I DO NOT OWN SON

Chapter 7 – One Love, One Song, One Demand

Spencer POV

I loved my life; even know it was full of heartbroken moments. After Clay died, and Ashley leaving I never thought I would be happy again. I didn't just loose one person I lost the love of my life too. It took everything I had to just not take Ashley back the night at Chelsea's studio, but I knew she needed to figure out if I was her one like she was mine. It took a while, but we found each other and we knew we were home.

~Flashback~

I stood there smiling at Ashley; the look on her face was priceless. I dropped my coat and kissed the women I was badly in love with. I pulled back and walked towards her room while she closed the door behind me. I felt her arms come around my waist. She was naked as well.

"I missed you Ash"

"Am I dreaming baby, please tell me I'm not Spence." I turned around in her arms and gave her a deep kiss. Letting my hands move over her tone abs up to her breast. God she felt amazing.

"This isn't a dream" Her lips were on mine and she was leading me towards her bed, once I felt my legs hit the bed I pulled her down with me. I crawled up the bed while my lips never leaving hers.

"Say it" I grabbed her neck with one hand and shoved her other hand down between us.

"Make love to me Ash; Show me how much you love me"

"I love you Spencer"

She showed me how much she loved me, and I was not at all mad for being late for school the next morning.

~Flashback Ended~

We never separated or broke up after that till six years ago; I thought we would always be together. Then when I tried to move on, I knew deep down I couldn't. Ashley had my heart, and soul.

After rehab I thought she was going to come home, and we were going to try for Dylan. The first day Kyla showed up I knew it was over and Ashley didn't want to fix are marriage. After the first month of Kyla picking up Dylan I called my lawyer and filed for divorce. Ashley never signed the papers. I had them in the office downstairs; I wanted to hand them to her not my lawyer. She never did come over and I didn't have her number. It was like she wanted to stay away from me. I guess she knew that I would file for a divorce eventually.

At this point we were standing side by side looking out towards the water. The moon was full and bright; it made her skin glow this perfect colour. In high school this was the same beach where I told her I liked girls. When we wanted to buy a house after we got married, we both fell in love with the one on this beach. It's where we both knew we had a chance to finally have a chance at true love.

"Spence, are daughter told me not to come back"

"Huh? What do you mean Dylan told you not to come back?"

"The last night she came to see me, she asked me not to visit her again"

I had to sit down, why would she ask that. Dylan loved those nights out with her mom. Sometimes Ashley had her for the whole weekend, I knew Ashley needed those weekends just as much Dylan needed them. I felt Ashley take my hand in hers.

"Spence, please look at me" I have been staring into the cold night, trying to understand why my daughter told her own mother to leave her. Ashley brushed some hairs away from my eyes.

"..Why. Dylan loves you."

Ashley POV

~Flashback~

I was finishing up in the studio trying to get everything done before my baby girl got here. These weekends were everything to me, and I always make sure Dylan has my full attention. Sometimes she and I would spend hours in here just talking and playing guitar. I know she has been struggling with her sexuality and has asked me about how her mom dealt with it. Of course I could have told her how Spencer dealt with it but I thought it wasn't my story to tell.

I had a few minutes till Dylan got here so I decided to head into the booth and record my new song. I have been working on it since I got out of rehab. I finally finished the song this afternoon.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in

'Cause I got time while she got freedom

'Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even

Her best days were some of my worst

She finally met a woman that's Gonna put her first

While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping

'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even... even... no

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?

And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok?

I'm falling to pieces, yeah,

I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason

But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding

'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving

And when a heart breaks no it don't break even, even... no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you?

And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok?

I'm falling to pieces, yeah,

I'm falling to pieces, yeah,

I'm falling to pieces

(One still in love while the other one's leaving)

I'm falling to pieces

('Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even)

Oh, you got her heart and my heart and none of the pain

You took your suitcase, I took the blame.

Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, ooh

'Cause you left me with no love and honour to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in

'Cause I got time while she got freedom

'Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break...

No, it don't break

No, it don't break even, no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you?

And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok?

(Oh glad you're okay now)

I'm falling to pieces, yeah

I'm falling to pieces, yeah

(Oh I'm falling, falling)

I'm falling to pieces,

(One still in love while the other one's leaving)

I'm falling to pieces

('Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even)

Oh, it don't break even no

Oh, it don't break even no

Oh, it don't break even no

Tears where pouring out of my eyes, I poured everything I felt into this song. I fell to my knees and leaned back against the wall. Spencer was everything and I gave it all up for drugs. I knew Spencer had it worst then me; I'm the one that left not her. I was so upset and shaking I didn't realize someone was watching the whole time.

After a while I pulled my self together and got up. I put my guitar away and turned off the lights. I headed up stairs where I found my daughter sitting in the kitchen waiting for me. I walked over and kissed her on the head and gave her a hug.

"I missed you Baby girl, how have you been?" I walked over and grabbed water out of the fridge. Hitting those high noted were killer sometimes.

"You're killing her" I turned around and saw that Dylan was now standing with her school bag over her shoulder.

"Dylan what are you tal….."

"No! You don't get to be hurt! You don't get to feel heartbroken! You left her! She is supposed to be your wife. You took vows and you acted like she was just another slut of yours!" She slammed her hand onto the table.

"Dyl….I…I ...i know okay…I know. And there is nothing I can do to fix it." God do I want to though.

"Then leave, and don't come back"

"What! Dylan I can't do ..."

"Yes you can! Let her move on. Mom you're tormenting her with you being here. She can hear about you and watch me leave to come here but she doesn't get to. You're a ghost that haunts her and won't leave her at peace. Don't you want to see her happy?"

"Yes, but I can't leave you Dylan. I won't. You're my daughter I love you"

"You didn't love me when you picked Drugs and whores over me, you didn't love me when you left me and my mother. That's not love mom, that's pain"

"I thought we got over this"

"A child never forgets that there mother never loved them. Leave mom and just let us move on. It's too late, I loved spending all this one on one time with you but mom needs me more then you do." With that she kissed me on the cheek and turn towards the front door.

"I love you mom, and so does your wife. Maybe one day we can be a family again"

So I left.

~Flashback Ended ~

A/N Song: The Script – Breakeven

R&R Please – Do you think Ashley did the right thing by leaving?