Logan is rummaging through his room when he hears the door slam signifying that Jo has left the house.
He sighs in relief and tugs at his left earlobe, not ready to confront the feelings that has started to arise about Camille's best friend.
He has already rejected one of his friends after Camille's death which made things super awkward for a while between them.
Rationalizing it away, Logan files it under something to be thought about later.
Jo has enough on her plate, trying to deal with Kendall's supposed indiscretions.
Shaking his head he finally stumbles upon his volcom hoodie and a pair of jeans.
Quickly putting on his clothes he puts in his headphones and heads to the beach blasting Bullet for My Valentine - Tears Don't Fall.
Quickly locating his favorite bench on this clear, sunny morning he settles in hoping that today will bring another note and another ray of hope.
He watches as surfer paddles out on the emerald waves and tries to surf back in. The surfer gets about halfway down the wave before he loses control and bites it.
Logan allows himself a small smile as his eyelids start to droop with weariness.
(Flashback)
Logan is running down the stairwell at his apartment because the elevator is broken for the third time in a week.
He nearly runs over Ms. Pacheco who lived a couple apartments down from him.
Not even stopping to apologize, Logan continues running down from the tenth floor to the underground parking lot where his sports car was waiting for him.
He quickly unlocks it and fires up the engine as he puts his seatbelt on.
Slamming the gear shift into drive he peels out of his parking space and heads up the ramp to street level.
Barely pausing to let the gate open up he fishtails it onto the boulevard and takes off like a shot.
Logan's mind is racing with all the possibilities and probabilities of the situation.
No matter how many times he ran the calculations his mind kept coming up with the same answer although his heart refused to accept it.
Tears threatened to overwhelm Logan which caused him to grip the wheel tighter and let out a roar of defiance.
Unfortunately for Logan his route to the hospital took him right past the crash site.
Since the highway was down to one lane because of the accident it took him 45 minutes to make it to the scene of the accident.
Without bothering to stop fully or put it in park he jumped out and headed towards the mangled remains of the truck of Camille's co-star.
Before he got to close a large police officer intercepted him and wrestled him to the ground.
"Sir, I can't let you tamper with the police investigation going on right now."
Logan's breath was knocked out from him so he couldn't answer but the emotions that threatened to overcome him from the second he head the first voicemail finally engulfed him.
Not able to breathe in, the tears flowed freely down his face as he took in more of the crash.
It looked like there had been multiple cars involved. Logan noticed the smash glass lying on the roadway. He started to panic when he noticed a dark red substance that looked like blood.
The police officer just looked at Logan as his sports car started moving again and was smashed into by a semi truck.
As Logan started getting his breath back he started bombarding the officer, "What happened? Is my fiancée alright? Is that blood? Where in the hell is she?"
Logan started rocking back in forth, on the verge of a mental breakdown.
The officer knowing the beginnings of shock quickly pulled Logan to his feet and slapped his face.
Logan shakes his head and steps back from the precipice, "Thanks, I guess I kinda needed that."
"No problem son, my name is Officer Sterling and I will try to answer your questions. But I think you need to sit down first."
Officer Sterling leads Logan over to his squad car and sits him down in the passenger seat.
"Alright son, do you first mind telling me who you are and why you almost compromised and entire crime scene?"
"My name is Logan Mitchell and my fiancée was involved in this wreck. I kind of lost it when I saw the truck all crumpled up like that."
"Ah, that explains a lot," Officer Sterling said taking notes on a small pad.
"Care to enlighten me on the details I'm missing here?"
Officer Sterling sighs and says, "I am more sorry than I can tell you Logan, you seem like you really loved her. Evidently your fiancée was in the passenger seat and something was very distracting to the driver. This distraction caused the driver to lose control at 90 mph and your loved one wasn't wearing a seatbelt. We think the distraction may have been caused by some paparazzi but the camera and all its pictures were destroyed in the fire of the second vehicle."
Logan's body is wracked by sobs as his world is flying apart at the seams.
"I don't know if you noticed but your car is in pieces right now. I will escort you to Good Samaritan Hospital. I need to get some statements there."
Logan slowly places his legs in the car and allows the policeman to shut the door.
Getting in to the drivers side Officer Sterling states, "usually this would be a fifteen minute ride but we will make it in under five. We are going in lights and sirens blazing."
As the police car takes off Logan rests his forehead against the cool glass, ignoring the stares of pedestrians.
Exactly four minutes and seventeen seconds later they are pulling into the hospital.
Logan gets out and numbly walks into the Emergency Department supported by Officer Sterling.
All of his friends part seeing the grief on his face and they all are fighting to hold back tears. The nurse buzzes Logan and his support through after a brief consultation with the policeman.
As Logan enters the trauma room he hears the unmistakable sound of a heart monitor flat lining. His knees give out and the only thing keeping him upright is the hands on either side of him.
Camille is lying on the stretcher with a tube sticking out of her throat and a vacant glassy eyed look.
Logan didn't have to draw on his vast medical knowledge to know that she was gone.
(End Flashback)
Logan is awakened screaming by the blunt end of a policeman's flashlight.
"Sir, you can't sleep here."
"No problem officer, sorry for the problem. I will leave now."
"Logan?"
"Officer Sterling?"
"How are you holding up?"
"I've had better days."
Logan then proceeds to tell his old friend all bout the notes he has been receiving and hoping that he doesn't sound like a lunatic.
"That's some heavy stuff brother, but do you think they are really from Camille? Or could they be from someone who supported you during the past few months?"
"I don't know anymore. I just wish they would stop leaving me notes and actually confront me so I would stop going out of my head."
"Is there anything I can do for you my friend?"
"Thanks all the same but I think I will just walk home now. It's been great to see you again, Officer Sterling."
"It's Daniel, and I am here if you ever need to talk."
The two men shake hands and give each other a hug and go their separate ways. Each immersed in thoughts about that fateful day they met.
A/N Now you know why Logan was driving a SUV. Next chapter you will find out why Logan is living with Kendall. Remember that comments are love!
