Disclaimer: I do not know naruto in any way shape or form.
Did Haku say what I think he said? No it couldn't be. Why would Haku ask me to hang out with him? Why would he want to hang out with me? I don't even talk. I'm just a weird Goth kid that never talks. But I have fun with him so why not? But this could be some kind of joke. What if he's just messing with me? I don't think I could deal with that. But Haku doesn't seem like the kind of person who would do that. He's nice to every one and I don't think I've ever seen him do one mean thing. Besides he is Naruto's brother so what do I have to lose? Nothing I guess.
"yeah." I say simply as I turn to walk back to school. He responds with "Great meet me in front of school after class" I can hear the smile in his voice. My minds eye can see the corners of his lips curve up. As if they are trying to meet his ears. His eyes almost closing but some how still managing to sparkle with that light that is purely Haku. And my own lips curve ever so slightly.
I walk back into the lunch room to see naruto and Hinata walking out. Naruto has his arm around Hineta's waist. Hinata is fire engine red, her hands playing nervously with the zipper on her jacket. Naruto sees me and gives me a thumbs up behind Hinatas back, complete with a big stupid grin. I resist the urge to roll my eyes at him. Baka.
I walk down the hall as people file in to their respective classes, the chatter of hundreds of students fading into meaningless white noise around me. My mind wanders as I walk to noware. Then all sound stops, it's completely silent in the hall as teenagers walk past me their flapping mouths making no sound. I keep walking by myself surrounded by people. My lungs are tight and I feel dizzy. Am I having a panic attack? Maybe, I haven't taken my pills in three days. I have some disorder and a couple of syndromes. They are all the kind of words you need to go to college to say and a P,H,D to understand. Then as suddenly as it came it's gone. I can hear again and I'm not dizzy any more.
I need to get to class but I go to the bathroom first to take a piss. I open the door and see Neji washing his hands. I turn around immediately to leave but instead of the hallway I walk into a chest. I look up and see red eyes. "Leaving so soon Gaara-kun" Itachi says with a voice oozing fake sweetness. his red eyes locked onto mien. He pushes me back into the bath room.
"Look what I found Neji, A stray." He says like I'm a kitten he found. "What every shall I do with it?" the older teen asks with that sweet voice that is so very dangerous. Like the smell of a vinous fly trap, so sweet and alluring that the fly doesn't know its in trouble till it's too late. "I could think of something" offers Neji with a look in his eyes I do not like, as he locks the door.
Now I'm no stranger to pain but that doesn't mean I particularly like it. I avoid it when I can but most of the time it finds me any way. In this case there isn't much I can do other than wait for it to be over. But like I said I'm used to this.
Itachi throws me down on the filthy bathroom floor. Neji just leans agents the door patiently awaiting his turn. Itachi's red eyes lock on mien and I cant move. Like a mouse hypnotized by a snake, seeing the strake coming but being unable to do any thing. "I'll teach you some respect." His voice is perfectly calm almost polite. Then his boot connects with my noise. It doesn't break but it starts to bleed. He grabs the front of my shirt and pulls me up to hit me a few times in the head and stomach. The he drops me.
"I'm bored" says the boy with red eyes "your turn". "about time" Neji says as he walks towards me from his place at the door. I just lay there on the floor watching my blood dance in little pools next to me. Waiting for more to come out and join them. A hard kick to my side, then my head, a punch to my noise making the back of my head hit the wall hard.
With one last kick to my stomach Neji walk to the door and him and Itachi leave. But not before he says "next time keep your noise out of other peoples biasness freak". Then they leave me and my blood on the filthy bathroom floor. I lay there for a minute before I get up to clean myself up. I wash the blood from my noise and shirt as best I can. Then I cheek my self. My noise hurts like hell but it's not broken. I think a tooth is a little lose now though but it didn't fall out. I finish cleaning myself then turn to the bathroom itself. I get some paper towels and wipe up the pretty little blood pools.
I look at the clock. I missed half of this period, so I deicide to skip the rest and just stay in the bathroom till next. I find my backpack under one of the sinks. Then I sit in one of the less disgusting stalls.
You would think I'd be mad at being jumped in the bath room in the middle of school but it happens so much I just don't care any more. Beside Neji and Itachi do pretty much whatever they want around here. So even if I wanted to get even there would be no way to. All the teachers always take there side on everything cause there families both give a lot of money to the school, plus Neji is a star athlete so who is going to give him detention?
