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Warning: This chapter contains adult themes in terms of violence.
Disclaimer: Cassandra Clare owns the Mortal Instruments and the characters.
"Mum?" I say and a tear slides down my cheek. I feel Simon's hand on my arm.
"Clary. I've missed you." She says with a slight smile. She looks better than ever before. She doesn't have a worried expression planted on her face and she looks healthy.
"Why are you here?" I say taking a step back.
"I'm sorry." She says taking a step forward.
"Sorry? I really can't believe you."
"Clar-"
"You left me! You made me think you were dead! Do you have any idea how hard that is for me? To have no mother? To grow up with Valentine!" I say. Simon's arm tightens around my arm.
"Hey, how about we take this to your room Clary." Simon suggests. I nod and hobble to the elevator. The trip to my room is silent. I open the door and hold it open for Simon and Mum. Once they're inside I take a deep breath and slam the door shut. My mum, Jocelyn stands awkwardly and Simon sits on my bed. I shuffle over to the window still and slam open the window, climbing onto the window still.
"Clary!" Simon yells getting up.
"I'm not going to do it Simon." I say rolling my eyes. I always sit here. It's my favorite place to sit and thank. I don't want someone to always worry if I even go close to the damn thing.
"Do what?" Jocelyn says still standing.
"Oh yes! That's right! You died last summer!" I say laughing hysterically. "Well Jocelyn. Since you have been gone. I was moved here, jumped out this window and was hurt by your so called husband. Oh! And also dealing with the loss of my mum that is apparently all bullshit now. And you think you can just waltz into my life thinking it will all be okay? My life has been hell."
"Clary. Your life hasn't been hell. Mine has. I regret the day I left you. Valentine was losing it so I left. I'm living in the streets." She thinks her life has been bad. Please. She wouldn't know bad if it bit her in the ass. Now that she mentions it though she does look skinner.
"You think that's hell? Jocelyn... ARGH!" I say chucking a pillow at her. "MY LIFE HAS BEEN HELL! MAYBE I DID HAVE FOOD AND A PLACE TO STAY BUT I LOST A MUM! I WAS BEAT AND RAPED BY MY SO CALLED FATHER! I WAS THROWN OUT A WINDOW AND SLAMMED AGAINST A MIRROR! FOLLOWED BY BEING SENT AWAY BECAUSE HE DIDN'T WANT ME! I WAS THEN RAPED AND BEATEN BY MY SO CALLED BOYFRIEND! BUT THAT'S NOT EVEN THE WORST PART OF MY LIFE! I SAW VALENTINE KILL JON! I WATCHED IT! I SAW HIM DRAG A KNIFE THROUGH HIS HEART! I HAVEN'T EVEN TOLD ANYONE THIS STUFF BECAUSE IT HAUNTS ME! I HEAR VOICES! I HAVE FLASHBACKS OF JON FALLING TO THE GROUND! FLASHBACKS OF VALENTINE BLAMING EVERYTHING ON ME! SO TELL ME JOCELYN THAT MY LIFE ISN'T HELL AND GET AWAY FROM ME!"
"Clar-" Jocelyn starts.
"Spare me it! Now get out of here or I'll go myself!" I say walking to the door. Jocelyn starts crying and nods. I open the door and watch her walk out. I slam the door shut and stare at it for who knows what.
"My god Clary." Simon says pulling me into a hug.
"I'm a mess. I'm sorry Simon you were dragged into my life."
"Hey! Hey! Clary, no! I'm here now. I'm not leaving you, ever. Me being in your life is a blessing to me. I love you Clary and I will never leave you. I promise." Simon says as I sob into his shirt.
There is 2 knocks on the door. I hobble out of bed and to the door. I open it to see Jace and Alec standing there looking distraught.
"We heard everything Clary." Alec whispers. My face drops in surprise. I slam the door shut in there face.
"Clary?" Simon says behind me.
"Jace and Alec heard everything." I say dropping onto the bed.
"I'll go talk to them." Simon walks past me, patting my shoulder. I nod and burry my head in my hands. I hear the door open and close and the hushed whispers outside. I cry as everything from last night comes back to me. Can my life get any more complicated? Of course it can. I just need to wait for that to happen. Of course I'm not looking forward to it but what happens if it's the end. That after one more complicated thing will release me from this damned life of constant despair. And I know now what I want. I want a release. I can only think of one way to get that. But I can't do that, I want to but it will hurt everyone around me. I can't let Valentine win. I can't let him get the best of me. I won't let him. What can I do instead?
"Clary" That's the answer. After hearing one word from his voice, the pain deflates. I get a moment of peace from his voice. Making me forget that my life is damned and that there is blessings. There's Jace.
"Jace. Where is Alec and Simon?" I whisper turning around looking at his golden locks.
"They left. I asked to talk to you alone. I wanted to ask if you're okay but it's obvious that you wouldn't be." He takes a seat on the bed. I want to see if he is looking at me like an injured animal but I can't see his expression in the darkness so I just hope that he is looking at me like I'm strong, that I have been through hell and back and have survived. I don't need his pity. I need his encouraging words. To pull me further away from hell. I need him. I pat the space beside me and I feel the bed next to me dip. He fills the emptiness I constantly feel. His even breaths brings me into a somber sleep that holds no nightmares.
Man, I hate posting short chapters but the story will only work if I do it like this so I hope you don't mind! Shit is getting real in this story now. I hope you are enjoying the story, there's plenty more to come. I can't wait for you guys to read it. By the way, I noticed a lot of my views are American based and I'm not sure of the time difference but I live in Australia so I decided instead of having days, I was going to update when I can. I don't know how often that will be. Hopefully it will be often. That's what I'm planning anyway.
