Chapter 7
I'm All He Has Left
We all returned to Madoka Village! I was so happy to be back because it was awkward waking up in the morning and the first thing I encountered was dirty looks from the headman and his spoiled daughter. Jun told me countless of times to ignore them, but it was really hard; if looks could kill, I would be dead right now…
Anyways, we all made it back in one piece with no problems. Sakura had to go back to Takara Village to make sure Kenichi didn't screw anything up. I wouldn't be surprised if the village is burned to the ground.
"I missed your room!" I shouted out as I collapsed on Jun's bed.
"You act like we have been gone for awhile." He snorted.
"It sure felt like it," I said as I looked up at the ceiling.
Jun lied next to me and pulled me into his embrace. "I have a question to ask you."
"Uh-oh."
"It's not bad. Although I think you already know where this is going." He forced my chin to look up and we locked eyes.
I thought for a moment but I had no idea what he wanted to ask me. "Nope."
"Well, would you consider being my bride?" He studied me as I processed his question.
He's right. I should've known where this was going. I mean I'm happy since he's considering only being with me, but am I ready? Goemon and I immediately planned on marrying each other, and that blew up in my face…
"You don't want to marry me," he muttered as he let go of my chin and lied on his back.
"No! I do!" I blurted out. "It's just… Goemon and I said we were going to get married, but in a blink of an eye, he vanished. Will you do the same if I said yes?"
Jun inhaled then exhaled sharply. "Quit comparing our relationship to your old one. I'm nothing like that arrogant player."
"Jun…"
"He might not know what he wants, but I do. I want you all to myself. I want to have kids with you, sleep with you every chance I get, protect you, and grow old with you," he whispered.
I slowly rolled on top of him and pressed my forehead against his. "Yes."
"Huh?" Jun's eyes widened.
"Yes, I'll marry you." I kissed him softly on his lips. I can feel him smirking in between our kiss.
"I can finally give you the ring."
"You have the ring already?" I gasped.
"Yeah, I had it."
"Since when?!" I can't believe he has the ring! I really want to see it! I hope it fits…
"Since the first day you moved to Asami Island," he answered simply.
Now that I think about it, he did tell that old man from his home village, Isamu that he was planning on marrying me even though I was with Goemon at the time… Wow, time sure has changed. That was ages ago!
"I love you." I kissed him again and again.
"Can I properly propose to you?" He smirked.
"What do you mean?"
"Stand up," he ordered softly.
"But, I'm comfortable lying on top of you," I whined.
"Anya…"
"Alright." I rolled my eyes and lazily got out of his bed.
Jun stood up too and immediately went down on one knee. I felt all types of emotion as he fished out the ring inside his kimono.
"Anya Yukari, will you make me the happiest man in the world by becoming my wife?" He held the ring out to me.
I felt tears rolling down my cheeks; words can't describe how happy I am. "Yes!"
I held my hand out so that Jun can slide the ring on my finger. I wouldn't have cared if the diamond were big or small because all that mattered was that Jun just asked me to marry him! The diamond was huge, though. I never saw a ring with a big stone before…
"I love you." He slowly rose up from his knee.
I jumped up and wrapped my arms around his neck as he held me.
"I love you too, Jun. I'm so happy." I couldn't stop crying even if I wanted to.
We kissed each other passionately until there was a light knock at the door. We ignored it, but the person kept knocking!
"Jun." It was Alvah.
"I'm in a middle of something," Jun said annoyingly.
"It's important." Alvah sounded hurt? Oh, no. I hope nothing bad happened!
Jun sighed and let go of me. He then opened the door and Alvah stood there with sorrow in his eyes. He looked like he was about to cry.
"What's wrong?" Jun asked in concern.
"We should talk privately." Alvah's voice cracked.
"Um, alright." Jun then turned his attention to me. "I'll be right back, Anya."
