So I couldn't sleep last and this beauty came to me. I will not have wifi the rest of the week so if I do write another chapter it will just be sitting on my computer till I get back from Thanksgiving break. (A holiday I don't and won't ever understand. Yes this red-blooded American girl just said she hates Thanksgiving and thinks it's a worthless holiday and only is glad to celebrate it due to having no school the rest of the week.) Rant over! Happy no school week and enjoy this angsty chapter.


Two weeks later Shizuo woke up, sitting up in a panic, and groaned in pain. He laid back down gripping his stomach and looked around the unfamiliar room. He rubbed his ankles together checking to see if he wasn't bound. He felt somewhat safe and looked around. He sighed in relief, Izaya was laying down next to him, the sight calming him slightly. He could see a lot of the bandages were gone and he smiled leaning over to wake him up when pain shot through him again, this time crying out loudly. Kadota ran in as he heard a second cry of pain and sighed glad to see neither had fallen out of bed. Shizuo looked at him confused wondering why he was there.

"It's good to see you're finally awake. I was only supposed to keep you under for a week but you stayed asleep for another whole week without the meds. Don't worry Izaya is just sleeping, you're both doing a lot better. Izaya could learn some manners but all has been well. I'll be back with a pudding to start." Shizuo watched him run from the room and came back with the snack. Kadota helped him to sit up and gave him the pudding.

"Where's Kasuka?" Shizuo took a bite and smiled. It tasted so good after having no food for so long.

"Shinra told him to go back and film for his own safety in case any of Shiki's followers tried to get revenge." Shizuo was confused by that his memory blanking.

"What do you mean? What happened to Shiki?"

"Kasuka killed him." All the memories came flooding back and he almost dropped the cup. "Izaya told him where his gun was hidden and the Awakusa group cleaned it up. Shiki wasn't following orders. He was only supposed to do it once not as many as he did. He was abusing Izaya for the fun of it. The sick bastard. If I would've known we could've done something."

"Don't overload his protozoan brain Dotachin." Shizuo turned to his lover who was leaning on his elbow staring straight at his brown eyes, lounging the rest of his body suggestively. Shizuo blushed and broke eye contact. "Don't be embarrassed Shizuo!" Izaya whined shaking Shizuo's arm.

"Izaya you know you need to rest. Shinra said to give you another dose if you didn't follow orders." Shizuo watched Izaya stick his tongue out and fall onto his back. He watched the brief flash of pain and discomfort on Izaya's face before it relaxed. "I'm going to call Shinra don't over exert yourselves or I'll let Erika in and let her roleplay as a nurse." Shizuo felt Izaya shudder next to him. Whatever it was apparently wasn't pleasant and Kadota walked out smiling at the reaction.

"How are you?" Shizuo hesitantly asked glad to see mostly skin instead of bandages on his lover but that didn't mean he wasn't in pain. "You don't look like a mummy anymore so you're healing. I guess." Izaya started laughing but stopped winching slightly.

"Yes a lot better than great, now that you're finally awake. Although watching you sleep is always my favorite pass time. I just have one question. Why? You could've fought him off with ease. You should think of yourself. What if he killed you?"

"I did it to protect you and Kasuka. To be honest I was scared, if he could do that to you I didn't want to make him angry. He said if I didn't he'd do it to Kasuka. I wasn't thinking clearly and I guess I just panicked. I'm sorry Izaya." Izaya shook his head, it was all his fault Shizuo was like this but actually saying that out loud was still too hard for the raven haired man.

"You are so dumb." Shizuo finished his pudding and leaned down kissing his lover. Izaya's pout soon left and a smirk replaced it. "I love you." Izaya breathed out against Shizuo's lips. Shizuo smiled and cupped his lover's face giving him another kiss.

"I love you more." The door knob rattled for a minute until Kadota opened the door and Shizuo laid back smiling at the slight blush on his lover's face. Kadota had a tray of food which explained the struggle with the door. He gently set it down between them and helped Izaya to sit up as well.

"Shinra will be here in an hour." Kadota said smiling at both of them.

"Hey Dotachin we don't mind an audience but you might get a little embarrassed." Kadota shook his head exasperated. Shizuo stared at the food not knowing how to take Izaya's publicness about their love life.

