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Ewon: you forget that the line breaks makes it look like there are more words counted than there actually is.
In the silence of the room, two teens slept under the flipped stained covers. Roxas was able to wake Axel up enough to remove the blanket from underneath his body. The blond then flipped it over to hide the blood stains from Axel's sight, in case the redhead woke before him. The two were spooning, with Axel's arm wrapped around Roxas' waist. His hand on the blond's belly, while Roxas' own hand was curled to his own chest.
The blond was on the edge of consciousness when he felt something hard between his ass cheeks, on the outside. The blond blinked his blurry eyes, trying to adjust to the light coming in from the window. He frowned to see that he wasn't dreaming anything. Last night did happen and the blond knew he needed to get out of there soon. And yet the warmth Axel's body gave him, made Roxas want to roll over and cuddle the older teen.
That thought was short lived as Axel groaned and buried his face against the back of Roxas' neck. Roxas stiffened, unknown fear coursing through his body like that of growing flames.
"Mmm...wha?" Axel muttered as he slowly woke up, "Where am I? Roxas?" The redhead flinched as the back of his eyes ached and his head spun. He was definitely hung-over. The hazy and blank spots in his memory helped prove his point.
Roxas moved himself away from Axel so he could sit up and look down at the other teen, but a sharp pain sent a jolt down his body, making him wince. That didn't go unnoticed by Axel.
The taller teen went to sit up as well but the blanket was hiding his hardness from Roxas's gaze, which Axel felt was best. He didn't think the blond would enjoy seeing it. But his member felt freer, like there was nothing containing him, "Ah give me a minute." Axel said as he lifted the blanket up only to see he was completely naked.
Panicked green eyes looked towards blue, "Roxas, what happened last night?"
Roxas held his breath as he looked away from Axel's eyes. His heart pounded against his chest as he knew he was right about Axel not remembering. "I'm sorry." He said, his voice still horsed from their activities the night before. "I'm so sorry."
"Roxas what happened?" Axel's voice was tight and serious, Roxas had never heard his best friend use that tone before, "Fuck, what will I tell Xion? And your dad will kill me once he sees you!" The redhead remarked as he took in the bruised body in front of him. Poor Roxas was covered in hickeys, and Axel had a feeling there was more under the blanket that covered Roxas's hips and legs.
Roxas gulped and shook his head. He felt horrible and yet it was really Axel's fault to begin with. Yet the blond couldn't bring himself to tell Axel what he, himself, had done to Roxas' body. He knew his friend would hate himself if he found out. "I'll tell him someone else did this...you don't have any marks so it's up to you if you tell her or not but..." Roxas paused and looked up into worried, mad eyes. "I'm really sorry Axel. You were drunk and I tried to...I'm so sorry."
The blond just couldn't tell Axel it was the redhead's fault. He didn't know why, he just couldn't. "I'm sorry." He said, taking all the blame.
Axel's guarded demeanor dropped. He couldn't stay mad at Roxas, even if he felt betrayed and violated, "It doesn't feel right not to tell her. I'm sorry Roxas, I just can't stay with you right now." With that said, Axel got up from the bed and quickly dressed himself. When he left the room, he made sure to quietly close the door since it seemed everyone who stayed the night were still sleeping off their long night. Plus the loud noise of the door would just aggravate his hangover more.
Axel successfully made it out of the house without being stopped by anyone to ask where he had disappeared to during the night with Roxas. Once out of the house, the redhead bolted down the street, wanting to get home with the hopes that his father had drank too much during the night and would be passed out for the rest of the day, giving Axel time to sleep his own aching body and mind.
Back in the room, Roxas stared at his lap, not daring to move until he was sure he felt nothing emotional about what happened. It wasn't as bad as he thought it would be but he still felt guilt eating away at him. He didn't know what was worse, lying to Axel about the night before, or having Axel leave him like that without thinking of his feelings.
Roxas exhaled and held his breath as he tuned to swing his legs over the bed. The blond braced himself when stood and fell to his hands and knees, hissing at the pain he felt. He crawled in search of his clothes, dressing and holding back a groan from standing up. Roxas stared at the blanket and thought about taking it with him to clean, but the thought of walking down stairs and down to the washroom made Roxas skin crawl. Besides, plenty of people stayed the night and Kairi would never be able to tell who screwed in her bed from just stains. It wasn't like she could pay for DNA tests anyway. So with that in mind, Roxas left the room and eventually the house.
