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Just watched an early episode of Dragonball (Tournament Saga) where Yamcha actually wishes that he was smarter o.O (Just in his head...not via the dragonballs haha) In the next episode, Master Roshi sang/danced to a song that made me crack up. A young Goku joined him...so cute!
Chapter Six:
Thirst And Fire
My head still whirling with the events from last night and this morning, I decided to give myself a break and check in on Yamcha and Krillin. Considering how the hangover was treating me, a Saiyan, they must be feeling pretty damn awful.
I felt for their ki. They were still in C.C.; another guest bedroom, most likely. Their ki's were side by side. I immediately IT'd myself to the room, and blinked, looking around. They were sitting side by side on a couch, looking grumpy and red-eyed. The guest bathroom door was wide open, and I could smell vomit inside. I wrinkled my nose; they must not have flushed the toilet after puking. They raised their eyes to stare at me.
"Mornin'!" I grinned at them. "How ya feeling?"
In answer, Yamcha groaned.
"Ugh, just awful, man." Krillin responded, rubbing his head. "I swear I'm never drinking that much again..."
I laughed, having heard that from him several times before. "Right, Krillin.... Hey, do you need water or anything? Have you eaten?" At the thought of food, my stomach growled loudly.
Yamcha put a hand over his mouth. "F-food?" He stood up quickly and dashed to the bathroom, slamming the door behind him. Retching could be heard through the door.
I winced. "Yikes.."
"Yeah, he's doing waaay worse than me... typical Yamcha... I only threw up twice." Krillin said with pride. "Although I could do with some water..."
"Sure thing! I'll be back in a moment." I went to the kitchen and poured two glasses of water, which I returned with and set down on a table in their guest bedroom.
They didn't really want anything else, including company, so I decided to go home and change while I waited for Vegeta to come find me. I IT'd myself deep into the mountains where my cabin was, and went inside to grab a new gi. I would have to wash my suit. After catching a whiff of myself, I immediately left to dive into my favorite forest pool.
I lay on my back in the water, fully naked and enjoying the warmth of sun rays that filtered in through the trees. The water was cool and perfect. I breathed a sigh of contentment, and couldn't help but grin.
Freedom certainly was sweet. I did not miss Chichi at all, and my boys were growing up happy and strong.
Everything was the way I wanted it to be...
Well, except for Vegeta.
But that could definitely change. I hadn't been rejected!
I grinned wider and wondered what he was thinking right now. Eh, he was probably just focusing on training and refusing to think of anything else..I figured that his pride and arrogance would prevent him from coming to me anytime soon. I would have to be patient. But... My grin faded as a new thought entered my mind. What if.. he didn't want me? What if I was imagining the way he'd uttered my name at the party, and the interested glint in his eyes once I'd confessed my feelings? What if... Well, I would just have to cross that bridge when I came to it.
I knew that Saiyans took male lovers; Vegeta and I had something resembling a conversation about it once. It wasn't something taboo like it was on some places here on Earth. Saiyans mated with whomever they wished. So I didn't have to worry about that. I felt my heart pang, and wished he was there. I had no way of knowing how long I had to wait for him to talk to me, but I knew that pushing the issue would not help anything. I would just have to deal with my anxieties until he was ready to discuss it.
I didn't have to wait in misery, though. What was the point in beating myself up? It was done; my secret was out.
So I lay in the deep pool and closed my eyes, letting the calm serenity of the water lapping over my body soothe and relax me. I pictured him in my mind, and smiled.
Stunning...
I didn't hear a word from Vegeta for a few weeks, and I started to get frustrated. Why was he making me wait so long? Surely he'd had plenty of time to consider the idea... Rather than going to confront him about it, which would only piss him off, I kept myself busy. I began visiting Gohan and Videl often. Their wedding wasn't too far away.
One day, Goten and Trunks came to see me in the mountains, curious about where I lived these days. They spent a few hours exploring the forests and the surrounding areas. Eventually, they got bored and wanted to spar. I watched them pound into each other with twin smirks on their faces, and couldn't help but be reminded of Vegeta and I. Shaking my head a little with a smile, I offered to help them train. They grinned and pumped their arms into the air. Soon I found myself fighting a SS3 Gotenks, which was a fun challenge. Ultimately, I won, but after that, they started coming by every day to challenge me.
I also started going back to Roshi's island, enjoying the sun and water and relaxation. Krillin, too, would usually go there, and he and I decided to learn to surf. Roshi usually watched us from the shore with howling amusement as we tried to keep our balance.
