JacobPOV

I'm completely positive that Renesmee will be the death of me. If she doesn't send me into a heartattack soon, I'm pretty sure Edward will kill me for the thoughts his daughter puts into my head. She's been driving me crazy ever since the night at the beach. She's coming over to spend the weekend with me and I'm nervous about it. I want to be with her but I don't want to rush things and make her regret them. I know I won't regret anything that happens as long as it happens with her but I can't say the same for her. I want her first time to be special and perfect. I've never done anything like this before and I'm worried it won't be good for her or I'll hurt her. I was running patrols Friday night with Seth before going to pick her up and I couldn't help but have these thoughts running through my mind.

Jacob, I don't think you'll hurt her dude. She's half vampire. Seth thought while we sprinted through the forest.

Seth, shut up I'm a full wolf. I'm stronger than she is.

Yeah but not by much. It'll be fine. I mean, if Edward doesn't kill you. Seth laughed at the thought.

I thought about the blessing he had given me in the forest and the promise to keep my thoughts realtively PG around him.

See, there you go, man. He probably won't care as long as you're not fantasizing around him. I could see Seth's mental shrug and he raced a head of me, jumping over the small river that cuts through the forest. I chased after him and we almost made it to Canada before deciding to head back. We ran our way back to Forks and I decided to stop by my apartment first and change before heading to get Ness. I phased out while in the forest and pulled on my sweat pants before running up the two flights of stairs to my apartment on the third floor. I lived in one of the nicer apartment complexes in Forks and I was happy to have a place to call my own. My apartment was a two bedroom, two bathroom suite. It didn't come furnished but when Esme found out I had gotten an apartment she broke in one day while I was at work and decorated it. It was mostly done in soft neutral browns and creams. I had a huge flatscreen TV and an awesome sofa that you sunk into. My living room opended onto a balcony that looked out over the forest. It was really convient because I could jump down from it and phase in the forest without anyone noticing. Ness had taken over the guest bedroom a few months ago and had filled the closet and the guest bathroom with an array of clothes and cosmetics. I didn't mind because I wanted her to have her stuff here so that it felt like home to her.

I changed into a pair of jeans and a deep red button up which I had rolled the sleeves up to my elbows. I found a pair of black loafers in my closet and put those on. After getting dresssed, I slid into my new car and I swear it purred when I turned it on. I knew Renesmee and the rest of the Cullens were suprised when I showed up with it but I had been working hard lately. I had Alice invest some of my money into the stock market and with her future seeing abilities, I had almost tripled my money. I wasn't as rich as some but my bills were cheap and I didn't spend a lot on clothes or groceries. I had the money to spend and my Rabbit, although I loved it, had seen better days. I sped through the small town of Forks and made it to the cottage in under ten minutes.

Renesmee was waiting on the porch for me with Edward and Bella. She jumped up when she saw my car and ran over to the car before I had the door open. I opened it and she jumped into my arms. Every time she was in my arms, it was like it was the first time and I was overwhelmed by her citrus scent. She wasn't as warm as I was but she still felt good pressed against my body. I kissed her lightly on the lips and set her down.

"Hey, Ness, how were your lessons today with Jasper?" I asked, winding my arm around her and pulling her over to the porch.

"They were so good. I learned so much today, we are studying the psychological aspects of people in prisons, mainly serial killers right now. I want to write some of them, like Manson, but Jasper says thats a really bad idea because most of them are really crazy." She responded excitedly and we sat down on the bottom steps, angling our bodies so they faced her parents.

"That sounds really interesting but kind of morbid. If he says not to write them, I would listen." I gave her my 'listen to the people who are older than you' look and she laughed.

"Anyway, I'm excited to spend the weekend with you. The rest of my lessons will be combined on the weekdays. Except, if you want, we can come back here on Sunday and I'll make dinner like usual." She gave me a questioning look, as if I would say no to her cooking dinner.

"That sounds great, Nessie." I turned towards Bella and Edward. "What time do you want us back on Sunday?"

"How about five? That way it's not too late for dinner. I would say to invite the wolves but I know they'll show up anyway." Belle said and gave me a smirk.

