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seven! Chapter seven: Miss Sausage.
"Bella, honey?" I whispered stepping into my small living room. I hadn't meant to stay out all day.. Would she be mad?
"Bella, are you awake?" I listened closely and only heard one heartbeat, not including mine. My fathers. I sighed and dropped the tin of muffins Emily had made for Bella and I on the table beside the couch. Of course she left. Who would want to sit around waiting for me, when they could just as easily go to their bloodsucking husband? I shuttered and sighed.
I fell down on the couch and the legs screeched under my weight. I looked around my black living room and listened to my fathers deep breathing. I suspect he's sleeping. My stomach growled and I looked down at it with a frown. I didn't really want to eat all the muffins Emily had got Bella and I, but really what else could I do? Our kitchen had nothing to offer. Billy could never go shopping. With a huff I decided against the muffins and walked to the kitchen, praying something was there.
Clink. I looked down to a small pile of glass on the floor I'd just stepped on. It had Bella's scent all over it. Small shards pushed into my feet, but I couldn't feel it. What was she doing with a broken plate?
There would be plenty of broken plates when the baby is born. I smiled, secretly, and chuckled. Seventeen and already thinking about babies. No.. Having a baby.
I hope it's a boy. The name Eli has really grown on me.. If it's a girl that would be okay too, but a boy would be wonderful.
Somebody hit the front door with enough force to send the sound rattling around the house. I turned my head to the living room and listened closely. Quil.
I was at the door in a few seconds. I might as well walk human speed. I opened it and Quil was standing with Clair on his shoulders with a large grin on his face. A large stupid grin. He looked more of a father to Claire then her own dad. Is that how Eli and I would look?
"Err." I asked. Not really a question, but..
"Explain!" He said pushing me inside. I raised an eyebrow and shrugged.
"I was getting food." I said and chuckled. Quil's face went from funny to serious.
"Baby!" He hissed. I smiled and rolled my eyes.
"Yes, honey?" I chuckled again but Quil didn't find it humorous.
"Bella's having your baby!?" He yelled, and my dad shifted in his bed. I was yet to tell him about the baby, and this was definitely not the way I wanted him to find out. I hissed and pushed Quil out the door with him stumbling slightly. He held onto Claire closely, and she giggled.
"Agen unkee Quil!" Quil smiled at her and told her later then turned back at me and scowled.
"Man, she's married!" He whispered to me, to quiet for even Claire to hear. I pursed my lips and felt the pain coming. I had just gotten out of the I hate my life, the girl I love ditched me to go die with her vampire husband stage and it's like Quil was pushing me right back into it.
"I know." Was all I could say. "She said she might change her mind, though.." I defended myself. Quil threw his hands in the air and Claire wobbled on his shoulders. He grabbed her by the torso quickly and held her securely.
"That makes everything so much better, Jake!" He hissed at me and the frown on his face got bigger.
"I'm going to fight. Fight until I have nothing left to fight for. It's not just the girl I love I'm fighting for now, but my kid too." I stated and looked up at him with cold eyes. His features softened and he looked at me with pity. I didn't need his pity.
"I'm sorry, man. I just.." He stopped when I huffed and my hands began to tremble. He must have took this as his cue to take Claire and run, because he ran without a backward glance.
I watched his figure disappear into the woods and then I howled. It bounced around in the silence, and I heard other dogs howling. I would have thought it was funny, if I wasn't so mad.
"Jake?" My dad asked rolling his chair onto the porch. I felt bad for waking him, but was happy he was awake now, because I could ask him what happened with Bella.
"Hey dad. Sorry I woke you. Quil came over and was being an idiot." I said rolling my eyes. He nodded and opened his mouth to talk but I cut him off. "So what happened to Bella?"
His eyebrows went up and he looked around. I looked around with him curious as to what he was doing.
"Bella's been real emotional. She came over and started watching TV, and when she got bored or something she began to clean the kitchen. Dropped a plate and cried for like ten minutes. It was just a plate.." He stopped and kept thinking to himself. I waited for more, but guessed that was all.
