Chapter 7 "Emptiness"
Have you ever felt that you don't know what's going on anymore?
Like you don't care about anything or anyone anymore? You lost those motivations to do anything. You are confused about your feelings and you can't explain what you're feeling.
That you have the feeling of emptiness, and the feeling that no one is there for you. That no one understands you anymore. And it seems like there's nothing to look forward to anymore.
That is how I felt, right then.
Rayna made her brothers leave so she could talk to me, she sat back down on the couch, and stared into my black puffy red eyes.
"Johnny I know how you feel. It's going to be okay," she took my hand in hers.
"No you don't know," I said.
"Trust me I do," she said.
"How do you understand?"
"Because I know what it feels like to beg god to take the pain away," she paused, "you can only keep everything bottled up inside until you snap….i don't want you to snap Johnny…I don't want you to die."
"I'm falling apart and I can feel every little piece hitting the ground and it's killing me," I told her, "I'm slowly giving up. I can't take it."
She gave my hand a small squeeze, "who did this to you?"
I closed my eyes, and sighed, "mymomsboyfriend."
"What?"
"My mom's boyfriend."
Author's note: Sorry this chapter is so short. R&R, please. The next chapter will continue in Johnny's POV.
