Disclaimer: See last chapter

~ Chapter Six ~

~ "Mirror I am seeing a new reflection." ~

They were finally going to have that real prom they had all longed for, and it was tonight. Tawni and Sonny were to excited. It was the one thing they had both been waiting for, a good chance to dress up and have some fun. They both knew it was a big chance to show off their weight loss, and for Sonny to show off her amazing boyfriend.

She looked in the mirror, this was going to be one night she wouldn't let herself worry about weight or calories – she hoped. She smiled a little in the mirror, they had rehearsals all day but Tawni and Sonny had been too excited to get anything done.

"Hey!" Tawni grinned, chucking over a cold bottle of water to Sonny before looking in her own mirror.

"Looking forward to tonight?" Sonny nodded,

"Do you think we hit our weight target?" She asked, wishing she didn't care,

"You sure do look like you have." She smiles at Tawni who looks at Sonny,

"You look like you have, and more." Sonny shrugged,

"We will weigh later and see."

"So have you eaten today?" Tawni bit down on her lip, not tearing her eyes away from the mirror,

"No, just to be ready for tonight. Just in case they have loads of food there or something." Sonny muttered, sitting down for a minute as she closed her eyes and tried to focus on something other than the dizziness.

"Yeah, true." Sonny got back up when Tawni walked out to go to the bathroom, pinching whatever fat she could find on her body,

"What are you doing?" Tawni asked when she walked back in,

"Do I look fat?" Sonny asked as she turned to face Tawni, away from the mirror,

"No! You could never look fat."

"Hmm..." She looked back at the mirror, heaving a deep sigh; Huge thighs, fat stomach, double chin and chubby cheeks. (A/N: Mind of an anorexic, I am not saying Sonny/Demi is fat) It was all she could see, people would look at her and tell her it wasn't true but it was what she saw, and that was the only truth she could trust, right? After all the mirror never lies.

They both walked out of the changing room, ready to go to Tawni's house and get changed, laughing with each other until Tawni grabbed Sonny's hand and started to run.

"Tawni! We look like freaks."

"I don't care."

"Well, I do."

"Have some fun Sonny, think of the calories we are burning anyway." Sonny shrugged her shoulders, laughing,

"True, but can you possibly fun like the seventeen year old you are and not like a six year old?"

"But it's more fun this way." She pouted,

"And it's fun to do it the normal way."

"Oh come on Sonny, loosen up once in a while." Sonny nodded, sighing when she realized she hadn't done anything stupid – off show – in ages. She laughed as Tawni took her on her own little crazy run, knowing that if anyone laughed at us or anything then she would stop.

Sonny was relieved when they finally arrived at Tawni's house, out of breath and tried, they both collapsed on the settee and grinned at Mrs Hart when she walked in, looking at them both confused,

"Why are you two out of breath?"

"Tawni decided it would be fun to run all the way home." Sonny tried her best to sound annoyed but she was secretly happy that they had managed to burn more calories than they usually did.

"It was fun." Tawni muttered, in a world of her own, Sonny just rolled her eyes and got up, grabbing Tawni's hands and pulling her up,

"We need to start getting ready."

"We need to go for our run because it will be too late when we get back." Tawni said,

"Well let's go get changed then." She nodded, running up the stairs, laughing when Sonny followed her only for them to both collapse on her floor.

"Right, come on then, we don't have long." She said after a few moments, changing into her jogging bottoms and smiling as Sonny did the same.

~ .. ~

"Quick weigh in and then we will get ready." Tawni grinned, walking into her bedroom after their run.

"Shall I go first this time?" Tawni nodded and followed Sonny into the bathroom, she sighed and then closed her eyes and slowly stepped on,

"One hundred and eighteen last time, right?" Tawni nodded, watching as Sonny opened her eyes and looked down at the scales,

"Have you done it?" Tawni squealed, knowing the weight on those scales would effect her best friends mood for the rest of the night.

