Recap:

I've been thinking alot about what love means - or what it means to me anyway. I haven't told Edward that I love him yet and he has showed me countless times that his love is true. I truely do love him and I figure it is about time I told him that. I know he knows that I love him but I know the shiver of happiness that shoots down my spine every time he says it to me. I wanted to show him that same happiness.

"Edward?" I asked biting my bottom lip.

"hmmm?" He brushed his lips against the back of my neck.

"I love you."

I wonder how it's going to be when you don't know me anymore.

BPOV

When I was young I knew everything
She a punk who rarely ever took advice
Now I'm guilt-stricken, sobbing with my head on the floor
Stop a baby's breath and a shoe full of rice, no
I can't be held responsible
She was touching her face
I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

The music faded as I started to drifted asleep in my room at Edward's house. I don't know when I'll be able to start calling it my house - probably not for a while - but it's nice to have a place I could call home. I replayed how I finally told Edward that I loved him in my head once more before sleep overtook me completely.

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"Edward?" I asked biting my bottom lip.

"hmmm?" He brushed his lips against the back of my neck.

"I love you."

He lifted his head as I turned to face him. His talented green eyes once again took my breath away before he pressed his lips eagerly to mine. Edward shifted his body so that he was now hovering over me and I was lying flat on my back. I opened my mouth to allow him to deepen the kiss as I brought my hands to his bronze hair. Edward slid his hands slowly up and down my sides above my shirt. Then, I attacked his shirt and lifted it over his head. A loud growl ripped through Edward's chest at my eagerness. He then liften my own shirt above my head and threw it somewhere in his room. I couldn't retain the giggle that escaped. Edward smiled and brushed his hand against my cheek softly. He slowed himself by trailing light kisses all along my collarbone.

"Edward," I sighed, completely in love with him.

"I love you," He said looking into my plain, boring brown eyes. My eyes had nothing on his.

"I love you too," I gasped as he pressed his covered bulge against my clothed center. He continued to grind as he kissed the visible part of my breasts. I sat up allowing him to unclasp my bra from behind. I blushed as it slid down my arms and Edward tossed it to the floor. I'd never given myself to another person in this way and I couldn't help from being shy.

"Bella," Edward moaned before kissing both of my now fully visable breasts. My back arched as he took the left bud into his mouth. I reached between us and tried to unbotton his pants. Edward finished the job by sitting up and tossing them to the ground as well. He brought his lips down to mine and kissed me passionately. He continued to kiss me as he unbottoned my pants and slid them down my legs. He slid them slowly down my legs and let his hands trail back up my legs slowly after my pants were added to the growing pile of clothes. He did the same with my underwear.

I was now fully exposed to him and love filled his eyes as he took all of me into them. He kissed the top of my right foot and trailed kisses up my leg and thigh. "Edward," I moaned as I battled with his boxers. He swiftly pushed them down his legs and kicked them to the ground. I could feel his hardness press against the inside of my thigh. I moaned at the contact.

"Bella," Edward moaned. "I want to make love to you."

He didn't even have to ask. I wanted to make love to him too.

I spread my legs further apart and he settled inbetween them. He gave me one last longing look before I nodded and he pushed slowly into me. Edward groaned and I gasped as he took my innocence. Edward stopped, giving me time to adjust before I thrusted forward gently telling him it was ok to continue. I'm not going to lie, it hurt, but I wanted this and so did he. I kept my eyes locked on his the entire time and he never once looked away either.

Edward left no part of my body untouched. He kissed where his hands weren't touching and passionately made love to me. When I began to tighten around him, Edward whispered in my ear how much he loved me and that he would always love me. It was beautiful. I fell over the edge along with him and he kissed my forehead before he pulled out to lay beside me. He pulled me into his arms as our breathing started to return to normal. We stayed like this for a while until something crossed my mind.

"I should probably go to sleep if I want to be able to function for school tomarrow," I said sitting up in an attempt to leave his bed.

Edward sat up alarmed, "Don't leave. Sleep in here tonight."

I put a hand on his cheek and kissed him lightly. "I don't want to upset Carlisle and Esme - at least not this soon," Edward laughed at the last part. I wanted to stay in bed with Edward but I knew the right thing would be to sleep in the room that Carlisle and Esme had generously given me - at least for the first night.

"I love you. Goodnight, Edward," I said kissng him once more. Edward pulled me closer to him as I began to pull away, deepening the kiss. When he finished, he kissed my forehead before letting me go. "Goodnight. I love you," He said softly.

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I was almost there - the place where you can fly and fall without getting hurt. I would dream of Edward every single night for the rest of my life.

My eyes popped open when I felt a light kiss on my shoulder. I removed my earphones and blinked to see Edward lying beside me.

"What are you doing?" I giggled.

"I missed you," He smiled.

"I didn't go far," I laughed.

"Far enough."

I let Edward have his way and cuddled up next to him as he wrapped his arms securely around me. I fell asleep and I did dream of Edward, just like I knew I always would.

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"Bella," My eyes opened to a sun-warmed room and Edward's lips on my cheek. "Goodmorning," He said.

"Goodmorning," I replied kissing him softly.

Edward showered first as I unpacked the things I had brought from Renee's. After we were both showered, dressed, and ready for school, Edward led the way to his car and opened my door for me as the gentleman he always is.

The drive to school was nice. Edward's fingers were entwined in mine and he would occasionally lift our hands to brush my cheek with the back of his hand. I never tired of looking into his eyes when he did that.

We pulled into the parking lot at school and I opened my door before Edward had a chance to. He took my hand again and walked me to class.

"Would it be weird if I said I wanted to walk you to all of your classes?" He asked.

"Not weird at all," I said caressing his cheek as he leaned down to kiss me.

"My first period class is on the other side of the school so it might take me a little while to get back here," He said.

"I'll wait," I smiled and he kissed me once more. I had almost forgotten about the Barbie Zombies. I didn't really care what they thought or said anymore.

"I'll see you in 45 minutes," He laughed, our fingers still entwined as he walked away until our arms wouldn't go any further.

I couldn't be bothered to listen to today's lecture on the importance of math so I layed my head on the desk as always, pulling my hoodie over my head to cover my earphones from the teacher's view.

I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore
Before you take a swing
I wonder
What are we fighting for
When I say out loud
I want to get out of this
I wonder
Is there anything I'm going to miss
I wonder How it's going to be
When you don't know me
How's it going to be
When you're sure I'm not there
How's it going to be

I noticed that the class was over as soon as the other students began leaving their seats. I was hoping I'd fall asleep and open my eyes to Edward instead of having to stand in the hallway against the lockers waiting for him. I stood up and walked out of the classroom and did exactly that.

"Hi," A voice said from beside me.

I looked up to see a boy I didn't recognize gleaming beside me. He smiled and pretended he didn't see the lack of interest on my face.

"I'm Jacob Black," He continued.

I turned to face the other direction. I really don't care who you are, kid. - I wanted to say. This "Jacob Black" followed my change of direction and was now facing me again.

"You're Bella right?" He asked. How the hell did he know who I was?

"Who wants to know?" I asked, still not looking in his direction.

"Me. You're gorgeous," He looked like a sick dog in heat. He could have been panting like one and it probably wouldn't catch my attention since he was already acting like a dog. It would have just fit.

"What the hell do you want?" I asked - frustrated now.

"Oh, I want you," He replied - his voice deep. It was then that he pushed me up against the lockers and I let out a cry of shock and pain. He was strong. I wouldn't be able to get away from him in this grip.

"What the hell! Get off of me!" I yelled. Other students passed by as if nothing was happening - probably trying to avoid themselves being in a similar situation. Jacob Black was very tall and he even looked strong. He looked like one of those guys you stand an extra five feet away from in public. He could probably take you down without you even realizing what was happening.

He pressed himself even closer to me, making it hard to breathe. I moaned in pain and disgust. This position wasn't exactly comfortable and his added weight was really starting to do a number on my lungs.

"Tell me you want it, Bella," He groaned.

I noticed a familiar bronze haired beauty down the hall. His expression was confused until realization hit and he began sprinting towards us.

"Get the hell off of her!" He yelled as he sprinted down the hallway. When Edward reached Jacob he tore him off of me in a quick and smooth fashion. Jacob tumbled to the ground and Edward began kicking the living shit out of him. Jacob yelped in pain as Edward repeatedly kicked him in the stomach, legs, and chest. I slid down the lockers holding my knees to my chest as I watched.

Edward finally left Jacob limp on the ground and ran over to where I sat by the lockers.

"Bella, are you ok?" He asked worriedly and out of breath.

"I'm fine," I let it brush off. I only hugged my knees tighter to my chest.

Edward, already kneeling beside me, picked me up and carried me from the school.

"I'm fine, Edward," I said. I really was fine. I wish he would stop overreacting.

"I'm so sorry," He said kissing my forehead as he continued to carry me down the hill from the school. I assumed he was taking me back to his house.

"It's not your fault. I can walk," I said but Edward shook his head. I didn't bother to argue and let him carry me the rest of the way to his house. Edward dug out the key from his pocket and brought me inside and upstairs to his bedroom. Carlisle and Esme must have both been at work since no one was home.

"Edward, are you ok?" I asked as he sat at the desk in his room and fittled with the key.

