All's Fair In Love And War

A Broken Full Moon Sequel

Ch.4 'Cause I Don't Know How To Make A Feeling Stop Pt. 1

(Jesse McCartney- Just So You Know)

I sniffled as I slowly got off the floor of the ice rink. I had to check out my injuries since they weren't healing, and I also to make sure Scott was checked out. I cleared my throat as I stood up holding my ribs as my breathing was slightly uneven, I breathed deeply as I sighed and limped out of the ice rink as I moved my hand away from my ribs. As I made my way to my car I saw a shadow slightly leaning on my car, and I immediately tensed up at this. My steps were cautious as I moved forward and towards my car. I gripped my car keys in my hand and I noticed how the sky had darkened a lot, and I couldn't make out the figure.

As I walked closer I made out Scott's form. He didn't smile but he didn't frown at me so I thought it was a step closer to his forgiveness. I moved over to the passenger door and unlocked it as he said "I forgot you drove," it was almost sheepish as he had stalked out of the rink fifteen minutes ago and I had been crying. Embarrassing, I thought to myself as I shook my head and made my way to my door as I unlocked it. I swiftly revved the engine and backed out as I heard Scott sigh. I looked at him and saw his brooding shoulders and turned back to the road as I asked "how's your chest and stomach?" Scott's head turned to me "what?"

I asked "are you healing?" He looked down and answered "no…you?" I shook my head and I sighed as I made a U-Turn. Scott held onto to the roof as he asked "where are we going?" I answered "Dr. Deaton." Scott replied "okay…why?" I answered "because God knows he always seems to know more about werewolves than anyone else." It was quiet for a moment and he asked "does he know about you?" I nodded. Scott sighed and muttered "great, I'm always last to know." I huffed and said "no you aren't."

Scott bewildered asked "what?" I rolled my eyes and said "werewolf, remember?" Scott nodded as he said "oh, right." There was a moment of silence as we pulled up to the clinic. As Scott and I made our way up to the clinic and he was about to open the door for it when I grabbed his wrist, he turned to me and I asked "you still mad?" Scott retorted "you still keeping things from me?" I replied "look, I'll explain it later," Scott insisted "all of it?" I nodded and answered "as much as I know."

Scott let out a sigh and said "okay, we're good…for now." He pointed a finger at me and I smiled as I nodded and we went inside. As we walked to the back Scott lifted up his shirt and I saw the scratches Derek's claws had made. "Why won't you heal?" He asked the scratches and Dr. Deaton answered about alpha's injuries taking longer to heal. Huh, so that's why the wounds don't heal as quickly like when Peter had also roughed me up. As we went inside the room I saw Dr. Deaton who immediately went for Scott as I made my way to the drawer he was beside and began fixing myself up as he fixed Scott. "We don't have time to talk," Dr. Deaton told Scott. Scott asked "what is that?"

Dr. Deaton answered "rubbing alcohol you don't want it to get infected do you?" I shook my head and Dr. Deaton said "it'll heal like it normally does just not as quickly because of Derek." Scott asked "how do you know all of this? Actually how do you know any of this?" Dr. Deaton answered "it's a long story. What I can tell you is that I know about your kind, your kind I can help. This is something different." He looked at body and I turned away from the body. It was too gruesome with the claw marks on the body. I asked "do you know what did it?" Dr. Deaton looked at me and answered "no but the Argents will. And this is the crucial part they'll have some record, a book, it'll have descriptions, stories, notations of things they have discovered." Scott asked "all the things? How many different things are there?"

We heard a car pull up and I stiffened for a second but then I shook my head and grabbed Scott and dragged him towards the back door where we listened he crouched in front of the door and I crouched beside him.

"I'm starting to think I need to buy a more prominent closed sign," Dr. Deaton said. There was silence and then footsteps as Gerard spoke "hello Dr. Deaton…it's been a while, the last I heard you had retired." Dr. Deaton retorted "the last I heard you followed a code of conduct." Chris intervened "if you hadn't noticed, this body is one of ours." Dr. Deaton snapped "I did. I also noticed the gunpowder residue on his fingertips. So don't assume I'll be swayed by your philosophy just because I'm willing to answer a few questions." Chris said "he was only 24." Dr. Deaton replied "killers come in all ages." The insinuation loud and clear to me and I knew the hunters heard it too. "All ages, sizes and shapes. It's the last one that concerns us," Gerard replied. Chris asked "how about you tell us what you found?"

