Chapter
Bellamy POV
Bellamy was taking stock of the food supply when Octavia approached him.
"I have a question for you" she said to him "Well actually a lot of our friends have been thinking about this."
"What is it O" He asked
"Well" she said nervously "Everybody is wondering if you like Clarke."
Bellamy looked up surprised.
"Where id you get that from" He asked.
"You guys always seemed close" She said
"We were co leaders" He answered "We made a lot of decisions together. I don't know why you would think I liked her"
"It's just that she's been gone for three months now and you don't talk about her" O said
"Nobody does"
"Maybe you should" the voice from behind startled them. It was Lincoln. Bellamy would never get used to the older man's silent way of walking.
"What do you mean Lincoln" Asked Octavia
"It's obvious every one of you has been thinking about her ever since we saw her at the mountain. Why don't you just discuss it. It would take some weight off."
"I don't Know" said O
"I think it's a good idea" said Bellamy. "Call the gang after dark into the med bay"
Bellamy made her way to the med bay. He was still shocked at the question O had asked him. He could guess why they thought he liked her. It was because of how close they had become while leading and in a way he really did care for Clarke. She was his first friend after Octavia. Somebody who understood him.
But to be in a relationship with Clarke. They would probably kill each other. They made good co - leaders because they questioned each other's idea and figured out how to make them better.
He could never think of Clarke as a love interest. Anyway he was pretty sure she had been interested in someone else after space walkers death. Bellamy just didn't know who. Now he may never find out.
When he got to the med bay everybody was there before him.
Jasper, Monty, Miller and Harper sat on the floor together to one side. Wick sat with Raven on one of the beds. Lincoln and O sat opposite to them. One of the apprentices Abby had taken was still cleaning up. It was Cassey. She, Lincoln and Wick were the only ones near to Bellamy's age. Rest of them were eighteen or younger.
Cassey spoke to him first "I know you guys wanna talk about Clarke. Just go ahead. I really need to finish this up."
"You could do it latter. You'll get bored listening to us" He told her. He didn't wan anyone that didn't know Clarke to be there.
"No I won't. I knew Clarke when she was young. I'd like to here how she has changed." She told him.
"You knew her" Octavia exclaimed. Everybody else just looked at her in surprise.
"Yeah. I used to be Abby's apprentice back on the Ark. Until I got kicked out of course."
"Why did you get kicked out" Asked Bellamy
"same reason you did. I had a younger sister too. She was found out. My mother got floated. I lost my position for keeping the secret and my sister, Ana, got locked up. She was floated to years ago." Everybody was quiet for a moment.
"Anyway I'll tell you a little about Clarke when she was young" Cassey said. Probably trying to change the subject.
"Sure" Monty answered. They all started listening
" I knew Clarke till she was ten. She used to love coming to the clinic and watching her mom. Once a little girl started coughing up blood. Clarke was eight at the time. She didn't panic at all. Just went and called her mother."
"She always has been brave" said Miller
"She was told I was dead" Said Cassey sadly.
"That's harsh" said Harper.
"She always wanted to be a doctor. I guess that's why Abby was so shocked at the fact that she let that village be hit by the missile. Clarke had always wanted to heal people."
"Well she did. She was our only doctor when we came down to Earth" Said Harper.
"A good one too" said Monty
"She was good a lot of things" Said Bellamy "Getting on my nerves was one of them. I had to tolerate of course. Than the mountain men happened and we both suddenly stopped getting on each others nerves."
"I remember when we had that virus and how se took care of us. She was never afraid to be around those who were infected." Said Miller
"Just like a doctor would" Said Monty
"She was never afraid. Always brave." said Raven "I don't think I would ever have been able to put that knife through Finn, even to save him. It must have taken her a lot of courage."
"Yeah it did. It hurt her a lot too." said Bellamy remembering how she had looked afterwards.
"I was angry at her about the missile but I understand now why she made the choice. We were at war and things like these happen in wars." said Octavia
"Seems like you all have a lot of respect for her." said Wick
"we care about her too." said Monty. Everybody nodded in agreement.
Bellamy realized that Jasper and Lincoln hadn't said anything. With Lincoln it wasn't a surprise. He was usually quiet. But Jasper did worry Bellamy. He hadn't been the same since the battle at mount weather.
"What about you Jasper" asked Octavia "Do you want her back""
"I don't know" he answered "Like you I've made this understanding inside my head that Clarke did this for a reason but I feel like that if she were in front of me I'd get angry at her again."
Everybody nodded accepting what he was saying
"What did Clarke say before she went" asked Harper "She told me to take care of you guys and that she bears it so we don't have to"
"What's that suppose to mean" asked Jasper
"It is simple really" said Lincoln speaking for the first time. "All of you are alive because the mountain men are dead. Their death gave you life. If it wasn't for their death you wouldn't be here and you all know it but you can blame it on Clarke saying that she pulled the lever. That she did everything and you just walked out but in reality you are all guilty but she bears it for you."
"I guess you have a point" said Jasper
"I wonder where she is" said Cassey
"That's something Lincoln and I wanted to talk to you about" said Octavia looking at Lincoln
"What do you mean O" Asked Ballamy feeling really confused
"Well a week after she left, Clarke found Lincoln while he was hunting and-"
She was cut off with yelling from the other of why they hadn't been told before
"Guys at least let her finish first" said Cassey
"Clarke told him not to tell any one but me. She wanted him to teach her how to make and use a sword."
"Why didn't you tell us O" asked Bellamy before anyone could shout again
"She said if we told anybody she wouldn't come to have lessons and knowing Clarke she would have done just that."
"She really needed these lessons to stay alive." said Octavia
Everybody was quiet. Nobody could argue with that. Clarke needed those skills and she was only gonna learn them if Lincoln taught her alone.
"So did she tell you about where she will go" asked Monty
"She told me that she would come back when she was ready" answered Lincoln
"When are you meeting her again" asked Wick
"Yesterday was our last meeting. She told me she wouldn't come back"
"I hope she learned enough to survive out there" said Raven
"In my opinion I taught her too well". She beat me in a sword fight yesterday" said Lincoln
Everybody just looked at him. Not knowing what to say
"So you're saying you taught her how to fully use a sword and beat a full warrior like you in three months" said Bellamy
"Yes" said Lincoln simply, "She is a fast learner."
Everybody was thinking about this when cassey suddenly said "It's snowing outside."
Bellamy and the others turned to look at Cassey who was standing at the door
The wind was blowing her hair around and their was a sparkle in her eyes. She looked really pretty
Wait. Did I just think that.
"I wonder if she will be Ok" said Miller
"I told her it would snow soon. She said she was prepared" said Lincoln
"She will be fine" said Jasper
Bellamy couldn't help smiling at him. Whatever Jasper's feelings were like everybody else he wanted Clarke back. whether he knew it himself or not.
And like Jasper Bellamy believed Clarke would be just fine. She would come back when she was ready.