As the days went by I felt like I was losing my chance to win Vegeta, but I didn't want to bother him. It was incredibly frustrating; I was normally a patient person, but this was different. Vegeta was in my heart now, and all I wanted was to stand at his side and show him how much he meant to me.
And then, one day, he arrived.
The sun was setting as I flew back home after a calm day at Roshi's. As I landed by my cabin, I gasped, feeling a very familiar ki behind me. I turned to see a familiar form walking regally up to me.
"Vegeta!" I smiled, feeling my heart skip a few beats. I hadn't seen him for so long! I stared into the dark depths of his eyes, feeling a sudden urge to grab him and not let go, ever.
"Kakarrot." He acknowledged with a small nod, crossing his arms in front of him and returning my stare.
"I'm glad to see you." I said warmly. Missed you, I wanted to add.
"...Hn."
We stood there, and I started to feel uncomfortable under his ceaseless stare. He was giving nothing away in his body language or tone, and I had no idea what to expect.
"Um... Vegeta, what-?"
"I have considered what you have said, Kakarrot."
"And?" I asked hopefully, and then faltered under his steady gaze.
"And I have nothing to offer you."
The words cut deep, and I flinched visibly... but I wasn't ready to accept an answer like that. No, I would not give Vegeta up without a fight.
"But Vegeta, I know you felt something when I kissed you... maybe not love, but... something! Can't you just... I mean, I... Vegeta, please give me a chance. We should... go on a trip. Yeah! Somewhere where we can just relax. And then, maybe-" I was rambling, and he held up a hand, his face as unexpressive as ever.
"Stop, Kakarrot. You're deluding yourself if you believe that we could ever have something more than friendship." His admittance of being my friend did nothing to improve my spirits, and I stared at him dejectedly. "I... I do consider you to be of importance to me, so I will explain." He was silent for a moment, and I swallowed.
"I could never love you in the manner you require. Kakarrot... it is in your nature to love, it's part of everything you are...but it's not in mine. It never has been. I have attempted--" He stopped for a moment, and continued on a different track. "I am the Prince of All Saiyans, and I.. I am meant to be alone. That is one of the only constants life has shown me." Vegeta spoke quietly and deliberately, but I had a feeling he was holding something back... holding himself back. Keeping himself firmly in control, as usual. He turned away from me, and I stared at his back.
How... can you possibly believe that you are meant to be alone?! You deserve to be loved... Just like everyone else! Dammit!
Let me there for you...
I went over to him, grabbing him by the shoulders and turning him to face me. I could feel him tense up immediately, but he didn't struggle. I looked deeply into his onyx eyes, and was saddened to see absolutely no emotion in them. He'd closed himself off from me once again. My heart ached for him. He had always been alone... Other than Bulma, but even then... their connection hadn't been deep.. More about passion than anything else...
What can I possibly say or do to make things better?
"No one's meant to be alone, Vegeta!" I exclaimed. "We all need love in our lives. Bulma wasn't right for you, just like Chichi wasn't right for me. But you and I, we're right for each other. I know it's true... I can feel it." I could feel tears threatening to spill. The love I felt for him was stronger than anything I'd ever known; it was confusing and overwhelming, and I wanted him to be mine. I already belonged to him.
He laughed harshly in my face, his eyes angrily boring into mine. "'No one's meant to be alone?' What rubbish! Only you would believe such nonsense as that, Kakarrot. Not everyone finds a mate, especially a mate they love. The universe is filled with horrors you can't even begin to imagine. You haven't seen it, but I certainly have. I have lived it!"
I took a deep breath. Oh, Vegeta... What happened to you all those years you were forced to work for Frieza? What horrors did you see?
"Vegeta... Okay, maybe not everyone finds a mate, or a lover. I believe that. But some of us are lucky enough to do so, and we should make the most of it. This is love, Vegeta. I. LOVE. YOU. And I know you feel something for me, stop denying yourself -both of us- the chance to be happy! To start something real! Dammit, Vegeta..."
He frowned at me. "No. I..care for you, but that is only natural after all of the years we have spent together. You are my rival- and yes, my friend." His eyes softened, and he did something I would never have expected-he put one gorgeous hand on my cheek and began stroking it gently. I purred at the touch, and leaned into his hand, my eyes still on his. His mouth twitched. "Kakarott..."
I couldn't help myself, I pulled him close and wrapped my arms around him. He tried to pull away, but I wasn't about to let him go now. He didn't think he deserved love, and I would just have to fix that. I love you. I purred louder, hoping to soothe him, and pressed my lips to his. His mouth opened in surprise, and I saw my advantage and put my tongue in his mouth. We gasped as our tongues touched, and I felt him relax into me. I pulled him even closer, and all of sudden he was no longer trying to get away, and was giving as good as he got.
