveled together. It's hard enough spending hours on end in the apartment with you guys, now a car? I'm not going to make it to Lima and back."
"Shove it, you'll survive. Well lets get this adventure going guys." I smile and go off to my room to grab my bags and bring them out to the living room. I send a quick text off to Quinn once we're in the car. Which might I had took longer than expected, we had to reorganize the entire car to fit everything.
To:Quinn.
Leaving a little earlier than expected. On our way out now.
And once I pushed send we were driving off to get gas. I can't believe I'm going back to Lima. I'll see my mom and dad again. It'll be so much better than on Skype. Now my nerves were really starting to kick in.
