I'm Gonna Break
The Next Day
Sakura groaned as she got out of bed. "Fuck... my head." she said. She looked over at the time, it was 7:00 AM. "... Nice." she said to herself as she crashed down on her bed again and sighed deeply. Kiru and her didn't have to go to school that day because Mikan told them they could stay at home the whole day.
Sakura groaned lazily as she got out of bed, forcing her body to move. Then, she took out her light pink Ipod and set it on the speakers. She looked for a song and realized that she hadn't heard a song that was downloaded on accident. She then played it and it began to play the music:
(The Cure: Boys Don't Cry)
I would say i'm sorry
If i thought that it would change your mind
But i know that this time
I've said too much
Been too unkind
I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try and
Laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes
'cause boys don't cry
Boys don't cry
I would break down at your feet
And beg forgiveness
Plead with you
But i know that
It's too late
And now there's nothing i can do
So i try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try to
Laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes
'cause boys don't cry
I would tell you
That i loved you
If i thought that you would stay
But i know that it's no use
That you've already
Gone away
Misjudged your limits
Pushed you too far
Took you for granted
I thought that you needed me more
Now i would do most anything
To get you back by my side
But i just
Keep on laughing
Hiding the tears in my eyes
'cause boys don't cry
Boys don't cry
Boys don't cry
Sakura stayed on her bed on her back with one arm sheilding her eyes while tears ran down her face. 'If boys don't cry... what about girls?' she asked herself. 'Of course we cry rivers.' she said to herself. 'I don't know how much more of this I can take.' she thought to herself. 'I should've listened to this song ages ago.' she thought to herself.
She then sat up and wiped the tears from her face. She stood up and replayed the song louder and headed toward the shower. While the warm water hit her, she suddenly remembered that she had to go see Sasuke at the park. She sighed loudly. "This guy." she said to herself. "What the hell did I do? What kind of signs are these? Why does this happen to me? I don't see other people having this kind of problems with their Ipod giving them signs like this." Sakura said aloud to herself. "But it is a nice song." she admitted.
She then got ready in a black longsleeved shirt that covered her knuckles and squeezed her figure comfortably along with blue hip huggers. She combed her long hair and put on a black ribbon. She sighed as she headed out of the house and towards the park.
OOOOO
At the Park
Sakura arrived at the park in a few minutes and gasped and quickly hid behind a tree. She knew the back of that hairdo anywhere. Sasuke was waiting for her, his back faced the tree she was hiding in. She saw him liftt up his arm so she guessed he was checking the time. She quickly retreated to standing perfectly still behind the tree, trying to catch her breath. 'Should I really do this? Is this an obligation?' she asked herself. She took deep breaths at the thought of facing him. She then felt something lightly grb her arm. She quickly turned around and met onyx eyes. She quickly jerked her arm away. Sasuke looked at her with an apologetic face. She looked away.
"What do you want?" she asked him rudely.
"I wanted to talk to you." he answered.
"For what?"
"I... How have you been?"
Sakura looked at him blank.
"Why do you care?"
Sasuke scratched the back of his head in nervousness.
"Sakura... I don't know how long it will take for you to forgive me... but... I don't want to fuck up on you."
Sakura glared at him.
"What are you playing at kid?" she asked him darkly. It peirced his heart to know that she was mad enough to not even say his name.
"Please, just hear me out." he said to her. Sakjura thought for a while and crossed her arms in front of her.
"Sakura... I know I messed up... big time but... I admit... at first... I just wanted to get in your pants but now... I feel so much more for you." he told her. Sakura bit her lip top keep her tears from falling.
"Why do you think it's okay to play with someone's heart like this?" she asked him with her head down, bang's covering her face. He then got closer so that they were just a few centimeters away.
Sakura didn't even bother to look up. She felt his fingers go to her chin and make her lift up her face so that she can see his eyes. His eyes stuck on hers like glue. From the moment he saw her eyes, he felt like he could see what she thought, felt, and saw in other people. He knew she felt something for him.
"Why do you do this?" she whispered, lettign the tears fall.
"Because you are so much to me." he said to her. Those words hit her hard. She then pulled away and put her back against the tree and covered her face with her hands as she cried, sniffing every once in a while. He hated to see her that way. He walked over to her again and put his hands on hers and made her lower them.
"I can't do this." she said and quickly broke away from him and quickly walked away. That is, until he grabbed her wrist. Sakura quickly jerked it off and faced him. "What the hell do you want from me?!" Sakura yelled at him.
Sasuke finally had it with her naiveness towards him and snapped. "I want all of you!" Sasuke yalled at her and crashed his lips on hers. She pushed him off.
"Leave me alone! There are a lot of other girls! Go find another one! "I don't want another one." he said to her.
"Why?! Why me?! Leave me the fuck alone!" "I can't! I can't because I really like you." he said to her. "As what as a fuck toy?!" she asked him angrily.