The walk home was agonizing. Roxas limped all the way home for an hour before he just collapsed on the living room floor with a tear stained face. It hurt too much and he was sure he was bleeding again. He was lucky that the one that found him was his father. The man didn't ask questions about the marks since Roxas looked like a broken mess. Though he would question him later. The blond was thankful because if it was his mother that found him, she wouldn't be able to shut her trap.
Cloud placed Roxas in bed and Roxas slept until the need for a shower ate at him. There, Roxas curled up in a ball and sobbed until he felt the need to sleep again. For the next week Roxas stayed in his room, not even contacting any of his friends until it was time for school.
Axel paced in front of his locker. Since the incident at Kairi's house the redhead couldn't work up the nerve to talk to Xion. His girlfriend kept messaging him, asking to be taken out on dates; Axel would always reply with either his father wanted him home, or he was contagious with the flu and worried about her health. The girl had bought it every time.
The last week of break had been torture. He would normally hide out in the basement watching random movies with the sound on low, hoping his dad couldn't hear him. But on a few occasions, he had gone to the kitchen for a snack or the flushing of the toilet after he used the bathroom would give him away, so his dad would force him to clean. And if he wasn't happy with the finished job, he would beat Axel till the redhead blacked out.
But now that break was over, Axel could move on with his life and talk to Xion to get the guilty feeling lifted from his shoulders. That was if she got to school on time.
"Axel?" Roxas called, slowly approaching the redhead in the hall. Roxas wasn't limping anymore and his hickeys were covered with a thick winter scarf, but his face was pale and his eyes had dark rings under them. Not to mention he looked slimmer than when Axel last saw him. Though to Roxas, the redhead looked pretty bad himself.
Axel's ears perked up at the sound of his name being called, but his heart dropped when he saw who it was. Roxas's appearance made the redhead's heart drop even more. The poor teen didn't deserve to be in a situation like this. He didn't deserve a friend like Axel.
Not wanting to face Roxas, the redhead turned tail and ran away. He didn't look back knowing that if he did, his guilt would come back full force and make him go back to Roxas. Class was going to start soon anyway.
Roxas frowned as he watched Axel take off running. The blond sighed and banged his head against the lockers, shutting his eyes while thinking about how much he may have screwed up. He felt like he really should just tell Axel the truth so the redhead knew what it was like to feel guilt and then have the other party just take off running.
"Roxas, why did Axel run off?" A small sweet voice asked the blond and when Roxas looked, his eyes widen in frozen pools of blue fear. Standing off to the side, was Xion with her head tilted to the side.
"Oh uh, hi Xion." Roxas said, standing up straighter when he faced the girl.
"So, you never answered my question: why did my boyfriend run away like his butt was on fire?" Xion placed her hands on her hips as she glared at the blond.
Roxas would have laughed at that but the glare was unnerving. Roxas sighed, shook his head, and shrugged. "If I really knew I'd tell you. He really likes you and I know he'll listen to you, so if you see him, will you tell him I really need to talk to him about something important?" Roxas asked as nicely as he could. He didn't want to deal with Xion if she was going to bite his head off.
"And what's the important thing?" She snapped.
"Something between men." Roxas said, holding back his own snarl.
Xion would have none of Roxas' nonsense. She wanted to know what relationship the two male teens had and she wanted to know now, "I have every right to know. Now tell me!"
Roxas glared at the girl, his eyes turned cold that it made Xion gulp. Yet she still didn't back down. "You know what? Forget it. I've had enough of you and your bitchy attuned toward me. I've done nothing to you, nothing! I'll find him myself." Roxas snapped and turned to walk away.
"Yeah well, how do I know you two aren't fucking on the side?" Xion screeched at the blond's retreating form, drawing all sorts of eyes in their direction.
"If you have so much doubt in Axel, then you don't deserve him!" Roxas growled, facing the girl once again. "Axel is as loyal as they come and for you to say that about him even once is enough to just-to just...ugh!" Roxas threw his hands up in frustration. "I'm done." He said and walked off.
Though his anger showed on the outside, his insides were freaking out because the girl was only half right.
"I never want to see you talking to him again. You hear me Strife!" Xion growled. She smirked to herself in victory as Roxas did nothing but flip her off and go running away.
Axel grunted as he slammed his tray on the table. School had been unbearable all day. He couldn't help but feel Roxas's eyes following him when he was out in the halls or when he was in their shared class.
But now it was lunch and he could finally relax. Or so he had hoped. There still was the matter of speaking to Xion about what had happened over New Years. Speaking of Xion, the raven haired girl decided to take that moment and sit next to him.