Dr. Deaton said "see this cut? Precise, almost surgical, but this isn't the wound that killed him. This had a more…interesting purpose." Gerard added "relating to the spine." Dr. Deaton replied "that's right. Whatever made this cut laced it with a paralytic toxin potent enough to disarm all motor functions…these are the cause of death. Notice the patterns on each side?" Chris noted "five for each finger." Gerard corrected "each claw." Dr. Deaton explained "as you can see it dug in and slashed upward. Disarraying the lungs and slicing through the rib cage with ease." Chris asked "have you ever seen anything like this before?" Dr. Deaton answered "no." Chris questioned "any idea at all what killed him?" Dr. Deaton replied "no but I can tell you it's fast, remarkably strong and has the ability to render its victim helpless within seconds." I shivered at that. Chris said "so you're saying we should be cautious, we get it." Dr. Deaton corrected "I'm saying you should be afraid, be very afraid. Because in the natural world predators with paralytic toxin use them to catch and eat their prey, this prey wasn't eaten. That means what killed him only wanted to kill him. In fact killing maybe it's only purpose." Scott and I exchanged looks as we sneaked out the back.

I was lucky that I had parked my car in the back so as to not alert the hunters of my presence as we quickly sped off. As I drove I asked "that thing we saw at Allison's…do you think-is it that dangerous?" Scott looked at me and answered "you saw it for yourself Alex." I shook my head as I said "I find it hard to believe that any creature just wants to kill, just cause-for it to be its only purpose. I mean what if we're wrong? What if this creature isn't as bad as we think?" Scott sighed and said "I know, but you saw it Alex, it wanted to kill Allison and you." I shook my head as I confessed "I'm not so sure about that." Scott asked "what?" I answered "that night, that thing it only seemed to try and frighten us, you know? Like give us a warning, as if we were somewhere we weren't supposed to and the owner had guard dogs, it seemed like it was trying to make us leave." Scott took that in and asked "but why?" I shrugged as I answered "I have no idea."

Scott sighed and said "it's later…" I sighed as I started "remember that night the alpha came with Derek to the boys' locker room and you saw the fire?"

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After I explained everything and I mean everything well except the whole mating thing that would be too awkward but I mentioned how I was the alpha female to our pack to Scott on the way to Allison's and then I dropped him off at the preserve. As I made my way to Gloria's to pick up Rome my phone began ringing. "Yeah?" I answered. A breathy voice answered "it's me, Stiles. Alex, you need to get to Andy's shop." I immediately asked "are you okay? Are you hurt? What happened?" Stiles answered "I'm alright. Alex…there was another attack." I made a swift U-Turn and said "I'm on my way, Stiles."

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As soon as I parked my car I raced out and saw Stiles sitting on the ambulance, his dad was talking to the paramedics and I pushed through the people as a deputy tried to hold me back Sheriff Stilinski waved him off and I made sure to brush past the deputy as I made my way over to Stiles. As soon as I was close I pulled him into a hug as I checked him over and asked "are you hurt? Are you okay?" Stiles hugged me back and pulled away as he said "I'm good, I'm fine, don't worry." I watched as the gurney was placed at the door of the shop and Andy was talking to the Sheriff. I asked "you sure you're okay?" Stiles nodded and said "yeah, um I'll explain what happened when Scott comes." I nodded and he climbed on the ambulance and I slung an arm around his shoulders as we sat in silence lost in our thoughts. Then a thought hit me "Stiles…where were you and Eli earlier?" Stiles thought for a moment and then answered "Erika knocked us put and I woke up in the trash bin no idea where Eli is." I looked at him for a second and then whipped out my phone as I called Eli.

After a few rings a person groaned out "hello?" I asked "Eli?" The person breathed and said "yeah, it's me. Ouch, I have a pounding headache…where am I?" I asked "are you okay?" He groaned and said "yeah, I just probably have a concussion, and my shoulder stings it's probably dislocated. I just woke up," I asked "where are you?" He took a moment and then answered "I think I'm…wait-I'm outside my house…in a tree?" I narrowed my eyes as I said "so…you're okay?" He answered "yeah." I sighed and said "that's good, listen I'll talk to you tomorrow I have a few things going on…Stiles was attacked and some mechanic died."

Eli asked "what? Why?" I answered "we think it's that creature I told you about. Look, I'll talk to you tomorrow alright?" Eli replied "okay. Alright," I was about to hang up when he said "but you're alright, right? I mean you're not hurt or anything? And Stiles?" I answered "we're okay." He said "alright, I'll talk to you tomorrow." I said "yeah, see you." I hung up and turned to Stiles who raised an eyebrow and I rolled my eyes as I patted his shoulder.

