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This is my vice
Chapter seven
Juvia's POV
Where was I? The last time I remember anything, I was helping Gajeel-kun and Midnight-kun with their training while they battled it out against each other. Oh now I remembered! I Passed out because the spell was doing something to my mind and I just had to shut down.
"Oh, so now you finally decide to wake up. You're missing precious training time you know. I hate them all. My brother's and sister never did care about me and now it's manifesting through you. You can see how they're all training to get bet stronger while they just hinder your training more and more by using you to supervise them while you use that spell. Let me tell you something Juvia that stupid spell you're using isn't for us. Good and evil can't co-exist together. The better you know that, the less you can care for the others and you stop using that cursed spell."
Envy then materialised in front of me as me. I learnt that this had happened to everyone else, so it wasn't just Envy using her powers of transformation. She sneered at me hard and I was just wondering what on earth I had done wrong. "Juvia just doesn't want to be envious anymore." It came out weakly that it just made Envy cackle at me. I was already an insecure person and the fact that Envy looked like me while saying these things made matters a whole lot worse for me.
"Just shut up you worthless human! You haven't been around for four centuries like I have! You haven't lived long enough to see the pain that I go through and quite frankly I've had enough of it! You should just leave them to let their sins rot their brains while we become stronger than them! Isn't that what you want? To be strong again, to gain the love of your life, the one you call Gray-sama? Succumbing to everyone's will won't cut it. I enjoyed it more when Succubus Juvia had taken over."
Juvia started gasping as she held her head, trying to ignore the words of Envy. Envy was right. Lucy shouldn't be seen as the strong one, it should be me! Gray shouldn't look at any other girl but me! The others didn't deserve such kindness of mine while they trained so hard!
"Now you understand don't you. That together, we could become so powerful, make them all pay-! What in the name of Zeref are you doing?!" I hugged the crap out of envy while tears poured down my face. "Juvia understands envy's pain. Envy has always been alone, people looking down on her. Yes Juvia wants to be strong but not with hate on her heart! That will cause more pain for both Juvia and envy!"
I felt some tears drop onto my hair and when I looked up, there were black tears falling down from Envy's eyes. "You stupid human, making me feel such weak emotions." Even though she said this, I could hear that the bitterness within her tone was now gone. I pulled away from her and I found that I was only crying out of my right eye while Envy cried out of her left eye. My tears were bright white and her tears were completely black.
"Juvia doesn't understand, what is this supposed to mean?" No matter how many times I tried to wipe the tears, they kept on falling. Then suddenly, the scenery changed and we were standing outside while it was raining. But the rain was all white and black. I was so confused! "Envy, what is this supposed to mean?!"
She smiled at me as she looked up and let herself be drenched in the weird rain that was pouring down. "We're becoming one, Juvia. Not in a bad way of course. It just means that you've saved me. Yes, you're still cursed and that I'm still a demon, but you've shown me something that no one or any of my other hosts have ever shown. You've shown me that you care for me. That's all I've ever wanted, what you've ever wanted! We just want people to care for us. Fairy Tail do care for you Juvia, and now you care about me. Thank you."
She smiled and slowly from her other eye, tears started falling from them too, only they were white. I smiled at her happily. I felt the urge to hug her, but she still had more to say. "Now thanks to you, you've unlocked my full potential. After all this time, I've been envious of not having enough power of my own, but thanks to you and the words from Lust's host, I realise that I do have my own strength and power! So here, use as much of it and I can at least say that I help my host's life and not destroy it, even though you're going to destroy me."
An orb appeared in her hands and it was boiling with so much dark energy, yet there was a calm aura surrounding it. I looked up at her and shook my head and she faltered. "Juvia can't! Juvia no longer wants for Envy to leave! Juvia will get envious in her life so true envy can never leave! Juvia doesn't want Envy to leave Juvia, not when we're getting on so well!" I didn't know what the hell I was saying. I was so desperate to get rid of her, yet here I was wanting her to stay.
She smiled at me before pushing the orb into my hand. "Hush Juvia. I'm evil and there's no stopping that. A demon is forever a demon and if I'm not destroyed then Zeref will still be able to use me. Think. Now, you have the largest source to keep on using that goodie goodie spell without me vomiting at how pure it is. The yin and yang will keep me safe from that. Now, you better tend to your guest."
