Thoughts
Sesshomaru's beast
"Speaking"
Chapter Seven: Low Blow
Sesshomaru's P.O.V.
She's been asleep for a long time now do you think she's okay? Yes, she's fine she had a pretty hard day yesterday. It had been several hours since Rose had fallen asleep in my arms; she had slept through the remainder of the day and through the night. I was carrying her as we walked to Totosai's cave, the little onna was so light I'm sure Rin could have picked her up and carried her around. Normally I would have had her on Ah-Un but because I hadn't bought her a kimono yet she was still in her blood stained pants which would attract a lot of blood thirsty youkai, so she needed to stay close to me. I decided nothing like the boar event would happen ever again.
"Sesshomaru-sama when is Rose-onee-chan going to wake up?" Rin asked as she skipped beside me.
"When her body is ready for her to do so." I replied in a monotone voice, despite the fact that I was smiling on the inside.
Our pup really likes our little onna. Yes, I think she would love to have a mother. But Rin doesn't even know that we consider her our pup. What do you mean? She calls us "Sesshomaru-sama" because she doesn't know that we love her like our own pup. If we expressed how we feel she might call us father or daddy or something like that. … How do I 'express my feelings' in this situation? Just tell her that we think of her as our pup and tell her that if she would like she can call us things like father. I will once Rose wakes up .There's a village nearby I'll leave her with Jaken and Rin, so I can buy her a new kimono… perhaps I should by one for Rin as well.
"Jaken you will watch over Rin and Rose while this Sesshomaru goes… somewhere." I said evasively not ready to verbally admit I actually cared for the two little humans in my company.
"Y-yes Sesshomaru-sama!" Jaken squawked so loudly it hurt my ears, though I didn't let it show.
I very gently placed Rose down in some damp grass under a tree; it had rained that night so the only places that weren't soaking wet were covered in shade, damp and cold. I considered for a moment in the wet grass or in the damp grass that had shade over it. This really shouldn't be too hard to figure out. I thought annoyed. We're just taking good care of our little onna.
"Ah-Un come here and lay next to Rose and keep her warm, Rin don't jump in any puddles you'll catch a cold, and Jaken don't let Rin jump in any puddles or play in any form of water. I will return shortly." I barked out as I turned and began to head east.
I sighed I knew that the humans would have a panic attack if I entered one of their village but I knew of a shop that was run by a youkai disguised as a human, the shop had a front entrance for the humans and a back entrance that only youkai could see. It wasn't a place for just any weak youkai; it was a shop for Taiyoukai and youkai lords and ladies. He'd better have some nice kimonos. I grumbled in my head. Doesn't he always?
Rose P.O.V.
Have you ever woken up and just about shit your pants? Well that very nearly happened to me when the first thing I saw when I woke up was the little green imp's face-whose name I forgot- about three inches above mine. Holy shit! Was the first thought that ran through my mind I was about to scream when I remembered that the ugly creature traveled with Sesshomaru and that Sesshomaru probably wouldn't care for the loud sound of my screaming.
"So you're finally awake you pathetic wench." The creature squawked.
…
"WHAT WAS THAT YOU UGLY LITTLE BASTARD?" I screeched as loud as I possibly could.
"I called you a 'pathetic wench' you stupid onna!"
I sat up and grabbed him by the front of his tiny haori. This little shit is gonna' die! I thought as my blood boiled with rage. "I'm sorry since I'm such a pathetic and stupid wench why don't you repeat that for me I'm afraid I couldn't understand." I growled if only I had fangs I could have scared him as much as Sesshomaru scares him. He visibly gulped, I smirked in delight. Oh so ugly is scared of me is he? I though with pleasure.
The ugly imp tried to banish the fear from his features, but failed horribly. "I-I said that you are a pathetic wench that is also stupid. And I would like to add that you are not worthy of travelling with Sesshomaru-sama!" He shouted but flinched as my grip on his haori tightened in faux anger.
That was a low blow-and I'd be dead before I showed the little bastard that-, though I didn't know why it hurt so bad and why I suddenly had the urge to runaway and go cry by myself somewhere. I knew I couldn't hold out the tears much longer so I gave him the best angry face I possibly could and threw the imp on the ground.
"Since I'm not worthy I'll just take my leave then!" I hissed trying to keep the hurt out of my voice although I could feel the sting of tears in my eyes.