"I'm done with this bullshit Uchiha! I hate you!" "No you don't!" he yelled back at her and crashed his lips on hers once again. She pushed him away roughly and slapped him. "You can't do this to me." she said, her voice breaking.
"I have to... I need you to get you to see that I like... I... love you." he said to her. Sakura stayed quiet.
"Since the first day your brother introduced me to you... I couldn't keep myself away from you. Then after I saw you leave the hotel... I've been wanting to maje things right between us." he finished.
"There is no us." She said, trying to control her voice. "If you even cared the least bit about me... you wouldn't have done that. You would have rebiuspected me and you wouldn't have gone off with that whore." she said to him.
"I know that, but please... can't you see that I was wrong to do it?" he asked her. "I feel so stupid for doing that to you. I know that I fucked up... believe me I do... but I want to fix it... please Sakura." he begged. She began to cry again. "I can't... not now." she said.
"I love you." he said again. And the words tghat she used shocked him and pained him deeply.
"Uchiha... get over it." she said. And as soon as she said it, she felt so wrong. She felt like she wanted ot take it back but instead... she ran away from him. Ran all the way back home and ignored the fact that Kiru was on the couch as she rushed to her room.
She quickly locked the door and laid down on the bed. She cried for as long as she could on her pillow. "You told me I was gonna go to that school to protect my brother... and now I'm stuck with this huge problem." she said to herself as she cried on her bed.
"If I hadn't agreed to go there... I would never have met him... I would never have seen his face... I would have never felt so much regret... I feel so foolish for even going to that stupid boarding school. I just want to forget everything that happened. I want to forget him... I need to. I can't bear this pain. I never even felt so much before. And in such a short time." she said to herself. "I never wanted to feel this. Thsi is why I didn't want to go... because I was scared... I didn't want to ever feel this." She said to herself quietly and sniffed. "But I guess I had to no? Everyhting happens sooner or later." She said to herself as she let her warm tears flow.
After a while, she heard a knock on her door. She quickly got up and wiped her tear stained cheeks and looked in the mirror to fix herself. She had always done this to herself. She fixed herself to hide the problems away from her family.
There was a huge problem in doing so... ever day that she sat down with the family... such a big urge came to her to scream her problems over the table. Each one on its own and always skipping to a different subject. She wanted just to yell out:
"I hate having pink hair!"
"I hate going to that stupid boarding school!"
"I hate having to go behind your back to motor cross!"
"I almost got raped by a hot ass guy that happens to be my brother's former bully!"
"I'm stuck in this problem where I don't know what to do!"
"I hate that you can't even notice when something's wrong!"
"I hate it when you say everything will be alright when you know it won't dammit!"
Everything just to spill out and leave her thoughts and to untie the knots in her stomach that she always gets. Once she finished fixing herself, she walked over to the door and opened it. She quickly put on a smile. "What's up?" she asked her brother. "Um, can we talk?" he asked her. Her smile faded once she saw that he was serious. She let him enter the room and sit on her bed. "So, what's up then?" she asked again. Kiru just cut to the chase, skipping the nice out-of-the-topic conversation.
"Sakura why can't you tell me what's wrong?" Kiru asked her. Sakura's mood changed in a matter of seconds. She sniffed and looked away. "Please just tell me." he said. "Why do you want to know so bad?" she asked him. "I want to know because I'm your brother." he said. Sakura couldn't help but look at him. "Everything is so fucked up Kiru."
Kiru looked at her confused. "What do you mean?" he asked her. So she told him everything... start to finish. Once she did finish, he looked officially pissed off. "Why didn't you tell me this?" he asked her coldly. "I wanted to I really did but I thought that you wouldn't understand." she said, voice cracking. Kiru looked at her in the eyes. "Don't you ever think that I won't ever understand what you try to tell me." he said to her. "I love so much Sakura, I'll tell you anything... trust me and tell me anything you want to tell me." he said to her. She quickly broke down and hugged her brother while crying on his shoulder.
To Be Continued
I am so so so so so so so SO SORRY it took me so long! I was having a lot of troubles with my computer so I had to wait. I'm so sorry I had to keep you guys waiting so long! I LOVE YOU ALL! PLEASE FORGIVE ME! NO FLAMES PLEASE!!
Preview of Chapter 8: "So... you're the whore that Sasuke dumped me for?" Ino asked angrily. "I was expecting him to do better but sadly... I don't know what happened. Pity. Oh well... I know he'll be running back to me because obviously he regrets ever leaving me." she said. "Excuse me?" Sakura asked bitterly. "If I were him I would have dumped you a long ass time ago." Sakura answered.
As soon as Kiru entered the school, he found Sasuke talking with Naruto. He quickly turned him around, grabbed him by the shirt, and banged him hard against that wall.
"WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO TO MY SISTER?!" he yelled at him and socked him hard on the face.
Chapter 8: Confused