"No, Bella," He whispered and stood up to walk to the bed. He sat down next to me and took my hand in his. He rubbed small circles on the top of my hand.

"He could have taken advantage of you," He spit out sounding disgusted. "What would I have done if I let someone do that to you?"

"Edward, you can't save me from everything - and I doubt he would have done anything in the hallway." I said brushing my other hand against his cheek.

"He would have tried to take you somewhere else. I'm supposed to protect you, Bella," He said it as if it were my mother's dying wish.

"I don't need anyone to 'protect me'. I can take care of myself," I was annoyed at this point. Who did he think he was? I wasn't a child who needed a babysitter 24/7.

"And what would have happened if I didn't come when I did? I didn't see anyone else jumping in to help you," His words hurt. This is what I get for letting my guard down and letting someone into my life. It's always my fault. I've taken care of myself for as long as I can remember and I wasn't about to stop now.

"You know what? If I'm such a pain in your ass then maybe you should stop caring about me. That way, if something bad happens you won't have to worry your pretty little head about getting involved," I said coldly. I was beyond worried about regretting my words. All good things come to an end, and I knew this was going to be the end. It always ended like this.

I didn't give him time to respond before storming out of his room. I slammed the front door behind me and ran down the street until I needed to stop and catch my breath. I folded my arms against my chest and continued walking. I wasn't sure where I was going, - there was no where to go now - I just let my legs carry me. Angela and Ben both dropped out of school because they wanted to travel. Angela left a note in my box of photos of Charlie and I that was dated a few weeks ago. She knew exactly where I'd look. It was hard letting go of her. She was the only one who really understood why I feel the way I do and I didn't even get to say goodbye.

I heard a car pull up along side of me and I assumed it was Edward. I didn't even bother to turn my head. He was the last person I wanted to talk to right now. The car beeped a few times and I continued to ignore it. "Hey, beautiful," A voice called from the car. I didn't even have to turn my head to know who it was now. I recognized that voice from earlier today. Jacob Black. My eyes narrowed. I continued to keep my pace and didn't bother responding. Maybe he'd just get the hint and go away. He mumbled something else before I noticed he was pulling over. Oh shit. Run Bella. My breath caught in my throat. This is exactly what Edward had told me. And what would have happened if I didn't come when I did? I didn't see anyone else jumping in to help you. Edward wasn't coming this time and no one else was around. I had no chance at all unless I picked up my feet and ran until my heart stopped. I was still convinced that he would catch me either way. Pure horror overtook me as he stepped from his car and ran towards me. I ran in the same direction I was walking until Jacob pinned me to the ground. I struggled and screamed until his fist collided with my face. That's when everything went black.

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I regained my consciousness to the smell of dirty laundry. I wondered if my whole life was a dream and I was back in Renee's house. I blinked to clear my vision. Where I was now was much worse. I always suspected that Renee would beat me to death or that one of her boyfriends would. I couldn't see this coming and it scared me.

"Bella, Bella, Bella," The voice boomed from around a thick cement corner. "No one is going to find you now."

"What makes you think someone would have come looking anyway?" I challenged. I knew no one was coming. I only wished that he would do what he was going to do and get it over with.

"Edward will be coming," His voice was excited.

"You're wrong," I spat. I didn't want him to come. I didn't need him to rescue me. I wasn't afraid of Death.

"Oh, he will be coming my dear. He loves you too much not to come," I didn't catch the inside joke he was smirking about.

"What are you talking about?" I asked confused and exhausted as I struggled on the chains that pinned me to the wall.

"Edward hasn't told you? HA! He and I used to go to school together a long time ago. He ruined my entire life! He took the one person from me that mattered most! It's my turn to take someone away from him!" He growled.

"Sorry to disappoint you but Edward isn't going to care what happens to me. He told me himself," In so many words Edward did say 'You're on your own.' But that could have been the anger or I misunderstanded his intentions.

"Oh well, I guess I'll just have to have my fun with you then, huh?" He laughed evilly. My breath caught in my throat.

Edward where are you? How selfish am I to ask that question? I'm the one that told him to stop worrying about me and that I could take care of myself. I told Edward that I didn't need him - didn't want him protecting me. What right do I have now to wish he was here? Edward wasn't coming because I pushed him away - like so many others before him. I've never loved anyone before like I love Edward. I ruined the only good thing I have left in my life

I had no one left. No one was coming. I was all alone - exactly how I wished for it to be.

Note: Long chapter! It was so fun to write! What the hell is going to happen to Bella? Is Edward really over protecting her or will he risk everything because he loves her that much? Review to let me know what you think of the story and any predictions for chapter 8! Thanks for reading and to all who reviewed already!