I only could nod as Jun followed his brother. I started to worry about him. Something is going on, and I feel like it's going to hurt Jun…
*~*~*~*~*Mend My Broken Heart~*~*~*~*
It felt like hours have gone passed, and Jun never returned to his room. Should I check up on him or stay here? I didn't want to be nosey, but I wanted to make sure he was okay. I decided to leave his room to go find him.
My throat was drying up as I checked the dining room, the main dojo, and pretty much all the rooms in the mansion. I then went to Naomi's room to see if she knew what is going on between Alvah and Jun.
I took a deep breath before I knocked on her door. "Naomi? Are you in there?"
There was silence, but then I heard a click from her door nob. "Hey, Anya, what's up?"
"Um, have you seen Alvah or Jun?" I asked.
"Well, I haven't seen Alvah in awhile. He did tell me he had to tell Jun something, but he looked really sad. He wouldn't tell me anything!"
I felt my heart drop. "Where would they have gone?"
"I have been looking out my window to see if I spotted Alvah, but no luck. Have you checked throughout the mansion?" Naomi questioned.
"Yeah, no luck," I answered.
"Maybe we should window watch for a little while. There's no way I missed them leaving the mansion!"
I nodded and Naomi let me in her room. We then sat next to her window and looked carefully at our surrounds! She's right, there's no way she would've missed them walking out of the mansion, she has a perfect view of the whole village.
We both didn't say anything to each other as we kept our attention outside, but I guess, Naomi noticed my engagement ring and tried to ask me questions. I told her I would talk about it later; now, is not the time, something is seriously wrong between the two of them.
Finally, we saw both Jun and Alvah. "THERE THEY ARE!" We both shouted in unison.
I studied Jun, but I couldn't tell if he was upset or anything. It's like he's hiding his feelings…
"Should we follow them?" Naomi asked.
"Yeah, something is going on," I whispered.
"We have to be secretive, though. Whatever is going on, they want no one to know!" Naomi stated.
"Agreed."
*~*~*~*~*Mend My Broken Heart~*~*~*~*
Naomi and I followed behind Jun and Alvah. I'm surprised we didn't get caught yet, but maybe it's because a lot was going through both of their heads.
Jun and Alvah both got horses out of a stable and began to ride away at a fast pace. Naomi and I waited, but then hurried to get a horse, so we weren't far behind. I rode behind Naomi as she controlled the horse's reigns.
"This is strange," she muttered as we spotted them right away, but we still distanced ourselves from them so they didn't spot us.
We kept following them until we reached Isamu Village. I wonder why Jun and Alvah went to their old childhood village? We entered the village and immediately gasped! It's… destroyed.
Naomi tied up the horse to a tree trunk as I stood there and examined the burning buildings and dead bodies throughout this poor village.
"Alvah told me about this village. Do you think their father had something to do with it?" Naomi asked softly.
"Yeah, Makoto knew how much this village meant to Jun and Alvah." I felt my whole body trembling… Maybe, we should get out of here. Jun probably wants to be alone.
I went to say something to Naomi, but then we heard a loud cry. It sounds like… Jun…
"Anya," Naomi whispered.
"We have to see them," I whispered back.
Naomi and I both followed the loud cries until we both froze in place when we spotted them. Alvah stood there as Jun was on his hands and knees, sobbing.
"I'll fucking kill them both! Those bastards!" Jun shouted out.
"Our father and brother will get what's coming to them," Alvah said in sorrow.
"I'll kill them now… I won't let them live for what they did to those people! They had nothing to do with this war. It's all my fault!" Jun's voice was shaky.
"How is it your fault, Jun? All you did was take care of these poor people. They appreciated everything you did for them." Alvah tried to place his hand on Jun's shoulder, but Jun flinched.
Naomi and I watched at a distance, but I couldn't help myself but sob. All he did was take care of those poor people, and they loved him. Makoto and Rokuro knew how much they meant to Jun, so they destroyed everything just to hurt him and Alvah.
I couldn't explain to anyone what I'm witnessing. There's nothing left of this village. It's full of dead bodies and piles of burnt wood from their homes and markets.
"Anya?" Jun turned his head to look at Naomi and me, but he immediately gasped. "What are you doing here!? Why did you follow us?! I don't want you to see me like this!" Jun spat out angrily.
I went to walk up to him, but Alvah held his hand out.
"Don't, Anya," he warned, but I ignored him and continued to walk towards them.
"Jun," I whispered.
Jun was still on his hands and knees, but he immediately hid his face with his hands. Why didn't he want me to see him like this? Doesn't he want people to see him sad? How else is he suppose to act in this situation?! His whole childhood got destroyed; it's only natural to be upset. I did hate seeing him like this. I don't want him to suffer.
"Stay away from me!" He cried out.
I bent down, so I was eye-leveled with him, but he pushed me roughly away from him.
"Don't pity me! Get away!" He threatened. "I don't need you or anyone…"
I ignored him and wrapped my arms around his tensed up body, but he immediately relaxed once I tightened my grip on him.
"I'm sorry, Jun. These people didn't deserve this, but don't blame yourself. They cared about you and love you." I tried to soothe, but I know no matter what I say, it won't make him feel better. His father and brother took it too far. How heartless and cruel…
"Anya…" I was shocked he wrapped his arms around me and embraced me, but I didn't loosen my grip. I don't know what else to say to him, but I'll stick by his side.
I tried my best not to cry, but I began to sob again because I felt bad for these people and for Jun. I hope this is the last time I see him in this kind of pain. He doesn't deserve to be hurt… He deserves happiness in this cruel world.
*~*~*~*~*Mend My Broken Heart~*~*~*~*
The four of us went back to the mansion, and Jun immediately grabbed my hand and dragged me into his bedroom. He then collapsed on his bed and buried his face in his pillow.
I didn't say anything… Should I say something? Would it make things worse if I try to comfort him? I slowly sat on the bed and studied him.
"Don't pity me, Anya. I don't need it!" He spat. How does he know I'm staring at him when his face is buried in his pillow?!
"Jun, I don't pity you. I'm just upset because you don't deserve this!"
"That's pitying, Anya!"
I covered my mouth as I started to sob. I averted my gaze when he lifted his head to look at me. I wanted to apologize, but I couldn't talk. I know I would just choke up my words…
"Anya…" He grabbed my arm and pulled me into his embrace. I sobbed in his chest as he gently played with my hair.
"You're all I have left," he muttered.
"Jun?" I looked up at him and he had his eyes closed. I think he was forcing himself not to cry. "Let it all out, Jun. You'll feel better."
"I'm a king… If I keep crying I'll just prove to my people how weak I am."
"That's not true, Jun! You're strong and you lost something so precious to you. It's only natural to let it all out! You have a good heart unlike your brother and your father!"
Jun pushed my head against his chest. I heard him sob quietly, but I didn't move, instead I rubbed his back as he did the same for me.
"You're all I have left," Jun repeated.
"And I'll always be there for you, no matter what," I whispered.
I looked up at Jun and he gave me a small smile. He then rolled my body on my back and crawled on top of me.
"I need you more than ever. I never thought I could need someone this much." He opened the front of my kimono. I wanted to protest, but why would I? Would sex truly make him feel better?
I softly moaned as he trailed kisses all over my stomach. He then sucked my right breast. He swirled his tongue around my nipple as I softly said his name. He did the same exact thing to my left breast.
"Jun, let me please you…" I felt bad he's making me feel good, but all I was doing was laying here.
"No, just relax." His voice cracked as he pulled my underwear down. He then rubbed my entrance and stuck two fingers inside me.
"Jun!" I arched my back as he pumped his fingers in and out of me.
"You're soaking already," he muttered as he leaned down and licked my clit while he kept pumping his two fingers in me.
