Disclaimer – I forgot to write this on the last couple chapters, but I mean it's pretty obvious. I don't own anything, not Harry Potter, not the world, not even the computer I'm writing on.
I'm so excited for you guys to read this chapter!! It was my favorite chapter to write. The song behind this chapter is a song called 'Over This' by Ace Enders and a Million Different People. If you haven't heard this song you need to asap, it is beautiful.
But it's hard times, to make it seem alright.
Just don't give up
Cause we're not done
See the world has taken hold
and it's trying to pull you from me, from me.
So don't let go
Keep holding on
See life is full of tolls
And we just keep paying for it
So we need to think that our hearts beat louder than shotguns singing
We need to feel that our minds work harder than factory wheels
And we need to know that we're worth much more than a credit score
Yeah we need to know, yeah we need to know
Chapter 7. Over This
Draco didn't know how long he had sat in that chair starring at that one piece of parchment. If he thought he was going to be sick because of the signature, the actually letter made him want to jump from the tallest tower Hogwarts had to offer. The words playing in Draco's mind right now were 'this can not be happening'. He had read the letter only once, but he heard it replayed in his head over, and over, and over again. In the cold, childish, shrill voice that belonged to his Aunt.
Draco,
Nephew, have you forgotten your name? Because surely if you knew you were a Malfoy you wouldn't associate, let alone date this type of filth. A Mudblood Draco, really? And I thought you could sink no lower. I knew you were a worthless coward, that stood behind 'mommy', but this is an unexpected level of treason. Your mother has made me promise not to tell the Dark Lord or your father, you owe that woman your life. Come to the manor house for Christmas break, and ditch the filth before you get here, or else I promise we will dispose of her for you. You disgust me Draco, I have a nice little surprise waiting for you when you get home, and trust me mommy won't be there to protect you. I will tell you once again dump the mudblood and pretend like it never happened, or else your pitiful life will become living hell. I can assure you I will be paying Miss. Granger a visit personal, if you do not get ride of her immediately. Draco be warned.
Sincerely,
Bellatrix Lestrange
Ever single word Draco read he heard in his Aunt's cold and mirthless voice. She was threatening to hurt Hermione, if he didn't stop seeing her. He was sure if given the chance Bella would harm Hermione even if Draco hadn't been seeing her. But this threat was exact; she would personally hunt Hermione down and kill her. Draco was going to hurl. He had to break it off with Hermione. Oh god, she was going to kill him. But he rather himself be six feet under than Bella hunt Hermione. It was for her own good, no matter how much it was going to kill him to do it. He realized with a groan that he couldn't even tell her why he was breaking her heart. She would want to help, and insist that she could handle Bella, but no one could handle Bella. And Draco would do everything in his power to make sure the two women were never in the same zip code. Draco groaned again realizing that Harry and Ron were going to kill him. As Draco's mind started whirling a very strong part of him was saying 'Oh god. I can't do this. I don't want to break up with Hermione. I like her, a lot. She is the only good thing in my life. Would it be too selfish to ask her to run off with him? Defiantly too selfish, and any way Bella would find us. No I am not going to take the easy way out of this. Hermione is a big girl, she is not in love with me, and she will be fine. This is for her; I need to be like one of those stupid heroic guys in her stupid books.' Draco's mind had made its decision. The only thought that would make Draco get up and start planning was 'that in those stupid books, the girl always ends up happy, and Draco Malfoy was going to do everything in his power to make sure Hermione ended up happy. If it ended up being with him than he would be the luckiest guy in the world, but he knew it wouldn't happen. He would settle for seeing her happy with someone else.'
Draco shudder as the thoughts continued in his head. 'Since when did become this selfless person who put others feelings before himself? He was pretty sure just a couple weeks ago he was still the selfish boy of his youth, just less prejudice. Oh maybe it has something to do with a certain 'L' word he had been avoiding like the plague.' Draco shook all thoughts out of his mind. He had a couple of hours to plan what to do. Tomorrow was the last day before break, and his Christmas present to Hermione was an end to their relationship. 'Excellent' thought Draco 'he would defiantly be in the running for the worse boyfriend ever award'.
Hermione smiled as she woke up on the last day of school before break. She loved the Christmas season. Everyone was in a good mood. She couldn't wait to go caroling and decorate the tree. Christmas time was the only time in the year when she felt like a muggle again. It was truly a magical time. Hermione was even more excited because when she got up there was a thin blanket of snow on the grounds. She changed and went into the common room. Ginny was sitting on one of the couches. "Hey Gin" Hermione said cheerily.
The red head smiled at her and replied "Hey Hermione, you want to go get breakfast?"
"Sure" Hermione answered. "Do you know if Ron and Harry already left?" she asked. She did not want to have her day ruined by Ron, who she was not on speaking terms with.
"I suggested that they get in some quitichid practice before class. Ron and Harry er, accidentally let slip your um new beau" Ginny said, she looked at Hermione hoping she wasn't mad.
"Oh Ginny, I wanted to tell you, but I just got so busy, and after Ron I just didn't want to turn another friend into an enemy." Hermione said her voice full of regret.
"I understand completely Hermione. I'm glad you are not made at them, or me for them accidentally letting it slip." Ginny said.
"So, what do you think of it?" Hermione inquired, at least Ginny wasn't yelling.
"I approve 200%!" Ginny said beaming. "You defiantly should have told me first!"
"What" said Hermione, her eyes growing in surprise, and excitement. "Why? I mean I thought you always hated Malfoy like everyone else."
"That's the thing, the general consensus is usually misguided, I think everyone should have a fair chance, I am entitled to my reasons, I've seen him as a good person before".
"Oh Ginny! I'm so happy to hear you say that. You can't even understand what your support means to me." Hermione beamed and hugged her friend.
"Common let me hear how you two fell in 'love'" Ginny said waiting to hear their story.
Hermione smiled and started telling Ginny everything as they made their way to breakfast.
"Wow!" Ginny exclaimed after Hermione had finished telling her everything about her new relationship.
"I know right?" Hermione said smiling. Hermione was feeling giddy, Ginny's support, along with the fact that it was Christmas made her feel like jumping on the table and dancing.
Everyone's heads turned up as Owls began swooping in. She recognized Draco's owl at once. She was surprised however as it swooped down to her. She petted the beautiful gray owl, and untied the letter. She petted it one more time and realized the wings were wet. 'That's strange' thought Hermione 'it isn't even raining outside'. The owl flew off and Hermione opened the letter.
Hermione,
I need to speak with you as soon as possible. I'm on the astronomy tower please come now if you can.
Always Yours
The note was short and to the point, there was no signature, but it was obviously from Draco. Hermione smiling got up from the table and told Ginny she was going to go see Draco before class. Ginny smiled and told her to have fun and she was off, on her way to the tower, their tower.
Hermione got up to the tower and found Draco gazing out at the blanket of white snow. He hadn't done anything to suggest he had heard her come up. She was about to say something when he said "I love the snow, it is so fresh and clean. It makes everything look good. Until it gets washed away by the rain." Draco said sighing. His voice was cold and he still hadn't turned around to greet Hermione.
Hermione started to shiver, he hadn't put a heating charm around the tower, and it must have been 35 degrees up here. "Draco how long have you been up here" Hermione asked he was starting to scare her.
"Oh a while" said Draco nonchalantly. "It's very calm out here, numbing". Draco knew he still hadn't turned around to look at Hermione, and he wouldn't. He knew if he saw her face he would crack and tell her everything and he couldn't do that. He knew he also had blood shot eyes from crying and drinking, mostly crying but he would never admit that out loud.
Hermione stood there, she didn't say a word. She honestly didn't know what to say. She knew something bad was going to happen if she stayed, but she stayed anyway.
Draco knew he had to start soon or he would never do it. "I've been thinking, and I don't think this is a good idea. You know 'us'. It would never fly in the real world, and I don't think I want it too either. The only reason I went out with you is because I knew my parents would hate it. I wanted to piss them off." Draco finished his speech.
Hermione still didn't say anything. She had heard Draco's words. She knew him well enough by now to know that he had practiced what he was going to say multiple times. His voice was never that calm or mundane. It took on a different sound, it was emotion less and cold. Hermione was surprised that she wasn't crying. "Draco what's really going on, what's wrong?"
"Nothing" Draco said, but his voice cracked. "Us, is what is wrong. I was only using you"
Hermione was getting angry now, not because he was breaking up with her, but because she knew he was hiding something. "Will you please look at me and talk" Hermione said, her voice was full of rage, and it made Draco jump.
He turned around because he knew that was the only way to make her leave. Hermione gasped when she saw his face. His eyes had blue black circles around them. He looked sleep deprived. His eyes were no longer shiny; they were blood shot and blank. He didn't have his signature smirk on, not even the smile he usually gave her, but it was blank, impassive, normal. He didn't even look like Draco. He reminded her of Sirius when she had first meet him, right after he had broke out of prison. "Hermione, we are done. We never even were anything. I was just using you." Draco faltered for a second. "I shouldn't have taken it this far, I'm sorry". He tried to express everything he couldn't tell her into that 'I'm sorry'. How this wasn't his fault, he was still in love (yes, love) with her, this was what he got for being happy for once, and most of all that she didn't deserve this at all.
Hermione looked at him. 'Did he really use her this whole time?' she honestly couldn't believe it at all. "Bye, Draco" Hermione said. She turned around and walked back down to the castle. She couldn't look at him like that for another second.
Draco stood on the tower still, amazed that she had left that easily. He sat down on the tower and cried until he had no more tears to cry.
This was shorter than I intended, but I like it simple. I like this chapter a lot, mainly because of the song of inspiration (Over This). Please listen to it, it adds so much to the chapter. I admit that some of this inspiration comes from New Moon, when Edward is leaving, but I tried to make it different because Bella/Edward are different than Hermione/Draco. So hoped you liked it !!
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I hate to say it but I'm losing interest in this story. (Please don't hurt me) I didn't plan it well (or at all) so I'm having what you would call writers block. I admit I started writing a new story that I'm supper excited about, and I planned it out first! So I know exactly were the story is going and that means more mystery and surprise. Also this story is really lame, so cliché. It is pretty basic stuff. For my next story I want to make it really in-depth and cool, and different. So what I'm getting at is if anyone has ideas for this story message me!!!! I really do want to finish this, I'm just really not sure how.
