Stepping into her son's bedroom, Martha sighed as the sound of the shower being turned on in the en-suite filled the room as she gently sat down on the edge of the bed and waited. She knew Kate needed to clear her head and think about what had just happened, think about all the things that were running through her mind. Martha felt sorry for the young woman. She was nineteen, she had her whole life ahead of her and yet here she was, nursing her older boyfriend and the six year old who had told her that she was mommy while also trying to deal with the death of her own mother and also her father's drink problems. Martha didn't envy her in any way. Hearing the shower turn off, Martha stared at the door as it slipped open and Kate walked out in Rick's robe with her hair wrapped in a towel.
"I didn't know you were in here" Kate whispered as Martha nodded slowly, watching as the brunette walked towards the wardrobe and pulled out one of Rick's shirts before moving and pulled out a pair of sweats as well before sighing. "Do you need me urgently or can I get dressed?" she asked as the redhead stared at her for a moment.
"Go and change Kate, well talk afterwards sweetheart" Martha announced as Kate nodded slowly and slipped into the en-suite again to put some clothes on. Waiting for the brunette to appear, the redhead sighed as she watched the teenager walk into the room with her fingers running through her hair. "Come here" Martha whispered, reaching across for the hair brush as Kate slowly moved to sit in front of the redhead who quickly began to brush Kate's hair silently. "He made a mistake" the redhead whispered as she shook her head.
"He promised Martha, he promised that he wasn't going to do it again. He promised after everything that happened that he wouldn't drink again" Kate whispered as she attempt not to cry again, remembering how difficult it had been to cope with his drinking originally. "I can't go through that again, I can't watch him destroy himself" she admitted as tears fell down her cheeks. Continuing to run the brush through Kate's hair, Martha sighed as she just watched the teenager in silence. "I can't deal with that too" she whispered.
"Sweetheart, it's not just as easy as saying that he won't drink again! It takes a lot more than that, it can take people years to completely recover" the redhead admitted as Kate shut her eyes, wishing it could be easy, wishing that everything in her life could be perfect again like it had been before her mom had died.
"I miss her so much Martha, I miss her so much. I want my mom" Kate blurted out as her tears got worse. Putting the hairbrush down on the bedside table, Martha sighed as she wrapped her arms around the brunette and held her close as she continued to cry uncontrollably. "I want her back so much Martha, I just miss her and I miss my daddy. I miss my daddy" Kate sobbed as she allowed the redhead to run her fingers up and down her back as she attempted to soothe her. "My dad always had a weakness for drink, he used to drink too much at parties but mom was always there to keep him in line. She looked after him, she stopped him going too far" she explained as Martha nodded, knowing that Kate had been carried the weight of the world on her shoulders and was finally letting it go.
"It's okay sweetheart" Martha whispered as Kate nodded slowly, hating herself for being so weak. "Your dad loves you more than anything in the world sweetheart, you're his whole world and he's just being protective of you" the redhead admitted as Kate shut her eyes and rested her head on Martha's lap while the woman began to play with her hair. "It's not his fault that he can't cope with some things" the redhead admitted.
"But…" she began.
"Who do you go to when you feel stressed or like everything's going wrong in the world and you need someone to talk too?" Martha asked as Kate smiled.
"I go to Rick" the brunette admitted, not ashamed that Rick was her rock and she was his. "I always go to Rick".
"Who did your dad go to when he felt like that?" the redhead asked as Kate fell silent, realising what the actress was working towards. "And who did your mom go to when she felt like that?" she added as Kate nodded slowly.
"They went to each other" Kate whispered gently. "They always went to each other".
"Your dad doesn't have her anymore Kate and he's desperate to find something that gives him that same comfort that she did" the redhead explained as Kate nodded slowly, knowing that Martha was right about everything. "I'm going to go with him to the classes Kate, I'm going to make sure that he's at every AA session Kate. He's going to get through this Katie, he's going to get through this because he has a whole family behind him" she admitted as she gently pressed a kiss into Kate's hair and sighed.
