A/N: Okay...I know...I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW! IT HAS BEEN OVER 4 MONTHS THAT SINCE I UPDATED AND I SERIOUSLY APOLOGIZE FOR IT! Soccer and AP classes and finals got in the way and I've been trying to get a job for a car I want and I've been free for the last week bored out of my mind. So I hopefully start updating a lot more to make up for it...
Misaki: Yeah. You should be sorry. I've been waiting 4 months to go to the dance with this guy (points to Akihiko)
Akihiko: Yeeeaaaa...about that...
Misaki: What? Is there something you want to tell me?
Akihiko: Well...It's about you being my date...
Misaki: What about it? (Begins to get angry)
Me: DON'T SPOIL IT! I WANT THE AUDIENCE TO BE SUPRISED WITH IT!
Misaki: Is there something you guys aren't telling me?!
Me: I don't own Junjou Romantica or make any sort of profit this story. (Walks away)
Misaki: Get your ass over here and tell me!
Enjoy this twisty chapter!
Misaki POV
My night had been perfect.
My days lately have been perfect. In my opinion, they've been too perfect. I haven't had great and normal days in about two years. Almost three. So right then I suspected that something bad was going to occur soon. I didn't know when, but I knew my heart was going to be broken. I haven't been happy and content with things in over a year and a certain baseball player is to blame for that.
I entered my apartment with a smile on my face, but with conflicting emotions in my eyes. My brother was sitting on the couch, watching TV when I came in and he had looked relaxed. As I walked in quietly, he stared intently at me. I walked back in to my bedroom and could see a shadow hovering over me. I tried my best to ignore him, but once he was in my room, there was no stopping him.
"Is something wrong Misaki?" Nii-chan asked with a hint of concern in his voice.
"Wrong? Nothing is wrong Nii-chan. Everything's perfect!" I tried to sound cheerful, but it began to fade and just look down. "A little too perfect." He came in even further into the room and sat on my bed next to me.
"What's a little too perfect?" I thought a moment to try to sum everything that's happened this week.
"Well you know Akihiko," he nodded. "We got partnered up in our AP Human Geography project. At first he was a dick, then he apologized and kissed me and now he opens up and wants to take me to the dance. I know I should be happy about this, but he has cracked and smashed my heart so many times. I can't tell if this time is for real or is it just another chance for him to hurt me." He nodded once more in understanding. Although I don't know how anybody would be able to understand my life. "What do you think I should do?"
"I don't know. You haven't listened to any of my advice since you were 15." I looked down and saw a ten second flashback of my previous high school years. "But in this case, you'd have to carry on like you normally would. There really is nothing you can do or you can just not go to the dance with him." I looked down once more. "Whatever you choose, I'll be there for you if you need me." I felt a small smile come onto my face. As he stood up, he kissed the top of my head and went back into the living room and resumed what he was doing before I came home.
In my defense, he didn't help at all. I knew my options and he just repeated them to me. Me and Akihiko have serious history. We've known each other for nearly 10 years and during that time, we've had heartaches, love moments and well, intimate moments. Mostly heartaches on my part. Each and every time it happens is because of him and I was not going through it again. I knew what my decision should be, but I knew what I was going to do despite it being wrong.
My phone began to go off telling me I have a text message. I open it up and see it's someone I'm conflicting over. I looked at it and just tears wanted to run down my face and I couldn't explain why.
A: can't wait 2 see you tom. Night. :D
I looked at the text about 20 times before I got another one from him that made tears actually escape my eyes. My heart added several more cracks. I shut my phone and threw it across the room and laid my head down in my pillow to cry my eyes out. Only thinking about that stupid text.
A: I love you Misaki.
XXX
Akihiko POV
It was 3:00 Saturday afternoon and I was searching.
I had spent the last four hours trying to find something that would be perfect to wear to the dance. I knew it was just casual, but I needed it to be perfect. I wasn't going to let another heartbreak happen. I really wanted it to work out this time with Misaki. No. I needed it to work with him. We have a past and I've screwed up more times than I can count. When I think I've found an out fit, dark violet dress shirt with a black vest with black denim jeans and my purple vans, my phone rings. I assume it's Misaki and rush through the piles of clothes and soon saw my iPhone's light and was about to answer when I saw the name. I calmed down.
"Hey babe." I said as I heard Aikawa.
"Hey. What color are you wearing for tonight?" She asked and I looked at the phone like she was crazy.
"Um...Purple. Why?"