"Thanks, dad." I said before stepping around him. He turned to me with a confused expression.
"Oh, son. Bella told me to tell you to call her. She needs to talk about her truck?" He asked raising an eyebrow suspiciously. Her truck? What was wrong with her truck? Was she all right?
"What's wrong with her truck?" I asked turning a full ninety degree's to face my father. He shrugged and headed towards his room.
When his door closed I ran to the kitchen and picked up the phone. I dialed Bella's number and waited. Two rings. Three rings. Four, five.. Her voice mail picked up and I growled in frustration.
"Hey, Bella. It's me. Jake.. Are you alright? I got here and you were gone, and my dad says that you told me to call about your truck and well.. Yeah. Call me back. Love you." I put the phone back on the dialer and stared at it. I tapped my fingers on the table and stared some more. I yawned and shook my head to get rid of the sleepiness. I wouldn't fall asleep..
Ring. Ring. Ring.
I jumped up and looked at the phone. I mentally slapped myself for falling asleep, but what else could I really do? I picked the phone up and prayed it was Bella.
"Bella!?" I asked, voice full of sleep. I heard a cough on the other line and a sniffle.
"Oh, hey Jake.. You called?" Bella asked with a low voice. She'd been crying.
"Why were you crying, Bells?"
"I wasn't!" She answered to quickly. I could imagine her blushing right now. "I was sleeping."
I don't know why but I smiled. I smiled at the fact that me and Bella were sleeping at the same time, so close to each other. Only a few minutes away. I'm having a baby with this girl, and butterflies still flutter around in my stomach when I think about the fact that we sleep at the same time. I must be crazy.
"So, uh.. your truck okay?" I asked and I heard Bella laugh on the other line. I didn't find anything funny. She could have got hurt.. Or worse.
"No Jake. I was talking about.. The baby." She whispered. Now it was my turn to laugh. Then an idea came to mind.
"Bella, I'm coming over. Then we're going somewhere, okay? I can't tell you where though.." She hesitated on the other line but finally answered.
"Okay."
"Well, I'll pick you up in like an hour okay?" I asked not quite sure as to how I would go about this. She agreed and told me she had to go eat.
"Love you, Bells."
"Love you, Jacob." I smiled and blushed.
"Love you too, Eli.." I heard Bella's sudden intake of air and a giggle shortly after.
"He loves you too. Bye." With that she hung up the phone and I stood, blushing like a mad man, in my kitchen thinking about what to do next.
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Bella's point of view:
I put my finger on the end button but heard Jacob talk again.
"Love you, Bells." Jacob whispered. I smiled and pursed my lips.
"Love you, Jacob." I answered back, and I could imagine his smile.
"Love you too, Eli.." I was surprised. I took a deep breath of air and giggled.
"He loves you too. Bye." I said and hung up. I looked down at my stomach and touched it with two fingers. I frowned thinking about the bump I would soon be getting. Then I would have to tell Charlie.
What if I ran away? I didn't want anybody seeing this.. Not Charlie, not Edward.. Especially not Edward. I didn't need to hurt him anymore. Jacob could come with me. He could help me get through this. He could protect me.
Edward would follow me, though. Follow me to the ends of the earth. He would follow me until I told him to go away. I couldn't do that.
Running away was out of the question.. But for now I had to go upstairs and get ready for my day with Jacob.
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Stepping in front of the mirror I twirled around and smiled at my reflexion. My small stomach, strait brown hair, pink cheeks. My blue t-shirt with lighter blue polka dots, my blue jeans. I was actually happy with myself.
The door bell rang and I skipped down the stairs. A few minutes ago I was crying because I didn't know exactly what to do, and worried because I hated surprises. Now, I was happy knowing Jacob was a few feet away. A strange feeling came from inside my stomach. A good feeling.
I opened the door and Jacob stood there with a large stupid grin on his face.
"Jacob!" I yelled jumping into his arms. He pulled me away and grabbed my hand kissing me on the top of my head.
"You're going to love this, Bella." He whispered into my hair and I blushed heavily.