"Hello Axel. I'm glad you're feeling better." Axel turned to reply to the girl, but he soon found himself with a lap full of Xion with her lips crushed against his, "I missed you." She said as she pulled away from the redhead.
"I missed you too." Axel panted as he tried to get his breath back. But before he could regain it, Xion was back on him. Her tongue delved deep in his mouth. If the teachers were doing their job and not slacking off, Axel was sure they'd get detention for PDA.
The sound of a tray dropping to the floor was what made Axel pull away, green meet wide blue belonging to Roxas. The blond was frozen stiff as he saw the couple, though he should have known they would do something like that since they were together.
"Roxas what's wrong?" Naminé asked coming up behind him and stared ahead. "Oh..."
Xion growled a bit when she noticed Axel paying Roxas more attention than her. She was his girlfriend dammit! Small hands grabbed Axel by the chin and pulled him closer, "I'm not done with you yet." She purred as she straddled Axel's lap to make herself more comfortable.
Out of instinct Axel grabbed onto Xion's hips and held her close as their lips connected again. It didn't take long for Axel to start feeling a bit hot.
"Oh Axel, quit it, you're poking me." The girl all but moaned as she looked over her shoulder to glare at Roxas with a smirk on her face. Check and mate.
Roxas clenched his fist ready to knock the girl off. It hurt him to see them like that and know that Axel was getting turned on. Roxas wanted to shout at Axel and tell him to go fuck himself. He wanted to yell the truth and say he better not rape her too.
But before he could do anything, Naminé walked past him with her hands on her hips. "Okay I think that's enough PDA, don't you think? Nobody wants to see this and before you say we don't have to look, we can all hear it. You're making a scene and I would hate to see you, Xion, become the new school whore. Come on Axel, I you're better than this." Naminé said gesturing to the their display but really meaning Xion herself.
Axel looked down at the ground in embarrassment, but so what? Naminé was probably doing things just like this with Roxas. Axel felt his anger rise and right before he could tell the blond off, Xion decided to speak up.
"What's it to you Miss Goody-Two-Shoes?" Her arms tightened around Axel's neck in a possessive way, "Quit acting all innocent. I bet you're grades are so good because you're an apple polisher with all the male teachers."
"Xion!" Axel tried to scold his girlfriend but he knew it was no use.
Naminé laughed a laugh that neither Roxas nor Axel have ever heard before. It was like a cackle that really didn't fit the blond girl at all. "You know what they say, it takes one to know one."
Someone made a cat call and another called for a cat fight as the crowd all oohed. Roxas for one was taken aback. Even their friends were startled by the comment.
"And frankly, I don't need to fuck a teacher to get good grades. I think our hair color must be mixed up or something." Naminé taunted, making a blond joke at Xion who's face flushed.
Xion huffed as she glared daggers at Naminé. With grace she unmounted Axel so she was standing toe and toe with the blond girl. She raised her hand but before it could come down on Naminé, someone stepped in the way, making her slap the wrong blond.
Naminé stumbled and gasped as Roxas cheek was an angry red in the shape of Xion's hand. Roxas stared coldly at the girl and said in a low harsh whisper. "Don't you ever try to hurt my friends again."
"Roxas." Kairi whispered, taking Naminé's hand as she and Sora and Riku made their way to the front of the crowd.
"Why did you get in the way?" Naminé demanded, behind held back by her friend.
"So you just want her to hit you?" Roxas snapped, his eyes tired and dull. The mark on his face was still shining from the smaller girl's slap. It stung and Roxas was a little surprised at how hard the impact was. That or he should really start eating again to gain some of his fat back on his cheek.
"I can defend myself!" Naminé snarled. "She has no right to just kis-
"Shut up!" Roxas barked, shutting the girl up.
"Oh look at Naminé, needing her boyfriend to come defend her." Xion taunted as she looked between the two blonds, ignoring the glares from Roxas and Naminé's other friends.
Axel sat back and watched everything go down with wide eyes. He didn't expect this to happen, but he didn't know how to intervene without someone getting mad at him. So he sat back and hoped nothing escalated even more.
"At least I have someone to defend me! Look at Axel, he's just sitting there you fucking slut!" Naminé barked and growled when Kairi held her back.
Axel took that as his cue to defend his girlfriend, "Naminé just shut up. This whole feud is stupid. We'll stop making out where you guys can see us if that makes you feel better. There happy? Let's get back to our own tables now." He reached out and grabbed for Xion to pull her back to him, but the raven haired teen shrugged him off.
