Of course, there was absolutely nothing wrong with missing Jacob. He was my best friend.
I wished I would stop lying to myself.
It was wrong to miss Jacob. I had everything already. He showed that he didnt care anymore when he failed to attend the wedding. I have everything. Edward, I'm a vampire, Edward...Why should Jacob ruin my good time? Missing him was only a waste of emotion. Missing him wouldnt bring him back. Missing him wouldnt let me see him. Missing him...was just a part of me.
I sighed. I was lying to myself again. What my brain thought was a lie and what my heart thought was a lie were two completely different things. I wasnt entirely sure what really was a lie, and what was the truth, since I seemed to have two different subconcious views on the subject.
Edward didnt open up the topic, and neither did Alice. They continued with their mental conversation, so I just let them be. I jumped off of the couch, and slouched into the bedroom. Flopping onto the bed, I curled up on my side.
I wasnt sure how long I stayed there, and there was nothing but silence from the other room the whole time. I contemplated my feelings for Jacob, and my feelings for Edward, and came to three conclusions.
One, I wouldve picked Edward every time I had a chance.
Two, it was okay to miss Jacob.
But three, it was wrong to miss Jacob and cause grief to those who loved me. That was just unfair to them.
I heard the front door bang against the wall, and I assumed Emmett was back. I heaved myself off of the bed, and dissapeared out the doorway and into the other room at vampire speed. I took a position against the wall next to the fireplace.
"How was your trip?" Jasper smiled at Emmett, his tone conversational.
Emmett just glowered at Jasper, appearing to wonder what he meant by trip. Trip as in when he fell, or trip as in his two hour dissapearance.
"Oh, it was just peachy, thanks for asking," the words were sneered.
Jasper raised his eyebrows, biting his lip to restrain a smile.
Emmett looked around for a moment, and then his eyes came to rest on me. "Uhm, good match," he coughed. "Beginners luck."
"No kidding," I said for his benefit. It really was beginners luck though. Newborns are sort of beginners, and had I not been one, Emmett would have broken my arm. Easily.
Emmett grinned, pleased with my reassurance.
Edward and Alice were still sitting on the couch, and Emmett went and lounged on the corner of it, leaning his head back against the fabric.
Edward cleared his throat. "Emmett?"
Emmett turned to his brother.
"It wasnt your fault."
"Oh, I know!" Emmett threw his hands up in the air, misunderstanding what Edward had meant. "She's a newborn, and of course she'll be stronger then me. I guess that wasnt my fault, had it been maybe later, I wouldve won for sure..." He trailed off, thoughtful.
Edward clasped his hand over his mouth to hide a smile, and he shook his head. "No, that part was your fault." Emmett's eyes narrowed. "What I meant was, it wasnt your fault that you tripped." Edward inclined his head towards the dent in the wall.
"That was my fault," I sighed, my tone defeated.
Emmett looked at me now, shocked. "What?"
"Bella's 'enhanced' ability," Alice explained. "As it seems, she has the power to make people become unsure of their movements, so their neurological system doesnt function right and she can block the signals that are getting messaged to the brain. Ultimately resulting in clumsy, awkwardness."
Emmett's face was blank as he stared at Alice, trying to translate her words into something understandable. "What?" He repeated.
"She can make you trip."
Emmett's thunderous laughter filled the tiny room. Annoyed, I just scowled at him.
He ignored me. "She...can...what?" He choked out incredulously.
Edward grinned. "She can make movement patterns unstable."
Emmett looked back at me and my distorted expression, and raised his eyebrows. "So, I was basically a lab rat? Well, gee, thanks for warning me. I just spent the last hour or so ripping on myself. You guys have just destroyed years and years of self-esteem."
Alice patted Emmett's over-sized hand. "You'll feel better in a few minutes," she assured him with a smile. He just chuckled, and shot Jasper a dirty look. Jasper mirrored his expression.
"And," Alice continued, "you werent a lab-rat. No one saw that coming." I heard Edward cough to hide another laugh.
"So you mean, you didnt know she could do that?"
"Nope."
Emmett was suddenly in front of me, slapping me an unexpected high five. "Way to defy the physic!" He chuckled.
Had I been human, I would have instantaneously blushed. But I grinned, since Emmett's good humor was almost as catching as Jaspers.
Emmett turned around, and glowered at the opposite wall where the prominent indentation stood out against the dark paneled walls. He twisted his body slightly back towards me, and spoke over his shoulder. "I'm not fixing that."
"It was your fault," I argued.
"Edward said it wasnt. It's yours."
"But if you hadnt gotten up to leave like a sore loser in the first place, you never would have even been in that vicinity to vandalize the wall," I countered.
Emmett muttered unintelligibly as he stalked back to the couch.
A few feet away from me, Jasper was still against the wall. He looked amused again.
Alice was grinning again, and so was Edward. Both of them looked eager, and they watched Emmett carefully.
Almost at the couch, Emmett fell forwards. Face first into the cushion, he didnt pick himself up. Instead, he beat the parts of the couch that he could reach with his arms, his face still hidden. I heard his muffled string of profanities even from across the room.
He must have been very loud, since hearing your own thoughts was nearly impossible over the roar of Alice, Jasper, and Edward's laughter.
Emmett managed to get enough control to remove his face from the cushion, and he sank into the couch, scowling.
"Fall down again, Emmett?" Edwards lips twitched. Emmett just scowled at his brother, a vicious look on his face. He looked truly frightening, evidently not pleased with being the target of Edward's jokes.
"You really have to control that," Emmett snarled at me.
I just shrugged, which seemed to really irritate him.
"When?" Emmett asked Alice, scowling again.
I didnt know what he meant, but Alice seemed to. She concentrated for a second, and shook her head. "I cant tell. Untill she makes the decision to try and control it, her future's about as lost as a--" Edwards cold glare stopped her short. She raised her hands slightly in surrender.
I pretended that I had never heard that. It didnt hurt so much that way.