I turned around and made a show of stomping out of the clearing and into the forest. I could hear Rin's cries of "Jaken-sama that was mean, you shouldn't have said that! Go say you're sorry!" Ah right that was his name, ugly just like the rest of him.
The wounds on my abdomen began to hurt, no scratch that began to burn with pain along with a stabbing pain. As my injuries continued to protest the tears began to fall from my eyes, much faster and much more than I had expected them too. My chest began to ach all that pain was becoming unbearable so I decided when I found a suitable spot I would sit down curl up in a ball and cry until I was dehydrated.
Sesshomaru's P.O.V.
When I returned to my campsite I was surprised to see only three creatures there rather than four. But I got really suspicious when I saw the fear in Jaken's face and concern on my pup's face. My onna was missing.
Rin ran forward and latched herself onto my leg. "Sesshomaru-sama, Jaken-sama said really mean things to Rose-onee-chan when she woke. She got upset and left camp." Tears began to form in her eyes as she looked up at me pleading for me to do something. I put down the tow packages I carried in my hand.
"Jaken what did you say to m-the onna?" I growled correcting myself she wasn't mine yet despite what I called her in my head but Jaken didn't seem to notice he was too busy cowering in fear. I decided he would take too long to work up the courage to speak to I turned to my pup. "Rin tell this Sesshomaru what Jaken said to the little onna." I said gently.
She nodded and launched into what happened talking so fast I sometimes I had trouble keeping up but I never told her to slow down because I knew she was just concerned for my little onna's wellbeing unlike the impudent whelp that is Jaken.
After she finished I growled at Jaken but didn't say what his punishment would be I wanted to leave him in suspense let him think of all the horrible things I would do to him so that he would never again let such foolishness spew from his mouth ever again. My beast was beyond enraged he was screaming for me to kill Jaken in the slowest, most painful way possible and I would have happily obliged if Rin hadn't been there. And he could prove to be somewhat useful at times in other words as Rin's babysitter but he sometimes managed to do a shitty job at that. I decided that when I returned with my onna I would take Jaken smack some sense into him and tell him to never disrespect my little onna or Rin ever again.
After I left the clearing as calmly as I could I ran for dear life. What if something had happened to her? What if her wounds reopened? What if she was killed? Panic surged through me I could hear and feel my heart pounding into my chest and once again I found myself not caring if I got smacked around by tree branches just as long as I got to her and fast. Rose's scent was different it smelt of vanilla and salt I assumed were from tears- which took me by surprise she was always so strong even when in physical pain she never shed a single tear but when told she was unworthy of being in my presence she broke- there was also the smell of lavender but most of it was covered up by the salt. The scent minus the salt was just as intoxicating as the other's but this one was scary and I told myself that I would make sure she never gave off that scent ever again, because it was the scent she gave off when she was filled with despair.
My little onna's scent was getting stronger by the second and I was getting antsy once again, but I sighed in relief when she came into sight but it also crushed my heart to see her curled up with her head buried into her knees and shaking with sobs. Now both her scent and appearance were causing me to panic. I had no idea what to do in this situation.
"Rose…" I murmured in a soft soothing tone. She looked up surprised.
Her wide blue eyes were filled with tears and rimmed with red, she'd been crying for quite some time. The little onna's expression became ashamed along with the sad. She tried to cover her eyes with her bangs but before she could get them right I walked over to her sat down to her left and grabbed her hand, squeezing it gently before letting go and sweeping her bangs out of her eyes. I pulled Rose's face towards mine, she struggled for a moment then realized she wouldn't win and stopped but she refused to make eye contact with me.
"Rose," I murmured again. "Look at me." She hesitated a moment then complied. "The things Jaken said are not true, you're not pathetic. You're defiantly not stupid, and you are not a wench. But most of all you are more than worthy of being in this Sesshomaru's company… I actually enjoy your presence." I admitted almost embarrassed.
Rose's eyes widened but there was a flicker of happiness. "Really?" She croaked softly, her voice hoarse from crying.
"Really." I murmured as I brought my hand up and stroked her hair then ran it to her cheek and wiped away the tears that remained on her pale little face. Rose grabbed my hand with hers and squeezed it tightly while leaning into it.
"Thank you Sesshomaru-sama."
