If I Give You My Heart
Chapter 7: Sonnet of a Hidden Confession
Ring. Ring.
"Hey, mom!" Maddie answered into the phone. "What's up?"
"Oh, I just wanted to hear how you were. So what you doin'?"
"Just hanging out by the pool. And guess what, we went to London last week!" she squealed.
"That's wonderful, honey," said Mrs Fitzpatrick, "Was it a school trip?"
"Actually, one of my friends took us there."
"Oh, London."
"It's Trevor, mom. They had a lecture there."
"Just the two of you?" There was a slight hint in her voice.
"Mom! Cody and Bailey went with us!"
Her mom giggled, "Ohh… okay then. I gotta go, honey. I'm taking Liam to the dentist."
"I'm not gonna be surprised coming back there seeing Liam without any teeth left." She rolled her eyes and her mom laughed, "Bye honey! Take care always!"
"Likewise! Bye!"
Maddie slumped on the beach bed and took some papers beside her. She got a pen and started playing with it. She read the words on the paper, "If I give you my heart, please don't tear it apart, 'cause this heart is for you." She sighed and started singing, "And if I say how I feel, and you know that is real, all I am is for you –
"So, you write songs too, huh?"
She turned around and saw a smiling Trevor, standing behind her. "Aren't you suppose to be in a lecture right now?" she asked.
"Who could blame a teacher with such fast lips?" he chuckled and sat next to her. She giggled then an awkward moment took place.
"So you're more than just… singing," he started.
"It's my very first one and it's not that… good."
"Don't judge it first by one person's opinion," he said and she smiled. "Could you play it?"
"It's – uh – not finished yet," she said. Trevor took the sheets from her hands. There were three of them. "So, you're trying to write a 7 minute song?"
She grabbed the sheets back, "Trust me, you don't wanna hear it." He grabbed it again and smiled, "Try me."
"But there are no instruments here," she argued, "at least it will not sound worse."
"Yeah, nice try." He took her hand and pulled her up. "Come with me."
-x-
"How do you know this place?"
Maddie found herself standing inside their massive school theatre. It was completely empty. It was very dark and only one vivid light was shining; on the stage where a white shiny grand piano was standing there. On the side stage, a line of instruments were lying there.
"One of the ship's crew gave us a tour. I have a good memory when it comes to directions," Trevor said cheekily.
"I can tell."
They made their way up the stage. "Okay! Grab that guitar and play!" Trevor instructed.
"I think I'll just go with the piano." She sat on the seat.
"You play the piano?" he asked in surprised, "I thought you only play the guitar." He sat next to her.
She placed her music sheets on the stand in front of her. "Would I say what I just said if I don't?"
"You caught me. Now play."
Maddie silently breathe out before placing her fingers in position. "Okay, here goes," she said before hitting the first keys. Trevor watched in amazement as her hands danced harmonically upon the keys which made a calm and soothing melody.
From the day we met
I knew that we were meant
You're the reason I'm here
She smiled at him and he smiled back.
And when you said hello
Don't wanna let you go
Yet we were strangers in love
Being with you
Feels like forever after
For all we know
Time will keep us together
Sometimes dreams do come true
It was amazing so far, he thought; the rhythm, the harmony, the melody and the lyrics. And he was so sure that the rest would be perfect.
If I give you my heart
Please don't tear it apart
'Cause this heart is for you
And if I say how I feel
And you know that it's real
All I am is for you
But if I give you my heart
If I give you my heart
Please be good to me
She was good for a first timer. But that was the thing he really liked about her. She can really make someone feel amazed.
All the stars, Trevor joined in, "are bright" and he gestured her to continue playing. He took the sheet for him and Maddie to see so he can read it.
All the signs are right
And it's a magical thing
They smiled at each other. She never heard him sing since they went to the Sing-All-You-Can charity party at the Tipton hotel, two years ago. He had a very enticing voice and she thought he got better.
I know I can't be wrong
The feeling's just too strong
You make me feel so alive
Being with you
Feels like (forever after) [-*duet]
For all we know
Time will (keep us together)
Sometimes dreams do come true
If I give you my heart
Please don't tear it apart
'Cause this heart is for you
And if I say how I feel
And you know that it's real
All I am is for you
But if I give you my heart
If I give you my heart
(Please be good to me)
Their voices blended perfectly. It was very surreal yet beautiful. They haven't sang together before and this song was meant to be a solo, but she never thought it would sound good as a duet, especially with Trevor. He was singing as if he had heard this before.
Someone for my song (someone for a song)
Someone to belong
Someone to share my dreams to
Someone like you
Maddie sang that high note and no doubt for Trevor, she nailed it. He always thought that she had an angelic voice… and she still got it.
If I give you my heart
Please don't tear it apart
('Cause this heart is for you)
And if I say how I feel
And you know that it's real
(All I am is for you)
But if I give you my heart
If I give you my heart
(Please be good to me)
He watched her delicate fingers hitting the last keys. She breathed out before a small smile formed on her lips. "Wow," he said, completely amazed. He only have heard her sing but never played the piano and sing. "It's… beautiful," he added.
