OK guys, so just a warning here. In this chapter there will be some M/M sex scenes. So whoever doesn't like reading that stuff, shouldn't continue reading.
I wanted to wait with the upload of this chapter, until the next one is finished also, but I couldn't keep you waiting. So here is part 1.
And one thing, I am not an expert on writing M/M sex. So, just...have understanding for that.
Enjoy!
Love is a rare thing and something to be cherished, not neglected.. When it hits you, it hits you hard and everything in your life comes to circle around it. Every decision you make, every breath you take, every hour and minute, everything around you becomes ruled by that love and that special person. Qhuinn has always been aware of the fact that for him Blay has always been that person. He loved Blay so fucking much and protecting him from all harm, himself included, has long ago become his main mission in life. But when it came to being romantic he was lost. He wasn't a romantic person and honestly he wouldn't know how to put up a perfect date night even if he tried his best. It wasn't in his nature to be that guy. In that way he and Blay were so different. But he knew with all certainty that he loved Blay, more that his own life. There has never been anybody else for him, really. Sure, he has slept around a lot, he has been a whore in the worst possible way but when it came to loving another person with passion and desire, wanting another person with everything you are, for Qhuinn Blay has always been it. Nobody else has ever found his way into his heart. Hell, nobody has ever even come close, not even Layla. That part of him has always been Blay's. Since they were pretrans to this day, and for all eternity, Blay would always be his one and only love.
Deep down inside his soul Qhuinn has always been aware of that. He and Blay have grown up together and Qhuinn can still remember the time when things started changing. For them both. When their friendship started becoming something more that just friendship. When they started seeing each other as more than just great bodies but as possibility to so much more. Lovers and soul-mates. And as much as he hates himself for it now, Qhuinn was terrified of that love. He knew from the beginning how Blay felt for him. It has always been so clear in his eyes that somehow were always turned Qhuinn's way. They told him more than thousand words. Blay always looked at him with so much love reflecting in his eyes, so much wishing and desire and as much as Qhuinn hates to admit it, it scared him. He wasn't like that he told himself. No way, could he love a male like that. He wasn't gay but no mater how hard he tried to avoid it, the love he started feeling for Blay couldn't be pushed away. That feeling found its way to his heart and stayed there.
And what did he do? Instead of cherishing that love he stamped all over it, until he nearly destroyed it and in the process even himself. And Blay. Qhuinn knew that all of his actions have caused them both so much pain, but looking back at it now he didn't now if he could have acted differently. He needed to take that emotional trip and come to this point where he no longer is able to deny it. Blay was everything and no mater where Blay went Qhuinn would follow him. To the end of the world if necessary. Holding back his emotions for so long, holding back his bonding to Blay and his love has made him week and tonight's fade ceremony made him realize how short life really is. Every minute counted, every day counted. And he has wasted so much time already.
"Do it, just this once. So we'll both know what it's like. Just you and me, right here, right now." He told Blay, still holding his hand, his thumb slightly brushing Blay's hand. He wanted to do so much more that just holding hands. Qhuinn wanted it all, he ached for it and if Blay turned him down he didn't know how he would survive. His emotions were everywhere, all over the place, his bonding scent escaping out of his skin at speed light and he was struggling not to jump Blay. If Blay decided to stay here, to give himself to Qhuinn, it will be his decision and Qhuinn wouldn't pressure him. But waiting for Blay answer was a bitch and Qhuinn felt his body starting shaking. He didn't dare to move out of fear of scaring Blay away. "Please, stay with me" he told himself over and over again, waiting for Blay to answer.
"Yes" he heard Blay answer in a very quite and unsure voice, but it was all Qhuinn needed to hear. He closed his eyes for a second, just enjoying the meaning of that, little yes. And then, without second thoughts, he leaned in, placed his one hand on Blay's neck and his other on Blay's back, drawing him closer. He could feel the heat bouncing of Blay's body and desire taking him over. Blay wanted this as much as Qhuinn did. So he did the only one thing he could and wanted to do. He let his lips meet Blay's soft, beautiful once. No matter how many times they kissed it was never enough. There will never be enough, because Qhuinn would always hunger for the taste of Blay's lips and the feeling of Blay's trembling body. His hands were still on his neck, slightly brushing the warm skin under but Blay was still keeping his hands for himself, like he didn't dare to touch. Qhuinn pushed them backwards, lying on top of Blay, letting all his bodyweight pressure Blay down. They didn't brake the kiss, not once in their process of changing position and Blay's hands still didn't touch Qhuinn at all. Qhuinn hands grabbed the sheets on each side of Blay's head, his lover body slightly pressing forward making Blay feel his erection and making them both moan. And what do you know? He could feel Blay's hard cock meeting his own and Blay's body meeting his trusts.
