The seventh letter

My precious morning star:

It will be many years before you can read this letter, and I am very afraid that I would not be there, because I am not such a young man.

By now, you would have read the six other letters. They were not for you, yet it is fitting that you should be the one to read them, as they are about your mother and I. The mother that you would never know.

Three seems to be the number that has much effect on our relationship. Three years after I saw her for the first time, she married her second husband: your brother's birth father. Another three years later, she was widowed and disappeared from my life. It then took me three years to find her and three was also the number of years that it took me to persuade her to come with me. It was also three years before she agreed to marry me.

It seems foolish, but I was actually quite curious at what would happen three years after our marriage.

I was overjoyed when she revealed her pregnancy. I thought that this would be the second gift. I thought that my three years from now on would be filled with gifts.

I was too greedy.

You, my precious daughter, my morning star, was born, but that is not the only thing that happened.

Your mother died.

I will never blame you for that. I am certain that as you read this letter, you would be nodding.

Nor did I blame your brother, although you might find this much harder to believe due to what I did. I sent him away to his uncle in Archadia, and it would be many years before he returns.

My precious morning star, please understand that I do love your brother as my own son, I am sure that you would be able to realise this.

Yet I still sent him away. I cannot deny that.

As for why…

I am jealous of him. I cannot mourn and grief without hurting him. That is why I sent him away.

Carudas looks too much like his birth father, the man whom I will always be jealous of. But it is not just because of that. The reason that I sent him away is the same reason as why your mother refused to stay with your uncle.

We lost someone so precious to us, yet that person we lost has never been able to give us all the love that we desire from them, because it was given to someone else. Therefore, it is very difficult for us to look at that person who was the receiver of what we want, of what we would never receive.

No matter what, the love she bores for your brother is a much stronger love then what she would give me. If your brother did not want her to marry me, then she would not.

I sent him to your uncle because he is someone that would understand. After all, he has done a similar thing himself, to your mother of all people.

I wonder, what would happen three years later?

My precious daughter, I hope these letters can make you understand both your mother and I a bit more.

~ your father


The baby girl lost her mother soon after her arrival into the world, while her half-brother lacked a father before he was even born. Was he really right by denying the girl of her brother? A brother who loved her.

However, he knew that if he did not send the boy away, the boy might be completely orphaned by losing his stepfather as well.

"My precious morning star, I hope that you will be able to apologise to your brother for me, although I hope that this would not be necessary. These letters…see them as my gift to you. The history of your parents' past."


Author's Note: As I have mentioned, this is a what if with the main idea being that Al-Cid is in love with Messallina. I do believe that he is the type of man, who when he is in love, would say very extravagant and cliché thing due to him being quite a flamboyant and overdramatic character.

The idea is that he wrote the first six letters, but then realised that he could not send it, although he then kept it. Eventually, he wrote a letter to his daughter and many years later, he gave the letters to his daughter.

Al-Cid keeps on referring to Messallina as evening star, and this is a reference to what happened in chapter twenty three. In the ball in Bhujerba, Messallina had a dark blue dress with golden threads. The idea is that the dress is meant to look like the Lazuli Lapis, which is dark blue with gold in it. In some countires, the Lazuli Lapis is known as the heaven stone, since they see the gold bit as stars, with the dark blue being the night sky. Therefore, Al-Cid ended up saying this to Messallina, in his over dramatic way: "You are like the stars of heaven, the stars of the night sky", and he will then end up calling her: "My lady evening star". Just his nickname for her. Therefore, he calls their daughter his morning star.

Eventually, he and Messallina did end up being together, and she did end up caring and even loving him. However, she just didn't love him in the same way that she loves Vayne. Which is a parallel to the relationship Messallina had with Vayne, how Vayne loved Larsa.

I just realised, that even though I revealed that Messallina and Vayne would marry, I did not seem to have reveal when they married. Therefore, perhaps it is the very next chapter, or perhaps it is during the events of the game.

Over all, I enjoyed writing this story, it was a quite a change and an interesting way of writing.