"You think so?"
"Are you kidding? This might – matter of fact, this will give you a record deal!" he said
"Thanks," she giggled as she picked up her music sheets. "I see you're still working on your singing."
He blushed a little. "Yeah, well, I get bored in the shower, so…"
She giggled again.
"By any chance, did you write this for someone?" he asked her and she froze. "It does sound like it. I mean, your song sort of painted a picture for me. It must have mean something special to you."
"Yeah, It-it does," she replied. He just nodded and remained silent. For some reason, he didn't know what to say to her now.
"You," she added.
"I'm sorry?"
She whispered, "I wrote this for you." She glanced at him with a slight embarrassed look. "Actually… it's for us." She looked down
"Oh…" was all he could say. "Um, thank you." He felt awkward and randomly hugged her. He could feel her still holding on her music sheets as her arms were not wrapped around him. He didn't let go of her for a while but she didn't mind. He was thinking of something decent to say to her, thinking hopefully that she was doing the same.
"I'm still in love you with you, Trevor," she whispered.
He was taken a back and slowly pulled away. "What?" he asked her.
"I still love you," she repeated, looking down. He remained speechless for seconds. "Still?"
"Yes."
He started to feel uncomfortable. "Since when?"
She still didn't dare to look at him. "Since we kissed at the art gallery."
"That long?" his voice rose slightly. "How come you never told me?"
She remained silent.
"Maddie?"
"Because!" She shot her head up and tears were trickling down her face. "Freaking you out was the last thing I wanted to happen!" Her voice started to rise in a tearful way. "So, what if I told you, huh? Would you stay? Of course not! But even if you wanted to, I would still let you go because that was the right thing to do! We didn't have any other choice and I didn't want to make it more complic –
"Ok, ok." He hugged her tightly as she sobbed on his chest. "Shh, It's ok," he comforted. She finally wrapped her arms around him as he rubbed her back soothingly, trying to calm her down. He was so surprised by the tone of her voice. There was so much emotion from those words she just said; and the song they just sang together spoke clearly to him. He remembered the kiss they had at the balcony. It felt so right.
He could feel her tears moistening his shirt. She calmed down slightly and she was now sniffling from time to time. He was still stunned and didn't know what to say.
"I tried so hard to forget you," she finally broke the silence. He slowly pulled away but kept his hands holding her arms. He lifted her chin up and saw more tears welling up in her brown orbs.
"Maddie, I don't know what to say," he started, "I was just shocked, you know. I didn't know." A sigh followed. "It's just that I've… been wanting to tell you that… that I love you too."
Did he just say that? she thought. She was now looking at him directly.
He touched her face and wiped her tears with his finger. "I heard what you said last week. There's no way that we can be together. Especially now." Hearing those words felt like a massive stone clouting both of their hearts. "It's harder this time."
"I just wanna be with you. I don't care if you're leaving again," she said just above a whisper.
"Maddie, I wanna be with you too. I love you." He tucked a piece of blonde hair behind her ear. "But don't you think that's gonna make it harder for both of us?"
"Trevor, it can't be anymore harder than this." She looked away, letting more tears escape from her puffy red eyes.
Once again, he didn't know what to say. He watched her as she picked up her stuff and made her way down the stage. He could hear her silently crying. Her song entered his mind again.
And if I say how I feel,
And you know that it's real
All I am is for you
This song, without a doubt, described what they were going through right now. This was the picture that entered Trevor's mind. He was hurt. Not by her; but by the fact of how injustice life is, that no matter how much they try, he and Maddie can't be together.
Maddie made her way across the empty seats of the theatre. She was crushed. She felt weak. She never realized how painful this kind of feeling would be. If she just kept her feelings inside, would it hurt less?
After a while, a pair of strong hands suddenly grabbed her by her arms. He spun her around and his hands placed on her cheeks. She felt a pair of soft lips pressed up lightly against hers; one simple kiss filled with so much lust and passion. She dropped what she was holding; her arms found their way around his neck. His hands slid down to her waist and held her closer against him.
And yet again, this moment felt so right; neither wanted to let go of each other, wishing this could be forever.
He kissed her passionately as she ran her hands in his tousled tresses. He begged for entrance in her mouth and she obliged without any hesitation, their tongues dancing harmonically. He continued to rub her waist, softly.
In desperate need for air, their lips detached. He pressed his forehead against hers. He noticed her tears had washed away. She kept her eyes closed, trying to catch her breath.
"Things may still change in 2 weeks," he breathed. Her eyes locked with his. "We'll never know," he added before pulling her in a comforting hug.
"We'll never know," he repeated and kissed her forehead before resting his head on top of hers.
A/N: Oh my God! This is my favourite chapter so far! lmao xD I could just imagine this in real life and I would so need a cure for diabetes coz it's too damn sweet! Hahaha! Let me know what you think. I live for reviews only! xD