I was about to ask her what she was talking about when she suddenly lost all the tears from her eyes, the rain stopped and her appearance changed. She was taller than me, white kimono, red eyes, long white hair, a sword, black socks up to her knees and also Japanese sandals. "Envy, you're beautiful!" She blushed and disappeared, obviously not being able to handle the compliment.
I felt a hand on my shoulder and I jumped out of my skin before turning around and came face to face with Sting. "Sting-kun!" I jumped back and almost fell, only to have his arm around my waist and pull me to him, only to have me fall into his chest. "What is Sting-kun doing here?" I was so shocked, how the hell was in my head along with Envy? He stroked my head and tipped my chin up so that I had no choice but to look at him.
His eyes were full of sadness and I didn't want him to look like that. "It's not Sting-kun's fault. Juvia doesn't even care if she has to use her life source to make sure that Sting-kun is safe." Sting frowned at me and I wondered what I had said wrong. "No, you will never use your life to save me, I'm not worth it. And I want to know why you care about me so much."
This was now my chance. Do I tell him now? What if there was never another perfect moment to tell him again? As soon as I was to get out of my head, it would be strict training and then the war. We could die at that war, we could lose or we could never see each other again. All of the above broke my heart, yet what if he was like Gray and didn't feel the same way about me? What if he rejected me? There was only one way to find out...
I placed my hand on his cheek as he stared at it in surprise. I gave him a soft look. "Juvia...likes Sting-kun." His eyes widened and I pulled out his embrace and turned my back on him, wishing hard that Envy could just come back to me and remove me from this awkward position. I felt his hand come closer to me and I stepped further away from him, my back still towards him. I didn't want to know what he would say. I didn't want to be heartbroken again like I was with Gray. This time, I think I really did fall in love and not just fall in love with the idea of love.
"Sting-kun should go...the way he got into Juvia's head, he should use that way to leave." I heard him sigh deeply and it was like a little pop and by the time I turned around, he was gone. I released my breath and envy came back in her own form.
"Don't you think that was a little harsh? Oh god, what the hell am I saying?! Anyway, let's train." I stared at her and she rolled her eyes at me, her eyes going back to red and black. "Stop slacking Juvia. Come on, show me your best." There was a glint in her eyes that showed that she was about to do something really bad that I was going to hate. She started transforming and when she did, Sting was standing in front of me. I stood there frozen as his blue eyes stared into mine.
"Come on Juvia, get ahold of yourself. It's only Envy posing as Sting!" "You do know that we're basically in your head, so every thought you have is also boomed out for me to hear." I blushed as she also used Sting's voice. Why was this so hard?! I took a deep breath before I smirked at envy as I transformed. "Okay, Juvia wants to test out this body really badly and see what's so special." She narrowed her eyes at me when she saw who I transformed into.
"Envy can't be mad at Juvia because Envy came in Juvia's form so now Juvia is coming in Envy's form. Let's go!"
I was sitting on the floor in a meditating and focusing on the spells that Virtue had taught me along with the yin and yang spell to keep it in check. Envy sat opposite me meditating as well. She had handed me my ass on a golden platter but she said I had done well for my second training ever since I trained with Sloth. I then felt something entering into my head and I tried to ignore it but 5 minutes later, Envy coughed. "That's enough for now Juvia." She didn't even say anymore as she just vanished. I turned around once more to see everyone except from Sting standing there. Jenny held out her hand to me. "Time to wake up Juvia."
As soon as she said that, I woke up with a start in the infirmary as I stared at the white ceiling. I heard a little yelp as when I turned my head I saw Virtue smiling at me. "Well it may have taken you a long time, but you're finally awake." I frowned at her. A long time? "How long has Juvia been out?" Oh wow, even my voice was nothing but a whisper.
"Oh you've been out for a week." My eyes widened as I tried to sit up. I winced so badly that I collapsed back down and let out nothing but a soft scream. Virtue checked me over worriedly. "Be careful! Gosh! You're still so sore and you need all the rest you can get." The unsaid words of 'before the war starts,' was left hanging in the air. My eyes started to water.
"Virtue-san...The war is in one week and Juvia is practically handicapped. What if...what if Juvia doesn't make it in time?" Virtue's eyes scrunched up before the look passed away so very quickly. "You'll make it, don't worry. It doesn't matter if you haven't trained...Anyway, the others have been training extra hard for you. They're ready, and no matter what, so are you."
