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Author's Note- ok so I'm trying not to make this whole story sad and what not. So enjoy this chapter because it leads up to some good stuff. Because this kind of ends on a cliffhanger I will make sure to update the next couple chapters as soon as possible. Thanks for reading, you guys are awesome. Reviews earn brownie points and a brand new car! (Except not really)

Chapter Seven

"Changes fill my time, baby, that's alright with me
In the midst I think of you, and how it used to be"

-Robert Plant

The day went by rather quickly. Grandma Esme called me into her room earlier that day and braided my hair while we sat on her plush and unused bed. We talked for hours, about Barrow, and people, and places. It was nice to just talk. She explained that even though it doesn't seem that way, sometimes death is kindness.

I think my family was relieved to have me out of the house and harm's way for a couple days. While I threw some cloths in an overnight bag my mother came in and sat on the bed.

"Don't worry, I'm not here to give you the sex talk again" she said and I blushed. "Can you please just tell Billy that I love him" she said in a more serious tone , not looking up from the imaginary speck she was picking off her flawless fingernails. It was then that I realized just what big of a part Billy had in her life too. Not just Billy, but all the people that she knew and loved. My mom knew so many people, much more than me. And for almost all of them, she would feel just how she feels now. Life is cruel for those who defy it.

Right after my mom left the room, Jake came into grab my bag. "Christ woman, were only going for a couple days" he said, just like I knew he would. I tried to give him a playful punch but he snatched up my arms and held the over my head and I knew he would to that too.

Once everything was safely in the car I said a quick goodbye to everyone and we drove away. The run would probably take about 4 hours for Jake, which is incredible seeing how north Barrow is. As fast as I can run, my stamina is not as great as his so the plan is to drive halfway and run the rest. To be honest, I was grateful we didn't have to run the whole way. I had only done it once before with mom and dad and the trip totally kicked my ass. Dad actually had to carry me part way, embarrassing I know. I really was looking forward to the drive, usually I hated being in a car for long periods of time, but with Jake it's different. I like the closeness, the intimacy of just being me and him.

Even though the reason of the visit was sad, I couldn't help but be excited to see everyone from Forks. It seemed like it had been forever since I last saw everyone. I didn't just leave Jacob behind when we moved, I left my best friend Leah, and Seth, and Grandpa Charlie. Pretty much everyone I cared about (excluding any vampires) I had left back in Forks.

"I'm excited for the visit" I admitted to Jake, but he just nodded his head. The distance between us stretched much farther than the boundaries of the car; this was going to be a long ride.

We drove in silence for a while, after about an hour Jacob fiddle with the radio. The only stations that came in were either insanely religious or nauseating country. Both of which were totally intolerable option.

"So I was thinking maybe we should just drive the whole wa, that way you won't have to run. We can get a hotel room tonight and leave first thing tomorrow." He suggested. Suddenly I was nervous. Jacob, me, alone in a hotel room. My nerves fluttered to life and my face blushed.

"Ok sure" I said quietly. He extended his arm and pulled me crossed the seat into his hot embrace.

"I love you Renesmee Cullen" he told me while kissing my head. "Yeah, yeah, yeah" I joked, molding my body into his. Maybe a hotel room wasn't so bad; I guess driving is better than running anyway, I mean the way Jacob drives, we should be there in no time tomorrow. I tried to reassure myself, to calm my nerves. It was no use, my body felt alive, anxious.

We rode in the car for a hell of a lot longer than I would have liked, we stopped a little less than halfway away at one of the nicest cheap motels we could find. Jacob was first to get out of the car, before I could open my door to follow, he was there, pulling me out of the car and into his arms. The hug was simple, almost strange for us. It's the kind of hug you give a friend you haven't seen in a while or a congratulations an acquaintance. It was not the way me and Jacob hugged. I brushed off the uneasy feeling in my gut and followed him towards the office. Just before we got inside he turned to me.

"Maybe we should get two double beds or something. I don't want you to feel pressured to do anything, that's not what this is about." He said.

"Jacob we have shared a bed about a million times, I'm sure we will manage" I told him, doing my best not to sound disappointed. I know it makes me sound horrible, that fact that so many bad things are happing around me, and all I want to do is give in to my own selfish needs, but there is something about being with him that just makes everything better. Like nothing else exists, just him and me. He is all I see, all I could ever need and want. Until recently we have always kept things pretty PG13, he always said we were rushing, or I wasn't ready, and I kind of agreed with him. Leah would always joke about me being a prude or a tease, and I would shrug her off. It's different now. The way I look at him has changed along with so many other things. I want to be as close to him as I possibly can, and there is one way I can think of to achieve that. I just have no clue if he will agree.

"Umm.. baby are you coming inside or do u just want to stand out here?" he said, snapping me out of thought. I grabbed his hand and followed him inside the tiny office. The man behind the desk looked us up and down. I shifted uncomfortable, suddenly Jacob's presence seemed so much more intimidating in the small office.

"How can I be of service" the man said with a grin, his teeth yellowed, looking at me.

"I need a room" Jacob said, his grip on my hand becoming almost painful.

The man chuckled "Yeah I kind of figured that" he said. Without another word he took the money and handed Jake the key. Very, very wise of him.

We got our bags from the car and headed to the room. It was pretty much the same as any 2 star road side motels. Not that I have a lot of real life experiences to compare too, but from what I saw on TV and movies, this places seemed pretty normal. As soon as I stepped into the room I noticed that it was freezing. Whoever was here before had apparently left the air condition on. Why you need air conditioning in the Alaskan fall is beyond me, at least I the luxury of a werewolf boyfriend to keep me warm.

"You're cold, aren't you?" he asked me, dropping my bag on the floor alongside the bed.

"A little…how could you tell" As far as I knew, I hadn't showed any outward signs of discomfort.

"You always fiddle with your hands when you're cold" he said. I couldn't help but smile.

"Well then….warm me up" I replied.