We all laughed because it's true. The wolves tended to show up whereever there was food, whether it was the Cullen's place or someones house on La Push. Usually Kim, Emily and Rachel take turns cooking during the week but I know they appreciated having the break. It was always really nice to get everyone together on Sundays and have a big family dinner. We usually invited Billy, Charlie and Sue along with the wolves. Usually the guys found a game on television and sat around watching that while the girls hung out in the kitchen and gossiped about us. You could always tell when they were talking about us because they would get quiet whenever one of us went in there. It was especially funny when they were overheard. It didn't happen often but I've seen both Emmett and Jasper get irritated with their wives swapping stories. The rest of the guys didn't really care or if they did, they didn't bring it up in front of us. Emmett and Jasper were both the type to love a bit of drama.

We said our goodbyes to her parents and we got into my car. Nessie didn't usually bring anything with her but this time, she had a small bag packed with her. I figured it was because she had gotten all those new clothes and didn't want to be parted with them. Sometimes she gets attached to material things, especially shoes. I almost laughed out loud at the memory of her losing her Converse All Stars at the beginning of summer. We had gone cliff-diving with the Seth and Embry at La Push. She had left her shoes in the sand and the tide had come in without us realizing it. When she realized her shoes had been swept out into the ocean, she cried for an hour. She actually made Emmett and Edward swim into the water to try and find them. Those shoes weren't as expensive or as nice as the ones she has been wearing lately so I wouldn't be suprised if she bought a pair with her. She's not shallow by any means, she's just quirky about certain things.

As we sped through the highway, our fingers laced together over the gear shift, she turned to me.

"So, what are we going to do this weekend?" She was practically bouncing in her seat and I was happy to see she was excited as I was.

"I thought we could rent some movies and order take out?"

"Sounds good to me... I'm thinking something scary..." She got an evil grin on her face. Not many movies scared her but it was always fun to find one that did.

After making a quick phone call to the local Chinese restraunt we stopped at the video store to pick up some movies. She convinced me to get The Nightmare Before Christmas even though we'd watching it close to a hundred times already. We also got the Jurassic Park trilogy and Black Swan. I didn't think either of them were scary but Black Swan deffinitly had some psychological aspects to it that were creepy. I mean, what was with Natalie Portman's character and her mom? Fucking weird, I swear. Before going back to the house, we stopped at the restraunt to pick up our food. There weren't any places in Forks that actually delivered because it was so small. We had ordered Moo Shu Pork, Chicken Chow Mein, Ginger Beef and a couple spring rolls. I wasn't sure how hungry Ness was since it was already eight. She generally didn't like much human food but she knew she had to eat it is so she put up with it. She preferred to have things with a lot of spice in it to mask the flavor. She said if her tongue is burning, nothing tastes like dirt.

We made it back to the apartment in record time and carried all of our belongings upstairs. We decided to watch The Nightmare Before Christmas while we ate and as soon as it was over, Nessie turned to me and was yawning.

"I'm getting kind of sleepy, Jacob. I'm going to go change and grab a blanket."

"That's fine, hon. I'll just clean up out here and change myself. Do you still want to watch another movie?"

"Sure, that's fine." She smiled at me sleepily and went into her bedroom to change.

I quickly cleaned up and went into my room to change. I decided to take a quick shower since I could hear that Nessie was taking a shower in her bathroom. I got out of the shower and wrapped a towel around my waist. I walked into my room after towel-drying my hair and started digging through my drawers for a pair of pajama pants.

"Hey Jacob, have you seen my -"

Nessie was standing in the middle of my bedroom door staring at me. I could hear her heart speed up and her breathing quicken but I wasn't paying attention to that. She was wearing the smallest pair of shorts I have ever seen in my life. I'm not even sure if they were shorts. They were royal blue and black plaid and they looked amazing against her long, toned legs. She was wearing a black tanktop that had lace at the bottom and top of it, showing off more of her creamy skin. Her skin was still glistening from her shower and her hair was pulled into a messy side braid. It was still wet and drops of water were moving slowly down her body from where it was dripping. I couldn't breathe or speak. I'm not even sure that any amount of time was going by. All I could focus on was the woman standing in front of me. She was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my entire life.