A sob was released from my throat and she tried to comfort me but I shook my head at her. "Please, leave Juvia. Juvia wants to be left alone." My voice was still so soft and I couldn't make it go louder. She sighed and patted my head before leaving. I continued crying softly and the door opened up again. I didn't even bother turning to find out who it was but soon enough, I was in someone's lap.
I looked up to find myself in the arms of Sting. "Sting-kun..." I held onto him like he was my lifeline and he held me tighter. "Juvia...After getting laughed at by Midnight and Gajeel by my denseness and wondering why I feel weird whenever I'm around you, or the urge to need you all the time, I've finally realised...I love you too. Wait, is it too early to use the word love?" I burst into tears and he started worrying.
"Shit, okay so maybe that wasn't what you wanted to hear, I'm sorry!" I buried my head into his chest and shook my head before looking up at him. "No, it's not that Sting-kun! Juvia is happy for that! But...Juvia can't participate in the war! We only have one week and Juvia won't be ready by then! Juvia has let everyone down and Juvia is sorry." Sting laughed and shook his head.
"It's fine Juvia. You don't have to worry about us. We'll be fine. You just need to get better and when it's done, we'll remove your curse too." I couldn't bare it. This was too emotional. I loved them all so much yet here I was letting them down. I calmed down a little bit to try and not be upset for them.
"Okay, Juvia will try not to cry. But Juvia is confused, how did Sting-kun get into her head? How did everyone else get into Juvia's head?" He frowned. "Well I just wanted to be in your head to talk to you and when I wished hard enough, I was somehow in your head. I don't know, maybe another another hidden power?" I nodded my head, remembering that the others were in my head too. I pulled away from him as we both stood there awkwardly, me trying to look at anywhere but him.
"Yeah well, I guess I should go now then..." I nodded my head as I watched him turn away from me and walk right out of the door. I didn't even realise that I was holding my breath until he left and I drew out a long sigh. I was so weak and I hurt all over. It would just be better if I fell asleep...
~x~
"Gray-san? What are you doing here?" His eyes flashed over at me as I could see the frosty look he was giving me. I flinched and shrunk back into myself. "Gray-san? Has Juvia done something wrong?" His body was rigid and it was like his jaw was clenching. "You knew that I was in love with you, yet here you are falling in love with that bastard!" I gasped.
"Sting is NOT a bastard! Gray-san is just jealous! Jealous that Natsu-san and Lucy-san are in love and that Juvia, your back up plan is just gone!" I saw his fist clench and he got in his ice make stance. "That's it. It's time to finish that fight that was a draw. Let's see who's the strongest." I was taken aback that Gray would act this way with me, a fellow guild mate. What if he really did love me? Well it wouldn't matter anyway because I was now in love with Sting. I smiled when I thought of that, only to have my dream shattered when an ice hammer was slammed over me.
"UGH!" I had quickly transformed into Gajeel and smashed my way through the ice. Envy was messing with me! She came in the form of Gray! Well who cares anyway, I too am able to manipulate people with my words. "Does Gray-san want to know why Juvia stopped loving him? Easy, Gray doesn't deserve any love! Juvia wasn't going to be one of Gray-san's close people and suddenly die. Remember Ur? Yeah, that was your teacher wasn't it? What if Juvia did this?" I knew it was so evil of me to bring it up and I really didn't feel bitter feelings towards Gray, but this was Envy, not Gray. I just hope Gray would forgive me if he ever found out about this.
"Shut up, shut up, SHUT UP!" 'Gray' watched as I turned into Deliora and he screamed, only to transform Minerva and I into Mira, her Sitri form. "Two strong females huh? You sure do put up a good fight." We smirked at one another, launching into high attacks, low attacks, magic flying and bruising one another. She then transformed into Mira and I scowled, knowing fully well it would be a stalemate if were the same person. Instead, I transformed into Milianna and flipped away, using the NekÅsoku Tube and then transforming into Erza in her Flame Empress armour.
I smirked in a similar way that Erza would and 'Mira' frowned at me, knowing all her fire attacks wouldn't work so great on me. She then started kicking up the fire from around her feet at me, using all the melee attacks that Mira had in her trick book while I grunted and absorbed a lot of the fire, recusing it into nothing. She smirked as she jumped back, her eyes glinting with pure evil in them. "Fire rage, soul extinction!"
