Hello kittyberries... Another chapter already?! shocking i know. Its late and i couldn't sleep to this happened. Thankyou to the peopled who reviewed the last chapter. Im glad that you like the letter concept,i think that there may be a letter each chapter untill the end, what do ya think? let me know in a review. so before i start rambling, on with the story.

Warnings: Language, spelling and grammar, OCC-ness, Lemons-later chapters-,fluff, angst

Disclaimer: I dont own Bleach.


Grimmjow POV

I sit looking at Ichigo, I can tell the orangette hasn't been sleeping much or eating. His skin is pale and there are dark rings under his eyes. He twitches every time I walk past him; every time he does I want to grab him and hold him close and tell him how sorry I am for pushing him away. We can barely be in the same room for ten minutes before he gets up and leaves. When he is asked where he is going he grunts and slams the door. When Shiro tried asking him what was wrong he was ignored. I need to make things right between me and Ichigo, but how do I do it without making it worse? I sigh and run my hands through my hair, its shorter than it used to be, I made Shiro cut it. I look out of the window and see that the day is almost over, I decide that I wont go after Ichigo I will let him have his space. Its almost three days until I see the orangette again, when he walks through the door he is covered in ash and blood. He begins to sway and I catch him before he hits the ground. I pick him up carefully and walk to his room and lay him on his bed, I walk into the bathroom and fill the bath with warm water. Once its half full I turn off the tap and walk back to get the unconscious orangette. I slowly peel off his clothes and wince as it pulls off his skin and reopens his wounds. I look up to Ichigo's face and the man is still out cold. I leave him in his boxers so that he doesn't kill me if he wakes up. I pick him up and walk to the bathroom slowly so I didn't open anymore of the wounds. I slowly lowered him into the water, and even though he was unconscious he let out a hiss of pain. I slowly and methodically began to clean his wounds and body. I had to change out the water twice before it stayed clear. Once I was done I took him out of the bath and dried him off carefully, I quickly changed his boxers, and no I didn't look, I wrapped his wounds and put him back in his bed and left and waited for Shiro and Gin to come back.

Hours passed before they returned; when they did I took Shiro straight to his brother and left them alone. Gin and I sat in the living room in silence. It was hours before Shiro made an appearance and told us that Ichigo was awake. We all piled into his room. I held my breath as his chocolate eyes turned to me.

"What happened Ichigo" I asked

The orange haired man swallowed and said, "I was attacked by some of Aizen's men"

"Men?" Shiro asked

Ichigo nodded," yeah, they were dressed in white outfits and had tattoos of numbers in different places they looked completely human but they were strong, inhumanly strong. I killed some of them but it took me a while. I couldn't lead them back here "

Without thinking I reach over and run my hand through his hair and he leans into the touch. The kid looked exhausted, hell he sounded like he was. I looked at Shiro and we exchanged silent words so I stood and said,

"You should sleep Ichi; you've had a hella three days"

Gin and Shiro get up and Shiro leans over and kisses his brother on the top of his head and says, " don't ever do that to me again" with that he leaves.

I go to follow behind him but a hand grips my wrist, I look at Ichigo and he's looking up at me with wide brown eyes, "Stay, please" he asks quietly.

I nod, not trusting my words and I close the door and sit on the bed next to his head. He groans as he pulls himself closer to me and rests his head on my thigh. I run my hand through his hair and he sighs contently.

"M'sorry" he mumbles

"What"

" M'sorry about what happened the other day, it was a mistake and you clearly didn't want it to happen" his voice was quiet, defeated almost

I shift him off my thigh and I slide down so im face to face with him, I rest my hand on the side of his face and I rub his cheek bone with my thumb,

" Ichi, I wanted to believe me I did. But I made myself a promise that I wouldn't, not until you were ready for it"

he sighs and his hot breath fans over my face," Im ready for it Grimm"

"No your not"

His eyes locked with mine, the chocolate pools were watery. A tear slipped free and ran over the bridge of his nose. I wiped it away, I took a breath and moved forward and placed a chaste kiss on his chapped lips. I pulled back and searched his eyes for something to tell me to stop and I found nothing. So I lent forward and pressed my lips against his, I felt his sigh against my lips. I moved my hand up into his hair and pulled him closer to me and deepened the kiss. I ran my tongue over his lips and they opened for me and I slid my tongue into his mouth. He touched his tongue tenderly against mine; I moved slowly and mapped out the moist cavern that was Ichigo's mouth. He moaned when my tongue caressed his. With great effort I pulled away and he let out a small whimper. I pressed my forehead against his; we were both sharing the same air. I pull him close to me and he rests his head on my chest and I wrap my arms around him and hold him tight, he nuzzles into my chest and grips my shirt, I press my nose into his hair and memorize the smell that is purely Ichigo. I close my eyes and I have a feeling his are closed too.

