Please, just please, prepare yourself, you may not think that this chapter is no big deal, but for me it was hard to write, I'm against alot of things in this chapter, and it brings me great pain, but the idea came to my mind and i had to write, i am putting Hanon through so much pain, and sometimes i feel like her, not any bad way, but like not being able to cry. She is alot like me and that is why she is my main character, she is talent, she can sing, so can i, she can't cry, neither can i, i try but nothing ever comes out. Its just how i am, i have great parents, but sometimes, it can feel like my mother is dead and not around, it can sometimes feel like i don't have a father how cares about, i love my parents dearly. But Hanon is alot like me, so to write chapter it was hard, plz understand, thank you...

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Chapter 7: Return to the sea

Hanon woke up tied to a chair, she looked around and noticed she was in the castle Throne room. Fear stroked Hanon as she struggled to free herself.

"Why the struggle?" asked a voice, Hanon froze, it was him. He walked in front Hanon, he looked the same as he did when she was a child. He wore those same black jeans, his chest was bare, and he wore a long black over coat, with grey fluff. It was no doubt her father was handsome, and she got some of her looks from him, and some triats. Like not giving up, and something Hanon wished she could throw away, the desire for power. He was at least twenty-two, merpeople aged slowly, like demons.

"Why the struggle?" he asked agian, his red eyes unreadable. "You look so much like your mother" he smiling as he placed a red rose on her lap.

"Don't you dare speak of her!" snarled Hanon, glaring at him angerily.

"Ah, she speaks" he said, suddenly surprised.

"Stop acting like you care!" she yelled, trying to free herself, she felt like she was being tortured just speaking to him. She felt the hot burning hand mark on side of her face.

"I'm your father, and you'll show me respect" he said sternly,

"Gaito-sama!" called Maria as she ran into the room, slipping her arm in between his.

"The army is ready to invade, my lord" she giggled, her father smiled.

"Good, the earth will soon be consumed by the sea" he declared, Hanon's eyes widened.

"You'll fail, Inuyasha will stop you!" she shouted, suddenly wishing she take back her words. Gaito's smile faded and grabbed Hanon by the chin,

"Who is this Inuyasha?" he demanded,

"Some boy, who seems to go out of his way to protect Hanon" said Maria plainly.

"A boy?" he asked, Marie nodded. "Well, I'll have to pay him a personal visit, he'll be dead soon enough" he laughed,

"No, you stay away from him!" she screamed in anger, wincing from the rope burns.

"You love him don't you?" asked Maria, suddenly interested.

"Tis forbiddon to love a human" said her father,

"He's not human, he half human and half demon" she told him, What was wrong with her? She was giving away too much information.

"Half?" Gaito asked puzzeled, suddenly beginning to laugh. "Your in love with a half-breed?" he mocked, seeming unable to stop laughing. Suddenly he stopped as his eyes burned with anger as he reached out and grabbed Hanon's cat ears, finally noticing them on Hanon head. When she transformed they never disapeared.

"What are these?" he demanded, Hanon refused to answer, she couldn't answer him. If he found out that Hanon was a full demon (or some new creature, a mixture of being a mermaid and a demon) she didn't know what he would do.

"What are they!" he yelled, no answer. Hanon could feel her body shaking, once agian she felt the twinge of pain on her cheek.

"Your disgusting, your worthless just like your mother!" he shouted, hitting her with a firm punch to the face. Hanon did her best not to make a sound, or move, any sign of weakness her father would do more. She could feel the trikle of blood falling from her lip. She carefully lifted her head to face her father. She wished it was Sesshomaru she was looking at, the one she truly believe to be her father, he taught her everything. But instead she was looking at him, her evil, heartless father whoo treated her like dirt, the father that haunts her dreams as night. Why? Why Aqua-regina! First a curse and my mother dead! Why! She screamed in her mind.

