The alcohol can't affect me; it's the same as water, as air. It's there but I don't want it.
Even though, the human alcohol can't affect me, I had found a new type of 'alcohol' that can affect me.
And I know that because without resistance, and without reason, this new type of 'alcohol' has completely and surely made me absolutely drunk.
Chapter 7: Control
"You have to wake up Naruto…"
"I will…just two minutes…"
"That is what you've said two minutes ago too…"
I am in his room, in his bed, beside him, again. Starring at him while he sleeps and he refuses to wake up.
"You will be late…"
"Mh…"
His head on the white pillow, his hair in every direction, his answers that sometimes are more clearer and sometimes just sounds…
I explained to him just one time, because the second time, I didn't dared but still, I was very explicit when I explained to him, that when he does that, he makes me feel, somehow, uncontrollable, but I can't decide if he does this intentionally or if he always had a problem with sleeping?
I can't stare at him too much though, without touching him, and I thought he learned this lesson but I guess humans don't have their guard up when they are asleep.
I put a hand on his neck, and he hissed and then he spoke in a very low voice:
"You're cold…"
My whole body is cold because practically, I am dead, but he isn't very used to it though, I told him every time.
"Hm…"
He put a hand of his over mine that is on his neck and then he kissed my hand.
My eyes become wide open and a smile forced to appear on my face but it didn't have the time.
So, I begun to kiss his neck, and the smile forced again just at the thought that he moaned under me.
It made me feel in control.
Even though, he holds the whole control of me.
Lately, I've tried to be sincere with myself and admit, I am like a dog that loves his master, but the master frightens when the dog wants to bite him.
And I think that because the whole day, when I am not 'pleasuring him', he absolutely holds the whole control of me.
He takes me where he wants, he does what he wants, and I help him with all that he wants.
My luck is that when I say no to him, he listens. He still realizes that he is a human. Odd thing, that sometimes, I almost forget that I am a vampire. Because just when I sense something bad, or just when I am too hungry, I actually remember myself what I am.
His blood is still like pure gold to me, but I resist it, just because I begun to enjoy him while he is still breathing. Why?
"Sasuke…stop…"
My tongue and teeth on his neck, my hand on his belly, my hand on his back, under his T-shirt, his almost red cheeks from the heat I cause. His blood feels like is boiling and I am the reason.
"Can't do that…"
I never felt more sincere, but this is a shame, a vampire seduced by a human, almost turned on every time I look at him, every time I rub against his turn on.
Such a shame for a vampire but suddenly, I don't give a damn.
"Sasuke…school…"
I stopped making marks on his neck and stared at his blue eyes and at the flushed cheeks.
"Oh, so now you care if you are late for school?"
Indeed, I am like a dog when there are other people around, I don't care about them, I care about his protection, I care about his disposition, and I care about everything that it's around him just because everything can hurt him.
I am like a dog that loves his master too much, I am a guardian dog, but what hurts me, is that, no one beside him can hurt him like the one that he, himself, with his own hands, takes my hand in his, and smiles while he speaks with me.
No one in this world can hurt him like I do.
Because no matter what, the dog which loves and guards his master would never be suspected, the dog can lick him like a piece of meat, still too precious to be eaten, but still, the master would never think that the dog can bite him anytime he wants, because around him, the master has his guard down.
The dog knows every weak point, his smell, and even the sound of his steps.
I know that. I am the dog, but I won't bite him not even if I wanted to, but I know that what I do now, will surely hurt him later.
I care so much that sometimes my chest hurts like there is a heart beating in it, when he is mad at me or if he is sad because of me…
But even if I hurt him, I put me and him in danger, even if what I do now is completely irrational, what can I do to stop myself?
"Sasuke…"
He may want to sound threatening, but my name is said in a moan, not in an angry voice.
He is so confused, so weak, so humanly.
While I begun to lick his nipples I can feel it against my own.
And every time I wonder: How it always gets like this? And why, every single time, I start everything?
"School…"
I am annoyed by the fact that every time I get to kiss the part between the hem of his pants and belly, at the boundary, he would do anything to stop me.
And I begun to stop myself before, just because I know he would suddenly do something stupid to stop me.
I don't get it at all but even so, I am somehow glad. Even if he doesn't thinks like me, if I do it with him, our bond will be deeper, and then, it will be no way out, at least, now, it's not that strong, even if it's too strong for our own good already.
"Get dressed, you're late."
"Yeah…"
With red cheeks and unsecure movements he searches for clothes, and I stare at him from his bed.
He is always funny in the morning, he has no idea what is happening around him, especially when I wake him up in not really normal ways.
But still, if he would really want to avoid that, he should wake up properly.
It's hard enough for me to watch him all night sleeping. And don't do anything, sometimes, I think I wait for the morning to come.
I wait for the sun to let me pretend that I am supposed to be part of his life.
"What are you doing?"
Again, there are clothes all around the already messy room.
"I can't find..."
There will be more words if I would actually let him speak, but I licked the right side of his neck and suddenly his cheeks became even redder and then, I hand him his own clothes.
"Thanks."
What seriously bothers me is that from the first day of our 'more than friends' actions started, he begun to change in the bathroom.
He won't let me enter, and that would be a weak point, just because the bathroom doesn't have a window doesn't means a vampire can't get in.
But I am somehow grateful he is always late, so he changes very fast.
"I am ready."
We arrived at school, even if I let him come first in the class so that he won't be punished, and I would come after him and wouldn't be punished anyway.
