I ask you my faith riders not to be upset with me. I realized that this story was really the sequel to "Whispers of Wind" and that the sequel to this one will be the "Writing on the Wall." I have fixed the descriptions in the summaries. Sometimes I get an idea and take off with it when I should let it settle and see where it fits.

*Okay as always I own nothing of Criminal minds I just get the privilege of playing with the characters for a while.

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Emily laid her head against the glass again waiting the darkness of memory to engulf her. It didn't take long as she almost could feel the butterfly kisses to her lips. She had awoken to blue eyes looking into hers.

"What are you doing?"

"Saying good morning."

"JJ..."

"Emily...we need to talk."

"What's there to talk about?" She said in a small voice that she hated but gave herself a break since the woman did attack her before coffee.

"Really? We made passionate love and you told me that you loved me and there isn't anything to talk about?"

"You are leaving out the part where I came down stairs and heard you telling someone else that you loved them. I believe that speaks for itself." She said as she started to get up but was caught around the waist and held.

"You heard me telling Will that to calm him down. He could tell in my voice that I was conflicted and was thinking about stopping our casual dating but didn't want to do it over the phone."

"But you didn't stop it."

"No I didn't but I was trying to understand myself and this attraction I have to you. Then you basically told me to piss off in Miami so I stopped thinking about us for a whole week and that's when I got pregnant."

"So you are saying this is all my fault?"

"No...I'm saying I'm in love with you too but I'm a coward and can't see myself living a gay life. Especially now raising a child."

"Then why in the hell are you here then?" She said looking at the woman, "Is it your intention to torture me because I love you?"

JJ reached up and wiped a tear from Emily's cheek that the woman didn't even know had escaped. "No...I'm here to check on you and to tell you my heart. When you were being beat by that maniac I heard every blow and sound." She paused a moment trying to get her stomach out of her throat again so she could speak. "I love you Emily and I almost lost you." She said as the sobs started from deep within her being. Emily pulled the crying woman into her chest. She couldn't stop the tears from pouring out of her eyes either. She just didn't have any immunity for this woman. Any other person would not be there but she couldn't take the woman in pain. After several moments they pulled back from each other. "What do we do now?" She asked Emily since she was at a loss.

"Well you don't want a gay life style and this hurts way too much. Let's be close friends for awhile."

"Can close friends hold each other at least every now and then?"

"Not for awhile JJ but in time." Emily said with every ounce of strength she had. She wanted to say yes whenever or where ever but she had to heal. She knew it wasn't good for them but how do you stop the heart from loving?

She pulled out of the memory with a shutter. That was the last time she held the woman in that way until Paris. She wasn't for sure if she was ready for those memories just yet. They were the hardest because for just a few days, hours, and moments she got to glimpse the fulfillment of love's shadows. She alone was JJ's lover and only thought. But you can make exceptions she guessed when you know the other person is going to die.

But she didn't die...she was kept alive by the beating pulse of words of love and hope written on a scrabble board. Then resurrected back to her former life only to be pushed back into a refrigerated box for safe keeping. Then she did the hardest thing she ever had to do. She left the past and her heart behind so she could breath without the pain.

Yet the shadows called from the oceans beyond and she had flown half way around the world once again to find and rescue this woman that made her heart beat. She held the note that was placed in her coat that evening. It wasn't until the plane ride home that she had found it. Now she held it in her hand as the torturous words again haunted her memory.

"I knew you would come."

It had taken months for those words to quit showing up in her dreams. How could she return to her past life? She tried it from the dead and it was too painful. She looked at her watch hoping it would say "soon."

"They will be gone soon."

Then she could take and store the letter with Pen's poem. She had a life now in London and of all things a boyfriend. Well a companion, if the truth be told. She knew that he saw he would never fully have her heart but she tried. She felt really bad about it but she also knew that she was a rebound relationship for him as well. Those never lasted but it was nice for the moment to be the one and only for someone.

She laid her head one final time against the glass and thought about the poem Pen had sent her. She knew that the woman knew about her and JJ's relationship but she also knew that JJ hadn't told her the depth of it all. She was amazed that the woman found an exact poem that painted their relationship so closely. She took in a deep breath and blew it out,"Pen...I'm not ready for the writing on the wall yet but I think it's close. It's getting so hard without her." She said as the fasten your seat belt sign come on relieving her for the moment of the shadow's visit.


Thank you for reading...

Now that I have my head on straight...not really...I suggest rereading "Writing on the Wall." I have another chapter of that part almost ready to put up but never could do it. Now I understand why. I just didn't realize this was going to be a now piece of Emily's return to the B.A.U.