"No. Not until this bitch stops butting into our business." But to Axel's surprise, Xion didn't point at Naminé. She was pointing at a shocked Roxas.
"What the hell have I ever done to but in?" Roxas groaned. "You need to grow the fuck up and stop being such a fucking two faces bitch! I'm so sick and tired of you give me the stink eye whenever Axel's not around. If you have a problem with me just say it god damn it!
And fuck you Axel! All Naminé was doing was keeping you from getting in trouble! But by all means, get the detention and let your dad beat you again for it!" Roxas yelled it before he even realized what he just said. He gasped along with their friends, all eyes, including Xion's landed on Axel.
Axel felt his face heat up, but not in embarrassment, in anger. Before he even knew what he was doing, Axel punched Roxas right on the red mark on his cheek.
The blond went to the ground almost in an instant and Axel straddled his waist with fist full of his shirt. His knees pressed into Roxas's side so tight they left bruises. The redhead lifted Roxas by his chest and let him drop to the ground with a satisfying thud.
"Roxas!" Naminé screamed.
Roxas gasped and coughed from the pressure on his sides. The blond stared up at Axel with wide blue eyes and blood dripping from his lip when he bit it on impact. He knew he made a mistake, but Roxas wasn't just going to let himself be beat up. The blond bucked his hips and forced Axel to roll over with him. He lay between Axel's legs as he tried to hit his face back.
However, Roxas made the mistake of not securing Axel's arms. Said teen grabbed the blond's fist and used the momentum to make Roxas punch the hard ground with all his might making him yelp in pain.
The redhead pushed Roxas off of him and stood up so he was towering over the blond. He kicked at him a couple of times before saying in a low malicious tone, "Never talk about my father again." He felt strong hands grab him by the arms and force them behind his back, probably Riku, as Sora knelt by Roxas and pulled him to his chest. Two sets of watery blue eyes glaring up at him. It was then that Axel's mind cleared and he realized what he had just done.
Sora helped Roxas up and Roxas just stared up at Axel. "Fuck you." Roxas muttered before running off with Naminé and Kairi following after him.
"I don't know what's going in between you guys, but it needs to be fixed." Sora said shaking his in disapproval at the way they both behaved.
"Really Ax, what's wrong with you?" Riku asked, letting him go. "You've changed."
"People change." Xion said only to get a glare from both Sora and Riku.
"I haven't changed." Axel defended himself as he looked between Xion and his friends, "My dad's just a sore subject and Roxas knows I don't like anything about him being brought up. Especially that." He spat out the last part before turning on his heel and storming out of the cafeteria.
Roxas slammed himself to the floor outside the school, under a tree. He brought up one knee and rested his arm on it while the other leg was lay straight out in front of him. He felt like shit in more ways than one. That and his face hurt along with a broken hand, bloody lip, sore head, back, and ribs. How was he going to explain that to his parents?
"Here, let me clean you up." Kairi offered as she poured some water from her bottle onto a handkerchief. She sat down next to Roxas and started to whip his face of blood and any other grime that ended up there from rolling around on the floor.
Naminé took a seat on Roxas's other side. She grabbed the boy's uninjured hand and gave it a light squeeze, "Roxas, what was that about Axel's dad?" She asked in a soothing voice.
"Thank you." Roxas said to Kairi as she examined his other hand. The blond winced as she actually ripped her long skirt and wrapped the fabric around his hands.
"You need to see a doctor." Kairi said to which Roxas nodded.
"Please don't ask Naminé. I don't want to talk about more than I already have..."
"But Roxas-" Naminé started until Kairi shushed her and pointed to Roxas sorrowful face.
Roxas took a deep breath and shut his eyes. He didn't care that Kairi was there at the moment. He really needed to speak. "Looks like you have to stop cheering for me Naminé." And with that the blond remained completely quiet. The girls couldn't even get a word out of him until it was time to go back to class. Which thanks to the new schedules, had him in Axel's classes for the rest of the day.
Axel yawned as he slammed his locker shut. It had been a long week of avoiding Roxas and his old friends, but the redhead thought he had it down. He ate outside with Xion during lunch, and sat in the back corner of the classes he had with his friends. But today he wasn't so lucky.
"Axel!" Roxas called him, marching up to him. The blond of course looked like hell. His hand had a cast on it and his face was bruised pretty badly. The blond saw Axel was ready to bolt so Roxas said the only thing he could think of to keep him to stay. "Stopping being a girl and just listen to me, please?!"