"Why are we going out? And just to clear this up; this isn't a.. date." I could feel Jacob frown into my hair but he was soon enough his normal self. Smiling and joking.
"I know, Bella. But I told you last time, and I'll tell you again. As long as you still haven't made your choice, I will fight. Fight until I have nothing to fight for. I love you, Isabella Swan." he whispered into my ear and I could feel more tears coming. I almost corrected him, but I didn't think reminding him that Swan was no longer my last name would be to smart. No point in ruining this moment.
"Let's go." I whispered pulling away. Jacob followed me, and walked with me towards my truck. He shook his head though, and led me to the rabbit, jumping in the drivers seat. I frowned and got into the passenger side silently.
He didn't turn any music on. We just sat in silence, while my curiosity grew every second until we finally turned onto an abandoned road. I raised an eyebrow and Jacob grinned ear to ear. That's when I saw a beautiful lake. Maybe part of the ocean.
By the ocean was a little hill, with candles everywhere. And in the middle of the candles was a blanket with a picnic basket on top.
"Why, Jacob Black! Are you trying to seduce me?" I giggled and he rolled his eyes.
"It doesn't take much, Bella." My happy mood disappeared. Had he just called me easy? He must have noticed because his eyes went big.
"Oh no, Bella! I didn't mean it like that! I was saying it doesn't take much because you love me so much." He winked at me and I couldn't help but giggle again. Stupid werewolf.
We pulled over and I unbuckled. Right before I touched to door handle it was open. I gasped and Jacob smiled winningly at me.
"My lady." He said putting his hand out towards me. He was speaking with an old English accent. He bowed and blushed lightly.
"Thank you, kind sir!" I giggled taking his hand, talking in the same accent. When my feet were securely on the ground I curtsied and we began to walk towards the hill.
I was so giggly. So happy. I wasn't happy often, so I decided to be as happy as I can for now. I know when I get home, I'll cry my eyes out, or throw a huge tantrum. My emotions have never been more wild.
We got to the top of the hill and Jacob sat down on the blanket. It was then that I realized there were two baskets. I laughed and opened the one closest to me.
"Eggs?" I question, and Jacob shrugged. I raised an eyebrow but ate them anyways. Jacob was busy eating toast and bacon. "Oh. I see. Breakfast for dinner." Jacob nodded with a mouthful and big cheeks.
The rest of the time we ate in comfortable silence.
When I was done I closed the basket and watched as Jacob finished off his fourth plate of eggs. He laid back and pulled me to his chest. I couldn't help but feel a little uncomfortable by the warmth.
"Wow, Jacob. So you made that five star meal, or did Emily?" I questioned and he pursed his lips.
"Emily." I nodded. I expected as much. Jacob couldn't cook to save his life.
"Bella, I got you something." I groaned. He had to ruin this moment.
"I hate surprised, Jake.." All he could do was roll his eyes.
"It's just.. I was reading some book about babies and one said that if you have no experience with siblings, which you don't, that a pet could be an easy way to prepare yourself to be responsible.." He looked at me with guilty eyes.
"I am responsible! I practically take care of Charlie. He would starve without me!" I begged him, trying to find any way out of this.
"I know, it's just.. I also thought it would remind you of me.." He turned around, away from me towards the water and stood up. He brushed the debris off of him and started towards the tree. I shivered and pulled my legs up to my chest. In seconds he was back with a dog in his hands. No, a puppy.
It was russet with a little bit of black around its eye. It was a dachshund. It's tongue lolled out to the left and its eyes sparkled in the lights from the candles. I could only describe it as adorable.
"Aw!" I moaned. I took the puppy from Jacob and it whined quietly. "It's too cute!" I usually didn't get animals, but how could I say no to this? The puppy squirmed and barked in my arms. I frowned and put it down carefully on the ground. It ran strait into Jacob's lap.
"Err. He only likes me because he's like, part cousin or something." Jacob tried to joke, but it didn't help. I could feel hot tears in my eyes and didn't even try to stop them. They poured over and Jacob engulfed me in a bone crushing hug.
