Holidays In Handcuffs ch. 7

I intended for this to be a little bit longer but I like this ending better. I had fun writing this and I'm glad that you guys was here to enjoy the ride with me but this has come to an end


Santana's P.O.V.

I feel something poking my cheek and I swat at it for it to stop but the poking continues. I cracked open one eye to see that it's my idiot brother kneeling beside the bed fully dressed and I groan. I looked at my alarm clock to see that's 6 in the fuckin morning. What the hell does he want?

"Alex, you better have a damn good reason for waking me up at 6 am" I said glaring at him.

"Come on, get dressed" Alejandro said standing.

"Fuck no. I'm going back to sleep" I said pulling the covers over my head.

"Get up, Santi" Alejandro said throwing some clothes at me.

"I hate you so much right. This better be worth it" I said pulling the cover down.

"You'll see now get out of bed" Alejandro said quietly walking out of my room.

I swear he's asking to get a beat down. I sit up to see Rachel sleeping peacefully next to me curled up in a ball as her nose scrunches up like a rabbit. It's really adorable and I can't believe that I get to call this girl mine after so long of pining after her… not that I would never admit it out loud. I reached over to push a lock of hair behind her ear before leaning over to place a soft kiss on her forehead. The diva smiles in her sleep before sighing in content.

"Sleep well, Estrella. I love you" I said before carefully getting out of bed.

I pull the cover further up the petite singer's body so she wouldn't catch a cold before walking into the bathroom to take a quick shower. I changed into my clothes before putting on a thick coat and a red beanie as I walk downstairs to find Alejandro sitting at the bottom of it. He smiles up at me with a goofy smile on his smile as I glare at him before reaching the down of the steps. The idiot hands me a go-to cup filled with piping hot coffee just the way I like because I'm going to need it for whatever he's about to make me do or take me to.

"Lets go" Alejandro said walking towards the door.

I sip on my coffee as I follow Alex out the door and onto the street as we walked in silence. I look at my brother out the corner of my eye to see that he has this sad, far off look in his eyes which is weird considering how much of a easy going and fun loving guy he is. What could've possibly happen to that could've made him look this? Where is he taking me? We walked for awhile before coming up to a hill that the mechanic and me used come to play at when we were younger. It was our secret place that we both loved very much and we were the only ones that knew about it. Why is he bringing here? He wanted to take a trip down memory line or something? I don't get it. Why is there a dirt patch here? It wasn't there before so why is Alejandro staring at it like it killed his puppy or some shit.

"Alex, why are we here?" I asked raising an eyebrow. "Because I wanted you to meet your nephew" Alejandro said smiling sadly.

"W-What? What are you talking about? You don't have kids" I said shocked.

"I would've if he was able to be carried to full term. I don't really know or understand what but one minute he's fine then the next, his tiny heart just beating. The doctors don't know what caused his heart to stop but there was nothing that they could do to save him. I wanted to bury him because this place holds a lot of good memories for me and I wanted him to have the best view of everything, ya know" Alejandro said wiping a stray tear.

"Why? Why didn't you tell me about him sooner? I could've been there for you" I said trying to keep my emotions together.

"I don't know. I guess that I was trying to come terms with his death that I wasn't thinking straight. I was going to name him Santiago after his auntie. I want him to be as strong and amazing as you are and be able to make it out of this hike town" Alejandro said wrapping his arm around my shoulders.

"I can't believe that you had a child with someone but this is you that we're talking about. Thank you for naming him after me though. Are you okay? You good? Do you need anything?" I asked looking up at him.

"Nah, I don't need anything but thanks for asking tho. I'm taking it one day at a time" Alejandro said resting his cheek against my head.

"Do you still keep in contact with the girl that you got pregnant? What happened to her?"

"No, I tried to be there for her as much as I could but after everything that happened with the baby and seeing me almost everyday just became too much for her to handle. She packed up her things and moved to Texas the last that I heard" Alejandro said with a shrug.

I pulled away from the mechanic and bend down in front of where my nephew is now laying to rest at before running my finger over the small patches of grass that's growing. I wish that I could have gotten a chance to meet him and watch him grow to be the kind of man that I know that my brother would've raised him to be. I would spoil him merciless and teach him the important thing like how to throw a mean right hook and how to treat a girl. To be a gentlemen because the world doesn't need and isn't ready for another Alex running around.

