Truths and Talents

The next day, Kendall and Taylor were finishing up unpacking all of Taylor's things that her mom had sent from Minnesota. Kendall was looking through a bunch of her old awards and seemingly useless notebooks when he came across a journal that looked promising. He was riffling through it when Taylor walked out of their bedroom.

"Hey babe, have you seen my…" She started to ask him something until she noticed what he was holding. "Give me that!" She exclaimed as she tried to grab for it but he quickly pulled it out of her reach.

Kendall looked at her, very confused. "Are these songs? The dates you have on them go back all the way to right around the time we met. You've been writing songs all these years and you never told me? I didn't know you wanted to be a singer/songwriter."

"Yeah, well, it's not like it's the first time I didn't tell you something. I never told you because I thought you would think it was stupid, and now look at you, living the dream that I always wanted." Taylor explained uncomfortably.

"Babe, calm down. I'm not mad, and I can't even imagine how you felt when we left to become singers, but this is our dream too, you know."

Taylor just looked at him, unpleased. "Now it is. Before your dream was the Minnesota Wild."

Kendall didn't know what to say to that, so he just went back to reading the songs. "What's this one?" He asked as he showed her the one he was talking about and she quickly snatched the journal from him.

"You can't read that one. It's way too personal." Taylor said nervously and anxiously.

Kendall looked at her and could tell she was in a lot of pain just thinking about what that song talks about. "Taylor, why don't you ever talk to me about what happened? I love you and I want to help you move past all of it." He reached out to touch her shoulder, but she quickly moved away from the gesture.

"I can't…I can't talk about it. I refuse to talk to anyone about it, not even Logan who I went through it with. That was the most difficult time in my life and I will never get past it. It's a part of me and who I am." Just as she finished talking, Logan barged through the door.

"What's the emergency? Is everyone okay?"

Taylor quickly looked at Kendall. "I thought I would give Logan a shot at trying to break through those walls."

Logan was completely confused. "What the hell are you talking about?"

"Show him the journal, babe." Kendall told Taylor.

Taylor clung it tightly to her body. "NO!"

"Show. Him. The. Journal." He demanded more forcefully. Taylor, although reluctant, finally handed the journal over to her brother and waited for him to read it.

Logan collapsed onto the couch while reading it, shocked as to what he was seeing. "Is this a song about…?"

"Yes…" Taylor cut him off, not letting him say the words out loud.

Logan looked at her sympathetically. "Talk to me, Taylor! I can't read your mind. I don't know how you feel about all of this."

Taylor looked up at her brother and tears started to stream down her eyes. "What am I supposed to say? That our dad beat on us and our mother? That he lied to us a million times about quitting drinking? That he would hit us so hard that we had to hide our bruises with make-up and turtle necks? That he did all of that even though he said that he loved us? That I still feel like shit about it today even though it's been years since we've last seen him? I'm so scared that I will turn into our father and become a terrible mother to my son."

Kendall pulled her into a hug and wiped the tears streaming down her face. "Baby that will never happen. You are not your father and you are an amazing mom to Keegan."

"Do you think that I don't think about that all the time? I'm afraid that I will never be able to be in a real relationship because I will do everything to ruin them because I'm afraid of what I might do, but I don't let those fears run my life. Taylor, you can't let what happened and what you fear run your life. It was a terrible time for us, but we made it through it and came out better people in the end. I mean, at first, you were completely scared of everything and everyone and you wouldn't let Kendall in no matter how much he tried because you thought you could never trust another man. Now look at you! You have a beautiful baby boy and a man who loves you right by your side. And I will always be here for you no matter what. I love you, Taylor. You're my sister, always have been, always will be." Taylor smiled wholeheartedly at him and pulled away from Kendall to give him a hug.

"I love you so much Logan. Thank you."

"You're welcome and I love you too." Logan gave her slight peck on the cheek as they pulled away from the hug. "So…can we hear that song?"

Taylor looked back and forth between her brother and her boyfriend before finally giving in to their pleading looks. "Fine, but I'm gonna warn you…I may cry."

"That's okay." They said in unison. "We're here if you need us." Kendall added.

She then ran to her room and grabbed Kendall's guitar (hers was still in a box somewhere). She sat down on the couch across from the boys and started to play the song. Both of the guys were extremely surprised by how amazing her voice actually was.

Four years old, with my back to the door

All I could hear was the family war

Your selfish hands always expecting more

Am I your child or just a charity ward

You have a hollowed out heart but it's heavy in your chest

I tried so hard to fight it but it's hopeless

Hopeless, you're hopeless

Oh father, please father

I'd love to leave you alone but I can't let you go

Oh father, please father

Put the bottle down for the love of a daughter

It's been five years since we spoken last

And you can't take back what we never had

Oohh, I can be manipulated only so many times

Before even 'I love you' starts to sound like a lie

You have a hollowed out heart but it's heavy in your chest

I tried so hard to fight it but it's hopeless

Hopeless, you're hopeless

Oh father, please father

I'd love to leave you alone but I can't let you go

Oh father, please father

Put the bottle down for the love of a daughter

Don't you remember I'm your baby girl

How could you push me right out of your world

Lied to your flesh and your blood

Put your hands on the ones that you swore you loved

Don't you remember I'm your baby girl

How could you throw me right out of your world

So young when the pain had begun

Now forever afraid of being loved

Oh father, please father

I'd love to leave you alone but I can't let you go

Oh father, please father

Oh father, please father

Put the bottle down for the love of a daughter

For the love of a daughter

Once she was finished strumming the last cords, Taylor looked up with tears streaming down her face. Instantly, Kendall and Logan wrapped their arms around her and held her while she cried and even let some tears out of their own eyes.

A/N: The song was "For the Love of a Daughter" by Demi Lovato. If you haven't heard it, go out and listen to it because it is amazing! I hope you guys have been enjoying my story and I love writing it for you guys. If you have any suggestions on what you think should happen in the story, message me and let me know. I love you guys and stick around for the next chapter!

P.S. – I have recently started a new story for Big Time Rush that follows the real life actors and how the new actress (who plays Taylor, Logan's sister and Kendall's baby mama, on the show) adjusts to being on a hit TV series. It will also be a KendallxOC story, but with some CarlosxSammy and LoganxErin stuff. I may even throw in a little bit of JamesxRandomGirls in there (lol)…so be looking for that soon.