She fresh to death she'll be the death of me…..! Ya I went to my first concert so I am really happy…voot! ALL TIME LOW, MAYDAY PARADE, THE MAINE, EVERY AVENUE!

Month four

Back on missions and man am I happy. I got over the virus I had sooner than I thought. (though not soon enough)Steeling a couple of scrolls, killing some people. I mean it's not like it was the best month ever, still better than last month though. I was always paired up with Sasori and Deidara basically the whole time, once with Itachi and Kisame. I have to say when I was with Sasori he was quite protective of me. It was interesting to see him show some sort of emotion for someone, or it could have just been instinct. I also seemed to amuse them with my mood swings. I guess they came in handy with some of the fights. Most of the time I was pretty irritated and when anyone got in my way or just added more fuel to my fire I lashed out. So I was pretty useful.

Being at the hide out wasn't much fun. I was usually really bored and my mood swings were always… how to put it…. Bitchy? No….. evil? No…. demonical… yes! I was doing nothing but bitching at everyone. Listening to my i-pod (I don't care what you say they have them in Naruto) Stay awake by all time low… nah….. Everything I asked for by the maine… nah…. Go west young man by Greeley Estate….CHA!

Call me weak, but I learned it all from you.
Maybe I'll be brave, but just not today.
Call me scared, but that's who I really am.
I could be just like you.

Excuse me, gentlemen,
What exactly does it mean to be a man?
Excuse me, kind gentlemen,
Can you tell me what it means to be a man?

Call me sad, but how would you ever know?
Maybe you'll be there, but just not today.
Pretend I'm dead, so you can go on living.
I could be just like you.

Excuse me, gentlemen,
What exactly does it mean to be a man?
Excuse me, kind gentlemen,
Can you tell me what it means to be a man?

A real grown up cowboy,
Cause this what you made me be,
A straight up gunslinger.

I won't be back baby.
(Yeah, you know it I won't be back again.) [x2]

Excuse me, gentlemen,
What exactly does it mean to be a man?
Excuse me, excuse me,
Can you tell, can you tell me what it means to be...

Should I be just like you? [x7]
To be a man.

I mean all I did was listen to music, go on mission, and bitch. Boredom can be such a drag. (HAHAHA) I took walks often and ate often. I had a lot of strange cravings like anchovy pizza I mean really. I at one point wanted anything that had to do with nuts like peanut butter, walnuts, I even ate an acorn. And what sucks about that is I FREEKIN ALERGIC TO NUTS! Nothing big of course I just break out in hives, start wheezing, and my throat closes. Funny story I had just found out about a week ago that I was allergic to them… of course that was after I ate them.

I was in leader's office discussing the last mission I was on and yes I had a dish of nuts in my hand. The baby had just started craving them about ten minuets before went into leader's office. I was eating them and Leader was talking then I couldn't breath. I started to feel itchy all over. My breaths were becoming short and pain ran throughout my body. I collapsed on the floor. Good thing Konan happened to be in the room or I would have died. Leader just left me there. I passes out about ten minuets after. When I woke up I was in the intensive care unit in the hospital. Konan was right by my side, when I looked up at her she smiled.

"Is the baby okay?" I asked. She shook her head yes.

"Apparently you have a server allergenic reactions to nuts." the voice was male and deep. I rolled my eyes. NO MOOD SWINGS NOT TO THIS PERSON OF ALL THE PEOPLE. BE NICE SELF BE NICE! NEVER!

"No really detective. Thanks for pointing out the obvious." SHIT DID I JUST SAY THAT TO PEIN?!?! I was waiting for the coming death, but nothing happened. I looked around the room for him and he wasn't there. I looked by my side and Konan was standing up with a empty expression staring down at me.

"Get up. We have to leave." I did as I was told. I think I pissed Pein AND Konan off. Not good not good at all. We walked out of the hospital unseen and into the small village. I followed Konan all the way the edge of the village. We stopped like we were waiting for something. I had a bad feeling about this.

"Konan," she turned to me. She impassive eyes staring back at me. "what did I do."

"You out spoke your god." my heart skipped a beat. I didn't even get a chance to run before I was slammed against the ground Leader on top of me. Staring down at me with his malicious eyes (idk if I used that word right)

"Learn to hold your tongue girl. You don't know who you are dealing with. I don't care if you do have a child within you… I will kill you. Do not speak out to me again." Pein never shows emotions, but I swear to god he must have showed about ten right then. The emotion that stuck out the most though wasn't anger or hatred it was sorrow.. I don't know why. Whatever….

Ya so I really can't wait for the next month… I just know things are going to be to much more fucked up.

This isn't that good. Whatever…. I love john 333