"Is this enough for you Grimmjow?" he asked quietly

"If kissing you is the only thing I ever do to you, then it's enough"

Normal POV.

Shiro paces the front room and Gin's eyes follow him. Gin knows exactly who attacked Ichigo. He tell Shiro and the albino stops pacing.

" It was the Espada"

"Tha What?"

"Espada"

Shiro walks over and sits next to his lover and leans into his side. Gin wraps his arms around the smaller male and holds him tight; he can feel the anxiety rolling off Shiro in heavy waves. He places a kiss to the white hair and says,

"Aizen was talking about creating an special kind of hollow. They were to be called Arrancar, Espada's. They are made from hollows and humans. He was trial running it when he took Grimmjow, he was going to make Grimmjow his first Espada"

Shiro stiffens in Gins arms and says " if he wanted Grimm, why did he send them after Ichi"

"Grimmjow's weakness is Ichigo, and to get to Grimmjow, he would break the thing that means the most to Grimmjow"

Shiro sighs and presses his face into Gin's neck. Shiro wished that his baby twin hadn't woke up to this, he wished that he could turn back time and make sure that Ichigo doesn't sign up to get frozen. Gin rubs his hand over Shiro's arm to try and comfort his lover. Shiro presses kisses onto Gin's neck and the silver haired man groaned. Shiro wants to forget everything for a moment, he wants to forget what world he is living in so he says,

"Take me to bed Gin"

And Gin does.


Aizen looks over his Espada, He had sent out a group of five and four of them are missing. Aizen smirks, Ichigo is strong he thinks to himself. He also thinks that he would make a nice addition to his army, he's missing one number and that is Zero. He hadn't found someone strong enough to fill the spot but now he has. His smirk grows; he knows that if he turns Ichigo into one of his Espada it will break Grimmjow. The blue haired man would shatter and Aizen could mold him to how he wants him. Aizen runs a hand through his hair and formulates a plan to capture Ichigo. He closes his eyes and thinks.


Grimmjow opens his eyes and blinks the sleep out of them; he tightens his arms around the man still sleeping on his chest. He looks up at the ceiling and thinks about the small amount of progress he had made with Ichigo. He knows that he promised himself that he wouldn't do anything to break Ichigo and he won't. If all he can do is kiss the man for the rest of his life, then he will. He sighs slightly and Ichigo shifts on his chest and groans as sleep leaves him. Ichigo shifts and looks up at Grimmjow and smiles sleepily,

"You stayed"

"You wanted me to so I did"

Ichigo tightens his grip on Grimmjow and listens to his heart beat. He grips onto his shirt and nuzzles into his chest. One of his hands slip under his shirt and rests on his hand on Grimmjow's stomach. Ichigo closes his eyes and drifts off into a light sleep. Grimmjow has some extra time to think, he knows that he wants to take things slow with Ichigo. He suddenly thinks of Shiro and groans, how in the hell was he gonna explain spending the night with Ichigo. He wants to bang his head off a brick wall multiple times. He doesn't regret it and he never will, he feels something deeply for Ichigo, he wouldn't call it Love, not yet but he cared deeply for the kid. He knew that he was doomed as soon as he saved the younger man. Jesus, he thought falling in love was supposed to be easy.

Grimmjow shifted Ichigo so he was lay on the bed and got up. Ichigo's eyes opened and looked up to Grimmjow.

"Grimm"

"Shh, go back to sleep Ichi, im gonna go shower and ill be back soon"

Grimmjow lent down and kissed Ichigo chastely and left. Instead of sleeping Ichigo got up and stretched and walked over to his dresser and pulled out a piece of paper and wrote.

Dear Grimmjow.

This is letter number four. So I was gone almost three days. Damm, it didn't feel that long. Time just blended into each other y'know. I never thanked you for taking care of me when I collapsed. I knew it was you, I may have been unconscious but I knew it was you. I guess I should be able to tell you all this to your face seeing as I spent the night in your arms, but I guess im not ready to spill my emotions to you, not yet.

You said that kissing me was enough, but what if that's all we do until the day I die. Will just kissing me really be enough? Wont you tire of me Grimmjow?. I lied when I said I was ready, im ready to kiss you but something else would break me. There are things that I need to tell you, things that I haven't told anyone. Not even Kisuke or Shiro. Im going to tell you, not now or tomorrow but soon I promise Grimmjow.