He said "so…I talked to Scott and he mentioned something about your werewolfness." I shrugged as I nodded and said "yeah, I tried to help him out at the rink with Isaac, Erika, and Derek." Stiles asked "what about Boyd?" I sighed and answered "he got the bite; he's in Derek's pack." I confirmed and Stiles hung his head "this night just gets better and better." Then Sheriff Stilinski came over and I nodded at him and walked away to give him and Stiles privacy. He nodded and then my phone rang and I answered "yeah?" Scott said "I'm here; I'm at your car." I replied "alright, hold on" my phone went off as it died and I rolled my eyes and shoved it in my coat and nodded my head as Stiles and I made eye contact and he nodded as he strolled over and we went to my car where Scott was in the backseat.

Stiles slipped into the passenger seat and Scott asked "You okay?" Stiles looks at me as I get in and I nod and he answers "you were right it's not like you guys…its eyes were almost like reptilian. There was something about him." Scott and I asked in sync "what do you mean?" Stiles answered "you know like when you see a friend in a Halloween mask but all you can actually see is their eyes? You feel like you know them but you just can't figure out who it is?" Scott asked "wait are you saying you know who it is?" Stiles answered "no…but I think it knew me." Scott and I look at each other as I sigh. I looked out the car and saw a few deputies' leaving. I said "alright, here." I gave Scott my keys and said "pick Rome up, put him to bed and keep him safe you hear me?" Scott nodded and Stiles asked "what are you doing?" I sighed and said "I'm gonna stay and try to see if I can find anything, a scent, a clue, anything that can help us. Scott's gonna"- he cut me off "the cops are never gonna let you go in there, Alex." I nodded and said "of course they won't, which is why I'm gonna wait them out. As soon as they're gone I'll check the place out and see what I can find. You two head home, Scott pick Rome up, take Stiles home and tuck Rome in and keep him safe."

I pointed a finger at him and said "if he has as much as a scratch on him, it's your head." Scott nodded and I pulled my hoodie up and Stiles said "be careful, that thing can be out there." I nodded and said "yeah, both of you be careful, and"- I cut myself off. I wasn't into talking about my feelings with guys, or anyone who wasn't Rome, mom, or Gloria so I felt awkward. Stiles rolled his eyes and said "yeah, we know we love you too." I smirked and shook my head. With one last look at Scott and Stiles I opened my door and climbed out of my car as I looked around and headed the other way as I heard my door close and pull away.

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I sighed as I made my way down the sidewalk to my home. I wasn't gonna risk going in the forest knowing that the hunters had set up traps everywhere and could be out there. Besides I was eighteen so the curfew didn't affect me. I was disappointed because I couldn't find a clue or anything about the creature that we didn't already know. I wrapped my coat further around me and continued down the quiet road. It was kind of creepy because there were only the lamp posts on the way and no cars were passing by. I sighed as I felt like I was being followed and closed my eyes as I focused on my surroundings. I took a deep breath and continued at the same pace and I heard an engine creeping up behind me and I discreetly looked at the road to see the lights were not reflected so they must've had the lights off.

"Alex," I turned around to face a black SUV. I gulped and my heart sped up some as I saw Chris Argent's face along with Gerard's in the passenger seat. I decided against running and instead walked over and decided to speak to Chris because out of the two he was less frightening and feigned a smile as I put a hand to my chest and said "you scared me, Mr. Argent." Chris smiled and said "I thought we agreed on Chris?" I nodded as I smiled and said "you're right, sorry, Chris." Gerard suddenly said "Alex, what are you doing out so late at night?" I said "oh, my car was towed, huh, funny right?" Gerard narrowed his eyes a bit and asked "really?" I nodded and said "yeah, sure was."

Chris nodded and said "did you call someone?" I answered "oh, yeah." Gerard said "well, hop in. We don't mind," I bit my lip and replied "oh, no I wouldn't want to be a burden"- Gerard said "oh, come now, we don't mind at all do we Chris?" I should've gone through the woods. Chris said "Alex"- I said "actually, my friend said they should be here soon, you know. It's fine really," Gerard replied "I wouldn't want to leave you out here all alone, who knows the types of killers that could be out there." He pointed to the forest and I thought yeah, I'll take my chances with them. Gerard laughed suddenly as Chris forced a laugh and I let out a small laugh and said "right. But uh, it's fine really"- I heard a familiar engine stop at the edge of the road. It was really dark so you couldn't see the vehicle but I knew who it was. The engine engraved in my brain. I would take my chances with that person no matter how I felt towards them at the moment then spend more time with the Argents. I gulped as I looked at Chris and said "I'm fine, really."

