When he got done reading the letter,Ryan could feel his eyes burning. He didn't bother talking with anyone. He just wanted to get home and cry. He ran to his car and left and drove as fast as he could with out over doing the speed limit to much. When he reached home,he ran to his door,opened it,threw his keys on the ground and fell to the floor. He started crying uncontrollably.

Hey wanted to ask God why,but he couldn't even talk. When he tried,it just came out as sobs. His mind was flooding with memories from the past.

For Halloween at youth,they had a black and white party. The lesson was that you can be with the world or with God. You can't be on the fence. You must choose one. When they went to youth convention and they were dancing and having a great old time. Or when they had a fun night and the had an inflatable slide and Chad and Tami raced each other.

There were so many memories. He knew when they said together,they meant divorce. They couldn't get divorced,they just couldn't. After about four hours,he got a hold of himself and tried not to think about it. He would rather have everybody in the world make fun of him than have them get divorced.

When he was done crying,he had to go to evening service. He cleaned his face up a little and drove to church. He saw Micheal and ran over to him. "Hey Micheal,gotta minute." Micheal had a hand on his shoulder and they walked over to a corner to talk.

"Why would God allow this to happen,they loved each other with all their heart and they loved Him,"said Ryan with tears in his eyes. "Man,God has a plan for this. This may be a way to get us to draw closer to him. Plus,they probably need some time apart. God has a plan for this and remember,what the devil meant for evil,God will make it good."

They went into service,but he couldn't concentrate. Knowing he might never see Chad or Tami for that matter made it hard for him to concentrate on the sermon. Just like that morning,he didn't talk to anybody,he left for his car. Micheal saw this and became worried for him. "God,give him the peace and comfort he needs tonight and every night."

Ryan walked into his house and went straight for bed. He felt like he should turn on the radio and he turned it on.

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord