NOTE: As promised, this is in Edward's POV about what happened in Chapter 6. Hope you enjoy...
DISCLAIMER: As always, everything twilight belongs to Stephenie Meyer.
CHAPTER 7 UNEXPECTED FRIEND
EPOV
I didn't intend for it to happen this way, it wasn't my plan to put myself in this situation.
I wasn't proud of the day Bella and Jacob saw Jessica and me kissed. I was just so carried away with anger when I saw them walking hand in hand and they seem to enjoy being with each other so much. And since the opportunity presents itself right there with Jessica, I grabbed it without even thinking of the consequences that would follow.
Jessica was flirting with me at that time; I was kinda irritated with her and I was planning my escape from her clutches. Then I saw them, Bella and Jacob. I was actually in their line of vision. If I move suddenly they would surely take notice of it, that's why I did move… and it surprised me too that to my regret I moved to kiss Jessica. I didn't know what came over me, I guess I was really pissed; I was consumed with so much anger and jealousy that I put all of my feelings in that kiss. If anyone sees us kissing like this, I'm sure they would assume that we're really super attracted with each other. I feel sorry for Jessica because I'm using her this way.
I took a little peek at them and that's when I saw them stopped and looked at us. They started walking in our direction. I don't want to have anything to do with them at the moment but I can't do anything about it, I needed to act my part like I was having a lot of fun, that's why I intentionally lingered on the kiss and when I ended it, I smiled my crooked smile that I know Bella loves, put my arm possessively on Jessica's shoulder and waited for them to approach us. I could see Jessica was so smug that I was giving her so much attention, and if she was surprised, she hides it really well.
It wasn't until they were near us that I finally saw the full impact of Bella's reaction. I know her; she can hide what she's feeling to anyone but not to me. She's my best friend, for crying out loud!!
Bella was smiling, but I know that smile, it was the smile she uses when something's bothering her or when she's trying to be brave about something. That got me confused because why would my kissing Jessica affect her? Or is she hurt because as she was my best friend, I should have told her that I was seeing Jessica? But, hey…she did it first with Jacob! She feels betrayed but I feel justified because if she can do it to me as her best friend I can too.
I continued to act the happy boyfriend so as not to let on what is really on my mind. I couldn't help my vindictive self because I went as far as announcing to them that Jessica is my girlfriend. I saw Bella's eyes went big with shock as Jessica kissed me again. I couldn't very well avoid the kiss so I let her kiss me in front of them.
It was when Jacob suggested a double date that I let the kiss end and as my lips left Jessica's, my eyes made contact with Bella's. Her facade went down for a fraction of a time. Then and there, even when she's trying to pretend that everything's okay, I saw and felt how much she's hurting at the moment, she looked like she was about to cry but to her bravado, the look was gone and was replaced again with a smile.
A double date which turns out to be a camping trip this weekend, how could I back down now? So as to end the matter, I agreed immediately, Jacob and I will finalize everything and since he will be at Bella's it was agreed upon that it would be better if I come too. All things are settled for the moment then we went our separate ways. Bella and Jacob went to the canteen.
I was left there feeling bereft. I can't feel anything; it was like I was numb all over. I didn't even want to look and talk to Jessica. I didn't have to act anymore. Even though I know that it's wrong and Jessica's gonna be offended by what I was about to say, I don't care anymore.
"Ah…Jessica, you don't have to do this. I'm sorry but I was just using you to get back at Bella." I said with a sigh as I turned to look at her.
I know that she was kinda taken aback, a little offended but her expression changed. I didn't expect understanding from her, but she did understand.
"I know Edward, don't worry, I get the drift…you love your best friend, right?" She knowingly said. She looked at me with understanding in her eyes. I smiled sadly and nodded my head, I couldn't say anything anymore.
She led me to a bench and we sat there for a long time. Everyone thought that she's a selfish bitch, even I did so but we are definitely wrong because she's really a great person. She does not have the shallow personality that she projects because I know now that like me she's just pretending to be someone she's not. She didn't expound on it and I didn't force her to say anything more. Our friendship is still new but I guess we connect with each other well. With the turn of events, she found a friend in me and me in hers. I didn't expect it but she offered to help me.
'Don't worry, I got your back. Since I don't have a boyfriend at the moment, we can pretend to be." She laughed at my reaction, because I guess I looked like I was about to choke on my response.
"Hello… pretend… not true…. get it?" She said to me as if I'm a little boy. I laughed with her too and it felt good. I realized then that it's been a while since I did so.
"Yeah, ok then, I'll be giving you the update about the camping trip." I told her gratefully. We then exchanged phone numbers. I hugged her one more time and thanked her. I went on my way smiling.
I thought that it's gonna be a long day for me but the hours went by really fast. I went straight home. I physically and mentally prepared myself for the coming meeting with Jacob and Bella.
Oh…Bella….As I thought of her, I remember again what happened earlier.
It was hard, the hardest thing that I did in my entire life because even when I felt justified for proving to Bella and making her realize that what she did to me was wrong and hurtful, I felt like I was even more hurt by what I did to her.
Ooh crap, how did we end up like this!!