So, I will spend the rest of my day, being a loyal guard dog.
But it's funny how he can actually be a medium at every class except math.
I never thought someone can make all the exercises correct until he has to give the final answer that is always wrong at every single exercise.
"I might fail at math."
"It isn't a might, you will fail for sure."
We are on our way home, and as always, we talk, until we will go on separate ways. Well, I 'pretend' to go on a separate way, but the truth is that I will be in his apartment before he will arrive.
Such a not wise plan, but I must protect him, and always see him, no so close to him, but still…
I don't remember the last time I did actually go home. But I am a little unsecure if someone found out what I am doing, so, maybe I will pass for the next few years.
"Help me."
We didn't talked after I said that he will fail for sure, of course he made that angry innocent face because of what I said, but I was lost in my thoughts so I didn't thought he would speak until we will make the last few steps and pretend to separate.
But still I spoke:
"With what?"
"Math."
Should I?
"Hm…"
"No hm's Sasuke, please?"
'You are not supposed to be part of his life, you should be long dead by now, you can be as his friend but you must not change his future.'
"No."
"Why not?"
He stopped as I walked one step ahead and I stared at him with my hands in my pockets, he almost screamed.
"Just no."
My voice is calm and so is the expression of my face, I expected him to react somehow in that line, but he is more than angry, and somehow, my chest hurts again.
"Fine."
He spoke in a low voice and a little too calm.
We made the last steps and when we were about to separate, he spoke:
"Don't come."
It was so low that just my ears could hear it and he knew that.
I understood that he is angry but I might as well pretend I didn't hear it.
It may be wrong but I couldn't go anywhere else, and I couldn't let him sad like that and more, because of me.
So I was in his apartment before him, and when he arrived too, he stared at me with a sad and disturbed expression.
I pulled the curtains over the windows, I personality bought the curtains just because of security and the possibility that no one will see me after them and I knew that he hates them.
He likes the sun and I… covered it.
"I told you to don't come."
"I didn't hear you."
For a second I thought that this was more than about math.
"Well then I will tell you again, go away!"
I felt hurt, rejected, and for a second my logical brain thought that if we fight, and in his human world, break up, then I will protect him like I should, and everything will be right. No mistake done.
But then why did my legs and hands and mouth and even tongue auctioned on their own?
"…let me…"
I pushed him against the wall, I kiss him so deep that he is almost out of breath, I put my cold hand on his back and the other one on the right side of his neck and in the end, I finished the kiss as he bit my lip in the process just because he knows that he can't push me away, no matter if he would actually be full of muscles.
Even if, I don't want him to hate that he is a human.
I put my leg between his legs and rubbed it against his hard on, his angry voice but his red cheeks, his quick breaths and his hands that still try to push me away, his neck that let enough space for my mouth, but his small escapes of moves of his head while he tries to move away but leaves me more space.
'Hey Naruto, could you tell me, which one of those is the real you?'
"What's wrong with y..?"
I couldn't say it but I thought it so loud in my head that I wished that you would hear it so, I said something else:
"I am sorry."
He stopped resisting but I stopped my actions too and I stared in bright blue eyes.
"If I would have accepted, then it would mean I should have came with you, at your apartment, and that would be a mistake in my mission, I can't do that. And even so, I am not supposed to exist in your life, I've told you before, so ask someone else, a human to help you, I can't…"
"That is why I got angry."
His expression is changed, nor his cheeks are red anymore, nor his voice too calm, nor too angry, he looks into my eyes and puts his hands on my arms and then he speaks:
"You always say that you are not supposed to be in my life but what do you know? Maybe the reason why you were saved then and changed in a vampire or the reason you were put in this mission, maybe it was supposed to be in this way."
His idea seems more than not even plausible, his eyes glitter with hope and I could feel that hope has passed through my dead eyes too, at least for a second.
"Even if what you say is true, I am still…"
"Here, you are here, and you already broke plenty of rules and…"
"But…"
"I know. But this isn't about math, this is about everything, just, let all the rules behind and live."
Telling a dead to live isn't even funny, not even a little.
So I realize that my legs moved on themselves, and I walked behind me while I am still looking at him.
And with confusion and fear in his eyes he said my name:
"Sasuke?"
No, he wanted me to do something more than to stay some steps away from him, and while staring at the wall, not at him.
But he came in front of me, put his hands on both side of my cheeks and stared in my eyes with confusion, while my eyes are still fixed at the wall behind him.
And just then I regained control and I looked into his eyes.
"You're scared."
He took his hands from my cheeks and made a few steps behind him, while a tear had formed in his eyes, and then, fell on the cold floor.
To be continued…
Yeah, I am not dead, Sasuke is…(not funny, I know), it's not really a short chapter, but there sure are a lot of mistakes, I didn't corrected this chapter, I am amazed I wrote it, it took me so long, I am so sorry, but I had the most big writer blockage I ever hand and I still have it, I just couldn't write but now I try the best of me, so forgive me for my mistakes, I try to update all of my stories and I don't have much time, I have to do a lot of things, I will probably let my beta correct it or something, but it it's really something not understandable then you can sent me a message or in a review (I would love it to be in a review), not funny I know,
Well, tell me your opinion and I hope no one is mad at me and that everyone will accept my sincere apologizes and I will try to never do it again.
Thank you for reading and I really need opinions (a little out of ideas) yeah, don't kill me. And thank you for all of those who are still reading.