"So we could match at the dance silly. I know you didn't ask me, but I figured we go together anyway since we are together." My eyes widened in realization and hands began to shake. Again, how could I forget the fact that I have a girlfriend. "I was thinking about purple, but I think you should change to turquoise because I found this cute dress to wear and I want to put it on tonight." she kept going on for about five more minutes and I wasn't listening to her anymore. What I was thinking about was trying to take Misaki and Aikawa to the dance.
"Um yeah. Sure. Hey do you mind finding another ride to the dance? I'm taking Hiroki and his date and another friend already." I heard a frustrated sigh on the other side of the phone.
"Yeah I guess. I was really looking forward to riding in your new car." I rolled my eyes and laid out my clothes.
"Well you can ride with me on Monday. Okay. I gotta go. I need to get ready."
"Okay see you. Love you." I hesitated a moment.
"See you soon." I whispered and hung up the phone. Its been like that for the last few years. She has always said that she loves me and I have never once said that I feel the same way. I say that because only one person has stolen my heart and I'm going with him tonight. I don't know how I was going to keep them both happy, but I had too and I felt that tonight wouldn't end the way I would wanted it to.
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7:15 P.M.
I stared at my self in the mirror. Anxiety running through my veins.
In my opinion, I looked great, but I wondered if anybody could tell if I was nervous. I shook my head a little and grabbed my keys, phone and wallet and out the door I was. Surprisingly, my room was still covered in my clothes from my closet. As I made my way to the front door, I see Hiroki and his boyfriend, Kusama-san, waiting for me.
Now they seriously matched. Hiroki was wearing a navy blue dress shirt and black skinny jeans with black vans. Kusama-san on the other hand was wearing a black dress shirt with a light navy blue tie that matched his eyes. He wore dark wash denim jeans with black DCs. God I wondered what Misaki was wearing. Whatever it was, it would be hot on him.
"Took you long enough." Hiroki griped when I reached the front door. "You know for a guy, you take just as long as it does a girl getting ready for prom. And that's saying something." Kusama-san just chuckled and we walked out the front door and out to my car. Hiroki sat up front and looked out the window. "You know the dance started 15 minutes ago. You know I hate being late!" I rolled my eyes and started the engine.
"Hiroki do you realize that being the first to class is great, but the first to the dance is considered lame. It practically means you have no life." his eyes shot me a death glare at which I usually brushed off. "Besides, we're going to be even later. I have to make another run and pick up someone else."
"Who?" he muttered as we rode onto the road.
"You'll see." I kept my eyes on the road as we drove in silence until we reached our destination. I got out of the drivers seat with my car still running for them to listen to the radio. Each step I go up, my heart adds an extra beat and by the time I reached his door, my heart rate tripled the average. Knocking on his door a couple times, I waited as I saw the sun going down in a slow motion. I could hear the door open and reveal one of the most beautiful people in the world.
In that moment it was like time slowed. The air seemed thick and unbreathable and when I turned my head and saw him, my erratic heart rate skipped a beat and and lost all thought in my mind. Misaki looked amazing. It may have been casual to anyone else but to me he looked wonderful. He was wearing a pale green dress shirt to match his eyes. When it came to pants and shoes, we were identical except he had a black pair of vans. He had a couple bands around his left arm. His eyes seemed to pop more than usual, but I really didn't care. He was perfect any way.
"Hey." he whispered quietly. I looked closely and saw his eyes were a bit red. Not like red from being up all night and stressed, but from crying.
"Hey. What's wrong? Were you crying?" He shakes his head and scratches behind his head. I mimic him and smiled. "Well, you look great."
"Thanks. You too." He whispers a little louder. I walk a bit closer, held his waist and kissed him on the cheek. I pulled away slowly and looked him in the eye. His emerald eyes watch my lips and once he thought that they were too close, he laid a hand on my chest and pushed me away. I couldn't describe the look his face. Misaki turned around and yelled, "Nii-chan we're leaving." As soon as we were about to leave, his brother came to the door.
"Bye Misaki." he whispered as he hugged his younger brother. As he pulled away, his brother gave me "the" eye. I knew what that meant. It was the discreet version of the older guardian saying "If you make them cry, I will kill you." It's not the first time I've gotten that look. I nodded back and began to pull Misaki out of there before his brother would actually kill me.
We began to descend the stairs slowly and silently. I grabbed his hand and he slightly resisted until I tightened my grip on him. I wasn't about to let this night go sour. We reached the car and from the passenger seat, I could tell Hiroki was surprised by our second stop. I opened the door and let Misaki sit in the backseat and get comfortable while I sat in drivers seat, about to drive off.