"You heard what happened to Isaac Lahey's father Alex?" I looked at Gerard and said "yeah, I mean yes sir. It was an animal attack right?" I gave him a confused look and he bought it. I looked over as two headlights flicked on and I said "oh, that must be my ride, Eli." Gerard asked "Eli?" I cleared my throat "Elias Belen, sir." A pleased look came over his features and I knew that he knew that Eli was a hunter along with his family. The car beeped and Chris said "you better hurry, before Eli decides to leave." I nodded and said "right, have a good night, Mr. Argent, Chris!" I ran at a human pace towards the car and as soon as I was in said "go, now!"

He didn't need to be told twice as he quickly made a U-Turn and sped off. "Are they following us?" I asked. His response was "no, you pacified them. Just in case." He quickly went off the road and headed though back roads. "Mommy?" I turned around in shock. "Rome?" I turned to the driver "you stole my son…again?!" I sighed angrily and said "stop the car." He didn't. I said "pull over right now."

He didn't listen and I angrily said "pull over right now, Derek or I will!" Without another word he swiftly pulled over and I angrily got out and yanked the door open.

"I shouldn't love you,

But I want to"

Yes, my ego was taken down a notch by having Derek literally hand my ass to me, but it was more than that. As far as Scott and Stiles were concerned Derek had gone dark side, and I wasn't too sure about having him near my son. I knew-know he isn't evil but that doesn't mean I was gonna let him take Rome out for joyrides every time he felt like it. And yes…a small part of me was angry because of my confrontation with Erika…"don't you want to know more about what Derek and I do in our spare time? How much of an animal he really is?" I shook my head and determinedly walked away. Scott was probably freaking out, if Derek had grabbed Rome from his room or at Gloria's.

"Alex," I heard him say my name and I didn't pay him any mind as I swiftly reached for Rome and scoop him in my arms. "Alex," "Mom," both was said at the same time and I sighed. "Did you want something?" I swiftly turned to Derek as I narrowed my eyes. "Mommy," I turned to Rome and he said "I want daddy to tuck me in," I sighed as I took a deep breath and all my irritation left swiftly as I looked down at my son. I closed my eyes as Derek cleared his throat, my irritation back full force. I turned my head to him and he looked at Rome before looking at me and muttered "it's the least I can do."

"I shouldn't see you,

But I can't move

I can't look away"

I rolled my eyes and turned to Rome "is this what you want sweetheart? Will this make you happy?" Rome suddenly stated excitedly bopping his had up and down as he said "yes, ma. It'll make me this happy!" He stretched his arms as far as they would go and I chuckled as I kissed his head and said "alright, Rome…just because it's you." I turned and opened the door and swung it open Derek jumping out of the way as he dodged it as it almost hit him and I looked away as a small smirk leaked on my face as I buckled Rome in his seat. I closed the door and I looked over at Derek who was just standing there looking at me.

"I shouldn't love you,

But I want to

I just can't turn away"

I asked "you just gonna stand there?" Derek rolled his eyes but moved and got into the driver seat as I sat in the passenger seat.

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I watched the forest through the window in Rome's room as Derek read him a bedtime story and I watched the moon as I got lost in my thoughts. This new creature was killing, the hunters weren't following the rules anymore, and to top it all off Derek was going dark side and was dragging my friends with him and my brother and best friend were against him, my brother's girlfriend was the granddaughter of the head hunter, and not to mention I was still so confused and hurt by Derek and to think I used to be stressed over just Scott and Allison. I sighed and turned away from the window to see Derek looking at me from across the room, Rome soundlessly sleeping.

"And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not,

Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop"

After reassuring Scott and Stiles he was okay I had put Scott to bed much to his irritation and made my way here to see Derek tucking Rome in. I sighed and walked to Rome and planted a kiss on his head and made my way out the door Derek following as he closed Rome's door. I went to my room and Derek stepped in and closed the door locking it. I asked "what do you want? Come to knock me on my ass again?" Derek let out a sigh and said "no, and that wasn't my fault. You were being irrational." I rolled my eyes and crossed my arms and said "right. Now what do you want?" Derek looked around and finally met my eyes and said "I wanted to see you-how you were doing," I narrowed my eyes and answered "fine. Just peachy," Derek closed his eyes and opened them as he took a step forward and accused "you didn't tell me."

I asked "tell you what?" Derek rolled his eyes "that you were bitten, Alex. What else could it be? You're a werewolf, and not just that, you're an alpha." His eyes went red before they flashed back to regular green. I snapped "it's none of your business what I am, or what I do." He glowered and said "it is my business, as of now. Because whether or not you like it, we're linked. You're the alpha female and I'm the alpha male, Alex. Don't challenge me or try to show dominance over me." I rolled my eyes and said "what? You're gonna start a fight with me over nothing?" Derek sighed and calmed down a little and said "you don't know."