"Shh, honey. It's just a dog." He whispered to me. His voice alone helped a little.
"I know." Was all I could say. I really didn't know why I was crying. Sure, rejection hurts.. But it's a dog. When I finished crying Jacob coughed and I looked up to him. He was holding the dog on his left, while I laid in his lap.
"I think we should give it a name?" He suggested. I nodded and raised an eyebrow. As if he could read my mind he told me, "It's a girl."
I couldn't help but laugh at how his words sounded. He must have noticed too because he joined in.
"I think we should name her Miss Sausage." He said with a strait face. No humor evident. I stared up at him in mock horror and gaped. "What? It's cute."
Ignoring him I continued to think about the perfect name.
"Don't you like that? Miss Sausage!" He cooed to the puppy who rolled around and barked whenever Jacob would speak. "She likes it, Bells. We can't deny her a name she likes."
Jacob looked at me with the same sad eyes the puppy made. They didn't fight fair.
"Fine." I said, agreeing to the stupid name. I mean really? Miss Sausage?
The puppy snuggled up to Jacob and licked his cheek. I laughed and Jacob looked at me with a confused expression.
"She loves you." I stated. He frowned and looked at me under his lashes. I knew what he wanted to say. 'Well, I love you!' but he didn't say anything. He just stared. I instantly felt self conscious and pulled down at my shirt, while using my other hand to brush through my hair.
"You know, you're really pretty." He said and I chuckled.
"Thanks. I guess." I mumbled but I was stupid for thinking Jacob didn't hear.
"No, really Bella! You're really beautiful. Your eyes, hair, lips-" Wink "All match your personality. Which I love by the way." I blushed and rolled my eyes.
"What? Clumsy, danger magnet, human?" I said bitterly. He laughed and smiled largely.
"That's what I love about you." I nodded and rolled over on my back. Miss Sausage came up and started licking my face and I sighed. I covered my face with my hands and she proceeded to lick those. Jacob, on the other hand, sat behind me shaking the forest with his laughter.
"We should probably go. It's getting dark." He pointed out the obvious. I stood up and brushed the debris off of my clothes before watching Jacob get up. I yawned once and turned to walk down the hill. Of course.. I can't even walk on a flat surface without falling so I fell down and rolled. Actually rolled down the hill. When I got to the bottom, Jacob caught me.
I hissed and pushed myself out of his arms falling backwards. He caught me again before I hit the ground.
"Thanks, Jake, I was only at the bottom!" I hissed bitterly. He pursed his lips into a hard line, but the corners still twitched slightly.
I stomped away from him bitterly towards the rabbit and jumped into the passenger seat. Jacob hopped in shortly after.
"Bella?" He whispered. I nodded telling him to continue. "Can all that falling hurt Eli? I mean the baby?" He turned towards me and to my surprise his face was serious.
I shrugged and turned back towards the front.
"You know, we have to take you to the doctor.. Right?" He asked me again. My pulse got faster and my face got hot. This was such a small town. How wouldn't Charlie find out? I wanted to tell him myself, but I just wasn't ready. Unless! I could ask Carslile..
"Okay." I said and then smiled to Jake. I laughed nervously and yawned again. I was so tired..
When the car started I laid my head back and I day dreamed.
"Eli." I called out towards the forest. "Eli, Jacob. Come on. Dinner." Two wolfs came running towards me. One bigger with russet fur and one was tiny with brown fur. I smiled and my heart raced. Miss Sausage ran out behind me yelping and howling. "Go now. I'm not feeding you like that. You aren't dogs." I added laughing at my joke. The Jacob wolf rolled his eyes and they ran back towards the forest. When they came back they were fully clothed. "Mommy!" Eli ran into my open arms. My baby.. "Mommy!" Jacob ran and bumped into the both of us causing us all to laugh. When I was done I towed them both inside to eat the food I'd been cooking all day. It was a normal meal, but was big enough for about fifty people.. I would hate to be Emily when it comes to cooking.. "Food!" Jacob and Eli yelled out at the same time, running to the table to start eating. They were done in minutes and it had taken me hours to cook it all..