"You know, I need you too, right? No one else, just you," I said as I bit my lip.
"I can take on the world if you're the only one by my side, Anya." He took his two fingers out and licked them clean.
"Jun let me…"
"Relax," he ordered as he took off his clothes. He then pressed his erection on my entrance. I cried out as he went inside me. He pinned my wrists and rested his forehead against mine. "I have to go rough. It will help me get over it for tonight…"
I nodded. "I don't mind. I'm just happy to help you get over this pain." I stared deep into his eyes as he started to thrust at a fast pace. I thought I would feel discomfort, but I didn't. It felt amazing…
He groaned as he kept going in and out of me. It's like all his sorrows were leaving his body and entering mine. Is this helping him? I felt my body growing numb as he kept going and going. I couldn't stop moaning out loud. I bet everyone in this mansion could hear me…
"Anya." He kissed me roughly as he went even faster. I wrapped my legs around his waist. He's going deeper…
"I love you so much." I cried out as he travelled his kisses to my neck. He was sucking and biting it, yet I didn't mind…
"Turn over," he commanded.
I did as he said and went on my hands and knees. He re-entered from behind and grabbed my hips. I felt his nails digging as he thrust a fast pace again. I tried to bite my lip to stop myself from crying out, but it was no use, he's going too hard. Was it sad that I am enjoying this? I feel so much pleasure and love.
He got out of me and I turned my head because I was confused on why he stopped… He then sat on the bed and patted his lap for me to sit on him. I straddled him as he entered me. I kissed him hungrily when he started to move. I met with every thrust and started to dig my nails into his back. I was close…
"Jun, I…"
"Me too." He clenched his teeth.
A couple more thrusts and we both reached our climax. I was exhausted, but Jun looks like he was ready for more.
"Anya, I need you all night. We can't sleep. Please?" He begged.
I took a deep breath and nodded.
If our love will help him get through this then I will gladly give up my body to him.
*~*~*~*~*Mend My Broken Heart~*~*~*~*
It was the middle of the night and I couldn't move. My whole body was sore and numb, but I immediately sat up when I saw Jun by the bedroom door.
"Where are you going?" I asked.
"Why are you awake? Go back to bed."
"Not until you tell me where you are going," I whispered. I then gasped when I saw he had his sword equipped to his side. "Jun, you… Can't!" I stuttered.
"I have to kill them both… I won't let them live another day. I'll avenge those people!"
I got out of bed, but my body refused me. I collapsed on the floor from the numbness of our lovemaking. "Don't do this! It's suicide if you try and kill all those Shinobu samurais, Rokuro, and your father all at once!"
"I won't be satisfied until they are all dead, Anya."
I tried to rise up from the floor, but it was no use. "Your father probably knows you are going to try to seek revenge on them! Don't do it!"
Jun snorted. "I'm leaving."
I started to crawl towards him. "Don't leave me, Jun! You said you needed me and I need you too! If you die, then…" I paused as tears began to roll down my cheeks. "Then I'll have no one because the person who I need the most is gone!"
Jun's eyes widened. "Anya…"
"Don't leave me, don't!"
Jun slowly walked up to me and kneeled down. "Fine, I won't go."
"Jun, you're father and brother will pay, but please, think it through. I don't want you to sacrifice yourself… Those people probably wouldn't want you to do that either."
"Anya." We wrapped his arms around me and I wrapped my arms around his neck, holding on to him for dear life.
"You are all that I have left, Jun." I wish I could stop crying…
"I said that to you first," he said softly.
"Yet, I feel the same way."
"I won't leave you, Anya."
I pressed my forehead against his. "Good because you would be a terrible husband if you did leave me."
Jun chuckled lightly. "I'll try to be the perfect husband for you."
"No, I don't want perfect, I just want you to always be with me."
Jun nodded and pressed his lips gently on mine, but it grew passionate when I forced my tongue inside his mouth.
Never leave me, Jun.