XXX
Third Person POV (First time...don't judge)
The ride to the school was painfully uncomfortable. Nowaki, the most innocent one in the car, was twiddling his thumbs awkwardly. He didn't understand anything that was going on with the tension. He looked at his lover who was glaring out the window and breathing very large exaggerated sighs. He had tried to start a conversation, but got no response and everyone else glared out the window. He figured there was no hope and just wished that the ride to the dance would end already.
Hiroki was more pissed then ever. He couldn't believe Akihiko! After what he told on Tuesday, he wouldn't listen. Here he was thinking the second stop was picking up Aikawa; HIS GIRLFRIEND! And here his friend was putting this already tortured soul on the line to get his ass kicked. He would never say it out loud but since there first year of high school, Hiroki had cared about Misaki and never wanted him to get hurt. Certain reasons occurred and felt he owed his life to Misaki. So Akihiko pulling this stunt, was going to give the young pitcher a serious beating.
Misaki didn't understand anything anymore. He thought that Akihiko had liked him and then he goes around kisses him and maybe starts to like him again. But of course, he started to over think the situation. Misaki sat there and looked out the window and doing a softer version of Hiroki and sighing to himself. He didn't know why he didn't decide that he shouldn't have gone to the dance. Not after what happened at the last two winter formals. Mentally he was lost and just wanting to lay down in his bed and never get up.
Lastly, Akihiko was mentally going crazy. The tension in the car was ridiculous and he couldn't stand it anymore. He could tell Hiroki was pissed and didn't want to say anything to make him go off. Nowaki tried to break the ice, but they all ignored his comment and all sat back and silence. And Misaki...he didn't even know what to do with him. He didn't understand what could have happened in the last 24 hours to make him upset. He was quiet and resisting Akihiko which was throwing him off. He wasn't going to admit it, but he was slightly pissed at Misaki's attitude. He gripped the steering wheel and noticed that they arrived at the school.
They all began to exit the car and Kusama-san immediately went by Hiroki to calm him down and make sure he didn't murder anybody. The second Misaki went to exit, Akihiko pulled him aside and stared intensely at him.
"Why are you acting like this?" Akihiko asked, sounding beyond angry even though he was just a little peeved.
"Acting like what?" Misaki whispered almost unaffected by the harsh tone. His mind not catching up with his body so he didn't understand the situation.
"Like you're upset. What happened after I saw you yesterday?"
"Nothing. Just tired and got a little excited. I guess I'm just nervous." he lied, but to Akihiko, it sounded like the truth so he let him go and his tone and expression softened.
"You could have told me. You made it sound like you were regretting coming tonight." he whispered slowly as he closely held Misaki without him realizing it. Misaki shook his head and held his hand and began to lead them into the building and they got the surprise they weren't expecting.
The dance was in the back of the school, being held outside. There was bright multicolored lights strung up everywhere that almost looked like festival lights. About ¾ the school was gathered and the music was blaring so loud it was almost impossible to hear the person next to you. There were tables covered in food and drinks were were rather risky to drink. There was a DJ in the very end of where the dance was and was playing Hip-Hop music. Misaki and Akihiko stood there a little shocked.
"I wasn't expecting them to go all out for the back to school dance. Especially since it's a casual dress." Akihiko explain as he put an arm around Misaki's waist and pulled him closer to his body in almost a possessive way.
Misaki leaned in on him with his head almost under Akihiko's chin. "Yeah. You'd think it would just be a small gathering." he shrugged his shoulders and then smiled when Akihiko kissed the top of his head. He knew it was just a small little gesture, but to do it in public was meaningful to Misaki and was starting to feel happy that he decided to come to the dance after all. Well, that was until a certain cheerleader came up to them.
"Akihiko! Took you long enough to get here." She looked at the couple from head to toe and glared at the hand around Misaki's waist. Aikawa shot a nasty glare at Misaki causing the boy to flinch and move away from Akihiko. He was hoping Akihiko would say something but he just turned all his attention on to her. "Come Aki-kun. I decided to where purple anyway and we match perfectly. Lets go dance!" she squealed as she pulled Akihiko with her and he willing went with her. Breaking poor Misaki's heart.
Misaki couldn't believe what just happened. Here he was, happy that Akihiko was finally going to accept him and claim him as his boyfriend in public and then his girlfriend shows up and he is a completely different person. A jerk that submits to anything that his girlfriend says. Was that what Misaki had said yes to the dance to. Was that the person he fell in love with a long time ago. He hoped to God it was not. Just as he was about to unleash tears that had built up from his emotions, Hiroki came over to him.