I gasped as the energy was increasing in her hands. There was no way I was going to be able to dodge this one. Even Mira had never performed such an attack! She had just used the fire magic and one of Mira's strongest spell in one! I wracked my brains for less than a nanosecond knowing fully well that I would have no time. There was only one thing I could do. I charged up my magic before changing it negative, gaining the dark magic of Zeref and eating the flames just like Natsu would, but kept Erza's form.
'Mira' grinned as the attack had released, knowing fully well that Juvia wasn't going to be able to stop that. She returned back to her normal form. "Okay Juvia, that's enough training...for...one...day..." 'Erza' used her wings as she spiralled up in the air with such grace before redirecting everything she had. "Soul extinction, flame slash!" Before Envy could even scream, all the magic that I had accumulated over the fight smacked her full on. Envy hit the wall. She got up feeling sore, knowing fully well that if she wasn't actually a demon, the attack would have killed her.
"Excellent Juvia, you're getting better. That's enough training for one day." I returned back to my normal self as well, panting heavily and deeply while glaring at Envy. "Why did Envy transform into Gray for and pretend to be him?!" Envy was taken aback but recovered very quickly, tutting at me and shaking her head at the same time.
"I see that we also need to train on the mental side of your mind as well. You're not a mentally stable person now, are you?" It was my turn to be taken aback. I just stood there in silence waiting for Envy to go on. "You see, there's a deep memory within people's mind, some scaring, some lovely. Either way it makes them who they are. I don't doubt that the little imposters that Zeref has running around as his minions are not going to be able to find out your deepest fears and turn them against you. You have to use their spiteful words to make it not hurt and deter you from a fight."
Envy stretched her arms and her neck, trying to loosen the muscles that I locked. "Face it Juvia, you're up against a whole bunch of Zeref's demons and you think that they're not going to pull some mind trick on you? Of course they will, I should know, I'm one of Zeref's demons! But they're nothing but minors. Weak fools who have no right. We're Zeref's elites. There is one thing that you have on your side. Before they were created and pulled out of that stupid book, they know nothing of us so they think that they're the strongest. Fools."
Juvia watched as Envy started chuckling darkly before she suddenly stopped making it sound even scarier. "I also used Gray's form because I wanted to know where your heart lies. To be able to use such high levels of pure black and dark magic, your heart has to be set in the right place. In your faith, in your guild in your love life. You have to be exactly sure with what you want and that way when we go to war, your resolve is clear. This amplifies your powers and your magic shall skyrocket like never before."
I was soaking up the information as though I were a sponge. She was listening intently as though she was my mother giving me advice on life. "Now, you have to declare it. Declare it on your life." I blinked. "Declare what?"
"Declare your love for your guild, your love for Sting, that you will get stronger and when this war is over, you will let me go and I shall be no more." I blushed when she mentioned Sting's name but the fact that I had to let her go was annoying me. She had changed, but I knew that if Zeref was to get his hands on any bit of Envy, this world would be over. I nodded my head as she waved her hand and a bit of paper landed on it.
"This is a declaration contract, only it's done by voice. Now, declare." I closed my eyes and thought about everything in my life. In some messed up way, I was extremely happy for how everything turned out. "Juvia declares that she loves Fairy Tail with all her heat, She declares her love for Sting Eucliffe and no one can tell her otherwise, she declares that she will get stronger for this war and destroy anything that will get in the way of saving Earthland, she declares that we will win and Juvia declares that she will give up being a host to deadly sin number six, Envy!" The paper glowed black before it disappeared and Envy nodded. "It's done. Now rest up. You'll be stuck in your head for a while.
I nodded and sat down thinking of how Sting got into her head. I sighed in happiness knowing that everything was going to be just fine.
So how was that? Pretty decent right? Well I think it was anyway...And now for that daily routine where Leo comes in and screams...
Leo: I AM SO GOSH DARN HUNGRY!
Lolita: Yep I knew she was-wait what?! I thought you were going to insult my chapter like you always do!
Leo: Well that always happens, it's getting a little old now don't you think. But I'm not joking, I'm hungry. What food have we got here. Actually I know where the fridge is, I'm gonna go raid it...
Lolita: Well...that was weird. Anyway you guys, I have a reason as to why I haven't updated lately you guys! I have a lot of school work and also I've been working on a side project. I've gone Natsu x Juvia crazy (yes AGAIN) and I think I've started writing like six different pieces! Whoo, what a rush! Anyway! Please don't forget, rate or hate, flames or floods! I love you guys a lot so I love your reviews!
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