"You're his...what now?"

"His girl. Friend" Kagura said slowly, as if I was a fucking retard. She must not know what I'm capable of!

Sesshomaru cleared his throat & tugged on Kagura's arm. "Come on, let's go. It was nice seeing you again Inuya-"

"How the hell are you going to pop up with a bitch on your arm-"

"Excuse me?" Kagura interrupted. I ignored her.

"When you told me the other night you like men?"

The look in Sesshomaru's eyes changed from uncomfortable to absolute livid. I'd never seen someone look so angry but I mean, hey, he had it coming even though that was kind of a low blow.

"How the hell would he be capable of that when he made love to me so sweetly last night? As far as I'm concerned he's more into women. Me, specifically" Kagura said, looking her nose down at me. I'd love to break that nose.

"Go to the car, Kagura" Sesshomaru said in a low voice.

"But I-"

"Go! Now!" he snapped, turning his livid glare onto her. Her eyes widened & she took another glance at me, looking me up & down & smirking to herself then twitching out the door, her head held high. Fucking bitch, I'd break that neck-

"Who the fuck do you think you are?" Sesshomaru snarled, his voice barely over a whisper.

"What the hell am I supposed to say when you come up in here with a bitch & let her disrespect me? I hope you didn't think I was just going to smile & look pretty while she said all that shit" I stated, frowning.

That stumped Sesshomaru a little & he sighed, shaking his head. "If you let other's attitude affect how you treat people then you're a sorry excuse of a man"

"Hey fuck you alright? I'm pretty fucking sure you would have done the same thing if some bitch came up in here, talking to you like you're a dumbass"

"You are a dumbass" Sesshomaru growled & abruptly turned on his heel & left, his silver tresses whipping back in forth in the wind that was stirring up, thanks to the coming storm.

I looked around & noticed everyone in the bar was looking at me, whispering to whoever was sitting with them. I hurriedly paid for my soda & left, head down, hands stuck in my pocket.

Who the hell did he think he was fooling? I'm pretty fucking sure he was telling me the truth when he said he liked men. Oh I'm sorry, when he said he thought he liked men. Either way that Kagura bitch had no right to get up in my face & act like she was so fucking superior to me just because she was hanging off the arm of one of the most beautiful men I'd ever seen, & that includes me. I mean yeah I was sexy as hell but Sesshomaru was just simply...gorgeous.

I hadn't realized my feet led me back to the beach. Damn I swear the beach had a magnetic pull on my heart. The water was just as angry as I was, tossing foamy waves onto the beach like saliva from a mad dog & a gray so dark, it was almost black. Just looking at it kind of made my heart hitch; the surfer in me would've loved to ride the waves but I doubt the waves wanted to play today.

Thunder rumbled in the distance. Judging by the clouds, it was going to be a nasty storm. I sat down anyway, resting my arms on my raised knees. How could I go home & do nothing but sit & think about...that.

Anger boiled in the pit of my stomach. Sesshomaru deserved better than some stanky ass whore, even though he got on my last fucking nerves. He was a jerk, that was true. But he was a jerk that I wanted for myself.

Whoa. Did I seriously just think that? I frowned slightly. Yeah. I sure as hell did just think that. & ya know what? I did want him to be mine. I don't know about you people but I fight for the things that I want & if I have to commit murder to get what I wanted than so be it. I mean I'm sure no one would care she was dead right?

Lightening flashed & thunder shook the sand under me. I stood & sped-walked home, hoping I wouldn't get struck before I got home. I mean damn, God I was kind of joking! I wouldn't kill someone just because they got my man...though I'd kill her for the way she treated me...

The rest of the night was spent in my bedroom, uncomfortable with the loud, rumbling thunder & bright lightening. Mind you, I wasn't afraid, loud noises just make me uneasy. As a kid though, thunderstorms scared the shit out of me. I was always afraid that it would bring a tornado while I was asleep & then I'd wake up in Kansas or something. The lights went out after a while so I really had no choice but to go to sleep.

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I headed to the beach bright & early the next morning. One thing about a storm, it's always followed by cool, beautiful weather though there was a bunch of debris in the streets & the beach. The waves were back to be playful. I walked up to see Koga riding one in his signature handstand, grinning arrogantly. Damn he was such a slut. But he was sexy, that I had to admit.

I paddled out & met him where he washed out, nodding a hello.