"I don't think I can face him tonight Martha, I just need a night to think about everything" Kate whispered as the actress nodded gently and slipped off the bed. "Tell him that I'll talk to him tomorrow, that we'll go for coffee or something and discuss everything" the brunette sighed as Martha stared at her. "Tell him that I love him as well" Kate added.
"Of course" the redhead stated before leaning down and gently pressing a kiss to Kate's forehead. "You Katherine Beckett are one of the most wonderful women on this planet, remember that" Martha whispered before she walked towards the door and turned the light off before leaving the room. Approaching the living room, Martha sighed as she stared at the two men who were sat on the couch with a takeout pizza. "What happened to the pasta?" Martha asked.
"Burnt it" Rick admitted before turning to look at her, seeing that she was alone. "Kate?" he asked.
"She's getting some sleep, it's going to be a long couple of months for her" the redhead explained as Rick nodded, noticing that sadness quickly covered Jim's face. "She told me to tell you that she'll talk to you tomorrow and that she loves you" Martha quickly added as the older man nodded.
"Thank you" he whispered. "I'm sorry that I ruined your welcome home dinner, you're supposed to be celebrating" Jim admitted, thinking about the pasta that had been burnt and the little girl who was asleep in a small bed that Kevin and Javier had prepared in Rick's office so she wouldn't have to walk up any stairs.
"Mommy" all three adults quickly heard Alexis shout from the other room as sobs echoed around the loft. "Mommy, mommy" the younger redhead began to cry, everyone watching as Kate quickly appeared and entered the office; worry covering her face as she stared at the sobbing redhead. "Mommy" Alexis whispered.
"Hey what's the matter sweetheart?" Kate asked quickly as she sat down on the edge of the bed and stared at Alexis who reached out for her hand. "What's wrong sweetheart? I can't make it better if you don't tell me" she whispered as Alexis just stared at her for a moment, immediately calming. "Do you want to sleep in our room tonight?" Kate whispered as the redhead nodded; the brunette sighing as she moved the wheelchair closer to the bed and slowly lifted the redhead into the chair. "Only tonight though Lex" Kate whispered, watching as the redhead remained silent before she began to push the chair out of the room.
"What's going on?" Rick asked the moment Kate reappeared. "Is everything alright?" he panicked, staring at his daughter before looking up at his girlfriend. "Kate?"
"Everything's fine, enjoy your pizza" she whispered before disappearing into their bedroom. Helping Alexis onto the bed, Kate sighed as the redhead lay down on the bed before shutting her eyes and yawning. "Do you want anything to eat or drink sweetheart?" Kate asked as Alexis shook her head.
"Can you stay mommy?" Alexis asked.
"Of course I can sweetheart, of course I can" she admitted before sliding into the bed on the other side and finding Alexis' hand quickly. "You're such a brave little girl Alexis, I don't think I could do all the things you've done recently" Kate explained as Alexis smiled gently at the compliment. "Get some sleep" Kate whispered a few moments later before staring down to see that Alexis was fast asleep. "Sweet dreams".
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Slipping into Rick's office later that night, the brunette sighed as she found herself watching the man who was carefully sat at his desk working. Approaching him quickly, she smiled as she gently moved behind him and began to massage his shoulders, amazed that he was still awake.
"Inspiration?" she asked as he nodded and smiled when she gently pressed a kiss into his hair. "You need to rest, you're still injured" she mumbled as Rick groaned, knowing that she was right. "You can sleep in with Alexis, I'll sleep in here" she explained, staring across at the bed that had originally been prepared for the sleeping redhead.
"No" he moaned, shocking her slightly as he looked up to see the exhaustion that was covering her face. "I want to cuddle with you Kate" he admitted, smiling when she laughed gently and leaned down to kiss him before she laughed against his lips again. "I've missed all the cuddling we used to do Kate" he sighed, her head shaking as she grinned at him.
"Think you can make it up the stairs if I help you?" she asked as he laughed gently and slowly nodded, knowing it would take a while but would ultimately be worth it to cuddle her again. Helping him out of the chair, Kate sighed as he took hold of his crutches and moved out of the room. Assisting him up the stairs, the brunette slowly wrapped an arm around his side as he began to hop up each step. "I've missed cuddling with you as well" she admitted.
