Chapter 7
"So what are you doing here angel baby?"
"Umm...I asked mom if I could bring you something your missing."
"Missing? I'm not missing anything angel."
"Yes you are daddy. I can see what you are missing from here."
Looking down at himself, he noticed his badge was missing.
"Here daddy."
"Thanks angel."
"Daddy?"
"Mhm.."
"Could you take me to see Horatio?"
Mac hated the pain he seen in his baby's eyes.
"Why sweetheart?"
"I need to say goodbye to him daddy. Please?"
"Sure sweetheart."
Just as Mac was about to call up Danny he walked by.
"Danny."
"Yeah Mac?"
"I'm going to be out for a bit. Anymore problems call me."
"I will Mac."
When they arrived at the Grave site. Macalleigh tried desperately to get her legs to move.
"You okay angel?"
"I can't get my legs to move daddy. I change my mind. Take me home."
Mac knew there was no way she was ready to say goodbye. But he also knew she had to figure that out for herself. Dropping her off at home. He headed back to the station.
"Mom..I'm back."
"Did you get to see everyone?"
"No. Just Uncle Danny, and daddy's new CSI. The others were in the field."
"Hmm...what does Jake look like?"
"I don't mom. I didn't really get a look at him. I'm going to go lay down. I'm tired."
Calleigh noticed as soon Macalleigh walked back into the house. She was withdrawn again.
"Sweetheart. You can't keep hiding."
"I'm not hiding mom."
"Listen sweetheart. Why don't we go to your home and pick up some of your things."
Home!! That was the last place Macalleigh wanted to be. To many memories were there of her and Horatio. No way could she go home.
"No!!"
Picking up Nicholas she headed upstairs to her old room. Laying on the bed, with Nicholas in her arms, she cried.
"Oh Horatio...How am I supposed to go on? How am I supposed to survive? I love you so much, and now your gone. How can Nicholas and I go on? God Horatio, I'd give anything for you to come home."
Falling into sleep with her tears, she dreamed. Dreamed of Horatio.
"Maaaaaaaaaaacalleigh..."
"Horatio?"
She cried as she could feel the warmth of his touch upon her skin.
"Macalleigh, I need you to look at me sweetheart."
As Macalleigh looked up, she seen his handsome face smiling at her.
"Horatio. You're home."
"No love. I'm not. I need your help. I can't rest Macalleigh. I can't go where I need to be."
"Why not??" She cried.
"Because you are keeping me with you Macalleigh. Your pain, your hurt. I can't leave you like this. My body can't rest until I help you accept my death."
"But you're not dead Horatio. Don't say that. I can see you. You're alive."
"No love. I'm not alive. I'm so sorry I left you and Nicholas behind. It wasn't done on purpose Macalleigh. But you, you and my son are alive. Flesh and blood. I need you to move on Macalleigh. I need you to accept my death. Please don't leave me in pain like this. I need you to be happy again."
"How can I ever be happy when you're not here. Nicholas and I need you. I love you so much Horatio. Why can't I just come with you."
Leaning down on the bed, Macalleigh felt the warm rush of air that brushed across her lips.
"Let go Macalleigh. I'll always love you angel baby. Always."
As Macalleigh softly sobbed, she seen Nicholas look up and smile. Knowing in her heart Horatio was saying his finally goodbye.
"I love you Horatio"...she cried over and over.
"Sweetheart. Sweetheart, wake up."
Slowly waking up she seen Horatio Sr standing over her.
"You were dreaming love. Are you okay?"
"Oh dad. No, I seen Horatio. He wants me to let him go. But I can't dad. I can't let him go."
Pulling her up his arms, Horatio just held her.
"Macalleigh..I want you to listen to me sweetheart. Just because you say goodbye to someone doesn't mean they are disappearing forever. They are always still here watching over us. Protecting us, guiding us. That's why they're called Angels Macalleigh. For they are with us in spirit. Every star you see in the sky that winks at you, is someone you know, letting you know that they are still with you. Still loving you."
As her tears continued to pour Calleigh and Stella were watching from the door.
"Dad?"
"Yes sweetheart?"
"Can you take me to say goodbye to Horatio. I think I'm ready this time."
"Are you sure sweetheart?"
"I am. I can't live another day knowing that Horatio is not able to rest peaceful."
Horatio had an idea what she was talking about. He also knew his son had visited one last time.
"Sure sweetheart. Get your coat."
Taking her hand. Horatio lead her to the car.
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