"Shinra said none of that. You tried to do that last time and you ripped out your stitches plus Shizuo was still asleep! I'm not letting you hemorrhage while you fail miserably to fuck him. Last time was ridiculously messy and you barely started anything before you were covered in blood. I will drug you both if I have too! You're so horny," Izaya started to laugh and Shizuo blushed.

"You should've see his face Shizuo. It hurt but it was totally worth it." Shizuo shook his head and closed his eyes. Izaya frowned slightly worried he had hurt his lover in some way but relaxed when Shizuo gently held his still wrapped hand.

"You're both too loud." Shizuo sighed and started to eat. Izaya smiled at him lovingly and took a bite of his food. The doorbell rang and Kadota stood up rigid and tense. The look on his face tipped both, Shizuo and Izaya, off that there wasn't supposed to be any visitors that quickly. They listened as Kadota unlocked a series of locks. "Geez where are we? In a prison?"

"Might as well be, the service is terrible." Shizuo rolled his eyes as they strained to hear who was at the door.

"Hey Mikado what are you doing here?" Shizuo froze and Izaya looked at him concerned. They couldn't hear the other's reply they didn't even know the other spoke till Kadota replied to the request. "Yeah come on in." Shizuo waited with baited breath as he waited for Mikado to make it to their bedroom. Mikado entered the room and looked at Kadota expectantly who was standing behind him. "Alright I get it you want to talk to them alone." Kadota closed the door behind him. Mikado walked up to Shizuo, who flinched, and held out a present.

"I am so sorry Shizuo-san I hope you can forgive me. I was an idiot and I didn't mean t-to d-d-do I-it." He bowed and continued to hold out the present. Shizuo took it and opened the parcel. Inside was a small card and several expensive candies. "Masaomi told me you like sweets, I just hope you can f-forgive me for doing such an awful act." Shizuo sighed and smiled forcefully.

"It's…"

"What did you do to my Shizuo?" Mikado looked at him confused. Shizuo froze and tried to wave Mikado off but the kid wasn't paying attention to him.

"B-but you were there, you stopped it." Shizuo bit his lip already knowing what Izaya was going to ask him. Izaya turned to him with sharp incredulous red eyes.

"Shizuo? Did you not tell me everything that day I don't remember anything?" Shizuo shifted uncomfortably and decided to ignore Izaya for the moment and warn the kid.

"Mikado go before he decides to kill you." Mikado nodded but before he could take a step Izaya had his knife out. Mikado's eyes widened and froze. Shizuo cursed silently and pleaded with his eyes that Mikado wouldn't say anything.

"Talk Ryugamine." Mikado swallowed and looked at Shizuo apologetically.

"We h-had a meeting but you didn't show up so I went to your office and you weren't there. So I did some digging after founding out where you lived. I went there, and I couldn't find you so I tried different bedrooms. Then I found Shizuo and I wasn't in my right mind. He was wearing this tank top and lacy panties. I couldn't control myself and attacked him. I drugged him first so he couldn't fight back but he made it down stairs. I started to r-rape him. He somehow managed to get ahold of you and you said you wouldn't kill me for r-raping him." Shizuo gripped Izaya's arm roughly holding him in bed.

"I'm gunna kill you Mikado! Get off me Shizuo. I'm going to murder this stupid spoiled brat." Shizuo didn't let up holding onto Izaya trying not to hurt him but he was fighting hard.

"Izaya you're going to rip out your stitches. He's sick in the head it doesn't mean he should die. He came to apologize. He's just a child!" Mikado started to leave scared for his life, but Izaya threw his knife embedding it in door so Mikado couldn't open it. Izaya elbowed Shizuo in the stomach forcing him to let go. He stood wincing in pain, and pulled another knife out. Shizuo watched horrified. Mikado pulled at the door terrified but the knife was too deep for him to yank out.

"I'm going to hurt you just like you hurt him. I won't ever let you get away with this." Shizuo stumbled to his feet, taking a couple steps he fell to the floor. He had ripped out his IV but he didn't care. Izaya heard the thump and turned. "Shizuo what are you doing! You could've really hurt yourself." Izaya turned back to Mikado grabbing the folds of his shirt. "If he gets hurt anymore because of you."

"Stop! Izaya you promised me no one else would get hurt. I don't care that he did that, but if you hurt him I'll never forgive you. I won't let you touch me intimately ever again. He's just a kid Izaya. I'll leave you for good." Izaya looked at his weeping lover and then at the terrified boy in front of him. He knew Shizuo didn't mean the last part so the rest of his words meant nothing to him knowing they had to be lies as well.

