The walk to Izaya's parents' house was quiet and utterly awkward. There was this tense silence and Izaya didn't dare to speak. He was terrified of what the blonde could want to talk to him about. Shizuo hadn't found out, had he? No, he couldn't have. It was impossible. Izaya had done so well at hiding it after all.
They walked quietly down the street and entered the empty house and silently went upstairs, into Izaya's room. Izaya closed the door behind them and sat down on his bed.
"What was it that you wanted to talk about?" Izaya asked. His voice had come out much smugger than he had thought it would. What a relief.
"You know, I'm not good with words but," Shizuo trailed off, seeming like he took a few moments to think before continuing, "Izaya, why have you been avoiding me?"
Why did the brute always have to be so direct? Not to mention blunt.
"I haven't been avoiding you, Shizu-chan. We've just had plans on the days where the other was free. Things like that occur," he explained calmly, though Shizuo didn't seem to buy it, as he frowned at the reply.
"Flea, drop it. Something's obviously bothering you."
Okay, Shizuo hadn't seemed to notice he had been loosing weight, which was a relief. Though, somehow, he felt a bit hurt that Shizuo hadn't noticed. It only proved how fat he really was. There had been no change, even though he had lost 14,2 kilos. How disappointing.
"Nothing is bothering me. What could it possibly be anyway?" he said with a chuckle.
Shizuo wouldn't have any of that today and quickly went to Izaya and grabbed the collar of his shirt. He pulled him upwards, to eye level, and got surprised at how light Izaya was. He almost threw him to the ceiling! He carefully put Izaya back down and took a step back. Shizuo seemed to have an expression that was somewhat of a mix between being slightly scared and angry.
"What?" Izaya said with a frown.
"What the hell, flea. You're so light," he commented, surprise obvious in his voice.
Izaya didn't know how to reply and he didn't have to, because Shizuo decided to say something instead.
"I thought you looked skinnier than usual too. I've been thinking that for a while. What happened?"
"Happened? Nothing happened. I'm the same as always, ne?" This was starting to get bad.
"No!" Shizuo exclaimed angrily. "Take off your shirt," he said surprisingly calmly. "Now," he said more sternly.
"Excuse me?" Izaya said surprised. "I don't think so."
Shizuo went right up to him and forcefully pulled Izaya's small black jacket and red shirt off. Izaya yelped and immediately turned his back on Shizuo, feeling exposed to a point he wasn't comfortable with.
Shizuo's eyes widened slightly at the sight. Izaya was all skin and bones! Well, he was before too, but now he looked horrible! His spine was disgustingly visible and so where his hips and shoulder blades. He noticed that Izaya was shaking lightly and hugged him from behind. "Shit…" the blonde mumbled.
"Izaya, what have you done to yourself?" he asked in a low tone, yet he still sounded angry.
Izaya didn't say anything. He couldn't say anything. Shizuo knew now and it was far too soon. He was still fat and he didn't want Shizuo to see his body until he had become skinny.
"Idiot!" Shizuo exclaimed and let go of Izaya; his anger slowly rising as the facts sunk in. "Look at yourself, flea!"
"Shut up!" Izaya exclaimed, "You don't know anything!" he yelled angrily and turned to face Shizuo, "I'm fat, you stupid protozoan!" he snapped. "I didn't want you to see me until I had become skinny, but no, you just had to ruin it-"
"Fat? You honestly believe you're fat?" Shizuo asked somehow calmly.
"Yes! Because that is the truth!"
"You're not fat, you're way too skinny!" he yelled. "Look at yourself! You're all skin and bones, there's no fat on your body at all! You look sick and it's awful!"
Izaya froze. "Excuse me?" he said lowly. "Awful? Sick? I know. It's disgusting how fat I am."
"Izaya, you're not fat. How can you call that fat? I've never seen anyone this skinny!" Shizuo said and ran a hand through his hair in frustration. "We have to talk about this. And I guess you're parents will need to kno-"
"No!" Izaya yelled, taking Shizuo by surprise. However, it only managed to get him angrier.
"I don't give a shit about what you think, flea," he growled. "How much do you weight?"
Izaya huffed and looked the other way, crossing his thin arms over his chest. Shizuo took another look at Izaya now that he could see his front. He was so thin. He could see his ribs and his hip bones were sticking out as well. The bones in his shoulders and arms where visible too. His fingers were very bony now. He looked at his arms and- Wait.
"Izaya, what is that?" he frowned and grabbed the raven's left arm. He looked at his wrist and to his horror, there were cuts on it. "What happened?" he asked in surprise.
Izaya tried to pull away from Shizuo's grip but with no use. "It's nothing."
"It's not 'nothing'!" he snapped and then pulled himself together before continuing, "What happened?" he asked again.
"I cut myself," Izaya said in a low tone, looking the other way. Avoiding eye contact was a very unusual thing for Izaya to do and it bothered Shizuo. It didn't just bother him, it annoyed him. Izaya wasn't the type to simply look away even if he was uncomfortable with the situation.
"You what?" Shizuo said in pure surprise. "Izaya," he walked towards Izaya which made the black-haired walk backwards until the back of his legs hit his bed. He sat down and Shizuo sat down on his knees on the floor, before his boyfriend. The blonde wrapped his arms around Izaya's waist and buried his face in the raven's abdomen. "We need to get you back on track," he growled.
Izaya didn't say anything but merely hugged the blonde back. Shizuo, on the other hand, didn't have a very strong grip on Izaya and the raven did notice that. He also knew that Shizuo was angry enough to want to punch something, but he had refrained from doing so. It only proved how good Shizuo had become at controlling his anger at this point.
Izaya was terrified that Shizuo had found out and didn't know what to do. What would happen? Would he make him fat again?
Shizuo snuggled closer to Izaya, trying to calm down. It was just really hard considering just how bad the situation was. Izaya was incredibly skinny and it worried him to no end. He didn't have any meat on those bones. How much did Izaya weight? Would he be able to recover? Just how bad was it actually?
All those thoughts were overwhelming for Shizuo and he didn't know what he could do to help Izaya in his recovery. He only knew that no matter what, he would do anything he could to save him.
It was strange. For once, Shizuo was actually scared.
I'm very sorry that it took me so long. Updating once a week won't work, I guess. I'll try updating once every month, but I won't promise you anything. So no, I've not neglected this story at all, in case you were wondering. I just need to be in a… special mood to write this, which is why I haven't been able to write anything. I haven't felt like writing either. Sorry! ^^
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