Ijust heard your door open; you must be out of the shower. So I should stop writing this but I will tell you this in this letter and maybe to your face soon, I love you Grimmjow.

Always,

Ichigo.

Ichigo quickly folds and puts the letter with the other three. He closes the draw just as Grimmjow enters the room. Ichigo turns in the chair and looks at the taller man,

"Morning"

"Morning"

Ichigo got up out of the chair and walked over to Grimmjow and stopped in front of him. He stood on his tip toes and pressed a chaste kiss to Grimmjow's lips. The taller man slipped his arms around Ichigo's waist and pulled him closer and deepened the kiss. Their eyes slid closed as their tongues touched, Ichigo moaned. Shiro's voice broke through their lust filled haze,

"You two stop makin out like teenagers an come n' get breakfast"

Ichigo groans and Grimmjow laughs and asks, "How did he know"

"Its Shiro, he knows everythin"

With a chaste kiss they pulled apart and walked to the kitchen to eat breakfast.

Throughout breakfast Grimmjow could feel Shiro's eyes on him, he looked up and Shiro was glaring slightly at him,

"So, ya stayed in Ichi's room last night"

"Yes" Grimmjow swallowed

"Did ya fuck?"

Ichigo choked on a piece of toast and glared at his brother, when he could breathe he said, " No, we didn't . We slept in the same bed with our clothes on Shi, nothin happened"

"That true" Shiro asked Grimmjow

"I made ya a promise Shiro, I may be a bastard but I stick by ma promises. I wont do nothin till he's ready"

Shiro nodded and went back to his food. Grimmjow and Ichigo looked at each other and Ichigo blushed and looked away. So much for bein emotionless he thought to himself.

The day passed slowly, Ichigo slept on and off through out the day, Shiro and Gin visited Kisuke and Grimmjow went hunting once the sky changed from orange to red. As of now Ichigo slept in his bed, he was panting and sweating, in his head a vivid nightmare was playing out in his head, Ichigo knelt before Aizen, a white mask covered his face. His mind was blank and all he knew was that he served Aizen, he was Aizen's weapon. Ichigo stood when the door behind him opened. He felt Aizen lean close to him and whisper " kill them, kill them for me Ichigo" Ichigo looked up and saw his brother and Grimmjow stood there , They were being held by some of the Espada. The mask on his face shattered into hundreds of pieces and he froze and swallowed. He couldn't move a muscle, he was paralyzed, Tears pricked to his eyes, " Please" he begged, he felt Aizen's hands slide down his arms and stop at his hands and push them together until they gripped his sword. Tears rolled down his cheeks " please don't make me do it" Aizen walked him forward and stopped in front of his brother. He gripped Ichigo's hand and thrust the sword through his brother's chest. Ichigo felt his heart shatter but he still couldn't move, he couldn't do anything, Aizen yanked the sword out of his brother's chest and turned to Grimmjow. Blue eyes locked with his and begged him not to. Aizen shoved the sword forward into Grimmjow's chest. Ichigo screamed.

" AHHHHH"

Ichigo shot up off the bed and looked down at his hands; he could still feel the blood of his love and his brother coating his fingers. He felt tears roll down his cheeks, his head shot to his door when it banged open and he saw Grimmjow stood there. He suddenly started sobbing. He felt large arms wrap around him and he gripped onto Grimmjow tightly and sobbed into his chest. Grimmjow shushed him and held him tight and rocked him, Grimmjow's heart broke at seeing Ichigo like this. Grimmjow held him until his sobs turned into small whimpers and sniffles. Ichigo looked up at Grimmjow and went to tell him about the nightmare but Grimmjow stopped him,

" No, tell me tomorra. You're exhausted. Sleep and if you wake up ill be here. I promise"

Grimmjow lay them down and pressed Ichigo close to him and Ichigo pressed his face into Grimmjow's neck and closed his eyes. He whimpered every so often but Grimmjow's voice calmed him,

"I've got you, I've always got you"

Grimmjow stayed awake that night, and when Ichigo woke up. He was there.


So... what did ya think? let me know..please?... this chapter jumps through lots of different emotions...well mainly angst... it will be resolved eventually...i hope this is up to par with all the other chapters. Well now its 2:40Am and i am wide awake. I hope you all liked this chapter and you will hear from me again soon, maybe it will be a Grimmjow back story chapter, what do you think, let me know your input is important!. so im going to go try and sleep now. so Goodnight, Good morning or Good afternoon where ever you are :3

Until Next time

Meesh :3