I wrapped the towel tighter around my waist and walked towards her slowly. I reached up and caressed her face, the most beautiful face I have ever seen. Her face was prefect. Her lower lip slightly fuller than the bottom one and her eyes were huge, chocolate brown orbs that I found myself getting lost in. I slowly pressed my lips to her as her arms wound themselves around my back. She was pressing against me in ways I didn't know were possible until this moment and I felt myself growing hard pressed against moaned softly into my mouth and as I wound my other arm around her waist, I felt the towel I had wrapped around me start to slip. I grabbed it quickly and moved away from her embrace. Both of our hearts were racing and we were breathing hard.

"Ah, uhm, Ness... I should get dressed..." I trialed off and tried my best not to stare at her. Her lips were puffy and red from our kissing and her cheeks were slightly flushed. Her eyes were focused on mine and they slowly slid their way down my body. I could feel myself doing the same to her and I knew that I was growing even harder. Her mouth opened a little when her eyes got to my groin and she licked her lips seductively. She crossed over to where I was standing against the dresser and stood in front of me. She slowly reached up and brushed her fingertips across my lips.

"Okay, Jake... If thats what you want to do." She raised her eyebrows slightly and I nodded silently in response. She turned at walked out of the bedroom.

I shut my bedroom door and slammed my fist against the wall. This girl was going to be the death of me, I swear. I wanted her so badly but I wanted to wait. The timing didn't feel right and I wanted it too when we went farther. I crossed the room to my dresser and grabbed the first pair of sweats my hands came in contact with. I was half tempted to phase and go for a run to clear my head but I knew that wasn't the way to solve this. I can't run away when things get hard. That's not a relationship is built on and I knew that. It didn't stop the urge from happening. I was so frusterated at the moment. I walked back into the living room to see Nessie curled up on the couch, fast asleep. I decided to grab a blanket from my bed and camp out on the floor.

I woke up the next morning to the smell of bacon and I got up slowly. I streched and heard all of my bones crack from sleeping on the floor. I wandered into the kitchen to find Nessie flipping over some bacon. I walked up behind her and wrapped my arms around her waist, kissing the top of her head.

"Good morning, sweetheart. It smells amazing." I said to her.

"Thanks, Jake. I made some waffles too." She motioned to the plate next to her that had atleast twenty waffles on it.

"Is there anything I can do to help?" I asked her. I hated to think she had gotten up to make me breakfast and I didn't do anything to help.

"If you want to grab some plates and the syrup I warmed up in the microwave, that would be great."

As I grabbed the plates out of the cupboard along with the syrup, some butter and the shaker of powdered sugar; Nessie put the plate of waffles along with the bacon she had cooked on the island in my kitchen. We sat across from each other and dug into the food hungrily. We didn't speak much as we ate but we did have a light conversation about how we slept. I told I had slept fine even though I hadn't. I had been up watching her sleep for part of the night. I wanted, so badly, to carry her to my bed and sleep together. We hadn't sleep in the same bed since she was a toddler and I wasn't sure if it was something we should be doing so soon in our relationship. I hated that I was second guessing everything in our relationship but that was my nature. I wanted to make sure she was comfortable and happy before I met my own needs. We cleaned up the kitchen after we were done eating. As we were doing the dished, my cellphone rang. For a moment, I wasn't going to answer it. It was early on a saturday morning though and I figured it might be important.

"Hello?" I said as I grabbed off the coffee table in the living room. I had set it there last night when we had come home.

"Jacob.. I know it's last minute but today is Bella's birthday." Edward said.

Oh shit. I can't believe we forgot.


Author's Note:

oooh, sexual frustration for jacob!
i wonder how nessie is feeling?
and everyone forgot bella's birthday?
what are we going to do to fix it?
i wonder if ANYONE remembered?

i do have a question for my readers,
i know we all want lemons! i know i do.
i just wonder if anyone had any ideas on the time limit?
how long should it take for them to give in?
i want opinions!
i know mine but i wonder if it's the same for you guys.

love always, court