Sorry for the long time my updates take :( I am very busy :( But I hope you will still like the update even though I have changed the writing style to this. If you don't like, I can continue the old way! :)

A bit drama won't hurt, right? Drama that makes them only stronger together ;)


Anastasia's POV

One amazing month ( even a bit more ) . The best month of my life. The next morning after my birthday we decided to try to be together. We have been going out for dates, last week he even took me with him to Portland, with his helicopter. He has been so sweet and nice, we have been spending nights together, making love to each other. It has been perfect.

My phone starts ringing, Christian must be here already. I get out of my apartment, knowing Christian must be waiting for me.

" Already on my way. " I say as I answer Christian's call.

" Ana, I am so sorry I think I can't make it now, I am stuck in the office . But I will get there as soon as I can , okay? " Oh, he can't make it.

" I will call Sawyer, no problem, Christian. Will you be late or won't be there at all? "

" I already called him, he is waiting for you baby, I will be late, I am sorry Ana, I will make it up to you I promise. " My sweet Christian, already managed everything for me.

" It is okay, I can't wait to see you. " I say , getting out of the lift, walking to my car.

" Me too, Ana. I will see you soon, now I need to finish some business, okay? "

" Okay. " Sawyer starts driving me to Dr. Greene's office.

That's something I will never be able to take away from him I guess - business. And his past. He hasn't told me much since the night he was drunk, but I know there is more. And he hasn't told me anything about his lifestyle he used to have. He tells me that there is no matter what he did before because he has started a new life, but I want to know.

" Miss, we have arrived. " We get in the building and to Dr. Greene's office.

" Anastasia Steele? " She asks as I get in.

" Yes, Christian should arrive soon too. " I tell her as she sets up everything for my first ultrasound.

" Well, do you want to wait or we can start? " She asks, pointing to the huge chair.

" We can start,I think. " I say sitting down there, rolling up my blouse in excitement. I can't believe I am already eight weeks pregnant, my body has changed a bit but still no morning sickness thanks God.

" It will be a bit cold. " She says before the cold gel gets to my skin. No matter hot or cold, I want to see my little baby. Our little baby. I didn't think I would get so excited over this, I am so young and he still seems distant when we talk about my pregnancy but I already love this little child.

She turns on the monitor and I can something in her eyes that it is not alright.

" You had the procedure eight weeks ago. " She says, looking through some papers which could be something about my health.

" Yes, is something wrong? " I ask,really worried.

" The procedure didn't work. " Oh God, where is Christian? Why isn't he here yet? Tears start to fill my eyes, but the doctor speaks again and it changes everything.

" But you are clearly about four or five weeks pregnant, Anastasia. " Her words have brought life in my eyes again.

" But the test I did after the procedure, it was positive. "

" Tests can be wrong. How have you been feeling lately? "

" I've been doing good, I've noticed my breasts are a bit bigger and I somehow want to eat more I wanted before. " I tell her, still in shock at the news. Four or five weeks, it can be only our first time, my first time. After that we only had sex more than a week later since we decided not to rush anything. It means I am really having his baby, I am really pregnant from him , the feeling is now different knowing Christian really was in the process of making this baby.

We go through other questions and I excuse myself for a minute to call Christian, I need him here.

" Grey Enterprises Holdings, what can I do for you? "

" I need to talk to Christian, tell him it is Anastasia, his girlfriend. " I kinda proudly say.

" I am sorry, Mr. Grey is out for lunch. "


Christian's POV

I am such a jerk. I told Anastasia lies. I am scared, still scared. I was actually free to go to Dr. Greene's appointment today but I couldn't. What if I see the child and don't like it? I am not ready for a baby. I try to hide it but I can't.

I walk in the clinic and see Anastasia walking to the exit, I rush to her.

" Ana, I am sorry I couldn't make it. " I say but she ignores me.

" Anastasia, please. " I tell her as I try to take her hand.

" Did you have a great lunch? " Shit, she knows.

" Ana, look I am sorry. "

" Sorry you missed your child's first doctor's appointment on purpose? " Okay, I start feeling guilty.

" Ana, it won't happen again. " I open the door for her as we walk out of the clinic. " Can we go to my place and talk about everything there? "

" No we can't. You know how much I suffered today? No! You chose to think of something so you don't have to be there and feel as a father. This was very not manly. "

" Yes, I know! But when I decided you should be pregnant I didn't think I would really have to be there for you. We had our contract , our rules. As you see we haven't been paying notice to our formal relationship. " I say in anger. Shit, she turns to me so she is facing me .

" I guess you will have to make new rules. "

" What do you mean with that? " I ask her now seriously.

" The procedure didn't work then. I am not two months pregnant as I was supposed to be now. "

" Ana, but maybe this is better, that we can wait now until we decide on having kids. It will be easier, really. "

" You don't want a kid now? " She asks me with tears in her eyes. No, I am scared.

" I would like to wait. " I tell her honestly. " Say something, Anastasia. We will change the rules,everything, Ana. "

" Think of the rules you want me to do if I am knocked up by you in the natural way. Can I call you? Can I touch you ? Am I allowed to kiss you? "

knocked up by you in the natural way Oh, shit.. So she is pregnant. But her next words hurt more. Is she laughing at me? About my want of being not touched? That was harsh, she knows that we had forgotten about the contract the past month. It didn't matter, we had each other, why is she now like this?

" I will think about them. " I say angrily and start walking to my car. Right now, I am very disappointed in her .

" Christian! " She yells after me but I keep going, it hurt.