"Santiago, it's your auntie Snixx and it's good to finally meet you. I'm sorry that I haven't been around lately but I'll make it up to you one day. I promise that I'll come to visit you as much as I can so be patient. Just remember that I love you very much, okay" I said standing up.

I don't know how I can love someone so much that I never met but I do and I love my nephew very much. It sucks that I didn't to meet him but I am coming to visit soon. Alejandro smiles as he pulls me into a hug before leading down the hill and head home in silence. This gets me to wonder about my children and what it would mean to be a mother to them.

Will I be a good mother to them? Will I be able to teach them everything that they need to know before they go out into the world? Will I be ready to have them? With my anatomy, I know that I won't be the one to carry them for nine months and I worry about what will happen if my future wife not being able to carry them to full term like with Alex. Will I be able to handle that kind of pain? The mechanic is taking it one day at time but we're almost just like and we don't really like showing our pain to others. We walked through the front door and the smell of food hit our noses before heading towards the kitchen to find Mami cooking. I walked over towards her and hugged her from behind, resting my head against her shoulder.

"Santi, what's gotten into?" Mami asked raising an eyebrow.

"Nothing. I love you, Mami" I said kissing her cheek.

"I love you too" Mami said hugging me.

I walked out of the kitchen to look for Rachel and quickly find her in my room making up the bed. I lean against the doorframe as I smile softly in her direction. I wonder what our children might look like if our relationship lasted that long. With any luck, they'll look like me and have Rachel's personality and her love for the arts. I chuckled to myself at the thought and I should probably be careful with what I ask for because I might get it. The diva turns around to see me standing in the doorway before bouncing towards me as she wraps her arms around my waist.

"I missed you" Rachel said kissing me on the lips.

"I was only gone for a hour. You couldn't have missed me that much" I said playfully rolling my eyes.

"Of course I missed you. The bed was cold with you not in it" Rachel said pouting.

"So I'm just a bed warmer to you. Is that I'm good for?" I asked in mock offence.

"Of course not, you're good for cuddles too but that's about it" Rachel said smirking.

"So rude" I said kissing her on the lips. "You love me and you know it" Rachel said giggling.

"You're lucky that I do or else this relationship isn't gonna last" I said. "Any reason that you woke up so this morning?" Rachel asked pulling me towards the bed.

I sigh as I flop on the bed before pulling my beanie off of my head. Rachel looks at me with a confused and concerned look on her face but waits for me to tell her what's going on.

"This might real early in our relationship to be talking about this but what do you think about having kids?" I asked plopping myself on my elbows.

"Well um I don't plan on losing my virginity for another or so but I would like to have two kids. A boy and a girl" Rachel replied.

"Why a boy and a girl?" I asked raising an eyebrow.

"Because I am only child and I would wish to have someone to play with while growing up. I see how close you and Alejandro are and I would want our children to have that kind of relationship. If we had three, I think someone would feel left out" Rachel said smiling.

"Wait our children? You want to have kids with me?" I asked surprised.

"Not now but one day, yes. Why surprised, love?" Rachel asked titling her head to the side.

"Um I don't know but I want kids with you someday" I said smiling.

"Good, any particular reason that you're bring up the subject of future children"

I look at her for a moment and deciding to tell her everything the baby that Alex lost causing tears to swell in the diva's eyes. I pull her into me as I rub her back when Alejandro knocks on the already open door.

"Yo Mami says that breakfast is ready. You might wanna eat before you head out to the airport" Alejandro said unaware of the conversation that he walked in on.

Rachel tells back and looks my brother before getting up to hug him tightly causing him to look at me with a confused look on his face. I mouthed 'She knows' at him and the mechanic nods as he hugs the petite singer back. After a few moment, we walked downstairs to see the table set with foods and the counter lined with leftovers to take home on the way back to New York.

Jokes and laughter fills the room as we sit around the table eating and I miss this over the year while living in the Big Apple but I think that I will remember this forever because I was handcuffed at the holidays to the most amazing person that I ever met. I wrap my arm around Rachel's shoulders before pulling her in close and kissing her on the temple.

"I love you, Estrella" I whispered.

"I love you too, baby" Rachel said kissing my cheek.


The End