I get out my note book and start to draw Neji and Itachi surfing various fates, Impalement, burning alive, eaten by scarabs. Things like that. I can't draw though so you probably wouldn't be able to tell that what looks like a scribble is actually Neji's head on a pike. Or that the blob looking thing is Itachi on fire.
The bell rings but I don't get up, not right away any way. I finish the squiggle that is actually Itachi being eaten by a bear then put my note book back in my backpack. I get up to leave and go to class but as I go to the door Naruto walks in.
"Hey Gaara" the blond idiot say cheerfully. Completely unaware or what happed here half an hour ago. "Hn" my fall back response. "So you and Haku are gona hang out today huh?" says the blond with wiggling eye brows. "Yeah, So?" again my answers are short and simple the less words the better. "What are you guys doing?" "What do you care." I say a little defensive because I have no idea. "He's my brother." The blond says simply "and I want to know what he's doing on his date." Again with the wiggling eye brows, Wait did he say date? Oh my god is it a date? What the hell did I agree to? Naruto must have seen the horror on my face cause then he said. "I'm just kidding Gaara jeez." "I should kill you baka." I say in a cold emotionless voice. "God it was just a joke, chill." The idiot says sounding a little sacred. "whatever." I say then leave for class.
I can't focus at all for the rest of my classes all I can think about is Haku and me. What are we going to do? Where are we going to go? My mind is swimming with questions. What am I going to do? What should I say? God so much could go wrong. Why did I agree to this? I should have said no and gone home and watched TV all day, maybe even done some homework.
"Mister sabaku are you with us?" my teacher says from the front of the classroom sounding very annoyed. I don't even know what class I'm in right now I've been so buys thinking of every thing that could possibly go wrong today. Well let's see its kakashi-sensei so I must be in English class. I stare at him for a moment. He must have asked me a question or he wouldn't be talking to me. "What?" I say sounding bored. "Do you know the answer or not?" he says sounding very annoyed as the whole class starts to laugh quietly. "I have no idea" I say then go back to doodling on my note book.
School finally ends and I go to wait for Haku out front. I see Naruto walking home with Hinata, His arm around her shoulder this time. I wander if their a couple now? Not that I really care about Naruto's love life. But I know that Hinata has liked him since grade school. Again I don't care just wandering.
I wish Haku would hurry its cold out. I only have a hoodie on and its snowing. What is taking him so long? He probably realized I'm a freak and not worth his time. I knew it would happen eventually, it always does. I should just walk home now. He's not coming and I don't know why I ever thought he would. Nobody likes me. And why should they? I'm not funny, or smart, or good looking, or any thing good. The list of things I'm not is very long. I could go on and on and never get through it. There is a list of things I am and it's very short. I am a killer. I am a loser. I am alone. This is the list of what I am.
The first thing on the list is the most important. I have killed and the blood never goes away. My hand reaches to my forehead my finger tips tracing the old scar. You can't see it unless you know what to look for but you can feel it. The way the skin rises just enough so you can feel the difference. If you look close enough you can see the skin that's whiter then the rest to form the crudely carved kanji. Love the thing I don't have or want.
I hear some one behind me and quickly move my hand and turn. I see Haku walking toward me with the grace that he was born with. His steps shot and fast. His walk reminds me of a geisha.
"Hey Gaara-kun" he says smiling from ear to ear. "Hi Haku" I say looking at the ground. That strange feeling in my stomach form before back once again. "Well lets not stand around in the cold lets get going" he says with another smile and we start to walk. It's quit for the most part. Haku talks I listen and occasionally add some thing to the conversation. I guess he did want to spend the day with me. I was just being paranoid because I haven't taken my pills in three days.
As we walk I start to wander where we are going. I want to ask but Haku is talking and I don't want to interrupt him. I wait till there is a pause. "So where are we going anyway?" I ask. He looks at me and I quickly look away. "It's a surprise" he says. I stop walking, I do not like surprises. He stops when he sees that I'm not beside him any more. "Come on Gaara-kun! It's a good surprise I promise" he says quickly and takes my hand leading me away to what ever surprise he has in store. Maybe it will be a good surprise.
A/N: Well I'm happy with this chapter. It's a little crazy but Gaara has a disorder and a few syndromes so what do you expect. I'm really not sure where Haku is taking Gaara so give me some suggestions and I might use them XD oh and I redid the first couple chapters so you might want to go read the new and improved versions. Oh and you'll never guess who show up next chapter ;). Ja ne.