"I think all we did in the Hamptons that first time was cuddle" he laughed as she nodded. "Naked for the first time together, it was amazing" he admitted as she rolled her eyes and smiled when they finally reached the bedroom door and entered the spare room together. Sitting own on the bed, Rick groaned as he watched Kate shut the door before turning and stepping out of her sweats, his eyebrows rising as she quickly began to unbutton her shirt; a smirk covering his face when it dropped to the floor a few seconds later. "What are you doing?" he asked.
"Creating new naked memories like when we were in the Hamptons" she admitted as he removed his t-shirt and sighed, knowing it would be difficult to remove the boxers he was wearing alone. Sliding into the bed, Kate sighed as he tightened his arms he r and relaxed. "I've missed you Rick, I've missed being close to you" she admitted as he nodded in agreement, knowing that the last few months had been difficult. "This year has been an amazing year for me at times Rick" Kate sighed as he stared at her in amazement. "I know I lost my mom but I also gained a family, in a way I gained a daughter and you, I found my one and done" she admitted, leaning across to kiss him gently before she relaxed and yawned.
"One and done?" he asked.
"You know the one person who you want to spend your life with. No divorce, just marrying one person for the rest of your life" she explained as he stared at her in shock. "Did I just say that out loud?" she asked as he nodded.
"So I guess that's the next step" he admitted as she relaxed in his arms. "You've done your training now, you've moved in with us, I guess marriage is the next logical step for us" he explained as she laughed gently. "This isn't me asking Kate, we're not ready for that step yet but we will be one day, we'll be ready for that".
"So you want to make me Mrs Castle one day Rick?" she asked as he gently pressed a kiss into her cherry scented hair and nodded; knowing that she was everything he wanted.
"Mommy" both adults hard Alexis scream downstairs, breaking the moment they were sharing of just being alone. Sighing, Kate quickly slid out of bed before pulling her clothes on and relaxing; unable to look at Rick because she knew she'd see amazement, happiness and disappointment covering his face. "Mommy" Alexis continued to holler as the brunette walked towards the bed and quickly pressed a kiss to Rick's forehead.
"Sleep" she muttered before walking out of the room and running down the stairs, not knowing what was wrong before she entered the main bedroom to see the redhead sobbing in the middle of the bed. "What's wrong sweetheart?" Kate asked as she moved to sit beside the redhead before she gently pressed a kiss to her cheek. "It's okay, I'm not going anywhere" she muttered as her arms wrapped around the six year old before she sighed.
"I had a nightmare mommy" Alexis admitted as Kate nodded, guessing that was the main problem. "I was in the car again" she explained. "I was trapped and I couldn't find daddy, he wasn't there mommy" she sobbed as the brunette tightened her arms around her.
"Sweetheart your daddy is asleep upstairs" Kate promised as she pressed a kiss into Alexis' red hair. "I love you baby now why don't we try and get some sleep?" she asked, lying down on the bed before she relaxed back with the six year old in her arms. "I was in car accident once" the brunette admitted as Alexis nodded, still remaining silent. "I was ten and my mom and dad were fighting in the front of the car and the next thing we knew was that there was a cab smashing into the side of the car" she remembered.
"What happened?" Alexis asked.
"My mom and dad were in shock, my arm was broken and all I know was when I went to sleep it terrified me" she admitted as Alexis cuddled closer to her. "But life went on Lex and the nightmares went away" she smiled before she pressed a kiss into Alexis' hair again. "All I needed was my mommy Lex, she kissed and cuddled me and made all the bad dreams go away".
"Will you make them go away?" the redhead asked as Kate tightened her arms around her and nodded. "I love you" Alexis yawned.
"I love you too baby, I love you too" Kate muttered as she shut her eyes and fell asleep to the comfort of Alexis curled up in a strange way beside her.
Just a small chapter, the next chapter will deal with Jim Beckett but I don't know when that will be up because the next few weeks are extremely busy for me!
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