"You don't know what this kid is capable of. He burned someone alive stabbed another boy's hand all the way through with a pencil. He's not a kid he's as twisted as me, actually worse." Mikado swallowed hard and closed his eyes preparing for the worst. Izaya knocked him to the ground.

"Fine, go ahead, and do it but as soon as I can walk you'll never see me again." Izaya felt his heart drop. A second time? He sighed finally believing it. He ripped the knife from the door and flung it down at the kid cutting the boys pants slightly in the crotch. Mikado almost passed out but got up as quickly as possible and ran out of the room. Izaya leaned against the wall and slid down it too tired to stand anymore. Kadota watched the kid run out terrified and ran up to see what caused the distress. He opened the door and saw Shizuo on the floor and Izaya next to the door.

"You both, are insane!" Kadota carried them both back to bed shaking his head. They grabbed their food not looking anywhere but at their plates. "You're lucky Shinra is on his way who knows what damage you did to yourselves. What in the hell happened?" Both men kept their mouths shut and continued eating their food. "What are these knives doing on the floor? How in the hell did you get knives? Did you try to kill Mikado?"

"He deserved it, and that's all I'm going to say about it." There was a knock on the door, two loud and one rap. "Go let Shinra in, maid." Kadota's eye twitched but he left to answer the door none-the-less . Shizuo glanced at Izaya in shock. He'd forgotten how much of an ass Izaya could be and didn't understand the hostility.

"Shinra if he isn't going to be at least civil I can't do it anymore." Kadota said to Shinra as he opened the door. Upstairs Shizuo glared at Izaya who continued to glare straight at his food. The happy-go-lucky doctor walked in the door a few minutes later and looked at his two grumpy patients with disdain. They barely even looked at him avoiding each other's eyes like the plague.

"Hello my dumb precious patients. I give out orders for your benefit and not for fun." Shinra walked over to Izaya and lifted his shirt. Izaya, who, looked very offended that the doctor just did as he pleased. Shinra took off the bandages and removed the stitches. "Roll onto your stomach." Izaya huffed setting the food on the nightstand and rolled over. Shinra pulled the bandages off smiled. "And that's the last stitch. You're completely stitch free." Izaya didn't say anything. "Okay spill you two. Why did Mikado run out like that? What did you do Izaya?"

"He raped Shizuo, and Shizuo won't let me get revenge." Shinra looked a little shocked but soon regained his senses and looked at Shizuo for his side of the story.

"I told you to do whatever the hell you wanted but I also told him I would leave him if you hurt that kid." Izaya glared at him. Shinra tried to not laugh at the situation it reminding him of a parent trying to figure out why their children were fighting. If your children were two of the most feared men in all of Ikebukuro.

"Yeah that's so fair." Izaya said sarcastically looking to Shinra for him to agree. Shinra sighed and rubbed his temples.

"Shizuo, how many times do I have to tell you? It is okay to defend yourself. Izaya quit acting like a spoiled brat. Although I agree with Izaya this time" Shinra said pinching the bridge of his nose sitting beside Izaya.

"He was going to kill him Shinra." Shinra sighed and rolled his eyes.

"Izaya has the right to do anything to protect his lover and his home. Mikado broke in and hurt you, idiot. Of course Izaya is upset, he's an asshole, but he deserves the same rights as everyone else. If anyone tried to hurt Kasuka or did hurt him you'd want to kill them wouldn't you?"

"Of course you'd take his side." Shizuo said looking away as he sulked like a small child.

"Shizuo you see, Izaya cares about you a lot. Probably too much but he's just showing you he cares in his own way. Now turn around so I can see your wounds. I'm tired of playing referee." Shizuo pouted but turned over just wanting to get it over with. Shinra pulled down the boxers and smacked Izaya's hand away as he tried to touch Shizuo. 'Too early for that plus he'll think it's me.' Shinra mouthed to Izaya as he started to look at Shizuo. "Perfect all healed I just need to remove the stitches, but I need to stretch you to get to them."

"I'll do it!" Izaya sang scooting closer to Shizuo, who pushed him away. "Shizuo y-you're still mad at me?" The death glare he received answered his question and he huffed. "Fine I'll just leave you alone then. Since you are completely disgusted by my touch." Izaya stood wincing and slowly walked out of the room. Shizuo felt tears burn his eyes and dug his face into the pillows. A few hours of the cold shoulder and things should be good but he didn't want to hurt him.