"Touch me Blay." Qhuinn begged but he didn't care. He needed to feel Blay's hand on his body, taking him, owning him. "I want to, need to, feel your hands on me."
Qhuinn felt Blay's body shake under his and his hands tremble. Blay's touches were reclusive and shy at first, as if he didn't dare to release inhibitions and lose himself in the moment. Blay was still on his guard, ready to travel the ramparts around him, and his heart again, if the Qhuinn gave him even the slightest little hint of doubt. But this was Qhuinn's only chance to win back the love Blay once willingly and selflessly offered and Qhuinn would never, in hell, doubt it again. So he did all he could do. Kept kissing those lips, stroking that skin, touching that hair over and over again. And soon, step by step and breath by breath, he felt how Blay released inhibitions and gave everything. Soon they were equals, equally hungry for each other.
"We can take this as fast or slow as you like" Qhuinn whispered, meaning every word. And honestly, just having Blay here, in his arms, would be enough. It was more than he could have ever hoped for when he woke up last night. Sure, he hungered for that body and that ass, that cock, that passion, but if Blay didn't want to go there with him now, Qhuinn wouldn't pressure him. "I am so happy that you are here in my arms now. We can take this as far as you want it to go. Just lying here in each others arms or go all the way. Your choice"
Blay was just looking at him, his lips already swollen from their kissing, his hands at Qhuinn's hips. The expression on Blay's face told Qhuinn nothing about his thoughts but then a smile spread on his lips. That unique smile that was just Blay's and that was so rare these days: "I want you" Blay said, nuzzling his head in Qhuinn's neck, taking one deep breath, taking that bonding scent inside his body. "I want this scent all over my body, inside and out. I want to feel your body trembling. I want to take you and I want to give myself to you. As you said earlier, this day is just about us. Let's make the best of it. Come here"
Their lips met again and soon they were back at it. Blay flipped them over, making himself being on top. He was in control now. Qhuinn has never let anybody else be in control like this. Intimacy. He was usually terrified of it, but not with Blay. In Blay he trusted completely. He wanted him to have it all, take it all. No holding back, no fear, no nothing. That bullshit was behind them now.
"I am giving myself to you Blay." Qhuinn said breaking their kiss, locking his eyes with Blay's , honesty behind his words visible in his stare: "Take me, have me like nobody else has ever had me before. You will be the one and only I am giving myself to like this."
"Qhuinn, What are you saying?
"You know what I'm saying, Blay. You will be my first and my only"
Blay's eyes widened and he looked like he wasn't expecting this at all. It was written all over his face and it made Qhuinn feel even more vulnerable. "You know the kind of sex I have had Blay. No touching, no holding, no intimacy, nothing. Just fuck and leave. Nobody has ever touched me because I didn't want them to. But with you I want it all. I want to feel you in every way possible. Take me..."
Blay was smiling, not a mocking smile, but his beautiful smile. His fingers were brushing Qhuinn's cheek, his eyes just looking at him: " I love you Qhuinn." he said with every emotion almost visible behind his words. "I will be careful"
"I know you will" Qhuinn's hands were at Blay's back, brushing and touching and every minute coming closer and closer to Blay's ass. He wanted to feel that ass so he let his fingers land there and wait for a second, see if Blay was going to stop him. When that didn't happen, he squeezed and moaned. That ass was rock hard, muscles flexing under his touch. Blay was gorgeous, having a body of a God. Qhuinn couldn't hold it anymore, he wanted to scream. He was so God damn horny right now, his cock twitching in his pants, his emotions everywhere. He bit his lower lip, preventing himself of screaming, but in process puncturing his skin, blood sipping out of the small wound. He heard Blay groan and next second he felt Blay's tongue licking the blood away.