"Hey, punk, got some good waves out here yet?" I asked

"Hell yeah man! These waves are awesome! Ginta caught one that had to be at least seven feet, dude, you fucking missed it. But I got pics. I'll show you later..." he said then gave me a sly grin, "If you can out-do me"

I scoffed. "Dude you're fucking on, let's do it"

I spotted a particularly big wave up ahead & raced forward to meet it. By the time I got to it, it had grown over eight feet, towering over me & I was sure I looked like a spec from a distance. I swallowed my nervousness & rode it on shaky legs, hunched down to stay centered.

I could hear Koga whooping like a madman from a distance, causing me to actually get a little arrogant. I spread my legs & executed a body roll, which melted into [what I refer to as] an Usher glide. Oh yeah did I tell you guys I could dance? Oh. Well hey guys I can dance. I'm no Chris Brown or anything but I can do a little something.

I dove off the board when I finished riding the wave & relished in the feeling of the warm water. I swear I was part fish or something. I could never get enough of the sea. I resurfaced, hearing the roaring cheer from the crowd that had gathered on the beach & smiled bashfully.

As I walked up on the beach after finding my board I happened to notice a particular person standing slightly away & walked over after receiving claps on the back & high fives.

"Did you enjoy the show?" I asked the person, glaring out across the sea.

"It was ok I guess. Interesting enough to hold my attention but not enough to wow me"

I smirked. "My, aren't you hard to please, Sesshomaru"

He tilted his head back, his eyes now visible from under his large straw hat. "No. I'm actually pretty easy to please if you use common sense"

"Oh really? Is that what your little bitch told you?"

Sesshomaru sighed. "I didn't come here to fight"

"Then why are you here?"

"Oh I'm sorry, I didn't know this beach was only meant for people you approve of"

"Don't get sarcastic with me, Sesshomaru!"

He sighed again, shaking his head with a slight smirk on his face. "It's habit. I'm sorry. For everything"

I nodded, accepting his apology. "I understand it's hard to come out of the closet"

"Come out? I'm apologizing for letting Kagura treat you the way she did. I have no plans of coming out, considering I'm straight" he said looking up at me again.

I rolled my eyes. "Yeah, ok so you just want me to ignore what you said the other night about liking guys?"

Sesshomaru stiffened.

"Oh I'm sorry, I meant you thought you like dudes. My mistake, I didn't mean to misquote you" I said in a low voice that was obviously full of sarcasm.

Sesshomaru said nothing. I couldn't read his facial expression, thanks to that big ass straw hat.

"You were right. I just wanted to be cool. I told you that because I felt like you would accept me" he whispered.

This fucker said what? "Wanted me to accept you? You don't think I accept straight people?"

"I saw you as a man I could become close to! I felt like we had nothing in common so I said that in the hopes of progressing our relationship" he snapped. I noticed his hands were balled into fists.

"That's some bullshit, Sessh"

He looked at me with confusion in his liquid gold eyes. "What did you call me?"

I looked away. You know what? Fuck it. I've had enough with beating around the bush. A lot of shit was being said these days & no one has been saying what's really on their mind. I'm getting kind of sick of ignoring this hot pink ass elephant. "Sessh I'm not gunna lie, I like you. A lot. I know I barely know you but I want to get to know you. You telling me you thought you liked guys made me feel kind of hopeful. I haven't been out with a guy before so it would've been nice if you were my first"

Sesshomaru's eyes were big as he stared at me, his body language registering shock.

"I'm not asking you to do anything but whatever you want. It's not going to hurt my feelings if you're straight (yes it would) but I think you are seriously considering men. If you want to give it a try I'd be more than happy to be your guinea pig"

"I...I...I don't know...I just...I just..."

I waited (semi) patiently while he stammered, hoping he was in positive shock. I mean I do kind of have a way with words. What can I say, I'm just smooth like tha-

"I gatta go" he said abruptly & brushed by me.

I started & twisted around, grabbing his wrist. "Whoa, hold on now, what about all that stuff about our relationship & shit?"

He wouldn't make eye contact. "Inuyasha I have to go. I have to go now, let me go"

"Why do you have to go? Do you actually have something to do or do you just want to be alone for a while?"

I'd never seen such a pleading look (besides the Feed the Children commercials), a look so intense it made my heart stop, drop & roll down to the pits of my stomach. "I have to go" he whispered, "Please. Let me go"

I slowly let him go & watched as he jogged away. I know it was a bad time but damn he had a nice ass...

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It didn't really sink in until a few days later. Was I wrong? Did he really not want to be with men? I hate to think that I made him uncomfortable with all the advances I made on him & all the times I told myself he was somewhat curious. I mean usually I was right about people but...honestly Sesshomaru was not like other people.

