A/N: I got this chapter idea from one of the reviews I got for the previous chapter. Thanks so much kinky-kitsune!
ALSO!!!!! please review! let me know what you think about this chapter and how it's soley just Tenten's thoughts. I'm thinking about placing more chapters like this throughout the story but I don't know for sure.
Chapter Seven
Neji Hyuga.
Forever the politician.
All words, never action.
Well, at least until the situation calls for it.
Apparently I wasn't a situation for which action was called for.
He doesn't love me, not really. If he did, he'd fight for me, and he won't, because I am not worthy of the clan's last name.
What a load of bull shit. I'm so glad that I don't have a clan like that. I can do whatever I please, be with who I please and no one can say otherwise.....
Naruto Uzumaki.
The epitome of action.
The most unpredictable ninja alive.
Sometimes he doesn't think before he acts, but that works for him.
I'm glad he didn't wait to think about dating me through. I might not have ever gotten to know what a great guy he is if he had.
I know he doesn't love me but what we have together is good enough for now. I know he'll never leave me for Sakura and that knowledge makes me feel as if I am on top of the world. He's just not that type of guy; to use and drop for the next one to come along.
Neji would've left me (if we had been together) if his clan commanded it. I know he would. Being on his team since graduation from the academy has taught me that.
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Do I want Neji to fight for me?
I don't know.
Do I?
I mean, yes, I liked him for like ever but after all these years, why didn't he say anything if he returned my feelings.....
Is it because I don't have a last name? I know his family would never approve of a nameless girl joining their clan. They would probably disown him if he did try to marry me...
Neji would do the honorable thing and propose to me before any sexual relations happened. I mean, it would look bad for the clan if he had been with me in that way and a pregnancy resulted. Scandalous.
Would Naruto propose if I got pregnant?
What if I wasn't even pregnant....would he propose?
Would I want to marry Neji?
Probably.
I think so.
I mean, if we were together and he asked it's not like I could just say no.....
If what I felt for him had developed enough to be called 'love' I would have said yes, and I know that what I felt....still feel for him, would've devolped into love. It's given fact.
Would I want to marry Naruto?
Would I want to be the mother of Neji's children?
If we were together (which we're not), probably.
I would love to have children someday, in the near future.
At least a girl and a boy to begin with.
But would I want to have them stuck with the same fate (ha, I used Neji's favorite word) as their father? being stuck under the control of the main branch with seals on their foreheads that could kill them instantly if they so much as looked at someone the wrong way.....
Would I want to be the mother of Naruto's children?
Do I want him to convince me that he loves me and that he's a better guy for me than Naruto?
I don't know.
Do I?
I mean, I know him better than Naruto, but up until a few hours ago I never would've thought that he would even consider me to be a girl, let alone could ever be attracted to me.....
He's a caring teammate, but we hardly see one another outside of training or missions.....
Do I want him to convince me that he cares about me and that he's a better guy for me than Neji?
Does he even really want me? Neji I mean.....
Would I just be sex to him? Well, I know he wouldn't try anything because of the clan...but if the clan wasn't all up each others butts about that sorta stuff would that be all I was to him?
Would he want to wake up every morning next to me....or would he sneak off in the early morning hours before I woke up?
Does he want me for me? I'm not sure he knows much about me....other than the fact that I have no family, I'm obsessed with shiny, pointy, metal objects, and I always wear panda buns.....
Does he even really want me? Naruto I mean.....
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I'm so confused.....
Who do I want more?
Neji or Naruto?
Cold or warm?
All talk or action?
So far, Naruto has the scale tipped in his favor but not by too much.....