"Hey don't worry about him." Hiroki whispered as gently as he could. He had just witnessed what went down about a minuted ago and he was just about to stick his foot up Akihiko's ass until he saw Misaki majorly heartbroken. He had tried to calm down his rage, but it was wanting to slip when a tear finally rolled down Misaki's face.
"How can I not?! I fell so hard for a guy that doesn't give a shit about me. I've been in love for nearly 10 years and I've been with other guys to help me get over him, but each time he finds his way back into my heart and I hate it." He exploded and more tears came rolling down his face. A little bit of the make up he was wearing to cover up his puffy eyes was beginning to come off. Now Hiroki wanted to snap, but he wasn't. He knew his first priority was to get Misaki to calm down.
"Look, I know he is an ass. There are better guys out there for you." He looked at Hiroki like he was stupid until he finally got the idea. "I know you've been with a lot of guys. You might have passed up a good one just because you were blind to your love for him." Hiroki wasn't a motivational speaker, but right then his pride shot up because he saw Misaki look up with the tears starting to cease.
"I know there was an awesome guy. But he probably hates me now." Misaki began to take deep breaths and grabbed a napkin to clean himself up little. "Besides, no guy would want to date me because I'm to school slut. It's like being with a prostitute, but without being paid." he whispered. It was true. Like the guys that were harassing him just because they wanted sex and sex only. Some guys have come to like Misaki, but didn't like the idea of there reputation going to the toilet.
"I highly doubt that. There are tons of guys in Japan. Not all guys I bet think of you like that."
"No, but any guy that goes to this school does." Misaki just looked around, almost hopeless.
"I don't." Misaki turned to Hiroki and faintly offered a smile which Hiroki gladly accepted. They stood by each other watching the rest of there fellow classmates have fun.
"Why do you care so much about me?" Misaki asked suddenly and Hiroki didn't know what to do. He thought about lying but realized that it was just him and Misaki. Misaki knew the situation and he shouldn't be hard to say, but it was to him because it was such a horrible thing to go through.
"Do you remember what happened two years ago?" Misaki nodded immediately. "We practically had the same lives. A good life, boyfriend, friends and everything you want in high school. You gave all that up for me so that I could keep all of that. I feel like I owe my life to you." Hiroki whispered that last part and gave a light pink blush on his cheeks. Misaki just stared at him in awe. He never once thought of that. He just felt like Hiroki had more to lose than himself.
"I always just hoped that someone would do the same for me." Misaki just smiled and looked back at the crowd. Hiroki could have died then. He never thought a someone with such a hard high school life would be that giving. That was like amazing to Hiroki and it reminded him so much of Nowaki. Someone he would give his life for.
"Hey, if you're not doing anything tomorrow, do you want to hang out at the mall with me? Maybe meet a guy who's perfect for you." He chuckled at the last part and looked at Hiroki with a huge smile. It had been a long time since he really hung out with a friend. Misaki was more than happy to agree.
"Sure." They exchanged numbers and just hung out and talked like they had been friends for years. When it had already been an hour, Misaki offered to get them drinks when Nowaki came over to talk Hiroki into dancing with him, which he reluctantly agreed to do.
As Misaki went to a table, he had trouble choosing what drinks to get. He didn't know to get the punch or a soda. Punch by now was more than likely spiked with something Misaki really didn't want to know. He grabbed a couple of sodas and went to head back to Hiroki when he saw him dancing with his date. He knew he couldn't be mad at him for ditching him because he knew that Nowaki was Hiroki's boyfriend and he had a right to be with his boyfriend. He just didn't like the fact that he was alone again. He ended up putting one soda back and standing by the food. He began to snack on chips, cupcakes and anything within reach. Misaki had always been a sweet eater when he was upset. He'd hate it because it would make him slower when he ran on the soccer field, but for the moment it made him feel better. But someone came over, that made his whole night worth coming to.
It was Sei.
He had come with a couple of friends in hopes of finding a new guy or girlfriend. He really didn't care since he swung both ways. Sei had been upset at Misaki, but that didn't mean he got over him. Somehow on Facebook, he was told Misaki was gong to the dance which really surprised him because Misaki didn't like dances. His friends were actually expecting to get laid that night while Sei had been planning on getting Misaki back. When he had spotted the soccer player by the food table, pigging out, he decided he would make his move.
Sei slowly and hesitantly walked over to Misaki who didn't seem to notice him until he looked up from eating his cupcake and dropped his right on the table. He was not expecting for him to come and talk to him. Especially after what happened earlier in the week.
