A/N: Hey all, here is another chapter. A bit longer, so hope you like it. I had a crapload of fun writing this chapter. Such an interesting perspective to write in. Next chapter will take another perspective as well, and will also talk about Hikigaya.
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G is for Guys
Guys
Ah, yes. Guys. Quite possibly the most boring creature on Planet Earth. Most creatures are pretty interesting; Octopi are able to blend into their surroundings, Horned Lizards are able to squirt blood out of their eyes, just fascinating.
Guys, on the other hand, aren't very interesting. Actually, most people aren't interesting. Everyone is just the same. Façades are abundant everywhere. Everyone has one, myself included.
I often wonder why I put up my façade. The façade of a cute and charming woman with a brilliant smile. When thinking about it, I'm reminded of the circumstances I'm in. I was born into a rich family. From day one my life was planned for me, I had no say in it. I had expectations thrusted upon me and I had to meet them, I couldn't disappoint others. Being the first child of a wealthy and influential family put a lot of pressure on me.
I had to put on a front, a façade. I had to go to stupid parties and meet countless young men. Men who were contestants in a game. A game to win my heart. A game to get in with a wealthy family. They all wanted power, every single one of them. All of them were the same: fake smiles, fake compliments, and fake personalities. It made me sick.
It made me realize that guys are all the same. That is, until I met a certain self-proclaimed loner with rotten eyes and a terrible personality.
Hikigaya Hachiman.
The most interesting creature I've had the pleasure to come across. Much more interesting than that tool Hayama and all of those other guys. Hikigaya was much better than all of those men combined. Hayama was no match to him.
Hikigaya is a cynical loner, cynicism incarnate. His ideals and philosophies are so mesmerizing. Just thinking about him makes me smile in devilish content. It's almost a guilty pleasure to think about him.
The way he handles situations makes me curious. Always willing to sacrifice himself for people who never acknowledged him. Perfectly being fine with getting the short end of the stick.
He's just so interesting. So, I wanted to play with him. I'm just a cat and Hikigaya is my ball of yarn. Said ball of yarn always untangling until I get to the center. The center I'm so intrigued by. The center I want to get to. I want to see what is inside Hikigaya's head. I want to see all of the gears turning. I want to see what made him the way he is.
So, I sent attacks his way. I always made it my duty to get under his skin. Blowing into his sensitive ears, being touchy-touchy with him, always being flirtatious with him. I thought that if I continued to prod at him, he'll break. But I was wrong. Instead of him breaking it was me. He got under my skin. The way he responds to all of my attacks made me nearly furious. It made me realize that I can't control everything. He's an interesting specimen.
His use of language also fascinates me. He is able to manipulate to his heart's content. His persuasion skills are impressive. His grasp of society and human interaction is some of the best I've ever seen. Not as good as me, of course but impressive nonetheless. I assume his eyes help there. Ah yes, his eyes. His most distinguishable feature apart from that ahoge of his. Such rotten and beautiful eyes. The eyes that can see right through façades, mine included, and gave him his knowledge of human interactions and the ability to read in between the lines.
I remember first meeting him. I ran into Yukino-chan and him. I put up my façade in front of him. All I saw was annoyance. He was annoyed by me, it made me a bit mad. But then I realized something; he saw through me. He didn't see a smart and beautiful young woman with a smile that can take the breath of any man away. No no no, he saw a devil. A devil who can manipulate others with a façade. A devil with a disgusting personality and smile. I knew he was special from that moment.
I often compare and contrast him and Hayama. Hikigaya isn't nowhere near Hayama in terms of looks and social prowess. However, where Hayama fails Hikigaya excels. Hikigaya can solve situations with such brutality. Hayama, on the other hand, just puts up a fake smile. All in the hopes of calming down a situation. Hayama is so pathetic. He once told me that he felt inferior to him; I could see why.
Hayama is the school's heartthrob and Hikigaya is the school's unknown loner. Nearly every girl likes Hayama. But Hayama realized something: the girls that "like" him only like a façade. He's furious at the fact that all of the girls that like Hikigaya like him in a genuine sense. Yukino-chan likes him, Gahama-chan does too. That one foxy girl and the cute one with a silver ponytail seem to like him as well.
Another facet of Hikigaya is the fact that he has no qualms with being the villain. If it means he'll get the most efficient results, he'll do it. Hayama's way of solving a situation is by trying to make everyone get along with that stupid smile of his. As a result, he fails miserably. He failed to save Yukino-chan all those years back. I'm sure Hikigaya can save her.
I'm not so sure why I think about Hikigaya so much. As said above, he is a guilty pleasure for me. Thinking about his methods send a wave of ecstasy through me. He is my match, only he can defeat me at my own game. It's almost as if he is my protégé. He can surpass me and leave me in the dust.
He's like an animal in a zoo. Lonely and pitiful. Lying there broken and sad, not bothering with the visitors and their cameras. I'm a visitor, fascinated and taking countless pictures while standing in awe. Maybe someday I can take him away from that zoo. Make him mine and mine alone.
Maybe one day.