"This will be slightly painful." Shizuo just shrugged and let Shinra do his thing. "There all done. You need to apologize to Izaya."

"I know I should but."

"No buts. He doesn't take rejection well especially from you. What happened last time?" Shizuo tensed and turned over. The shower was one instance he would always have trouble forgetting the pure red-hot rage in his lover's eyes was forever burned into his memory.

"Would you tell him to come here and please leave with Kadota? They're driving each other crazy." Shinra nodded and left. Shizuo sat up wincing and waited. He heard Shinra and Kadota leave but Izaya hadn't shown his face. He waited ten minutes before crawling out of bed and stumbled from the room. "Izaya?" He called out but no one replied. "You ran away a-again. T-t-that's it I'm done." He said aloud incase Izaya was just hiding, but still no reply came. He punched the wall leaving a huge dent.

Shizuo slowly turned back to the room and found some pants. The more he moved around the easier it got and he pulled on some shoes. He hunted through the closet for a bag to put some food into until he could contact Kasuka. The bedroom door opened but Shizuo didn't turn around till he heard a thump and a whimper. Shizuo turned and saw Mikado on the floor tied up. He looked up at Izaya anger pulsing through him in an instant. Izaya shut the door his eyes never leaving the kid. Shizuo had never felt so angry at Izaya as he did now.

"Before you say anything. I want you to take revenge. I won't hurt him anymore as long as he pays for what he did. I want you to do it." Shizuo growled and walked over the kid and threw him over his shoulder. He tried to leave the room but Izaya stepped in front of the door.

"You're completely insane. I am leaving and I'm never coming back. You can't stop me this time. I am so angry with you right now it's beyond words. Move out of the way." Izaya shook his head.

"No, not until you get revenge. It's either you do it or I will." Shizuo scoffed and shook his head in disbelief.

"Izaya I am not you, or will I ever be. Thank whatever gods may be that I'm not. I don't need revenge for something a kid did. How I fell for such a cruel person I'll never know. Oh I remember he doped me up to make me lose my sanity for a few weeks but that doesn't matter anymore. You don't matter to me anymore. If you don't get out of my way you'll regret it." Izaya felt as if he had been slapped. If Shizuo was going to hurt him he'd do it right back and he knew exactly how to make the blond regret his words.

"Go ahead do it. We'll start back at square one drugged and handcuffed to the bed since you liked it so much the first time. You can't live without me we both know it. I was gone for fifteen days and you were all over me begging me to screw right there. I love at night how you cling to me while you sleep and beg me not to leave your side, like some pathetic child." Shizuo felt disgust fill him to the brim. He gritted his teeth and knew he just had to get out no matter what.

"Goodbye Izaya. You'll never see me again and I hope you enjoyed your 'game.' But you forget I actually have other people who love me. All you have is me Izaya and now even that is gone. I don't need you but you need me. You're all alone and that's how it's going to stay." Izaya's eyes widened at the comments, the words shattering his heart completely.

Shizuo knocked his ex-lover out with one hit. He set Mikado down and put Izaya in the bed. His eyes filled with tears as kissed his ex-lover's lips one last time and took Mikado out of the apartment. He knew he'd regret the words that night it would be a long process to get over Izaya or enough to move on with his life. He couldn't think about that or he'd go running back to Izaya. He untied the traumatized boy in the elevator and asked to borrow his phone. Shizuo called his brother and had him pick them up. Mikado was dropped off at his apartment while Shizuo was taken to a fancy hotel under an alias. Izaya woke in the bed and froze when he didn't feel Shizuo beside him. He realized Shizuo had really did it, he left him. He felt the tears stream down his face. He was alone again. He had tried so hard to keep it together for Shizuo but old habits die hard.


Izaya: You're a cold heartless bitch.
Demeta: Thank you I try. Lately I've had a lot of angsty feels due to a ex-boyfriend who doesn't understand that no means no so hence the harsh words.
Shizuo: I burned him good.
Izaya: Only because she's good at breaking people's hearts.
Demeta:...
Shizuo: Nothing to defend yourself.
Demeta: Nope it's true. I've never been broken up with shockingly enough. Lol. Don't worry you'll be back in each other's arms soon enough and all will be well. Or will it.
Izaya: See! So cruel.