"mmm...you taste so good. O my God..." Blay whispered. His cock has found its rhythm, trusting against Qhuinn's. They were both so hard. "The first time hurts a bit. I will be careful, but you might feel pain anyway." Blay assured him and Qhuinn didn't care about the pain at all.
"I don't fucking care if you rip me apart completely. I want to feel your cock deep inside me. I want it so bad Blay."
Blay just looked at him for a second and then his lips crushed with Qhuinn's with such force that it caught Qhuinn by surprise. Qhuinn couldn't remember for how long they stayed in this position, just making out and being close. Clothes were lost somewhere between moaning, kissing and grounding . Blay was taking everything Qhuinn was willing to give witch right now was everything. All to soon Blay's lips left Qhuinn's but it didn't mater because his tongue started licking Qhuinn's skin. First his neck, then his nipples...sucking and licking and making him go crazy. And then he went even further down, all the way down. His lips and his hands were so near his cock he could almost feel the heat, but Blay didn't touch. At all...
"Blay...fuck...please..."
"What do you want Qhuinn?"
"You...your mouth, your hands...please..." he begged, arching his back of the mattress, moaning louder and louder. "Please...I can almost feel your heat. Take me in your mouth. Now"
Blay smiled once, looking Qhuinn straight in the eyes and then licked his cock. Just once and barely touching. Not enough, not nearly enough. "Do you want more Qhuinn?"
"Fuck yes..." And then Blay took all of Qhuinn into his mouth, giving him th best fucking blowjob ever. That moth knew what it was doing, Blay knew just how hard to suck, where to lick and how hard to squeeze. "Fuck...you're good. I'm gonna come" Blay didn't stop or lift his head, he just kept going faster and faster. Qhuinn couldn't take it anymore, he came, violently, screaming Blay's name and Blay took it all. Every single drop.
Qhuinn was breathing hard. This was the best fucking orgasm ever. Blay's mouth slowly left his cock, his tongue slightly licking the sensitive skin there before his lips came to back to Qhuinn's. They started kissing again and Qhuinn could taste himself on Blay's lips and that thought made him hard all over again.
"I need more of you Blay. I need it all." Qhuinn begged
"Come here. Stand on all four and arch your ass up" Qhuinn obeyed without question, making himself even more exposed. He has never, ever done anything remotely similar do this, but he didn't feel strange at all. He trusted Blay. "Do you have any...?"
"First drawer..." Blay scooter over to the bed stand, taking out KY and lubricating his fingers. And then he placed himself behind Qhuinn, pushing one finger inside. "This will hurt a bit, but it will pass."
Qhuinn didn't feel any pain when that first finger entered him. On contrary, he felt pleasure and started rocking himself against that finger. And then Blay pushed one more finger in and that one hurt a bit. His ass was cramping and he couldn't stop it.
"I know...but just try to relax and soon it will feel good" Blay soothed, making him relax. And when he was relaxed he started feeling pleasure again, started feeling fullness. Good...he wanted more. He started once again rocking himself against Blay's fingers, moaning.
"That feels good"
Blay's fingers soon left him and he felt the loss directly. But not for long because the next moment he felt Blay's cock at his entrance. "Are you sure of this Qhuinn?" Blay asked one last time, giving him one last chance to back out. No way, he wanted this more that anything or anyone ever before.
"Fuck yes..." was all he could say and it was enough, because he felt Blay's cock slowly entering him. Pain and pleasure mixed within him. When Blay was all the way inside, he stilled completely, giving Qhuinn time to adjust to intrusion and the size.
"Are you ok? You feel so tight...fuck..." he heard Blay ask. Blay's hands were at his back, brushing him slightly, soothing him and calming him. Slowly, achingly slowly, Blay started trusting and pounding, hitting something deep inside him, making Qhuinn scream. Pleasure was overwhelming. This was like nothing he ever felt before.
"Ahhh...Blay...what?" Qhuinn stammered, but right now he couldn't comprehend one complete sentence. That cock inside his as was all he could feel and all he could think of. "Don't stop,...God...Blay" Qhuinn moaned and begged and Blay started pounding harder, hitting that spot again. Qhuinn arched his ass even more, giving Blay a chance to hit that spot even deeper, making them both moan. This was sex, this was love, this was everything. This was first time ever that fucking made Qhuinn feel this complete, and he wasn't even doing the fucking. In his short life, Qhuinn has been a whore. To him sex was just fucking, no touching, no feeling, just in and out and you're done. But this was just something different. Body meeting body, desire meeting desire. Never in his life has he been this exposed before but he loved it. This feeling of not being in total control and doing the fucking, but being the one on the reeving end. Getting fucked, and fucked really good.
Blay's hands came to his shoulders, drawing him upwards, making his back hitting Blay's chest. Those beautiful abs. Blay brought his one hand to Qhuinn's neck, holding him close, his other to Qhuinn's hips, holding his steady. This was really happening, Qhuinn reminded himself, Blay really was here, Qhuinn wasn't dreaming or deluding himself in any way.
Qhuinn lost himself in the feeling of happiness and completeness. For a long time he has felt like a part of him is missing. Feeling of Blay's lips against his own, his cock berried deep inside him and his hands on Qhuinn's body, his tongue meeting his own over and over again was everything. This consumed him and he couldn't stop even if he wanted to. Not that he wanted to. He felt like his soul was leaving him, out-of-body experience of some kind. He felt like he was souring above them, just watching their expression of love. They were beautiful together. Being with Blay like this didn't feel strange or weird at all. It felt right and it felt like the most natural thing in the world.
"Blay...fuck...don't stop. This feels so good..." he stammered feeling Blay's hands on his abs, his tongue licking the skin on his neck, his fangs slightly scraping the skin there. Qhuinn turned his head slightly to the right, exposing his neck and his vein even more and he got the reaction he wanted. Blay moaned loudly and his fangs stopped just above that vain.
"Do it Blay...take it...now..."
And he didn't need to say it twice. Blay struck him heard, breaking his skin in an instant. He started pounding even harder, his hands on Qhuinn's hips holding him tighter and Qhuinn felt his own orgasm coming. Soon he would exp load, he would come everywhere. Having a male taking his vain like this was nothing like when a female did that. With a female everything goes slowly, even the hardest struck. But with Blay, God...there was force behind his actions and they were more equal. Just that thought made his cock twitch.
Blay kept sucking, pounding harder and moaning louder and Qhuinn started stroking his own cock, wanting a release so fucking bad. Qhuinn wanted Blay to continue pounding his ass with that thick cock, hitting that special spot deep inside him again and again, making him moan and whisper his name, begging for more. Qhuinn's hand was stroking his cock, fast and hard, his orgasm building up. Blay's pounding became uneven and Qhuinn felt that they were both near. Qhuinn couldn't hold his orgasm back anymore, it hit him hard, his seed spilling everywhere in front of him. And Blay was there with him, taking couple final hard trusts and came, deep inside Qhuinn. That warm seed filling him up. Blay let go of his vain, licking the wounds. As hard as Blay struck his vain, there will be a mark left and Qhuinn was so on board with that. Both of them stilled for a minute, breathing hard, theirs chests pumping up and down like they have run a marathon.
"That was...amazing" he heard Blay whisper, his head leaned between Qhuinn's shoulder-blades.
"Yeah...amazing doesn't even cut it." Qhuinn said with uneven voice. "You feel so fucking good inside me, I never wanted you to stop pounding my ass. Sex has never, ever, felt this good before Blay. This was just...perfect."
"I'm glad you liked it" Blay smiled, his lips placing soft kissed on Qhuinn's skin. "This was so much better that every fucking fantasy I ever had. This was just...God...I don't even have words for it."
Qhuinn leaned his head on Blay's shoulders, moaning: "Mmmm...yeah...I feel the same way."
Blay placed one last, soft kiss on Qhuinn's skin and then really, painfully slowly eased out of him.
"You want to take a shower together?" Blay asked him, slowly stretching on the mattress, every muscle visible flexing. God, Qhuinn was still hungry. Hungry for Blay and that body. The bonding scent started pouring out of his skin again and Blay's stare found his. He understood what Qhuinn wanted and how bad he wanted it. Blay arched himself up on his elbows, his lips softly kissing Qhuinn's, their breathing becoming rigid again. They were not going to make to the shower. No, soon they were at it again, kissing, touching and tasting. "Shower can wait. Right now, I just want you"