I asked "know what?" Derek sat on my bed and I stood across from him as he said "as alphas in a small environment you're going to want to show dominance over my pack, over me it's an impulse that alphas have, to be the better pack." I accused "like you did with Scott?" He winced and said "yeah like that." I rolled my eyes and said "what can we do about it?" Derek looked up at me and said "join me, join me and the pack." I glowered and Erika' voice echoed in my head…"don't you want to know more about what Derek and I do in our spare time? How much of an animal he really is?" I shook my head and asked "what so I can be your bitch? Sorry, but no. What Erika not good enough you need another?" Derek looked at me curiously and asked "what are you talking about?" I sighed and huffed as I replied "don't play dumb. Erika told me."

"Just so you know,

This feeling's taking control of me"

Derek's brows furrowed and he said "I have no idea what you're going on about." I replied "I thought that you-I was so stupid! But I mean it was all just a game to you right? My feelings, everything, every word, every touch, it was all some big joke right? A joke on the damaged goods girl right? I bet you had a nice long laugh every time, huh? It was all lies"- Derek suddenly pushed me back against the wall.

"I won't sit around,

I can't let him win now"

I struggled as I tried to fight him off but he pinned my hips against his on the wall while he pushed my arms back against the wall with his and interlocked our fingers. Then his lips were on mine. And I tried to resist I fought back for a good five seconds but my inner wolf won against the rational side of my brain.

"Though you should know,

I've tried my best to let go of you

But I don't want to"

My wolf wanted this to happen, it wanted everything Derek could give, it was howling inside of me as I pressed against him as our tongues clashed against each other for dominance and my wolf was submissive to him. The rational part of me? Well that part was telling me to fight, to fight him off and tried to remind me of all the things he had done, but that went out the window as my wolf growled for it to shut up.

The intense kiss ended and Derek kissed my forehead as he said "you weren't a joke, Ale, you never were." I opened my eyes to meet his and saw they were that amazing green color. I protested "but Erika said"- Derek rolled his eyes and said "Erika is underage and is my pack sister. Let's not forget she over exaggerates a lot." I asked "so you were interested in her?" He frowned and said "no…I may have used my…sexuality to persuade her to get the bite but that's all." I frowned and said "why her? Why bite Boyd or Isaac? Why my friends?" Derek sighed but didn't move as he said "I thought I was doing them a favor." I shook my head and said "that's not it."

Derek sighed and moved by my window. I asked "what? You can't give me a straight answer?" He rolled his eyes and said "I will, just not now."

"It's getting hard to be around you,

There's so much I can't say"

I asked "how's Isaac?" He answered "fine. As fine as a fugitive could be. Why so interested in Lahey?" I blushed but answered "he's my friend, you can leave now." Derek turned around once he heard my heart beat quicken. He narrowed his eyes and asked "you don't-you're not interested in Lahey are you?" I rolled my eyes and retorted "don't you have to get back and supervise your underage pack?" Derek didn't move as he analyzed me. I rolled my eyes and he shook his head as he said "you are." He growled out the two words. I stood in front of him and cupped his face in my hands and answered "I don't know. Everything is so messed up right now that I don't even have time to think about all of this, but when I do all I can think about is you."

"Do you want me to hide my feelings?

And look the other way?"

Derek closed his eyes and pressed kiss to my forehead. I said "Derek you should go before Scott realizes you were here trying to persuade me to join the dark side." He rolled his eyes "that's still a no?" I retorted "do I get cookies?" He rolled his eyes and said "no." I shrugged and said "well, I gave it a try, how'd Boyd take the bite?" Derek answered "he's fine." I nodded and said "okay now seriously go."

He nodded and swiftly wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed me. In the back of my brain I knew I shouldn't let him kiss me because tomorrow I'd see Eli and Matt and then think about Isaac and my conscious would eat me alive. I didn't dwell on it though and kissed Derek back. It still amazed me how he could get my whole body tingling with just his lips on mine. After a few seconds I pulled away and he kissed my forehead as he said "okay, I'll leave now. But Alex…I still stand by what I told you before I'm gonna fight for you and Rome. Even if you do feel something for Isaac, or end up with someone else, I'm always gonna be here." At that moment I wanted to tell him that I chose him, that there would never be someone else, but then reality set in. I said nothing as he crept out my window and left. I felt numb; I didn't know what to feel. I wanted to sort this out. Tomorrow I'd do the right thing and cut Matt out of my life and piece by piece begin to straighten things out.

"Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop"