A/N: Hillo everybody! Miko-Sakura here again with another chapter for you to read! Also I've recently added a pic that I drew of Sakura and there are many more drawings coming up so feel free to check out the pic! Hope you enjoy this chapter!

Disclaimer: I own nothing of "Lord of the Rings" and its characters, they all belong to J.R.R Tolkien. Nor do I own any anime-like twists. Scushi, I do own my character Sakura Aurora.

Japanese words will from now on be bolded and italicized.
Elvish words will from now on be bolded. (Mind you I don't know a lot of elvish words so in any case the words will just be bolded to let you know they're speaking in elvish.)


Chapter 7: Self Blame and Conflicting Emotions

The next morning, Gimli awoke early so that he could awaken Legolas so they could go see how Sakura was fairing. However, as soon as he came across the elf's tent he saw him lying there with an elleth.

'I thought he cared for the lass,' He thought in disbelief and let out an irritated gruff waking Legolas.

"Good morning Gimli," he greeted the obviously flustered dwarf. "Where are you off to this morning?" he questioned while Sakura still lay on him sleep with his arms still around her.

"I was going to check on the lass and I even came by to have you join me, but it seems that you don't care very much," Gimli replied gruffly.

"What do mean by that?" Legolas questioned defensively.

"What will Sakura think when she sees and hears of your being with a she-elf?" he questioned the elf. "Even I can tell that she cares for you, but I thought you would at the very least notice," he stated obviously more flustered.

Legolas finally understood and a smirk crossed his face. He had realized that only he and Aragorn have witnessed Sakura's change and nobody else...yet anyway. "Gimli, this is Sakura," he stated calmly.

At the hearing of her name, Sakura slowly opened her eyes revealing the same hazel orbs that she had when she was human. "Oh...Good morning," she said in a tired voice.

"What's this? How have you become such a thing?" Gimli stated ghastly staring at her. He didn't get an answer as she smirked to herself and shrugged her shoulders. "Alright, fine! Keep y'er secrets," he finished his business with them as he rushed off quickly to tell the others.

Sakura then let out a small giggle after he left as did Legolas. "Good morning, meleth nin," Legolas whispered to her. In reply to that, Sakura brushed her lips against his for a short and sweet morning kiss before standing up. "What are you going to do this morning?" he asked.

"I want to do a prayer for Gandalf," Sakura stated almost solomnly before walking off to change into her priestess attire that had been given back to her by Lady Galadriel.

:Flashback: (A/N: While Sakura had been changing.)

Inside the healer's talan, Lady Galadriel arrived with a package that appeared to have some folded clothes inside of them.

"Milady, what would that happen to be?" asked a young curious elleth who was a healer as well.

"These here I believe are Lady's Sakura's clothes. They seemed to have come here when she herself had come here but they were transported here instead of Imladris," Galadriel explained to the elleth. "I wish to return them to her when she awakens," she stated placing the package on the bedside table.

:End Flashback: (A/N: Just had to clarify how Sakura got her priestess outfit plus a few extra clothes.)

Sakura returned wearing what seemed to be a strange white top with bell-like sleeves(A/N: Kimono top), very large red leggings(A/N: Samurai Hakama pants), and her hair out of its ribbon allowing it to flow to her thighs. "I'm going to do a prayer for Gandalf. You can join me if you wish but please try not to disturb me," she stated as she knelt on the ground, preparing herself to pray by taking out prayer beads. Legolas nodded in reply as not to disturb her as she began to pray. Gandalf's death was still painful for him to hear being that he was such a close friend. Legolas with stealth crept away from Sakura's praying form to meet the others of the Fellowship. He realized that Sakura was not the only person doing something in rememberance of Gandalf as he also heard the Lorien elves singing sorrowfully.

"A lament for Gandalf," He stated softly as he approached the others.

"What do they say about him?" asked Merry curiously.

Legolas turned to them showing them a slight glint of sorrow hidden in his eyes. "I have not the heart to tell you. For me, the grief is still to near," he replied to him softly. For a long moment, Legolas closed his eyes as he focussed on the lament that the elves were also singing until his thoughts were interrupted by someone yelling. He opened his eyes and walked over to where he heard the yelling coming from. As he got closer he soon saw Sakura standing back in surprise while Boromir, who was luckily being held back by Aragorn, yelled at her.

"Tell me! If you knew what would happen, why did you let Gandalf fall?" Boromir bursted at her. Legolas rushed over hurriedly to hinder anything further from happening.

Sakura stared at Boromir wide-eyed at what he shouted at her for.

"Why did you let him fall? Answer me!" he shouted once more as he broke free of Aragorn and reached out to grab her. Legolas quickly stood in front of Sakura protectively as Aragorn again held him back.

"Stop it Boromir! She had tried as the rest of us had," Aragorn defended a still stunned Sakura.

"Aragorn is right, there is no need for you to blame Sakura for something that was out of her control," Legolas agreed protectively.

Sakura closed her eyes as tears began to well in themand bought her head down allowing her pink bangs to hide them. "But..." she whispered lightly causing everyone's attention to divert to her as she took a step back. "It's true..." she admitted as she looked up allowing Legolas, Boromir, and Aragorn to see tears streaming down her cheek(A/N: I know elves don't cry and all but Sakura still has human emotions so she can't help it.). "It's my fault...because...I should've kept trying to stop Gandalf...but I didn't and now he's gone..." she said quietly as she continued to back away. "Its...all my fault," was the last thing they heard before with quick speed she turned around and ran. She ran for all she was worth until she found a nice secluded spot by a stream that ran through Lothlorien. Sakura sat herself down, hugged her knees in close to her chest, and continued to cry.


Meanwhile back on the camp grounds Legolas, helped by Aragorn, began to argue with Boromir.

"Look at what you've done Boromir!" Aragorn shouted now completely angered.

"She deserved it! If it wasn't for her Gandalf would still be alive!" Boromir retorted.

"It was Gandalf's fate whether she tried to stop him or not!" exclaimed Legolas.

"Sakura has been through so much more pain than you can imagine fathomable," Aragorn stated trying to calm down.

"Oh and just what would that be?" Boromir questioned challengingly.

"At a young age...her childhood was taken away after watching every member of her family, except for her little cousin, burn to their death. And even now she's permanently seperated from the one remaining member of her family whom she raised ever since that horrid time. Naturally she blames herself," Aragorn explained coolly after he controlled his temper.

"That vision will haunt her the rest of her days. Her family asked her to live and she suffers for them and blames herself for their death," Legolas stated with almost a hint of sorrow in his voice.


As Sakura continued to cry, she began to feel more guilty as she thought of all the people in her life she's let pass away."It's all my fault...I could do nothing then, and I can do nothing now...not even for the people closest to me," she said, hiccupping lightly from crying. The tears she were crying hit the ground like raindrop as she felt all the guilt inside her swarm up. She buried her head in her knees to muffle her cry while unbeknownst to her, a pink wind began to whirl around her in a circle. She had so many conflicting emotions: sadness, guilt, and anger towards herself.

The wind around her swirled faster and faster as she could no longer hold in her cry. Sakura lifted her head up and let out a loud echoing cry allowing the tears to flow freely down her cheeks. The pink wind around her immediately spiralled high into the air creating a cylinder shape around her.


All of the elves, even the Fellowship, within Lothlorien heard the sorrowful cry and saw the pink wind spiral in the air. "Sakura!" exclaimed Legolas as he quickly stood up looking straight at the spiral in the air.

Before Legolas could do anything else he felt a reassuring hand grip his shoulder. He turned around to see Aragorn, "Legolas be sure to bring her back," he stated reassuringly.

"I will," Legolas replied, nodding his head as he then ran towards the pink spiral in the air for all he was worth.


When she ran out of breath, she stopped crying and immediately the spiral disappeared while she again buried her head in her knees. Those conflicting emotionshad then caused something with in herto re-awaken that would foreverchange her.
Well everyone there's Chapter 7 be sure to stick around for Chapter 8! Hope you liked it! Also, don't forget to check out the picture of Sakura I drew in my profile!