"Your the worthless one, if you weren't, than you wouldn't have to kill to get your way" Hanon spat, Gaito grabbed his scepter, it was the same staff her mother carried around when she ruled. It was long and blue, covered in pretty satin laces. Curvings for compassion and love were carved all around the scepter, a beautiful red rose at the top of it. Now the Scepter was black, and the rose was now covered with dark energy. The castle used to be beautiful, covered in sparkles and daimonds. Marbled floors, filled with the scent of roses, her mothers favorite flower. The castle used to be covered in them, now they were all dead, and the castle was black and dull and ugly.

"I have already told you not to speak to me that way!" he yelled, swinging the Scepter, cracking it aganist Hanon's skull.

"Look me in the eye and tell me your sorry" he demanded, "Now!" he yelled, shocking Hanon. Still, she refused. She never wanted to see him, ever. She hated him, he ruined her life, it's his fault that she is afraid to trust anyone, it's all his fault!

"Maria" he said nodding, Maria smiled and walked over to Hanon. Only then did she relieze what tied her to her chair, there were viens, but they were made from the dead bodies of electric eels. She could feel her heart race, she began to struggled even harder, she wanted to escape. Maria traced the viens with her fingers, "Oi su no se" she chanted, reviving the spirits of the eels.

"Ahh!" she screamed, pain exploaded through her body, the volts flowed through her fins to her mind.

"All you have to do is tell me your sorry" her father laughed, Hanon continued to scream.

"Maria" he said, nodding, Maria pouted but enchanted the words agian. The pain began to settle,

"Now then, do you have something to tell me?" he asked, smiling. Hanon struggled to hold her head up, pain made her flinch with every movement.

"I'm s...sorry" she said breathlessly,

"I'm sorry what?" he said sternly,

"I'm sorry, father" she forced on,

"Good, Maria take her to her room" he said playfully, Hanon didn't try and move, she couldn't. Killing Naraku was her strength, she didn't fear him, but with her father it was like she was that little she was when her mother died. Maria dragged her to her room.

"Here you are princess, you can rot in here!" Yelled Maria, tossing her into the castle dugeon. Hanon laid for moments, wanting to die, and just give up. She just wanted to be left alone, she wanted to escape to a place where no one else knew her, the real her. She began to think if she needed to live tomorrow, did she need to live today? She wished she could cry all she wanted, until the tears withered away. She has always been living in the present, can she scream as much as she wants to do, until her voice begins to wither away? She crys without a single tear, the childhood memories are still sealed inside her heart, unable to get free. Hanon moved close to a wall, she began to dig, and dug deeper and deeper until she found it. The dairy she kept when she was imprisoned in this cell, she carefully opened up the old wrinkled pages.

Dear Dairy,

I miss my mommy, why hasn't she come to get me? It's so cold down here, I'm so hungry, my father refuses to give me food, he says I'm not worth feeding.

Dear Dairy,

Father yelled at me today for crying, he hit me in the face and I'll never see my tears agian, I'm scared i want my mommy...

Dear Dairy,

Father took my tears away, I want to leave this place, I want my mom! I hate my father, I hate him!

Hanon flipped through the pages until she saw a particlar date, March 4.

Dear Dairy,

Today is my thirt-teenth birthday, my father decided to pay me a visit, a very unpleasant one at that. I tried to plead with him, but he wouldn't listen. I kicked and scream, I begged for him to stop, but he wouldn't. I cried out for help, but one came, no one helped me. I feel so alone, i feel so used and dirty, Aqua-Regina, why are you letting him do this to me? What have I done wrong? I hate myself and I don't understand why!

Hanon closed the dairy, she didn't want to read on. After all, she remembered what happened after her Father left, he told the guards guarding the doors to do whatever they pleased with her. Only one guard remained loyal to her and her mother, she never knew his name, but he stopped the guards from raping her. He was killed that day for being the only one who did the right thing.

"Aqua-Regina, please help me get out of here" she prayed, "Do you wish for me to doubt you? I don't think I can make it through, I'm scared and I'm thinking about giving up" she said sadly, I'm losing the melody she thought to herself.

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Alrighty, so next.... Chapter 8: Learning the past