The next few weeks were spent in boredom, depression & self-pity. I know, I know, what's a guy as sexy as myself doing all depressed & shit? Well to be honest I kind of put my feelings out there & I got rejected. I've never been rejected. Ever. One look, a simple smile, a few silky words & I could pretty much have the moon if I wanted it. I was too sexy to not get whatever I wanted, not to mention I was great in bed...

But apparently none of that mattered to Sesshomaru. The looks, the clothes, the swag, the little bit of money I had meant nothing. So what did it matter to him? What was he looking for? I was almost sure of one thing: Kagura was not the one he was looking for. Whether she was his cover up or he wanted to make me jealous she was not the one.

One day I surfed till just before sunset then sat on the beach, watching it's slow decent. I couldn't shake myself out of this blue funk, considering it had already been a month since I last talked to Sesshomaru. Wow. A month. Felt like it had been a year or so. Not even Kouga's joking cheered me up. He left for home a few hours ago, grumbling about how much of a killjoy I was being.

I walked along the beach, slowly sliding my feet through the crystal clear blue water. I picked up a few colorful shells, examining them, them tossed them back into the sea. I got my board & laid on it, floating on the water. It seemed to fit my mood, just floating along. I didn't go out far; the water came up to my knee. Just far out enough-OUCH! to get stung by a jellyfish?

I jerked my leg out of the water. There was a dark red ribbon extending from my ankle to just below my knee where the jellyfish had stung me. The nerves in my leg were now on fire, causing my leg to twitch. I waded back on shore & sat down, rubbing my leg. Ugh I fucking hate jellyfis-

"You should piss on it"

I frowned, still glaring down at my leg. "Fuck off"

"I'm serious. The ammonia from the piss will help the nerves in your legs"

I looked up, ready to cuss the person out & lost my train of thought as I realized it was Sesshomaru. I was surprised I didn't recognize his voice. It sounded...sad. Deeper.

"Oh...hey Sessh"

He squatted down beside me, bringing the smell of cinnamon. "If you need me to, I'll piss on your leg"

I laughed once. "Uh, no thanks. I'd rather just suffer even though it's calming down now"

We were quite for a while. It was a comfortable silence, one that was only filled with the sound of the waves & seagulls.

"Were you really telling me the truth when you said you liked me?" Sesshomaru whispered.

I looked up from my calmed but still red leg to him. "Of course. That's not some shit I play about"

He nodded, staring out across the ocean. "That's good"

I raised an eyebrow & smiled. "Why is that good?"

"W-well because it just shows that you don't play with people's feelings, t-that's all" he stuttered. I chuckled.

"If you ever want to tell me something, Sessh, all you have to do is say something"

"What are you talking about, I don't have anything important to tell you"

I gave up but smiled, laying back on the sand, resting my head on my hands. "What have you been up to in the past month?"

"Work, work, work. & a little play"

"Oh? & how do you play?"

He gave me a look that made me laugh. "Don't look at me like that, even though I was thinking pervertedly, that doesn't mean I was actually going to ask you something perverted"

He smirked. "I know. It just sounded like your mind was in the gutter when you asked"

I chuckled & a comfortable silence settled between us again. It was nice just sitting here like this with him. I could definitely see us on a date just like this, cuddled up on the beach while the sun set or maybe even make love till the sun rose. I wanted the picture to be real so bad my heart ached.

Sesshomaru leaned down on his elbow, facing me. "Why do you call me Sessh anyway?"

"I don't know, I guess because it's shorter & all"

"So you're saying you're lazy?"

"Yes, exactly"

We both chuckled. Yeah, this was really nice. I can get used to this.

"Has anyone ever told you you're sexy as hell?" I asked suddenly, reaching for his face. I was surprised when he held still; his skin was silky smooth & blemish-free, I wanted nothing more than to kiss him but I had to take baby steps.

"From a few people" he whispered back, eyes lingering on my mouth.

"Well. You're really fucking gorgeous, I hope you know that. & I'm not saying that just to get in your pants. Though I'm sure it's nice in there"

Ever so slowly he began to lean forward. My heart thudded, stopped, then came back alive, racing. Was he really about to kiss me? What the hell? Not like I was complaining; it was very far from complaining.

He was so close now I could feel his body heat. Closer...& closer still...

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Ahhhhh cliffhanger! =D [ducks as rotten tomatoes, lettuce & chairs are thrown] I'll update really super soon, I pwomise O.O