Chapter 7: Tonight
Did I really just do that? Did I really just take away someone else's joy? Did I just take on a responsibility I can't handle? I decided to keep Lexi. I decided to keep the love of my life, my daughter, my everything. I applied for Social Security checks from my mother, and father. Also I demanded that Peter Honz supported Lexi for the rest of her life. We went to court. Once again I had to face my attacker. I won.
So here I am sitting in my room (which I share with Lexi) holding my new daughter. Not feeling joyous, happy, or sad. You know the regular emotions that new parents feel. No. I feel numb. I took away a gorgeous baby from two parents that could give her whatever she wanted forever. Why did I do that? I'm not sure.
I'm going back to school and starting my job soon. Harvard is starting a daycare. So I get a free baby sitter. I still work at the same crap fast food restaurant. But, some income is better than none.
So tonight I go to sleep and hope for the best, tomorrow I'll wake up and see what the day brings.