"One hundred and fourteen, bang on target." Sonny muttered, seemingly annoyed with herself – she had hoped for less.

"Your turn." She tried her best to smile at Tawni when she stepped on,

"I have to one hundred and twenty four." She announced, closing her eyes,

"You look for me." She whispered,

"What?" Sonny gulped, she wouldn't know what to say if Tawni hadn't made it.

"Please Sonny, I don't know what I would do if I haven't made it." She sounded like she was about to cry, so Sonny nodded and looked down, smiling,

"It's fine, you're one hundred and twenty three. Well done." She wrapped her arms around her, grinning,

"Thank God for that." Tawni smiled,

"Let's get ready now!" She ran out of the bathroom, now excited that tonight was going to be amazing, she could finally fit into her dress.

~ .. ~

"Wow! You both look beautiful." Mrs Hart smiled as they both walked down the stairs, both in elegant black dresses. Tawni's was the shorter version of the one Sonny was wearing, and their backs could be seen through the fabric. Sonny smiled shyly and looked down at the floor,

"When will Portlyn be here?" Her mother asked, smiling when the doorbell went off,

"Here she is!" Tawni shouted in a French accent, causing Sonny to giggle,

"You're crazy." She nodded,

"You love that about me though." Sonny smiled and looked in the mirror to put her earrings in. Tawni grabbed Portlyn as she walked in, grinning at her amazing, emerald green dress that came to just above her knees.

"You look amazing, doesn't she look amazing Sonny?" Sonny looked over and nodded, smiling a little before turning back to the mirror, going over what was wrong with her body in her head as she stared at her reflection.

"You look beautiful, both of you." Portlyn said as she walked up behind Sonny, staring at the girl who was still looking at herself in the mirror with tears in her eyes,

"You're both getting really thin though." She sighed, staring at Sonny's back as she spoke,

"You can never be too thin my darling." Tawni replied in her fake – and bad – French accent, making Sonny laugh loudly as she shook her head,

"We are fine." Sonny tried to smile, not tearing her eyes from her reflection,

"I can see your shoulder blades." Portlyn muttered, Chad had warned her about Sonny's weight loss, he wanted her to make sure she was doing okay – and by the looks of things, she wasn't.

"I have always been able to see yours, I got over that a long time ago, I am sure you can do the same." Sonny finally turned around, glaring at her.

"Sorry." She muttered, noticing how silent the room had got,

"We are fine, we eat loads. Don't we Tawni?" She looked over at her friend for some much needed support,

"Yes, a lot."

"Course you do." Portlyn muttered, ignoring the eye roll she received from Sonny.

"Come on girls! I want a group photograph." Tawni's parents walked down the stairs, this time with a camera.

"All together now." Tawni nodded, standing in the middle with her arms around Portlyn's and Sonny's waist, Sonny shifted uncomfortably as she tried to smile at the camera. She quickly moved out of the pose to run to the door when it knocked, grinning when she saw Chad and wrapped her arms around him,

"You look amazing." He smiled, handing her a small red rose when she pulled away from him. Sonny kissed him gently on the lips and smiled,

"You look very handsome." She grinned, blushing a little as she looked at her boyfriend,

"Well, it's not so hard for me." Sonny laughed, grabbing his hand as he looked down at her and kissed her on the cheek. She could feel herself blush again, trying to distract herself by staring at Tawni and Nico and Portlyn and her boyfriend, Lewis.

Sonny rolled her eyes at the constant photographs taken by Tawni's parents, she found herself wondering if they would be just as proud of her if they knew what she did. Would they still love her? She wondered what they would do, what Tawni would do, if she told them. She would probably get the blame though, even though Tawni's bulimia started long before Sonny even knew about it. Sonny sighed as she took one more last look in the mirror before taking off with her boyfriend and friend into the large limo out front. Tonight was going to be perfect.

