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Chapter 7

Olivia froze, uncertain if she had heard Casey right. She was hoping she heard Casey correct but she had to be sure. "Casey did you just say you want to have a baby?"

Casey sighed "Yeah I did." Casey laid her head on Olivia's shoulder "I'm sorry I shouldn't have mentioned it."

Olivia was thrilled to hear Casey say she wanted to have a baby, but she was confused as to why Casey wished she hadn't brought it up. Did Casey not want to have a baby with her? She began to really worry when she felt Casey's tears on her bare shoulder. "Sweetie, look at me. Why do you wish you hadn't brought it up? Please talk to me." Olivia pleaded with Casey and began to wipe tears from Casey's face.

Casey looked at Olivia and saw nothing but love in her eyes. "I know it's been a while since we talked about having children, but it's really been on my mind lately. I know you probably think that it's just my way of replacing my job, filling an empty spot, but I want this. I know we said at the time that with our jobs we couldn't devote the time we would like to a child, but now I have plenty of time on my hands."

Olivia nodded "Well you do have time on your hands I guess." They both chuckled at that, easing some of the tension that had been building. "While it could be a way of replacing what you lost, I don't think that's the reason you brought it up. I just can't believe that you would want to have a baby with me, considering my job and the hours I keep. Are you sure about this?" While Olivia wanted nothing more than to have a child of her own she needed to know for sure Casey wanted this. That she wasn't just doing it because she knew it's what Olivia wanted.

Casey looked a little surprised that Olivia would think she wouldn't want to have a baby with her. "Olivia there's no one else in the world I would rather have a baby with than you. I'm more than sure, but are you?"

Olivia released the breath she wasn't aware she had been holding "Yes I'm positive. I would love nothing more than to have a baby with you." Olivia leaned in and kissed Casey like their lives depended on it.

The next morning Olivia woke to Casey in her arms. She pulled Casey back against her, holding her tighter and leaned in to kiss her neck. She felt her heart race when she recalled the conversation she and Casey had the night before. Olivia had always wanted a family and now she had that with Casey, but to have a child would only make their life better. She wanted a child she could love, and give them everything she never had. Olivia felt Casey waking up; she rose up so she could look at her. Olivia leaned in for a good morning kiss, when they separated both were smiling. "Good morning"

"Good morning love" Casey replied. She loved when she and Olivia were able to wake up together. There were so many times when Olivia was called out during the night, or never even made it home, and Casey would wake up alone. She noticed the smile on Olivia's face and began to smile herself. She glanced over at the clock and saw that it was just after 11 am. "I can't remember the last time I slept this late, can you?"

Olivia chuckled "No I don't. Honestly I don't remember the last time I slept past 7, let alone sleeping until almost noon. But I guess that's what vacations are for. Well that and considering we didn't go to sleep until almost four am." Olivia said wagging her eyebrows. Both smiling at the memory. They settled into a comfortable silence just enjoying one another's company. Olivia began running her fingers lightly over Casey's stomach. She let her mind drift back to the night before. After dinner they had made love several times. When they had eventually worn themselves out they had sat on the balcony enjoying the sound of the waves and being in each other's arms. She thought about their conversation and how happy it made her to hear Casey say she wanted to have a baby with her. When they went to bed the love making that followed that conversation was one of the most passionate and emotional moments they had ever shared.

Even though Casey had her back to Olivia she could tell Olivia was deep in thought. She wanted to know what Olivia was thinking but hated to interrupt the moment, she was thoroughly enjoying what Olivia's hand was doing. She finally decided to ask. "So what are you thinking?"

"Hmm?" Olivia said, stilling her hand for a moment.

"Oh please don't stop." Casey whined. "I said what are you thinking?"

Olivia smiled and resumed caressing Casey's belly. "I was thinking about a baby being in here"

Casey rolled over so they were lying face to face and she could look Olivia in the eye. "As fantastic as you were last night and I do mean fantastic, I highly doubt there is a baby in there" Casey said laughing.

Olivia laughed too but kept her hand on Casey's stomach. "Well considering I lack the needed equipment I doubt there is a baby there either. And you were pretty fantastic yourself. But seriously I was thinking about what you would look like with a baby in here. What it would be like to feel it moving around."

