Hi guys, sorry for the delay...my modem decided to die on me last week and I had to wait for my internet provider to send me a new one.
Carly Cullen, my wonderful friend looked this over for me and she is 'wicked awesome'.
I don't own Twilight, blah blah blah
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Chapter 7
It was easy to spend time with Alice, Jake and Emmett at the bar. Along with it being new I also felt relaxed being surrounded by my new friends.
Whenever I had gone to a bar in the past with Edward and Rosalie, I was always on edge waiting for Edward's flavour of the month to show up, or having to sit back and wallow as random girls would come up to him and seek his attention. I was like a wallflower back then, standing back, being looked over and passed aside by no one wanting to pick me.
I had only two previous relationships which both crashed and burned due to my heart being somewhere else, belonging to someone else.
I had lost my virginity to my college boyfriend Ben, he was sweet and very attentive but we split up due to my lack of commitment to him. He wanted us to move in together, but I just couldn't do it. I held onto my virginity until I was nineteen, hoping to give it to Edward, but we know how that turned out.
Eric was the guy I started dating and he and Edward were at logger heads constantly.
Eric despised the fact that I was so close to Edward, and Edward just detested Eric. He never actually gave me a reason behind it and I secretly hoped deep down that maybe he was jealous.
Eric and I split up after I was home ill for a few days and when he finally decided to see if I was ok, Edward answered the front door in his pyjama bottoms and no t-shirt. Eric instantly thought that Edward and I were sleeping together and left my apartment that day, and I never heard from him again after that.
I sat at the bar and thought back to what was happening around me, feeling myself pull back from the memories that were haunting me.
I looked at Emmett and smiled to myself.
He was leaning over the bar, resting on his forearms while talking to Alice and Jake about the renovations that he had in mind for the bar. They talking animatedly about what flooring to put down and then Alice got all excited when she launched into the topic of colour schemes.
I noticed the guys cringing slightly at the mention on 'Ginza Green' and 'Bexley Blue'.
"Calm down Al, the decor must match the rest of the bar." Emmett said with a slightly condescending tone and patted Alice on the top of her head.
"But Emmett, if you're decorating the back...give the whole bar a paint job." Alice whined at him, trying to get her way.
I stifled a giggle when I saw Emmett roll his eyes at his sister, but I wasn't quiet enough and he turned to look at me.
"You can giggle all you like Swan, but if you're going to be employed by me I expect some form of loyalty." He said with mock seriousness.
"Yes Boss." I replied, giving him a small salute.
I caught Alice looking between me and Emmett with a smile on her face.
"You're going to hire Bella?" Alice asked, excited.
"Sure, why the hell not." Emmett said casually with a shrug.
I noticed Jake looking at Emmett with a small grin of his own and raised eyebrow, Emmett just raised his in return.
I had no idea what was going on with those two, they were having some kind of silent conversation and turned to look away before I got caught watching.
Just as I finished draining the last of my drink, I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket before the ringtone started.
I grabbed it quickly and looked at the screen to see the caller ID and my stomach dropped when Nana's name flashed up on it.
"Nan!" I said loudly, making my way outside.
"Bella..." She said groggily. "It hurts..." She trailed off.
I quickly made my way back to the door of the bar and shoved it open shouting for Jake.
"Nan, I'll be right there!" I shouted, getting more and more worried.
The door to the bar flew back open and Alice, Jake and Emmett came barrelling out.
"What's the matter?" Jake asked me panicked.
"It's Nan..." I said quickly rushing back into the bar to grab my bag. "We need to get home."
"Got it." Jake said grabbing my hand and leading me to his car.
"Bella, call me later to let me know!" Alice shouted just as I shut the passenger door behind me.
I looked over and gave her a quick nod of my head to let her know that I heard her as the car started up and we started moving towards Nan's house.
As soon as we got outside the house, I threw the passenger side door open before Jake had a chance to put the car in park, and sprinted up the front steps fumbling with my key until the door unlocked. I raced up the stairs towards Nan's bedroom and I could hear her moaning in pain.
"Call the hospital Jake, get an ambulance here now!" I screamed behind me.
I ran over to Nan and could tell from the grimace on her face that she was in a vast amount of pain.
"I'm here Nan, I'm here." I told her trying to reassure her in any way that I could.
I rolled her over as gently as I could onto her back, and shoved the soiled pillows away from her. From what I could tell, she had been violently sick.
I felt her forehead, she was slick with sweat and was boiling hot with fever.
Normally that wouldn't be such a major issue, but with her medication and the cancer, I had no idea of how it would affect her.
"The ambulance is on its way." Jake said breathlessly as he came into the room.
"Nan...Nan..." I called to her over and over again trying to get some form of response from her, but there was nothing.
"Jake..." I trailed off, looking over at him as the tears began to fall from my eyes.
"She'll be fine Bella." Jake told me as he moved the blankets over Nan's body. "She must have the stomach flu that's going around." He continued.
