A/N I apologise for the last time I updated I mixed up the chapter with one from my other story but now its been corrected thanks to the notice in a review from my loyal and faithful reader of my annoyingly random stories, so this chapter is in a shout out to you acoincidentalfan, thanks for letting me know I pulled a silly mistake like that. I'm also sorry I haven't updated this in a while, I was working on my other story, but now I'm focusing on this one. So, PLEASE don't kill me!! I'll give you cookies!!? XD lol. Enjoy the read peeps.
Chapter 7
I was going to kill Jeb.
That was my first thought, after what felt like hours or days, of feeling lost in my own mind and finding my body again. And I am not going to even explain hat sentence because I don't think I can. Whatever they did to me made me feel detached my own body and I had to remember what it was to have an arm or leg, even my head, I felt nothing and therefore could move nothing.
Which made perfect sense for me to be in a foul mood when I eventually did wake up to an empty, white hospital room. No one was here, which was a bloody good thing to. I was so angry I felt like I could just hit anyone. I wanted to lash out and break things.
I felt so violent, and I never felt so volatile. I began to hear things crackle and snap as the anger inside me boiled and burned into a fury that had the effects of a firestorm on my senses.
I pulled my leg out of the hoist it was in, it was firmly bandaged and felt sore, I ignored it. I tanked my arms away from the machines they were hooked up to and felt the sharp pain of needles being tugged out, I ignored it. I didn't even bother to change out of the simple white tank top and what used to be jeans now looked like frayed shorts, I ignored it.
He had tried to use me. Again. I was fed up off being used. The white coats had used me, Jeb had used me, the government had used me, the environmentalists had used me to promote their causes. The only people who I deemed to use me were my flock, because I'd give everything for them, they could use me in any way they wanted. As a shield, as a friend as a mother and so much more.
It looked as though the world was peaceful burning, I had a red haze cover my vision and I dimly turned to the huge window next to my bed. Someone thought it would be nice for me to be able to see the view from a four storey hospital window.
I still just wanted to break things, and as I gazed out that window, not focusing on the buildings and the scenery, but instead the sky and the continuously blowing wind. I wished for these barriers surrounding me to just, somehow, disappear. Obliterate. VThe second I thought that thought. The cracking and snapping sounds formed into one huge boom, I blinked and in the second it took me to do that, the wall of my room had been ripped away. I was now standing on the edge of a ledge and I could pear down at the ground directly underneath me. I dimly thought that one of Gazzy's or Iggy's bombs had gone off. But a little nagging part of my brain told me otherwise. I had done this and I hadn't even meant to. Jeb had done something to give a new power to…. To what? Destroy things at a simple thought and not meaning to do it? It was dangerous. I was dangerous. I was now a danger to my flock and family.
That thought registered in my heart and soul and I made a split second decision, hoping it would be the right one. I would leave. And try to learn to control this new power I didn't want. Or better still track down the scientists and see if there was a way to take it back.
I couldn't stay. I could hear people rushing towards my room, either coming to shoot me, try to help me or whatever heroic thought was in their heads at the mo.
I knew I couldn't say goodbye to my flock. I wouldn't be able to leave if I did. So taking in a quick deep breath I threw myself of the new open room and into empty space. I didn't allow myself the enjoyment of free falling through air, or even the joy I always had when I just moved my wings after so long of being cramped up in a hospital room. I kicked straight into hyper-speed and flew at a neck breaking pace. I hoped when I returned they could forgive me. And accept me back. And listen to my reasons. But when would I return? Or better yet, would I even return to them? And what will I return to?
I closed my eyes and in my mind I imagined I was with them right now, hugging them and living with them.
I didn't know where I was going but I was going to put a safe distance between me and them. For now. I sickening thought wormed its way into my mind. What if one of them had happened to be in that room with me? I wouldn't have even noticed than and they could be on the floor after a blast from my……my mind? If I had hurt any of them I couldn't have forgiven myself.
"I will come back, and even if you don't want me, I'll be there watching you, keeping you safe. I'll be your guardian angel even if you don't want one and you don't know I exist."
I didn't know at the time but that little vow I made to myself and them would be even harder to keep than I thought possible.
A/N kay short and very brief I know. But I promise if I don't update the next xchapter tomorrow it'll be the next day. And the next chapter will be in Fangs POV and three years into the future just FYI for you to know. And this is where the fun REALLY begins. And R&R for me please.