Axel didn't feel like saying a comeback to the girl comment. Instead he leaned against his locker and waited for the blond to come closer. It wasn't until Roxas was in front of him did Axel realize the extent of the damage he had inflicted on the poor teen. He wanted to reach out and comfort his best friend, but pride made him stop and just glare down at Roxas, "What do you want?"
Roxas glared back really wanting to snap at him, but that would do more harm than good. "I'm sorry, but not for what happened in the cafeteria. It's about New Year's." Roxas whispered looked down at their feet. He was having a hard time trying to think of a way to say what happened without actually saying it. "Well I'm sorry about what I said about your dad too..." He said as an afterthought.
Axel frowned, brows furrowing as he thought to his sleepless nights. "You're hiding something from me, aren't you? I know you are because I keep having these dreams about what may or may not have happened. So tell me the truth instead of just saying how sorry you are." After a heartbeat Axel added with a glare. "And never talk about my dad again. You know I don't want people knowing. Fuck Roxas!" The redhead threw his arms in the air in frustration, completely ignoring the apology.
"Don't you think I know that?!" Roxas raised his voice a little. He chewed his sore lip before taking a deep breath. "I don't think you want to know what happened. It was a mistake so let's pretend nothing happened. That's all I wanted to say."
"Well I can't forget about it and I know the dreams won't stop until I know the truth." Axel growled as he tried to intimate Roxas by making himself look bigger.
Roxas heart raced as he shook his head and took a step back. "Please don't make me say it?" Roxas begged, his eyes starting to tear up from the very word on the tip of his tongue.
"Roxas." Axel toned his voice down to sound more calm even if he was frantic to know the answer, "Did I rape you?" He prayed his dreams were wrong and that wasn't the case. And if it was, he would never be able to forgive himself.
Roxas took another step back as the tears began to flow. He opened his mouth, only to choke on his words. The look on Axel's face hurt him so he forced himself to make another lie up to save him from the guilt. "No, I-I did..."
Axel looked down at Roxas and took in his trembling form and teary eyes. And his tell was showing too. Whenever Roxas lied, he would scratch at his wrist three times. Axel never pointed this out to the blond knowing it would come in handy, like right now, "You're lying. You'd never take advantage of me regardless of what was going on. Now tell me the truth."
Roxas took another step back as Axel took one toward him. "It wasn't...exactly rape." Roxas breathe out, gulping a lump in his throat. "It would have been if I didn't give in like I did but uh." Roxas looked away, his cheeks turning pink from the memory. "Then again it..." He trailed off not wanting to tell Axel how he hurt him; how he made him bleed as the blond's ass was still healing from that.
"Then again it..." Axel said trying to get Roxas to finish his sentence. He was getting annoyed by Roxas's timid act.
Roxas closed his eyes and just let it all out. "It sure felt like rape!" He cried taking another step away from Axel as the tears ran down his face. "It hurt so much but you won't stop. I'm still in pain from it and it hurts even more that you can't even remember. And then you just left me there to walk home with that pain."
"You made me bleed." Roxas whispered, backing into a wall, and slid against it to the ground with his face in his hands.
Axel froze. His dreams were right. Everything he's been fearing over the past couple of weeks were true. He was about to fall to the ground to pull Roxas into a hug and tell him how sorry he was and that he never meant for them both to lose their virginities that way; before he could, a shrill call of his name grabbed both teen's attention.
Xion stood not even five feet away. Her face read murder and for a moment, Axel believed she would kill him. The girl stormed over to Axel and slapped him across the face so hard the impact echoed down the hall. The redhead was in shock. He hadn't expected that to happen. He also didn't expect Roxas to get the same treatment, but she definitely hit him harder than Axel.
"I can't believe you cheated on me with a guy!" Xion wailed as she looked at Axel with disgust. Without another word the girl stormed off down the hall and out the school doors.
Axel, not knowing what to do, ran after his girlfriend wanting to calm her down. He didn't know how he felt being around Roxas anymore, now knowing what terrible things he had done to the poor boy.
Roxas watched them go and he just felt his heart snap as his bruise stung him. Though it was nothing compared to the pain in his chest. "So...you really like her more then?" Roxas whispered to no one as his heart ripped to pieces. He didn't want to see Axel after that. The blond got up and went to see a counselor about changing his schedule. So it was sure to keep him away from Axel.
Ewon: made me cry a little DX
Leven: Just a little? –sobs uncontrollably-