"Hey Misaki." Sei whispered slowly as Misaki whipped off his mouth.
"Hey." He got out and looked up into his navy blue, nearly black eyes. "I thought you were never going to talk to me again."
"I was. But I can't stay mad at you. I love you too much." Misaki smiled big and that raised his confidence level. They stayed staring at each other for a while before Misaki decided to break the ice.
"So why did you decide to come over in talk to me? In public mind you." Sei shrugged and looked around and back at Misaki. Staring back into those beautiful green eyes.
"I don't know. I saw you eating sugar which I know that isn't like you. I know you don't do that unless you're upset." Misaki blushed and Sei reached into his pocket and pulled out a small box of diet chocolate. Misaki was shocked because he did remember that Sei would always try and stuff junk food down his throat and he would refuse each time. "Don't worry. They're actually very good. I bought a box for myself." Misaki chuckled and accepted the box.
"Thanks. I'm glad you remembered. It could have saved me from gaining ten pounds." Both gave each other small smiles. Then Sei reached behind himself and pulled out a single white rose. Misaki again accepted it and this time he felt his heart was about to burst. "Wow you actually listen me. You know there is nothing hotter than a guy that listens." Sei raised an eyebrow at that statement and began to smile. He always listened to Misaki talk. He figured it would come in handy one day if he payed attention and cared to the boy.
"Well I really like you." Misaki didn't say another word. He lifted his hand to Sei's cheek and slowly reached up to kiss Sei on the mouth, who met him halfway. It was soft and caring which was something that Misaki had wanted for a long time. It was then he realized that the guy that he needed/wanted was right there in front of him. Loving him even when he pissed the guy off.
It wasn't until Sei's friends that started ooing and and whistling that everyone, except for those who just didn't care, started to look. Akihiko was dancing with Aikawa until he looked up and saw Misaki kissing Sei. It made him stop and stare and feel anger building up within him. He had just let Sei back on the team after Akihiko just begged for him to come back. The team needed him and now he was working his way back to Misaki. He knew that he would be giving Sei hell tomorrow because he had scheduled an early morning practice.
Hiroki heard the whistling and turned around to see Misaki kissing Sei. He felt a smirk come to his face and he turned his head to see Akihiko glaring at Misaki and he felt his night become complete. He was happy for Misaki and he knew that he would be getting all the details about it tomorrow, but for the now he was just going to let it slide and just stay with his boyfriend the rest of the night.
As the kiss ended, Misaki and Sei slowly released each other, neither caring about the stares and smiled at each other. Misaki sported a cute red blush on his face and Sei was beginning to blush but didn't. It was a few minutes before either of them spoke.
"So are you doing anything tomorrow?" Sei asked hoping Misaki would say yes, but had his hopes were shot down.
"I would, but I already have plans with Hiroki. But I'll text you tomorrow night. Okay." Sei nodded and understanding. "Hate to cut it short, but I've had a shitty, but really good night and I was thinking I better get home before something goes wrong. So I'll see you later." He nodded and Misaki gave him one last kiss on the cheek and went to leave the school.
Misaki had made sure to walk fast and safely because he didn't want some guy coming up to him, raping him and possible killing him. He knew how that went down and really didn't want that happening tonight. Soon he reached his apartment and began to calm down a bit. He opened the door and found his brother and his girlfriend sitting on the couch watching a scary movie. When he walked in, his brother practically jumped on the poor teen.
"Misaki are you okay? How was the dance? Did Usami-san hurt you?!" he bombarded Misaki with questions. Truth be told, Takahrio had been worried sick about his brother since the second he left. He knew they had a talk about Akihiko the the previous night, but he knew his brother wanted to go with him anyway, even if the boy had upset him.
"I'm fine Nii-chan. It started out bad, but lets just say it took it unexpected turn and I was happy with the outcome. I'm sorry to cut the conversation short, but I'm tired so I'm just going to call it a night." He broke through to his room and smiled. Just one thought went through his mind the rest of the night.
He was glad that he went to the dance.
A/N: God it took 11 pages to right. I know I needed to make this long to say sorry for the very long delay in updating. I also gave a lot of hints about what has happened in the past with everyone. I had been thinking about the story while on my "vacation"
Again I apologize about the delay. I wrote like 6,000 words or something like that. I hope you enjoyed it.
ALSO CAN SOMEBODY REMIND ME TO BUY A PAIR OF VANS. I'VE BEEN DYING FOR A PAIR AND I WANT SOME FOR WHEN I BEGIN MY YEAR OF BEING UPPERCLASSMAN!
I'm sorry and See you next time!