~ .. ~

Sonny looked around at everyone eating and sighed, she wrapped her arms around her stomach and tried to ignore the stomach pains.

"Are you going to eat?" Tawni ran over to her from the dance floor and Sonny looked at all the food on the table,

"Nothing I like here, what about you?"

"I might have something and then purge." Tawni whispered as Sonny just nodded. Tawni grinned and then laughed when Nico pulled her back onto the dance floor, Sonny stood there biting down on her lip as she watched them both dancing.

"What took you so long?" She asked Chad when he finally walked back over to her, his famous grin on his perfect face,

"I grabbed some food on my way back from the little men's room." He held up two plated and then grabbed one of Sonny's hand to drag her over to a table. She could feel herself starting to shake, she couldn't eat all of that disgusting, fatty food. It was horrible. She was going to get fat, she thought.

They both sat down at a spare table and she smiled at him when he placed the plate in front of her and then looked at her. He was challenging her to eat it and she wasn't going to accept that challenge – she didn't care if anyone was on to her.

"Aren't you going to eat any of it?" She shook her head,

"Me and Tawni are ordering pizza tonight."

"Of course you are." He muttered sarcastically,

"You can ask her if you want to!"

"I am sure you can manage to eat something before then." She shook her head,

"I would really rather save myself for the pizza."

"No! Just eat the damn food."

"Why?"

"I have to know that you're okay Sonny. I have to know that you eat." He grabbed her hand across the table,

"I do eat, I eat all the time."

"Well I have never seen you eat."

"I am not around you all the time."

"I will make sure I am if you want, just to make sure that you're okay." He pushed the plate closer to her and she shook her head, pushing it back towards him with tears falling from her eyes,

"What's wrong?" He quickly got up, wrapping his arm around the shaking girl,

"I don't feel well." She whispered,

"That's a lie, you just don't want to eat. Just tell me why Sonny, please." He was about to cry, she could hear it in his voice.

"I just... I don't want to get fat again." She pleaded with him to drop it, sighing as she said those dreaded words. Chad was never supposed to know how she felt, she had just broken all the control she had for herself. She had just told the one person she had never wanted to know, and now he wasn't going to love her anymore when he realized what a fat cow she was. She sighed and looked down at the thoughts that ran through her head,

"You're not fat and you never have been." He lifted up her head and kissed her on the lips,

"Whatever." She muttered, looking away from him for a moment,

"Just eat something."

"Fine!" She grabbed a sandwich, nibbling on it, looking at him when he smiled and sat back down and started with his own food.

"I have to pee." She finally said when she was done, he nodded and smiled,

"Will you wait here for me?" She looked at him,

"Then we can dance?" He asked, grinning when she nodded before running off to the toilet. She had to get everything out of her, she had to do it soon before all the calories stayed inside of her and made her even fatter.

Crying, she ran into the bathroom and locked herself in a cubicle. She sighed as she heard someone being sick next door to her, ramming her own fingers down her throat quickly,

"Sonny?" She heard after a while, she was done by then and sitting on the closed toilet seat, staring into space.

"Tawni?" She heard a big sigh and then a sob,

"I am such a failure."

"No! It's okay, you got it all out, didn't you?" She sighed,

"Yeah, but I shouldn't have eaten it in the first place." Tawni muttered, leaning her head against the cubicle as Sonny did the same.

"I had something as well."

"I saw, but Chad made you. Nico didn't force me to do anything, I just chose to eat it." She sighed and Sonny shook her head, getting up and opening the door. She smiled at Tawni when she did the same, both of them washing their hands and faces before looking at themselves in the mirror.

"We are going to be okay, let's just go and dance." Sonny smiled, grabbing her hand,

"Burn some of those calories." Tawni grinned, laughing as they both walked out of the bathroom.

Burning calories

Starving yourself

Making yourself throw up

It's all part of the package

You just have to accept it

You can't have it all without some effort...