Casey smiled at Olivia's excitement she was like a kid on Christmas morning, and all they had done was discuss having a baby. She could only imagine how she would act if she really was pregnant. "Liv as much as I love laying here with you, I'm absolutely starving. What do you say we get up and have some breakfast?"

They sat outside on the steps while eating their breakfast, discussing what they wanted to do that day. Casey was all but begging Olivia to go skydiving. Olivia was having no part of it. "Casey there is no way I am jumping out of a plane with only a piece of fabric to keep me from hitting the ground"

"Oh come on Olivia it'll be fun!" Casey said as she slid closer and began nudging Olivia's shoulder. Casey had been skydiving once and loved it she wanted to share the experience with her wife. She knew it would be difficult to convince Olivia but she had to try. As tough as Olivia was she could really be a chicken sometimes. "Look we can do the kind where we jump while attached to an instructor. How does that sound? Then there is a professional with you. That's how I did it the first time I went. Will you try that?"

Olivia looked at Casey like she was crazy; at this point she was pretty sure Casey was. She could stare down the barrel of a gun but there was no way she was jumping out of a plane. "Oh so jumping out of a plane with a parachute strapped to my back wasn't bad enough, you want me to jump out with a human strapped to my back? I don't think so. That will just accelerate my hitting the ground."

Casey was laughing at this point; she couldn't believe how Olivia was reacting. "But Liv! It'll be fun!"

"No way, no how, huh uhh." Olivia didn't care what Casey said there was no way she was going. She picked up the brochure they had been looking through and hit Casey on the arm with it. "Here look through here and pick something"

Casey grinned.

"Anything but skydiving Case. You pick anything in there and we'll do it, but skydiving is off limits."

Casey looked down at the brochure in her hand and smiled "Anything?"

Olivia nodded convinced there wouldn't be anything in there as bad as skydiving "Anything"

"Well get ready detective because you and I are going parasailing!"

Olivia sat there stunned for a moment. She had just agreed to do anything that Casey wanted just so she wouldn't have to go skydiving and Casey went and found the closest activity to skydiving there was. She jumped up and chased Casey inside trying to figure out how to change her wife's mind. "Casey technically parasailing is the same thing as skydiving, so we can't go." Olivia knew her argument was weak but it was the first thing she came up with.

"Do you seriously want to argue technicalities with a lawyer?" Casey asked skeptically. She knew she would win this one.

"Well no, but can't we do something else? Please? How about instead of going out we go upstairs and try out that tub?" Olivia batted her eyes and pouted, she was pulling out all the stops.

Casey wrapped her arms around her wife and seemed to take pity on her. "You know I have a hard time saying no to that face."

Olivia began smiling feeling confident that she had won this argument.

Casey leaned in and gave Olivia a sweet kiss on the lips "But I'm saying no this time, we're going. Now stop being a wuss Benson." She patted Olivia's behind, smiled and walked upstairs to change, not leaving any room for discussion.

Olivia sat on the boat fidgeting with her life jacket, and trying to figure a way out of her current situation. Casey glanced over at her "I know that look, it's your I'm thinking very hard look. I know you're trying to come up with a plan to get out of this but it's not happening. You can stare down the barrel of a gun and not blink, so this should be a cake walk."

"I'm afraid of heights" Olivia whispered.

"You're what?" Casey said partly from surprise and partly because she wasn't sure she heard Olivia correctly.

"I'm afraid of heights" Olivia said a little louder "There are you happy? I said it I'm afraid of heights"

Casey took Olivia's hand which was still fidgeting with the clasps on her life jacket; she also noticed the tremble in Olivia's hand. "You really are scared aren't you?" Olivia simply nodded. "I can't believe in the almost four years we've been together you've never told me this. What about flying? Look at all the times you've flown, that didn't bother you why does this?"

"It never came up. And there is a huge difference between flying and this. At least in an airplane I'm inside, here it's just a few straps and a parachute keeping me from hitting the water. And sharks, what if there are sharks in the water and for some reason I fall in the water? I mean I'm a pretty good swimmer but I'm sure they can swim faster than me" Olivia said breathlessly.

Casey wanted to laugh she had never seen Olivia like this, it was kind of cute. However Olivia needed to calm down so she did the only thing she knew to do. She put the hand that wasn't holding Olivia's on her cheek and leaned in for a kiss. She felt Olivia respond and finally she felt the rest of her relax. "Are you ok?" Casey asked as she pulled back

"Yeah, thank you" Olivia replied laying her head on Casey's shoulder. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to freak out like that"

"Don't worry about it. However I do think we just gave those guys a nice show" Casey said nodding her head toward two of the guys working the boat, who were now adjusting themselves and trying not to look obvious.