Anastasia's POV

I am in tears as I walk in my apartment. I don't know what happened to me but since he didn't come and I got to know that he is out for lunch not working hard, I got really angry. Probably my hormones started showing out too, because I feel really guilty now for being so rude to him. Sawyer has gone to a shop to get me some sweets since that's what makes me feel better. I want to take a bath, I want to calm down it is not good for the baby. The baby he doesn't even want. I take my phone and get to my bathroom,I will have to call him. He did bad things but I wasn't better. How stupid I could be when I laughed about touching him?

" Christian, I am so sorry I didn't me- "

" I thought there was a rule of no calls when there is nothing important. "

" Christian, I'm sorry. " I say but he has already hung up. Oh God, he is really angry this time, I try to call him again but he doesn't answer.

As I give up I am about to walk out of the bathroom but I almost scream as I see a woman in my apartment walking with a gun in her hands. I immediately get back in the bathroom, I try to call Christian again but he still doesn't answer me. Christian, please.

Christian, there is someone in my apartment. She has a gun. P.S. I love you

I quickly send the message , telling him I love him in the end. I am so scared now, what if she kills me? I want to text Sawyer but I freeze as my plans are distracted by the woman with the gun, standing in front of me.

" Don't move. " She says and my phone slips out of my hands. This is the same woman I met at the manicure , this is Christian's ex submissive .

" Don't kill me please. " I manage to say, tears falling down my cheeks.

" Why did he choose you? " She walks to me, her gun still in my direction.

" Do you think he loves you? He doesn't love anyone! " She starts yelling at me. She seems to be shaking, she is not controlling herself.

" Do you want a glass of water? " I try to stay calm hoping Sawyer would arrive soon or maybe there is a slight chance Christian still wants to have something with me and he would get here.

" Yes. " She says, her mouth dry. I slowly get to the kitchen, followed by her. I fill her a glass of water and let her drink it, the gun still pointed at me. I will die probably. Me and the baby both will die. I haven't done so much in my life, I haven't said my goodbyes.

" Why you? " She seems to be lost, broken.

" You can't tell your heart what to do. " I quietly say, trying to be her friend. She is the one with a gun in her hands now.

" He said he would never love anyone, he said he would never want anything more. " She is crying now, getting closer to me. " It will help you, sonner or later he would leave you. I can help you end this now. " Oh my God, she will kill me any moment.

" We can end it other ways too. " I say, please, not this way, please.

" You can't. You will never forget him, you will want him back all your life. " She is pointing the gun right at my head now, and it seems she is about to kill me when suddenly out of nowhere Christian gets her away from me. Oh my God, he is my prince, my charming life saver.

But then there is a gunshot. The gun falls on the ground but I can just look at Christian, if he is okay.

In a minute the door opens again and Sawyer is here, he takes the woman away from Christian and I look at him, he is okay.

" Christian.. " I rush to him, hugging him, hoping he is alright. " I am so sorry .. " I cry into his white shirt, not caring if I ruin it.

" Ana, I am the one who is sorry. You could have died, I could have lost you and the child.. Let's don't ever argue again, I love you. " He says, holding me to his body.

" I love you too. " We hadn't said those three words again since our first night together since we wanted to take it slow. But it feels so right now to be in his arms and hear those three words.

" What now, Christian? Please, no rules, let's just be together. "

" Move in with me. I can't let anything bad happen to you again. Go home with me now, you will have your stuff moved the next days. "

Move in? He still wants me after this, he still wants to be with me. It doesn't matter we wanted to take it slow, I want to live with him, I love him.

" Get me away from here, please. " I want to get out of here as fast as I can.


Christian's POV

As soon as we had answered the questions the police had asked us, we drove back to my place. As we have eaten the dinner I decide to show her the whole place. I show her the second floor with guest bedrooms, then the library which she really likes, my office, she already knows my bedroom, and then I show her the one place she needs to see.

" I don't want you to be scared of this. This is what I was . " I say and unlock the door to my Playroom. Her eyes widen in shock as we step in. At first she seems really shocked but then she even starts to explore the room.

" What do they do here? "

" Here, I am their sir and they just let me do what I want. They are not allowed to speak unless I let them, they are not allowed to touch me, kiss me, do anything unless I ask them. Both me and them get the pleasure if they are good. " I explain her as she sits on the red bed.

She still seems to be exploring the room but I start to get embarrassed here.

" Can we go now? " I ask nervously. What if she leaves me after this?

" Yes.. " She says still glancing around the room.

" I need to do some calls and stuff but you can do whatever you want, baby. This is your home now. "


Anastasia's POV

I can't say I liked it but I am curious about his Playroom. And I want him to see that I am flexible. That woman's words made me think. He gives me everything but what do I give him?

I look in the mirror of his bathroom and check myself. My hair is in a bun, I am wearing nothing but my underwear. I look at myself for the final time before taking my phone and going to the Playroom. I see that there is no one in the way so I quickly run to the dark room , not being noticed. I explore everything again before I decide to finally invite Christian.

An almost naked girl waiting in your Playroom. ;)

I end the message and lie on the bed, waiting for Christian to arrive. Only about a minute passes until Christian is opening the door and glancing around the room, finally noticing me.

" Ana, what are you doing here? " We walk to each other and I start unbuttoning his shirt.

" I hope I am about to have sex with you. "

" Ana, wait, this is not where you belong, no. " Christian stops me, making me feel a bit sad and relieved at the same time. " I don't want to fuck you. Or do anything with you here. You are not one of those gold digging whores, Anastasia. You are my girlfriend. I want to have sex with you in our bed, in our kitchen, in our bath, anywhere but here. " I am ashamed of myself now, I thought he would want me to do this as his subs did but.. I look down at myself in shame but he takes me in his arms and brings me to his , or now our bedroom as he said.

" We are going to make love not fuck, Ana. " He says and puts me on his bed, giving me sweet kisses. He is amazing.

Truly amazing. Perfect. Wonderful. Christian Grey.