He pushed me up against a tree, and I went willingly, wrapping a leg around him, needing all the closeness I could get.
We moaned into each other's mouths, and suddenly his hands were all over me. On my ass, on my back, in my hair, on my erection. The kiss turned deeper, more frantic. He ground his crotch into mine, and I could barely breathe.
"Kakarott..." The word was whispered.
"Mmm... " was all I could manage in response.
Heat. I was on fire. Everywhere that Vegeta touched was hot and perfect; I couldn't get enough. I whimpered and arched against his touch, and felt him smirk against my mouth. I didn't know how long the kiss lasted, but I was in heaven the entire time. This was... this was better than anything I could have imagined. How the hell hadn't I known how good a kiss could be?
I wanted all of him, and I pulled back a little to stare into his lust-filled eyes.
"Oh Vegeta... I lo-"
And then his eyes widened, and he lurched backwards. The movement was sudden and strange.
I groaned, confused and painfully aroused as he continued to step away from me. "Vegeta?"
His chest was heaving, and he took a few deep breaths as he stared at me in silence. His fists clenched, and I blinked as his ki rose rapidly. What was wrong? He had responded to me beyond any kind of doubt. He wanted me, too. So why...?
"Vegeta, I-"
"Shut up, Kakarrot." His voice was barely above a whisper, but the words were bitter. His eyes searched mine, and I swallowed unhappily, not understanding what he was looking for. Just a moment ago we were kissing passionately, and now he was cool and distant once more. What had I done, why had he stopped?
And then he was blasting off into the sky, leaving me aching, lonely, and confused. The only evidence that he had ever been there was my throbbing erection and burning skin, and I sighed. The lake would cool me off... I hoped.
Night came and went, and the morning was cool and breezy. I had barely slept; the moment I did I descended into lustful dreams of Vegeta and I that left me sweaty and gasping for air when I woke. I ended up going to my favorite sparring grounds to get lost in meditation and training. I attacked invisible enemies, my heart pumping and my energy pulsing around me. Whirling in the air, I kicked and punched and jabbed, and with every moment that passed by, I found myself getting more worked up.
Damn stubborn Vegeta! He made everything so difficult. Nothing was ever easy when it came to him; he had to do things his way--alone--What the hell had that damn lizard done to him? Why was he so intent on being alone -lonely- for the rest of his life?! He refused to relinquish any kind of control over his heart or mind. That amazing kiss was probably the only one I would ever get from him...
I craved and needed him so badly. Strange how long it took me to face reality, but now that I had... I didn't want to waste another moment without him. Yeah, now that I had tasted him, touched him, breathed him in, I knew that he was the only one I could ever want like this.
What a kiss...
It would be different if he was truly not interested, but... he wanted me, too. He had hungered for more, just like I had. His reaction was proof enough of that.
I sat down on a rock and looked down at my hands. They were bruised and cut in places from my training, but still soft. Soft... Like I am, Vegeta always said. A small smile crept onto my lips. I am Goku, an earth-raised Saiyan... I have never given up on anything I have set my mind to do! This is a different kind of battle, but that doesn't matter. Think! There is always a way.
Yes.. Vegeta would be hard to win over, but win him I would! It would be the ultimate challenge...and the ultimate prize!
I stood and grinned to myself, my old confidence surging through me like a lightning bolt. I was not going to lose Vegeta.
I IT-d over to where his ki was located. Gravity Room, of course. Vegeta stopped his training to stare at me with his mouth wide open, clearly not expecting me to just show up. I grinned at him and leaned forward.
"Vegeta! Feel free to live in denial all you want, but I know I'm right about this! And I, for one, am done lying to myself. You're the one that I want... and like I told you the other week...I always get what I want." I winked at him, while his mouth dropped still further. "One way or another... You'll be mine, just as I am yours." I turned and started to saunter outside.
"Stop, Kakarrot! How dare you walk away from me!" I could feel his agitation behind me, but I ignored him, my battle smirk plastered to my face.
"Then come and get me, my prince... if you dare."
Well, well ;) That kiss scene was fun to write... Hope you enjoyed it! Poor Vegeta and Goku... will they ever have a chance? & exactly what has Vegeta been through in his past that makes it so difficult for him to accept a happy future? Yes... these questions will be answered soon!
Any thoughts? ^^
There are a few little things that I don't like about this chapter, but I really wanted to get it uploaded for you guys, since I knew I won't have a chance for awhile...I will be away for three weeks, so I won't be able to work on the next chapter until I return.... HOWEVER! About half of it is already written. Expect an update in about a month!