"Ugh, perverts"

Casey laughed. "We don't have to do this. If I had known you were this afraid I wouldn't have pushed to do it. I'll just tell them we changed our mind and we'll go back and find something else to do" She said as she stood and began to walk away.

Olivia pulled Casey back down next to her "No you want to do this so I'm gonna suck it up and do it"

Olivia was beginning to second guess herself as the guy was helping her get into the harness. She was barely listening as he went over everything. She was only aware of Casey rubbing the back of her neck trying to get her to relax.

"You're all set"

"I'm sorry what?" Olivia asked

"I said you're all set" replied the guy who helping them. He smiled at Olivia and Casey then asked where they were from. When they replied NYC he laughed "No kidding me too. I'm just down here for a while helping out my buddy with his business. Small world"

"Yeah small world" replied Casey who didn't like the way he was looking at Olivia.

"Ok ladies hang on"

Olivia felt her feet leave the boat and she was pretty sure her heart leapt into her throat at the same moment. She wasn't sure whether to hang on to the straps or reach out for Casey's hand. She decided the straps because her hands were not about to give up their death grip. She knew they had to be getting higher but she refused to open her eyes to see for sure. She could hear Casey coaxing her to open her eyes but she couldn't do it.

"Come on baby, open your eyes. Its ok, you don't want to miss this view. Just open them, don't look down look straight out"

Olivia finally opened her eyes but made the mistake of looking down at the water. She screamed and held on even tighter to the straps. She could hear Casey laughing "Well I'm glad you find this so damn funny" Olivia said as she turned her head toward Casey but kept her eyes closed.

Casey laughed even harder "I'm sorry I can't help it. You're just so brave all the time and to see you actually afraid of this, it's kinda cute. Besides you are looking my direction but it's hard not to laugh when you have your eyes shut. You would be far more intimidating if they were open and glaring at me. Now come on open up and look right at me"

Olivia sighed and opened her eyes slowly, and saw Casey starring back at her. She began taking deep breaths and felt herself beginning to calm down. She finally looked around and couldn't believe how beautiful it was. The island off to one side and then nothing but ocean everywhere else she looked. "Oh my God this is great!" She looked over at Casey grinning from ear to ear.

"See I told you."

They enjoyed the rest of their little 'flight' and were sad to see it come to an end. Olivia felt like panicking again as they were brought back down but Casey talked her through it. As they were pulling back in to the dock the guy who was talking to Olivia earlier walked over and struck up a conversation again. "So are you enjoying your time here?"

"Yeah it's really nice" Olivia said as she was making her way up the dock.

"So if you have time before you go back home could I interest you in dinner?"

Olivia turned and looked at him a little surprised; she thought for sure he would've seen the ring on her finger. "I'm flattered I really am, but I'm married."

Casey feeling very territorial and protective walked over and wrapped her arm around Olivia's waist settling her hand on her hip. "Yeah we're here celebrating our anniversary." She raised her left hand flashing her wedding ring and smiled at the man, almost challenging him.

"Oh…oh, yeah…um sorry. You ladies enjoy your trip" he said walking away.

"Leave it to the one pervert who wasn't ogling us when we kissed to come over and hit on you" Casey said while rolling her eyes.

Olivia took her hand while laughing at the situation. "Someone is a little jealous aren't they? I'm yours and you're mine so don't worry about some guy hitting on me. Okay?"

"Okay"

"Good" Olivia said as she leaned in for a kiss, her tongue asking for entrance and her hands sliding down to rest on Casey's hips. Olivia pulled back and smiled at the look on Casey's face. She took Casey's hand and began walking the rest of the way up the dock. "And by the way, he was so watching that time" Olivia said with a laugh. Casey looked back over her shoulder and sure enough the man was watching them with a shocked look on his face. She shot him a smile and turned and walked away.

They spent the rest of the day swimming and hanging out on the beach. They went out for dinner and spent the rest of the evening in a relaxing bath, they were asleep before their heads hit the pillow.

The next day Olivia picked their activity, she wanted to go swimming with the dolphins. She wasn't sure why it was just something she wanted to try. Casey was all for it, she just couldn't believe that Olivia would want to. "So you are willing to go in the water and swim with dolphins but you have a near meltdown yesterday because there may be sharks in the water. I don't get it"

"I don't know it just sounds like it would be fun. And it's different because dolphins don't eat people, sharks eat people. There's the difference."

"Oh my God that was so much fun!" Olivia exclaimed as they made their way back to the house. Casey loved watching Olivia; she was like a kid on Christmas morning. Olivia had not stopped talking since they came out of the water. Casey had to agree she too had enjoyed it more than she thought she would, but the look on her wife's face made it even better. It was so rare to see this side of Olivia. She was usually so tired and worn down from the job and the horrors she saw every day. To see her so lighthearted and relaxed was wonderful.

That night after a late dinner they went to the same club from their first night on the island. Olivia also got a chance for her jealousy to rear its head. While on her way back from the bar with their drinks she saw a woman hitting on Casey. Olivia walked over sitting their drinks down and turning to the woman. "Can I help you?"

The woman faltered for a moment before replying. "No I was just talking to this lovely lady here"

"Well just so you know this lovely lady is my wife. So you need to move along" The look on Olivia's face was enough that the woman took off without a second glance at Casey. Olivia pulled Casey to the dance floor needing to feel Casey's body against hers. Before long they were dancing so close there wasn't even room for air between them. Arms wrapped around one another, hands roaming to less than neutral territory, and bodies grinding against each other.

"I think we have the attention of just about every man in the place right now" Casey said as she looked over Olivia's shoulder.

"Let em look all they want" Olivia said as she pressed a kiss against Casey's lips, her tongue begging for entry which Casey gladly granted. When the need for air was finally to great Olivia pulled back "We really need to get out of here before we do something we shouldn't" It took all their restraint to make it home and inside before losing themselves in each other.

The rest of their week seemed to fly by. Their days were spent on the beach, sightseeing and shopping while their nights were spent wrapped up in each other. Before they knew it they were back on the plane headed home. Both were quiet for a long time, thinking about the time they had gotten to spend together and the fact that with Olivia returning to work time together would be less frequent. Casey was also thinking about what she was going to do since she didn't have a job to go to. They had decided after what little they discussed it on vacation they wouldn't talk about their line of work at all until they returned home. Little did they know they were both thinking about the same thing, Casey's confession that she wanted to have a baby. They arrived home late that afternoon and Casey decided they would do something they had rarely done, go grocery shopping. That way they could spend their last day of vacation together doing nothing. They lay in bed that night talking about the day and the fact that Olivia only had one more day before she had to return to work. "I had no idea that grocery shopping could cost so much money" Olivia said laughingly.

"I know, but you have to realize when was the last time we actually went shopping for more than just one or two things?" Casey replied

Olivia nodded "That's true. Can you imagine how much they'll cost when we have a kid to feed as well" She hadn't meant to say that it just slipped out. She wanted to let Casey set the pace in their discussion of having a baby.

"I'm glad you brought that up, I was hoping we would have a chance to discuss it some more before you go back to work."

"Ok what do you want to discuss?" Olivia asked as she rolled onto her side so they could face each other.

"Well like do you want to carry the baby or should I? Should we consider adoption?"

Olivia thought a moment before responding "While I think I'm getting a little old to carry, I might be able to; but I'm completely ok with you carrying. How about we plan on you carrying and if you can't then I will. And we can look into adoption if for some reason carrying a baby isn't possible for either of us."

"I love you" Casey leaned in for a kiss, and steeling herself for what she was about to say.

"Well if I carry I want to pick a donor who is physically similar to you, brown hair, and brown eyes. Also would you be open to having more than one child? I only ask because some clinics will allow you to store a sample so if we chose to have more children we can use the same donor."

Olivia grinned "I want to have as many as you want, I would love to have a house full of little Casey's running around"

"Well would you be open to at least one little Olivia running around?" Casey ducked her head after this question, afraid of Olivia's response.

"What do you mean a little Olivia?"

"I mean a baby who looks just like you"

"Right you said you wanted to pick a donor who physically resembles me. The only way it could look more like me was if it was biologically mine." Then it dawned on Olivia what Casey was hinting at. "Wait, are saying what I think you're saying?"

"I want to use your egg for the first pregnancy. I want to feel your baby growing inside me. I want to have your baby."


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