I knew that he was just trying to calm my nerves and placate me, but my heart was hammering and the only other thing on my mind was Edward.
I wanted Edward here with me; he always knew the right thing to say.
He could always calm me down but he wasn't here, he wasn't going to be here and my heart hurt that little bit more.
I quickly grabbed some of Nan's things as the EMT's made their way into the house.
They quickly came upstairs and asked me gently to leave the room so they could assess Nan before they moved her.
Jake escorted me downstairs to wait for them.
Not a few minutes later and EMT came down to grab a stretcher from the back of the ambulance and asked Jake to help direct them down the stairs.
I stayed out of the way in the sitting room until they were out the front door.
"Can I ride with you?" I asked the EMT, afraid that they were going to tell me no.
"Sure thing Miss, we'll need you to fill out the paperwork once we get to the hospital.
I just gave them a nod as my response.
"I'll meet you at the hospital!" Jake shouted at me as I climbed into the back of the ambulance.
I didn't even reply, my focus was on Nan.
Her skin was washed out and her breathing was shallow. They had placed an oxygen mask over her face and she was hooked up to a monitor that was making a steady bleeping sound.
"Nan...Nan..." I called to her quietly.
I gently took her hand in mine and brought her knuckles to my lips and placed a soft kiss on them.
"Don't you dare leave me old woman..." I told her. "You're not allowed to leave me yet."
The tears were falling freely on the way to the hospital, and as we arrived on the ambulance bay, there was a flurry of activity. Jake had arrived just before us and was waiting for me as the ambulance doors opened.
I noticed Emily by the main doors and rushed to Jake as they wheeled Nan inside.
"She'll be fine Bella." Jake told me, trying to calm me down.
We followed behind the EMT's as they took Nan into a room that I wasn't allowed to enter.
"I'll stay with her." Emily told me, before rushing into the room as an alarm started wailing.
"JAKE!" I screamed loudly in fear of what was going on behind the closed door.
Jake pulled me into his arms and cradled my head into his chest as we heard muffled shouting and orders being given.
"She can't die Jake...she's all I have." I cried loudly.
My heart was trashing against my chest and tears were falling freely as I tried to bloke out the commands that were being given in the room where they were trying to save my Nan.
All I could think of was what I was going to do without her.
Without her it would just be me, without her I would be alone.
Jake moved me to sit on some of the chairs in the waiting room, and I collapsed onto them.
"Jake...she can't...she just can't..." I sobbed.
It was now that I needed Edward more than ever, I needed to feel his arms around me. It was his chest I wanted to be crying on, it was his voice I wanted to hear trying to soothe me.
The noise from the room that Nan was in quietened down and my heart lodged in my throat.
I still couldn't lift my head from Jake's chest, my mind was running at a hundred miles an hour with all the thoughts I had going on in there.
What if Nan doesn't make it through?
What if she does?
Will she even be able to come home?
If I rang Edward, would he come to me?
Would he even answer my call?
Why is it so quiet in that room?
Why hasn't Emily come to tell us anything yet?
I heard the door creak open and looked up to see Emily walk out looking calm.
"They've taken Nan up to ICU, she is stable and we will need to run more tests to find out what is going on with her. She's not in pain at the moment; we did have to use the defibrillator on her because her heart went into shock from the pain that she was in. They think she might have had a heart attack." Emily told me and Jake.
If truth be told I didn't really hear what Emily had said, my brain was playing catch up.
"Can I see her?" I asked her, wiping the tears from my cheeks.
"Not yet, they need to get her settled in her room first." She gently patted my hand then looked at Jake.
"Why don't you two go and get some coffee and I'll call you when you can go and see her." She suggested.
I could feel Jake nodding at her, and I numbly nodded in response.
"Come on Bella." Jake said, putting his arm around my waist and helping me to my feet.
Jake led the way to the nearest vending machine and sat me down gently in the closest seat.
I wasn't really paying attention to what Jake was doing, I couldn't even tell which part of the hospital we were in.
Jake placed a hot cup of coffee in my hands and I vaguely remember him telling me that he was going to move his car and call Alice to let her know what was happening.
Again, I just nodded at him.
Nan was stable, she was alive.
I tried to breathe a sigh of relief knowing that she was still with us, but my heart was still anxious and thumping beneath my chest.
I grabbed my phone out of my bag and out of habit went to dial Edward's number.
He was my 'go to' guy, he was my 'everything' guy.
I wanted to call him, just to hear his voice. I knew that hearing him would calm me down, but I didn't know if I wanted to open that can of worms.
I didn't know if I could make the call, but I also didn't know if I couldn't.
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I originally wrote this a totally different way, and after speaking with Carly, decided to change it...believe me, you would thank me for it.
Should she or shouldn't she call him? I haven't decided yet what Bella is going to do.
On another note, I am considering re-posting some of my stories and one shots, would you guys be interested?
See you all soon xx
